bend this soldier

It's okay..." His voice became ruthless in the end, and his eyes also turned cold, not as if he was confessing, but more as if he was giving some kind of order that must be fulfilled at all costs.

Although Tan Tianyang had already prepared a lot in his heart, Xi Zhaoran's words still made him feel extremely shocked. It was like curse words, which kept lingering in his heart all the time.

He blinked and shook his head to shake off the dizziness.

Seeing him shaking his head, Xi Zhaoran thought he was rejecting him, and anxiously tried to persuade him, but was stopped by Tan Tian.

"Why do you..." Tan Tianyang frowned, he couldn't quite articulate those words, so he changed his words: "Why do you think like this? I'm not very good." He never thought that he had many advantages that could attract others , he is silent and doesn't like to talk, and he doesn't like to please others. His personality is so boring that it is boring, so he always thinks that most of the people he will marry in the future will be introduced by others. The two people don't necessarily have a deep relationship. Feelings, but can live together peacefully.

"Why?" Xi Zhaoran was also at a loss, he tilted his head and thought for a long time, "Because I like you," as if he thought the reason was good, he added with a smile, "I'm in love with you !"

Tan Tianyang was quiet for a while, then he pulled Xi Zhaoran to the sofa and sat down, Xi Zhaoran smiled and obediently sat beside him.

Tan Tianyang seemed to be thinking about something, and after a while he said to Xi Zhaoran: "No, no," he shook his head, "This reason is not valid, you don't love me clearly."

25. Eventful Mid-Autumn Night ([-])...

Tan Tianyang seemed to be thinking about something, and after a while he said to Xi Zhaoran: "No, no," he shook his head, "This reason is not valid, you don't love me clearly."

Xi Zhaoran seemed unwilling to accept what he said, he shook his head anxiously trying to refute Tan Tianyang, but Tan Tianyang continued without waiting for him to speak: "If I'm not wrong, you just want to find someone to accompany you, as long as That person listens to you enough, you just want to make him yours, right?"

Xi Zhaoran was a little dazed by his words, and could only look at him blankly, as if he couldn't understand his words because he was drunk, or just simply didn't understand the meaning of his words.

Tan Tianyang looked at his peach-blossom eyes that became misty due to confusion, suppressed the boredom in his heart, and said what he wanted to express, "You just want to find someone to take care of you, obviously, we are not suitable."

Xi Zhaoran understood this sentence, so he asked back, "Why?"

Tan Tianyang looked at him quietly for a while, and finally looked away, "We are all men, although I can take care of you, but I can't be as careful as a woman, and you don't have to be me." He is It was the first time to say so many things to a person at once—of course, it was not counted when giving reports before—he couldn’t deny that Xi Zhaoran held a special place in his heart, so he wanted to make it clear to him even more, no I hope that there will be knots between the two, and I don't want this person to be sad because of it.

After hearing what he said, Xi Zhaoran quietly sat on the sofa and looked at him without saying a word.

Tan Tianyang felt more and more bored in his heart, he stood up and walked out.

"Tianyang, don't go." Xi Zhaoran hurriedly stood up and held him back, the feeling of panic before came back, and it was almost a subconscious action to hold him back.

"I'm going back first, you have to think about it carefully," Tan Tianyang pulled his hand away, and looked up to see Xi Zhaoran's beautiful peach blossom eyes filled with water vapor - I don't know if it's physical or psychological ——He couldn't help but said: "Actually, you know better than anyone else in your heart that you have never even trusted me, let alone..." He still couldn't utter these words, and finally he only sighed, deeply After taking a deep look at him, he turned around and opened the office door and walked out.

Xi Zhaoran stood there, staring blankly at the door for a long time, until his body became weak and he couldn't support it, and then his thoughts slowly came back. He hugged his head and squatted down slowly.

He wanted to keep Tan Tianyang, but he didn't know how to keep him. He even felt that what he said was so correct. From the very beginning, all he could think of was how to get him and what means to get him.As for love?what is that?He never got it, no one taught him.

How can a person who doesn't know how to love fall in love with others?

What's more, for a person like him who has isolated himself in another world, he is reluctant to give even the most basic trust to another person, let alone love.

He squatted on the ground with his head in his arms, and his body began to tremble slightly. His low laughter echoed in the spacious office, but round watermarks appeared on the ground.

He laughed that he wanted to be a white wolf empty-handed, but how could there be so many good things in the world that he could meet?

Tan Tianyang is not a fool, his tricks can't fool him, so he can't get him...

But he feels very sad, what can he do to not be so sad?

In the office, low-pitched laughter continued, but gradually turned into crying.

Tan Tianyang is really nice, he really wants to have him and wants him to follow him willingly, but he doesn't believe that he is in love with him, not even himself, so what should he do?

Is it necessary to fall in love with him to get him, or is it possible for him to get him as long as he falls in love?

But no one knows better than Xi Zhaoran that when a person grows up rationally and emotionally, it is difficult for him to have an intimate emotional relationship with another mature individual, because people are selfish and have self-conscious emotions Most of the time, they are wrapped in a layer of self-protection, unwilling to give affection easily, unwilling to trust others easily, afraid of being hurt, and afraid of being betrayed.

Ordinary people are like this, let alone Xi Zhaoran himself who is more selfish than ordinary people?

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After Tan Tianyang left Xi Zhaoran's office, he went straight home. Sitting in the living room, he felt a little confused.He rested his elbows on his knees and covered his face with his hands, but Xi Zhaoran's face could always get into his mind from various angles, elegant and beautiful, expressionless, gentle and smiling, hazy...

He grabbed a handful of hair with his hands and sighed.

He didn't expect that Xi Zhaoran would suddenly confess his love to him, which made him unprepared, and made him suddenly recall some past that had been pressed deep in his heart that he thought would be brought to the grave.

In fact, he vaguely guessed his sexual orientation when he went to pick him up at the "nightclub", but at that time he felt that it had nothing to do with him, so he didn't think much about it at all, and he never thought that one day he would meet this person again. kind of thing.

Indeed, Xi Zhaoran is a person who can make people ignore his gender, not because he looks feminine, but because of the beautiful temperament that no matter whether it is a man or a woman, he will be attracted to him. He can't express that beauty specifically. He can't describe it, but he can clearly feel the influence of this kind of beauty on himself.

Maybe this is just like a high-end toy placed in the window. If you don’t have the ability to own it, you might just look at it through the glass, maybe you don’t even bother to look at it, but when that high-end toy appears in your tentacle When it is within reach, people will subconsciously want to treat it gently, and want to confess him and wipe him ten times a day.

And every time he saw Xi Zhaoran, he would have this kind of thought, subconsciously wanting to treat him well and protect him.

He couldn't figure out the other things for the time being, but he knew very well that Xi Zhaoran's position in his heart was different from anyone else's.

Unable to figure it out, Tan Tianyang sighed again, and decided not to continue thinking about it, hoping that Xi Zhaoran would give up thinking about him, but this kind of thinking made him feel an inexplicable sense of loss.

The next day, Tan Tianyang went to work as usual. Everyone was talking about what he had for the reunion dinner on the Mid-Autumn Festival night, and what about this year's mooncakes. I don’t remember, at that time, he kept thinking about what kind of dishes to cook during this period of time, which would be nutritious and not greasy. Now that I think about it, what he worries about every day is related to Xi Zhaoran. relationship matters.

He stood in front of the water dispenser and let out a long breath by going to fetch water.The water glass was filled with water, he looked at the water in the glass, and suddenly remembered that Xi Zhaoran was drunk last night, he probably didn't eat well, and wondered if he would suffer from hypotension again today.

Also... He held the water glass and couldn't help being stunned. The two of them finally talked to that extent yesterday. I don't know if Xi Zhaoran has figured it out. Will he go home today and will continue to live in his house? .

At noon, when he left the monitoring room with his lunch box, he didn't see Xi Zhaoran, who was waiting for him outside almost every day, and suddenly felt a little lost, as if there were many things he hadn't done.I didn't see Xi Zhaoran in the company restaurant. After Tan Tianyang finished eating, he began to worry about whether he had a good lunch.

Xi Zhaoran looks very mature, but at certain times he is more like a child. If no one supervises him, he won't remember.

Tan Tianyang feels that he has become a bit of a mother-in-law, but in fact, this feeling is not too bad. Whenever he thinks that there is one person in this world who needs him to worry about, he feels warm in his heart.

He raised the corners of his mouth slightly, took a sip of water from the water glass, and hoped that Xi Zhaoran could figure it out quickly, that he could still love him, take care of him, and protect him like his own younger brother.