[Black Basket] Drawing Heart Diary

Extra Story ②

For a long time, Chi Xiliang thought that depression didn't have much to do with her, and could even be easily controlled.

As it turned out, her idea was completely wrong.

After the car accident, she never dared to think about what happened at that time, and kept an evasive attitude.

Even for certain treatments, he is extremely resistant.

This also caused her illness to be delayed again and again, and finally piled up and resulted in many complications.

At that time, she had a special attachment to the sharp weapon, as if nothing could defeat her as long as she held it in her hand.

In addition to carrying it with her when she went out, for a while, she even had to keep these sharp weapons by her side in order to sleep peacefully.

This is simply a neurological abnormality.

The current Chi Xiliang recalled the time back then, and couldn't help sighing.

But at that time, she could almost be said to be dependent on these things, as if they were an indispensable part of her life.

Later, after receiving proper treatment, Chi Xiliang knew very clearly that this was actually a mental illness derived from depression.

It was hard for her to imagine, if she hadn't regained her sanity in time to receive treatment, then what kind of path would her procrastination of a disease that had never been properly treated would eventually lead her to.

At that time, although she had a certain dependence on sharp weapons, Dr. Xia Mu's psychiatrist license was not for nothing.

Although his initial goal was impure, after seeing the series of complications caused by depression in Chi Xiliang, he immediately started to take corresponding countermeasures.

But it's a pity that before he could show his skills, Chi Xiliang threatened him with sharp scissors and signed his name on the medical record confirming that Chi Xiliang had recovered.

As for Chi Xiliang's situation, she also began to hide it from the surface, and was controlled by her in the depths of her heart.

Only she herself knew clearly that in the last half year of Diguang, there seemed to be a wild beast in her heart that kept screaming, asking her to behave like she did when she treated Dr. Xia Mu.

this is not right.

Chi Xiliang knew it clearly, but once such thoughts arose, it was difficult to suppress them.

In the end, she chose to take medicine when she could not restrain herself rationally.

With the first time, the next second and third times became logical.

She began to habitually use drugs to suppress these intolerable thoughts, but after taking the drugs for a long time, the body would naturally develop resistance.

As time went by, her dosage of medication continued to increase.

Finally, Akanishi Jun found out about her taking antidepressant drugs.

Under the pressure of Jun Akanishi, she had no choice but to give up taking these drugs.

Because of her resistance to seeking medical treatment, Akanishi Jun could only think of ways to take her out for a walk, trying to make her feel better.

At that time, she had already finished her junior high school studies, and Luoshan Middle School, which she applied for, should have received the admission form.

Time has become more abundant, and under Akanishi Jun's various comforts, in order to pass the time, Akanishi Ryo also agreed to go out with Akanishi Jun.

Later... her parents died in a car accident.

When she first learned that it was a car accident, it was a big blow to her.

Her parents experienced the same experience as herself, and although she survived, she exchanged her legs for the price, so will her parents have the same luck——

By losing something, in exchange for the hope of another life?

Akanishi Jun's concealment behavior from her was also expected by her.

However, when she learned about it, she was still a little unacceptable. Sadness and resentment were constantly intertwined in her heart, and her brain was completely plunged into chaos.

Even if she understands that Akanishi Jun is doing this for her own good, she still has difficulty emotionally accepting the death of her parents, and she was the last to know about it.

Even if she and her parents can't see each other all year round, and the family relationship is as indifferent as water, what can be maintained is only the relationship of blood.

But after all, no matter how indifferent the family relationship is, when they learn that they have passed away, they will not be unmoved.

It is impossible to say that you are not sad about the death of your parents.

At that time, after she verified her guess through Akashi, what she felt most was disbelief and regret.

Although there is sadness, it is still under control.

Without tears, she just accepted the matter so calmly, making people feel like a cold-blooded monster without emotion.

That's exactly how Akashi Liang evaluated himself.

But it was really hard for her to feel more sorrow, and in fact all she could do was accept it.

Whether she likes it or not, this is something she must accept.

Fortunately, she is not alone.

The author has something to say:

>Word counts are confusing, sentences are confusing, and the author's brain is also confusing.

>Code a chapter while reading English, but because I haven't written it for too long, my thoughts are blocked, so I can only cover my face with an extra episode of my mental journey.

>In addition, I am thinking whether the next chapter should be written directly into the school or explain what happened after Akanishi Jun brother discovered that the secret was punctured ==