memory castration

One does not speak, two do not speak, three do not speak...

Xiao Ziqi looked at Xu Yifei, Xu Yifei looked at me, and I looked at the ceiling.

Forgive my poor language, I really can't describe the messy situation right now.How should I say it?Tell Xiao Ziqi that Xu Yifei and I fought because of you?Or just ask him how could you be my brother?Do you recognize him?I was not even mentally prepared.He did such a thing knowing our relationship, and made it clear that he didn't want to have any blood relationship with me.

I am in an embarrassing situation, but guessing that Xu Yifei is not much better, what is it like to face the old house that has changed hands with a new identity?Non-participants are powerless to imagine.

After I glanced at him curiously, I felt a strange joy in my heart, and even the wound on my face didn't feel so painful.

But this kind of luck didn't last long, Xu Yifei quickly patted his ass and left.

Before leaving, he held his head up and looked at us contemptuously, his posture proud like a rooster winning a fight.

Only Xiao Ziqi and I were left in the living room, and the air became thinner for no reason.

I scratched my head, "That..."

Xiao Ziqi raised his eyes, "What do you want to say?"

I asked him with the last shred of hope, "You and I... have nothing to do with each other, right?"

"Yes." His frank attitude made people overwhelmed.

The world was instantly terribly quiet, and a tight string was pulled in my heart, "What's the matter?"

He seemed to like to see me nervous, so he deliberately elongated his voice and said, "You are my... the person I love the most."

Fortunately, it was not the answer I imagined, and I suddenly relaxed.

But before I was completely relieved, his voice sounded like an unfinished nightmare, "He is also my only family member in this world."

The truth is like an invisible big hand that suddenly grabbed my neck, and it tightened with his eyes.

I hesitated to speak several times, but nothing came out of my mouth.Xiao Ziqi has always been scheming, I can't guess what he is thinking at all.

It's like he hates Xu Yifei, but others can't see it at all, even I who know the truth are often puzzled by it.

When I was hesitating, he asked and answered calmly, "Xu Yifei should have told you everything, right? Our relationship, and his true identity...otherwise I wouldn't have brought you here."

"Why, what?" I couldn't believe my ears.

"What why? Are you asking why you are my younger brother, or why Xu Yifei is Li Xinlong?"

"If our relationship is real, why would you do that to me?"

Xiao Ziqi was as calm as ever, "Because I love you."

"But we are biological brothers!"

"Because you are a brother, I love you more than anyone else."

This is a nightmare, right?Must be right?How could there be an elder brother who tried his best to sleep with his younger brother?

No, no, he is a pervert, he is mentally ill, and he cannot use common sense to infer his behavior...

With a headache, I lightly thumped my throbbing temples with both hands, "Are you sure you remember correctly? Jiangcheng is so big, and there are many people who were born in the same year and month as me. Could you have mistaken someone? We had met more than ten years ago. Years old……"

His eyes were soft and clear like the river water under the sunshine in March, "Actually, I come to Ninghai to see you every summer vacation, but you never paid attention to me. When grandma passed away, I met her."

My heart trembled, "What did you say at that time?"

He said in a rare sincere tone: "He said that you are a simple and good boy, and asked me to take good care of you and not let you get into trouble."

I murmured, "In the end you took care of me to bed?"

He looked at me, but there was no shame on his face, "The love is so deep that I have no choice."

"Fart!" My anger was instantly ignited by his shameless words, and I grabbed his collar and raised my fist, "You are as fucking a beast as Xu Yifei! You hurt me while saying high-sounding words, pretending to be in love I was actually just doing it to fulfill my animal desires!"

Xiao Ziqi didn't dodge, he was punched in the face and still acted as if nothing had happened, Dingqing looked at me and said, "I'm different from him, you have the same blood as me."

"That's what makes it even more disgusting! Do you understand the difference between love and family affection?"

"Family and love don't make any difference to me. You are my only younger brother, but I love you."

I had no power to resist his confession, so I ran away in embarrassment, "Don't say such disgusting things to me again, my surname is Fang, and my name is Fang Yibai! It has nothing to do with you as a pervert. Come and bother me, or I'll hit you every time you come!"

After leaving the suffocating old house, I went directly to Ms. Su's psychological clinic.

The female assistant was surprised to see me, "Mr. Fang, why are you here?"

"I'm sorry I didn't make an appointment in advance. Is Miss Su free now?"

She knocked on the door to inquire. Not long after, Dr. Su, wearing glasses, came out of the room with a book in his hand. After asking his assistant to leave, he asked me if I needed help.

I took a deep breath, "I want to know if there is a way to completely get rid of the entanglement of perverts."

The woman in front of her said calmly and professionally, "Please describe what kind of person the other party is."

"He was my first love. He was very self-reliant when he was a child. When he was a teenager, he was mild-tempered and cowardly, and he had a little low self-esteem. He suffered a lot of trauma when he was almost an adult, and then he suddenly became cold and irritable. He was a different person from before, and He advocates violence. He has complicated feelings for me now, saying that he hates me, but at the same time stubbornly pestering me endlessly, affecting my normal life everywhere.”

"Such people may feel insecure, you can try to treat them with caring..."

"No, I don't want to be his psychiatrist. I just want to know how to get rid of him completely and completely."

Doctor Su hesitated a little, "Well, there are methods, but using extreme methods may hurt the other party."

"I am the victim and also your guest. Should Ms. Su answer the question from my position?"

"I'm sorry," her expression immediately became solemn, "Can you give a few examples to represent the behavior of the other party?"

I grabbed the cup tightly, hating Xu Yifei more and more, "He often hits me, stabs insulting words on my body, and has never been gentle in bed. He likes to enjoy my shameless ugliness, and he even says he loves me..."

As Dr. Su listened, his eyebrows gradually became more and more tightly wrinkled...

Spring has really come, and the sun is getting warmer and warmer, making people lazy all over.

I sat on the balcony and turned on my phone. I didn't read n text messages, but I clicked to see that they were all from Xu Yifei.

"Fang Yibai, where have you been?"

"Why didn't you answer the phone?"

"What the hell happened?"

"Fang Yibai, are you kidding me again?"

"Are you fucking alive, and where are you?"

"It's best not to let me find you, or you'll know the consequences!"

I am so familiar with him that I can think of his corresponding expression when I read the text message.Xu Yifei should be about to explode now, right?Because the vent target suddenly disappeared from sight without a sound, and even the best friend around him didn't know where he was.

I was about to turn off the phone when Xu Yifei called suddenly. After hesitating for ten seconds to answer or not, I finally chose to talk.

As expected, he scolded him bitterly, "Where did you die! Why didn't you answer the phone?"

I silently put the phone on speakerphone and put it aside, and began to enjoy my hearty lunch.

His voice became colder and colder, "Fang Yibai, is it you? Are you listening? Why don't you talk? Talk! You fucking talk!"

I raised my eyebrows and said slowly, "I'm listening."

He paused for a moment, maybe felt that Chinese was not enough to express his anger, and began to curse viciously in foreign language.

I continued to eat, with a good appetite to accompany his out-of-control emotions.

He roared in a rough voice, "Speak! Where are you!"

In modern society, knowledge is indeed power, and it can drive people to collapse without making a show. I should have visited Dr. Su long ago.

She was right, the most uncomfortable thing for a bitch like Xu Yifei is to keep him from finding me, to let him not vent all his emotions, and to suffocate him to death!

Stir-fried wax sausage with cucumber is fresh and rich, wild vegetables mixed with fragrant and dried are nutritious and delicious, and I have a sip of my favorite mushroom and seafood soup. Life is really wonderful.

"You think I can't find you like this, do you? Fang Yibai, just wait for me..."

"Xu Yifei, let's start over!"

There was a sudden dead silence on the other end of the phone.

"I'll wait for you in the white villa by the blue sea, come to me when you think about it." After I finished speaking, I hung up the phone, put down the spoon and wiped the corners of my mouth with a paper towel.

Xu Yifei, come on, come on... I have prepared a big gift for you, enough for us to start over.

Four hours later, I saw Xu Yifei.

He was wearing an earth-colored windbreaker, and there was still a blue-gray stubble on his chin, which was slightly decadent but showed another kind of mature charm of a man.However, his expression was ferocious as if he wanted to eat people, and he walked over aggressively with a cold wind, "Fang Yibai, isn't it fun to play tricks on people?"

It's very funny, it's been a long time since we broke up, so why should I tell him when I'm going on vacation?

I smiled and asked him, "What would you like to drink?"

He said with a cold handsome face, "I'm not thirsty."

"Then have a cup of black tea, to warm your stomach." I decided on my own and poured a cup to him.

He took it and drank it down, "You said on the phone..."

I interrupted him, "Let's start over, shall we?"

"If you want to be with me, you have to completely sever ties with Xiao Ziqi, are you willing?"

"I am willing, I am willing to give up anything for you." This is my psychological words, once.

Maybe it's because I have a deep image of the post, but he quickly put on that superior posture again, and it's not hard to see the contempt and sarcasm in his tone and eyes.

It's not his fault, it's all because of my shamelessness and skinlessness in the past. I should do a deep self-criticism.

Counting Li Xinlong's identity, I fell in love with him at the age of 14, and we broke up at the age of 25. It has been 12 years since we stumbled and staggered.

But for the sake of first love, I am willing to accompany him to finish this last scene, which can be regarded as the end of the two.

Xu Yifei seemed very satisfied with my performance, "Then we will..."

I watched him collapse on the sofa, his star-like dark eyes slowly dimmed, and said calmly, "The future? We have no future."

To deal with perverts, you need to use more perverted methods, and now I am starting to enjoy the feeling of being a manipulator.