As a background board, I want to pursue Dazai

On this day, I happened to have a rest and reorganized the outline of the novel at home from morning to afternoon.The last time I got up from my chair to look at the clock, it was past four o'clock in the afternoon.At this moment, because I sat for too long, my shoulders and back were all as stiff as a rock. I stood up and stretched my body for a while, then went to the kitchen to make a pot of hot coffee to refresh myself, and then I heard the sound of the door opening.

"I am back--"

Imaiken's angry voice resounded in the corridor.

"Hey, is Ai back yet?"

He trotted to the kitchen, opened the door and met my gaze.

"Have you negotiated with the landlord?" He stood on the small bench, ready to get some snacks.

I was baffled by what he said: "... what landlord?"

He took out the delicious stick and handed it to me, and Imaken, who was unpacking the bag, looked at me more suspiciously than I did.

"Isn't Ayi going to meet the landlord today?" He said, "I just talked about renting his house the day before yesterday, and we will meet and discuss in detail today..." His words came to an abrupt end, and doubts formed in his red eyes, He said uncertainly, "Have you forgotten?"

"I mean I want to rent a house." I said, "but haven't found a suitable one yet..."

"..." He stared at me for five seconds, then picked up the phone I put on the table to unlock it - he knew my password.Then transfer to the address book interface, call up a contact marked as "alternative rental", and dial it.

Me: "Wait, I haven't contacted this landlord..."

The other end of the phone has been connected, and Jin Jian pressed the speakerphone.

His clear voice sounded from the kitchen: "Hello, I am Inai who made an appointment with you the day before yesterday to meet this afternoon to discuss the rental matters..."

A gentle middle-aged woman at the other end replied: "Sorry, the house has been rented out. Did you get the wrong contact person, I don't seem to have contacted anyone with the surname Inai—"

"Sorry, maybe I made a mistake." Imamu politely ended the conversation, and then hung up the phone.

Jin Jian returned the phone to me, and said with a smile: "It seems that I remembered wrongly, sorry, Ai."

"...Ah." I took my mobile phone from his hand stupidly, this is really strange, I thought to myself, poured a cup of hot coffee, added sugar and milk and handed him a portion.

Imai took a sip, the coffee was still on the corner of his mouth.When our eyes met, he suddenly suggested: "Ai, why don't you move to Mr. Dazai's place?"

I took a sip of my hot coffee and said, "He also mentioned it to me yesterday."

Then I wiped the coffee stains from the corner of his mouth.

Imaiken's eyes were clear and clear, and he asked me, "Why didn't you move there?"

"There are many reasons." I can't say these words in front of Dazai, but I can tell frankly in front of Imaken: "Except for the fact that the running-in of life and rest may not be so wonderful. I think the most important thing is that I I'm afraid."

His eyes were wide open, he probably didn't expect me to answer like this, he asked, "What is Ayi afraid of?"

"I'm afraid I won't be able to give him what he wants." I said, "If the time we meet each day is limited, this sense of distance will magnify the hazy feelings and beauty between lovers. Once we get too close together, I worry that I won't be able to The bad parts are seen by him."

In other words, what he was looking for was not available to me.

In my life, or in other words, I am not a deep sea that cannot be seen at a glance and is worthy of being dug deep. A slightly longer hook will dig me out from the surface of the sea. surface layer.

I blew the white air in front of the coffee cup. I was holding the handle with one hand, but now I hold the white porcelain cup in the palm of my hand, and the hot air from the bottom of the cup falls on the palm of my hand.

While I was talking, Imai took a big sip of the coffee in his cup, and after I paused, he continued to ask: "I don't think it's right."

"Why not?"

"This is your own opinion," he said, "maybe he thinks differently from you."

"What's the difference?"

"I can't say it," he said, "but when I first lived with Ay, I also had a lot of things I wasn't used to. For example, I couldn't sleep at night, it was noisy during the day, and I went to the river to play with all kinds of things on my body. Mud, ran into the room without a care, and then we wiped the mud marks on the floor with a rag."

"That's what happened."

He even just came home from school and I even taught him his homework, but it's not a problem.

I said, "Dating a relationship should still... be different."

After the initial sweet fragrance dissipated, we really entered the running-in period.Falling in love with Mr. Dazai is by no means a love-hate relationship full of twists and turns like the love soap operas on TV. Although I was almost overcome by difficulties, I persisted until here.

Although I don't know when I will be able to wait for the day when he will say those words to me.

I'm getting more and more greedy, which is not a good sign.

Imaken listened to my speech without saying a word, and then he wolfed down the delicious bar.

He said: "I don't really understand. Aren't you lovers now? Will lovers still encounter these problems?"

"I don't know, it varies from person to person." I said, "Even lovers have different types, like us..." After thinking about it, I said, "There is no template for reference, even if there is, the ending I'm not sure I can control it."

"Okay." Jinjian gave up asking, the question was obviously beyond his comprehension, and he said, "Ai, how do you feel?"

"How about what?"

"For example, are you happy? Just like me, being able to be Ayi's family, making friends, and being able to play my own role... I will get the emotions that humans call joy, or more." He pointed out Looking at the position of my heart, "It's like you say 'this place is full'."

"I am happy around him." I could answer this without thinking, and I said, "But I am afraid that this kind of happiness is temporary. But for human beings, all happiness is temporary. , There is no eternal beauty, so I feel that I am worrying unfoundedly."

Jinjian said: "But he must have thought about this."

He was right.

He spoke so abruptly at the dinner table that I suspect he needed some time to think about it, but he brought it up again yesterday.He must have weighed the pros and cons for a day and a night.

I just nod my head...

"Yeah." I convinced myself again, "I'll think about it."

……

……

"That's it."

The black-haired youth and the white-haired child are an eye-catching combination.The intersection between them comes from the same person every time, and this time is no exception.

For the first time, Dazai took out his pocket and bought a parfait for Imaken.Imaken sat across from him, using a spoon to poke the strawberries off the top and put them in his mouth.

"There must be something wrong with Ayi." His mouth was filled with the sweetness of strawberries, and the strawberry seeds were ground by his teeth, and Jin Jian said, "Do you know something?"

Next to Osamu Dazai is a cup of hot Americano. The color of the coffee liquid is very similar to his hair color, so that when part of his hair is reflected in it, it almost blends into one. He said: "I don't know everything."

The meal last night was carried out after he noticed something strange.The sense of taste on the tongue coating has become blunted. What I ate at night seems to be hamburger meat, but the memory of the food passes directly through the brain, leaving no taste.

Miyuki and Muyi have met before, and even had a simple conversation.

As a waiter, Meixing has a high professional ethics in remembering customers, and she has formed a habit of remembering.However, both of them showed the attitude of meeting for the first time yesterday - under his repeated probing, he confirmed this matter.

Dazai asked, "What happened?"

"She doesn't remember that she made an appointment with the landlord at all." Jin Jian said bluntly, "This is not the weirdest thing, the landlord obviously made an appointment with her-I was watching TV next to me, I swear I heard it clearly. Then I called back, but the landlord said that no one named Inai had made an appointment with her to see the house."

"Any more?" Dazai asked.

Imam put the stainless steel spoon in his mouth and asked in a vague voice, "What else?"

"Similar things." He said, "Anything is fine, or you think there is a problem, something is wrong, and it makes you feel obviously unnatural."

"Yes." Imai recalled that afternoon, "One of my friends forgot about Ai."

"Do they have a deep connection?"

"Not deep."

Dazai said in a very precise tone: "That is to say - the intersection between them is very shallow, so shallow that it is like water left in the grooves of stones after rain, but it is not really so fragile that it evaporates as soon as the sun comes out. .”

"You describe it very well." Jin Jian clapped his hands, "Can I write it in the composition?"

"You can write whatever you want. It's not for commercial use anyway, and no one will pay me for the manuscript." He said, "Then you should write better."

Jin Jian curled his lips: "I can't guarantee that my Chinese scores are very average."

"As long as it doesn't turn miraculous into rotten, 'ordinary' is enough." Dazai seemed to be joking, and it was obvious that Imaken didn't understand.

"Will you let Ai live with you?" Jinjian asked him.

"It depends on whether she is willing or not. From my point of view, I naturally hope that she agrees. As far as the current situation is concerned, I want her to be by my side - for the sake of safety."

"So, isn't it because you are lovers?" Jinjian asked a question he didn't understand, "It's not because 'you are lovers', that's why you want Ai to live with you. It's for other reasons, Is it right?"

"Oh." Dazai didn't answer him directly, but said with a smile: "It's so mean, it sounds like I have other plans for her."

Jin Jian knew that he couldn't talk to him, so he stopped talking about these things with him, and he asked, "Is she disappearing?"

Dazai still did not give a straightforward answer, he took a sip of the coffee in the cup, the bitter coffee liquid ran down his lips, was touched by the tip of his tongue, and then rolled in until the taste dissipated.

"She's not going away," he said.

He guessed that it was because the "page" that originally supported her to walk in this world was pulled out by the memory crystal.

But he still couldn't find that book—that is, in the memory crystallization, he saw the book Wuyishi gave him.Who is that "Osamu Dazai", is it him?

Assuming it was him, where did he hide that book?

"I need your assistance." Dazai said, "I'll take Buffy as my reward."

Busy with the conversation, the cream on the top of Buffy had already melted, so Imai asked, "What are you going to do?"

"Find something."

The author has something to say:

It's still safer to put it in front of you.

Speaking of this, there is no age difference, but neither of them is very rich Yazi (turning pockets)

The next book, Boss Jae, let us experience the feeling of being rich (eager to try), rounding up, you are also a bully!

PS. There will be age difference

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感谢在2020-10-0419:26:22~2020-10-0513:37:49期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angels who threw mines: 5 silver cats; 1 He Lai resonance;

Thanks to the little angel who irrigates the nutrient solution: Touzi is my white moonlight, Yunyun, stop playing games, 10 bottles;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!