As a background board, I want to pursue Dazai

— Did you plan it?

This sentence stuck in my throat, like a burr, soft enough to make me feel pain.

But what position do I have, what confidence do I have to say this?Hmm...Maybe people will want to refute me with words like "You are crazy, well-meaning people took you in for a night, and you still pick and choose" or "Do you have anything worth others to plot?" , but I also want to refute back with confidence - "What do you know about my thoughts and my cowardice? I just want to stay away from him, not only for his own good, but also for my own good."

However, I couldn't complain even if my escape route was cut off by the person concerned.

In the final analysis, this kind of preference in my heart cannot be faked, but I really can't deal with my redundant feelings, so I feel that I have to be far away from the last one to feel at ease.

So, instead, I started to be full of hope for another thing——

I hope that Mr. Dazai will not treat me too well, it is best to treat me like any ordinary woman.People tend to have unrealistic expectations, probably because at a certain moment, they have the illusion that they are "special". As long as I don't give me such boring fantasy space, I will naturally stay away from him.

At the same time, I don't want him to treat me too badly.Because falling in love at first sight itself means that my delusion is greater than the reality. Once the actual part is far from the delusion, it is easy to let the illusory bubble burst. In this way, if I lose this idol in my heart, I will be caught by the gap in reality. crushed.

So, I'm the one who's really brazen and troublesome as hell.

I want him to treat me as indifferently as he treats everyone, and I don’t want to see his beautiful image fall from the altar. This kind of lunatic’s request is unheard of, and it’s full of dirty and low-level desires. People's ears, people who hear it will only call me a "pretentious and groaning neuropathy", right?

... No, I don't like myself like this, why did I become ugly because of love?

……

……

I am well versed in a principle of dealing with people, that is, "When you don't know what to say, just follow other people's words, or don't say it at all."

But in front of Dazai, this principle is not a life-saving medicine.

Dazai is a person who likes to use questions.

Just like now, I followed him at a distance of half a meter without saying a word. From time to time, I raised my eyes to sneak a peek at his back under the street lamp. The young man put his hands in his pockets and walked steadily. On the hem folds, I just stared at the gully in the folds.

After staring for a long time, I felt that my eyes were double images of Huahua, but Dazai stopped suddenly, and I directly bumped into his back.

"Feel sorry--"

"Ah!" He ignored my apology, clenched his fist with one hand and tapped the palm of the other hand, turned his head and smiled at me, "I was thinking about something just now, and I accidentally passed by, shall we go back?"

When I met his eyes, I flinched for no reason.

"……it is good."

——Is he such a character?Will it be so natural that you will go the wrong way because of thinking about things?Even with someone else?

When we came to a collective apartment, the two-story ordinary apartment showed its mottled cracks under the night light, as if seeing my worries, Dazai said lightly, "Don't look at this, it's actually very strong What?" He continued to walk ahead and lead me in.

He turned the key and opened the door. After entering, I was looking for a place to put my shoes when the door lock turned again, and Dazai was already behind me.

He locked the door?

An unspoken uneasiness rolled in my heart, I turned my head subconsciously, and saw Dazai's calm face.

"Miss Wu Yishi, there is something I need to confirm with you."

"Before that, there is a very important premise. Allow me to re-introduce myself—my full name, Osamu Dazai."

"Unfortunately, there are no people with the same name in Japan, no one who uses this name as an ID on the Internet, and no writer who uses it as a pseudonym."

"When we first met, I only mentioned my last name, right? How did Miss Wu Yishi know my name?"

I wanted to say it was a coincidence, but he blocked this possibility before me——

"Please don't say it's a coincidence. In the search records of Ms. Wu Yishi's computer, there are still the words 'Dazai Osamu'?" He shrugged, "Of course—the search time was after I left."

As he said, he tossed the key back and forth with one hand, and his posture was like——

It's the same as leading me to grab it.

The author has something to say:

Explained in the words:

Zai did it on purpose, including going the wrong way, including deliberately walking in front, all of which were temptations, but the series of reactions were not finished yet.

As for why Wu Yishi searched for Osamu Dazai, it was purely out of curiosity, but after searching, I found out that there are no familiar writers in this world (grass)

The protagonist has never seen the little wild dog.

no danger

The pronunciation of Wuyishi is muimi, which is the same as meaningless.

Inai's surname is inai, which sounds the same as "absence". This stem is taken from Mr. Inai in "Golden Dreamland".

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