As a background board, I want to pursue Dazai

My hand holding the spoon was still hanging in the air, I just did it without thinking about it, and suddenly realized at this moment—isn’t this just an indirect kiss?Isn't it too unnatural to pretend that you don't know anything at this time?

I quickly made a remedy: "Sorry...I'll get you another spoon."

When you are done speaking, you will draw your hand back.

"do not move."

Dazai held my wrist with moderate strength, then he leaned forward and ate up the red bean soup in the spoon without caring about my feeding action.

After eating, I didn't forget to lick my upper lip with the tip of my tongue.

There was light in the kite-colored pupils, like seeing the light of a lighthouse when crossing the sea at night, which made me a little bit stunned.I retracted my hand stiffly, pretending to be calm and asked: "...how does it taste?"

The young man pursed his lips, and replied simply and neatly: "It's very sweet."

I finally regained my sanity, pretending that I was not shy, and even generously took another mouthful of red bean soup with a spoon and put it into my mouth, thinking while eating: Forget about that damned indirect kiss.

I don't really like sweets, but the spoonful of red bean soup is like pouring on my heart, completely softening me.

"I also like sweet things." Dazai said suddenly, "Especially after eating salty food, sweet after-meal sweets can very well replace the remaining taste on the tongue."

"If it's red bean soup, I can also make it for you." I said, "Drink a bowl of hot red bean soup at the kotatsu in winter and watch the red and white song..."

"It's too traditional." He laughed happily. "The red bean soup is very welcome. It's better to say that as long as it is made by Yi Jun, I will never leave a mouthful."

But when I looked at his bowl, half of the parent-child rice bowl had been eaten, and the remaining half was neatly stacked aside, and he refused to move even a chopstick.

"Are you full yet?"

"Ah."

According to my assessment of his appetite, he can actually eat some.

"Did something happen to work in the afternoon?" I still couldn't help asking.

He shook his head slowly, "Don't worry about me."

"The more you say that, the more worrying you will be, Dazai-san."

"Hey...then 'please worry about me as much as you can'!"

How does this sentence sound like being coquettish?

But I still smiled and answered him: "I will always care about Mr. Dazai."

He seemed to be very pleased with my answer, making an exaggerated gesture of holding his heart, swaying his body from side to side, like a reed blown swaying by the warm spring breeze.

"—Really? Really?!" he said. "What a delightful answer."

I was completely amused by his appearance.

Finally, we wiped our mouths clean, packed up our things, checked out and left.

Leaving the door of the store, Dazai took the initiative to hold my hand again. His initiative today made me doubt that I would be damned happy, whether he approached me in front of the platform or dragged me into that A small carriage, or what it looks like now——

Is he afraid again, worried that I will leave him?

We walked to the escalator holding hands, and there was a couple in front of us, who were both talented and beautiful.The girl is petite and cute, she is holding her boyfriend's arm and rocking back and forth, acting like a baby to him desperately, but looking at the happy smile on her face, anyone will only think that she is too cute and worthy of all the good things.

She took her boyfriend's arm and asked sweetly: "I said, are you free on Christmas Eve? He wants to be with you...Last year you said that you were too busy with work and didn't have time to accompany me, but you won't want to do it this year." Shall I miss my appointment?"

"How could it be?" The man lowered his head and touched the girl's forehead affectionately, "I have always disappointed Xiao Meihui, my boyfriend is too dereliction of duty."

"Yeah, if you keep letting me down, I'll run away."

...Because this scene was too awkward for a person like me who has no love cells, I even lowered my head.

Why is this escalator so long!

Perhaps this atmosphere is contagious, causing me to raise my head to look at the expressions of the people around me.

If only... I mean, if only I could be as sweet and cute as that kid.

Originally, for me, holding hands was already a very luxurious thing, but I never thought that people’s desires are tens of millions of times faster than snowballing. In addition to holding hands, I also want more intimate contact, but these thoughts are all Huaichun-like thoughts.

The slowly ascending escalator finally reached the end, and the laughter of the couple in front has left us.

We held hands and walked on the smooth beige tiles, Dazai suddenly said——

"I've always let Yi Jun down."

I retorted subconsciously: "There is no such thing."

"Even if I'm doing something wrong, does Yi Jun still have to speak up for me?" He smiled weakly, "It's bad to keep women waiting to respond to men. It's better to say that in the relationship between a man and a woman, he is the one who is liked by relying on himself." But wantonly disappointing the other party, it is too much to put it anywhere. Seriously, if it wasn't for Yi Jun who was willing to put up with me..."

"...I was posted to women's forums and drowned in saliva." After finishing speaking, he sighed again: "I still have the self-consciousness in this regard, sometimes there is only a distance between a female friend and a female public enemy." A piece of tissue paper."

I:"……"

"But... I am also afraid. I am not the fearless and omnipotent person Yi Jun imagined. Compared to making you hate me completely, I am more afraid of your disappearance. So I overthrow you again I am not a saint, at least in the matter of asking you to wait for me, I am very selfish and generous, it is not an exaggeration to say that I am shameless."

When he said this, he smiled brightly.

We walked through a lighted hallway indoors, small orange lights wrapped around the door, and the light hit the face.I was led by him to walk along this path of light, but because of his words, the rain never stopped in my heart, the wind was strong, and the boat driving in the sea almost capsized.

I know that today is the time to know the answer. His completely different attitude from usual has given me too much hope.

But what if he rejects me just like that?

I realized that he still had something to say, so I waited for his next words——

"...Even I still don't know what is the most appropriate way to do it. I can't list countless alternatives in this matter, and there are very few future possibilities that I can think of." He Said, "I made a mistake-plans and accidents always come first, and I don't have the confidence to let myself always be a hundred secrets without a single omission."

"It's better for me to choose myself than to regret when the accident comes first."

His voice passed through the lights and through my heart.

"I've never done such a thing," Dazai said, "so... I'll try my best."

My breath was stagnant, and my body seemed to be resonated by his words. I stopped where I was, and refused to leave no matter what.I am waiting, waiting for the next sentence, whether it is the angel who sent me to heaven or the steel fork that made me fall into the abyss.

He also stopped, and said to me with unprecedented solemnity:

"...try your best to be your lover, okay?"

I can't describe how I feel at the moment.

Happiness was raging like a typhoon, sweeping across the border, and swept away the last bit of my sanity and adult decency to the other side of the coast, and I couldn't get it back for a while.

The hollowness in the body gave birth to new branches, thriving and full of spring.

I didn't even think about why he chose today, at such an inconspicuous moment.

"Even if it's okay to set a trial period for me, if someone who is tired of me, or understands how unworthy you are to love me, wants to leave me... I will accept it." He said, "Ah, say It takes courage to say those words.”

Liar, this person said before that he hoped that I would not fall in love with others.

What he obviously wanted to say was——

Come to me.

Come like me.

My nose was astringent, and I took a step forward, not knowing where to put my hands, I simply grabbed his windbreaker.

"What's your answer?" Then, as if he was adjusting himself, he said, "It doesn't matter if you don't answer, or you can choose to just reject me, never contact me again, and let me, a poor guy, contact you." Way to delete everything, to find someone who can frankly say 'like' to you—"

"...I agree." In order for him to say these heartbreaking words again, I walked closer to him in small steps, and I wanted to tell him——I am here.

I asked, "Does the trial period start now?"

"Yeah." He replied.

I took out the movie ticket from my pocket and asked the obvious question: "...So today is our first date?"

"In my current capacity - it's the first time."

His bright smile bloomed again.

Lover... just thinking about this word makes me happy enough.

……

……

On the upper floor, there is a movie theater, and there are still many people in the theater that occupies two floors.We were standing in the doorway and he asked me, "Would you like some popcorn?"

"But I just ate something." I reminded.

"It's okay, I have some stomach room for popcorn," he said.

Thinking of me who ate less today: "...then buy it."

He bought double-flavored popcorn and two drinks, one of orange juice and the other of Coke.We entered the movie theater and found that there were surprisingly few audiences for this one, which made me worry that I had accidentally picked a bad movie.

Before the movie started, the little kid sitting behind us was having a fight with his mother, who was unwrapping candy for him.

"Strange, it hasn't started yet..." I stood up and straightened the hem of my skirt to prevent being pressed into an uncomfortable position when I sat down.

Dazai sat on a chair drinking Coke, glanced at his phone after hearing what I said, and told me the time: "It's less than half a minute."

The game between the child and the mother was completely escalated later.

"Wait, Toshihiko, give me the candy wrapper! Don't throw it here—"

The next second, as I was about to sit down, I saw the ball of cellophane flung onto Dazai's fluffy hair.

I:"……"

"Mr. Dazai, don't move..." I wanted to take down the candy wrapper for him, and I leaned on the back of his chair with my right hand, and then I bent down slightly, but at this moment, the lights in the cinema were turned off, and the opening title came on the screen .

The hand looking for the candy wrapper stayed in mid-air, and I couldn't see anything because my eyes hadn't adapted to the darkness, so I stopped completely, and wanted to wait for a few seconds to slow down before helping him take down the candy wrapper.

"...Yi Jun? What are you doing?"

...Ah, he didn't know that something was on his hair.

"There's something in your hair." I explained, "Wait a few seconds, I'll see it right away, just take it off for you."

I heard the sound of ice cubes floating, as if he had put down his drink.

"Hmm... I thought Yi Jun was going to kiss me." He said, "It seems that I was completely wrong."

My left hand was still next to his curly hair, trying to look up for the candy wrapper, and after hearing his words, I went down along his cheek...

Then gently pinch his cheek.

Wow, it feels so good.

"Well--"

As I was thinking wildly, the company name of the opening credits of the movie had already been broadcasted, and the light from the screen that suddenly changed to a light color allowed me to see the expression of the young man clearly.

In the future I am looking forward to, every twilight of the setting sun is in these eyes.

I let go of the hand that pinched his cheek, and I don't even know why I did it—

The second the screen went dark, I lowered my head and gently placed a kiss on his forehead.

"...You guessed it right." I said.

I've wanted to do this for a long time.

The author has something to say:

There is one more later.

Recently, there has been a lot of thunder and a lot of nutrient solution. I try to add more (vomit soul)

The seed really exploded today!

Although he has taken this step, this trial period can be regarded as a safety lock he set for himself.

————————————————————————————————————————————感谢在2020-09-2322:33:22~2020-09-2423:48:24期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who cast the landmine: He Lai Resonance 21; Jiu Jiu Jiu Jiu 1;

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