As a background board, I want to pursue Dazai

Today is the fourth day since I learned about the collective amnesia case from Mr. Dazai. I happen to be resting at home, but I am not idle.

"What should I do..."

Although I made a promise in front of Editor Xiaoshan that I would inform him of the manuscript and the content of the story before the end of the month, but when I opened the computer document, I fell into a situation where I was helpless and my mind was empty.

Naturally, it is impossible to write exciting texts in such a bad state-not to mention that I am not even satisfied with the setting of the story so-so.

On the other hand, when I think about writing a romance novel, I can't help but do it to myself.

For example, thinking about Mr. Dazai, Mr. Dazai, and Mr. Dazai...

I sighed heavily.

That's not the only thing that disturbed me, but also his strange attitude when I sent an email to Natsume yesterday.Looking at the harsh email, I tortured my lower lip to the skin, and finally worked up the courage to make a phone call, but the result was still frustrating.

It's not that I'm calling the wrong number.

When I heard the boy's clear voice troubled me and said: "...Sorry, who are you?", I hung up the phone in a hurry, and now I can't deceive myself anymore.

After that, I also made many associations, but I denied them one by one.

"Will the perpetrator of the collective amnesia case go to a place as far away as Yayuan to commit the crime? Isn't the cost of committing the crime too high?"

I thought about it, but I didn't know how to tell this trouble to the people around me.

"And Dazai-san..."

I know that talking to him is the fastest and most effective, but I don't want to bother him all the time, or let him think that I only think of him when I encounter difficulties.Besides, he is really busy recently, and there is a serious case, so I don't dare to bother him with the cheek.

Forget it, let's put this matter aside for a while.

I gave up on myself in my heart.

It's back to the "I lack the inspiration to write romance novels" thing.

I simply lay down on the tatami and let myself go, and began to think about whether there were any countermeasures that could change the status quo.After I stared at the ceiling in a daze for 10 minutes, I remembered that there was "My Magpie" given to me by Mr. Dazai in the drawer.

"Speaking of which... this book was clearly intended to be bought to study romance novels." I propped myself up from the ground with one hand, then moved myself to the drawer with my knees, and pulled out the book with a clean cover .

"...Let's read a book."

The recommendation of "My Magpie" in the bookstore is quite incredible, what is "a trio intertwined with dreams, innocence and desire, a love bible for urban men and women", in short, it is over-exaggerated to the point of embarrassment.

I only know that it is probably an urban love story, and some people say that this book is between pure love and taboo, digging deep into the psychological world of the characters. It is a love story of contemporary men and women, but it is extremely "atypical". s story.

With the heart of learning and progress, I opened this book.

【Junya Takigawa was born in a wealthy family.

It is said to be a wealthy family, but it is also what the family calls themselves. It seems that the wealth they have accumulated since the old days has finally made them step over the threshold of "rich people". , said that his brother was an influential politician in the local area. Although he died young, he was deeply respected by everyone.

"A little earlier, my father's generation still had the status of 'Marquis'..." The memory in the old man's muddy eyeballs was like a rusty gear, which couldn't turn, and could only retain the momentary scene. "But all of a sudden, I'm not up to date."

After wandering through Runzai's heart, he finally understood what his grandfather meant, that is - our family used to be very prominent, but we were poor for a while, and now we are rich again, so we are still rich.

He murmured in his heart—then consider it a rich family, the rich family in his grandfather's heart. 】

After reading this, I still can't immediately associate this old-fashioned story with "urban love".

The so-called old rich families, politicians, marquises and other old Chinese people are like embroidery on kimonos. They are just for people to look at, but they can't immediately understand the mystery.

I read on.

[Because he often has to take care of his grandfather's mood, Junzai unknowingly becomes an "understanding" child.

Before the age of ten, he often felt lonely, and his grandfather's paranoia forced the whole family to raise Runzai according to his memory (maybe even completely wrong) of a noble boy.

However, Junzai made it perfect - just from the appearance, his naturally fair face and delicate facial features give people a fragile, dreamy and noble image.He also has a good mind and can learn everything quickly.When his face was covered with a vague and alienated smile, the grandfather didn't feel offended at all, but instead praised him as "an incredible beautiful boy".

The only shortcoming is that his father always felt that Runzai was too feminine - his father advocated a traditional masculine image, so his father and grandfather secretly competed for this.

He originally regarded fulfilling his family's expectations as a goal, a challenge.

However, his grandfather's praise for him not only did not satisfy him, but made him feel empty.

"It's too easy." He thought, "I just slowed down my voice a little, talked to my grandfather with some polite sentences, and learned a little manner, so that my grandfather thought I was a great and beautiful boy. Could it be that in my grandfather's heart? , the great wealthy and Chinese are just roles that I, a ten-year-old child, can play?"

He realized that his grandfather's heart was constantly expanding, so he turned to his father's side.He plays sports like the kids around him, such as football, and he even won prizes in the school team.Now, his father was also satisfied, calling him "a Yamato man worthy of praise".

Only Junzai felt that everything was wrong.

It was as easy for him to guess what his father and grandfather were thinking as to drink water.He thought to himself that he was not a great handsome boy, a stalwart man, something that could be done so easily, he didn't deserve to be given high hopes.During this process, he deeply understood one thing—that is, he has a completely different sense of loneliness from those around him.

The more he finds that he can easily become what anyone expects, the more this loneliness expands.

until he was 14 years old. 】

I put down the book and took a sip of water.

Seeing this always makes my mouth dry.

The growth environment of the male protagonist seems to be smooth sailing, it is better to say that it is a bit depressed.

"If you can do anything...don't you feel that everything is boring? Breaking through the things that are set as challenges and goals easily one by one will quickly produce a feeling of 'no matter what is easy for me' ' Thoughts?"

I suddenly remembered that this is a love story.

I remember that the comparison between the canary and the magpie was mentioned many times on the title page. Maybe there are more than one female characters who have emotional entanglements with the male protagonist.

"...I don't know what kind of heroine he will be fascinated by in the end."

【

Junzai, 14, got a beautiful canary from his grandfather.The feathers of this little thing are like ears of wheat, and the sunlight casts a color between gold and green-brown.

Grandfather insisted that the owner of the canary must be a person of high moral character, clean and clear.Junzai didn't know where he got the prejudice, but he took the birdcage from his grandfather with a "reserved" expression of "suppressing a smile".

This canary with clear singing and soft feathers immediately captured the boy's heart.

He murmured to the birdcage: "Compared to me, it is more Chinese."

Later, he tried to use watercolor colors to make exactly the same color as the canary's fur, but he couldn't achieve a satisfactory effect.

It is a pity that the canary passed away within two weeks. The reason was that the grandfather and the servants liked to tease it and fed too much food, so it died.

However, Junya remembered the words of his grandfather.

——The owner of the canary must be a noble person. Then, it is precisely because the people in this house are all false "nobles", that's why the canary cannot be kept alive, right?Of course, including him.

On the contrary, the grandfather acted as if he had forgotten the words, and even sulked for a while because the bird died without knowing what to do.

This incident planted a seed in the young man's heart.

He thought that when he left this mansion and this pretended "rich family", he would definitely have his own canary. 】

... Does the canary represent a fantasy in the mind of a boy?

"No, that's not right. The grandfather, and the words from the grandfather's mouth are repeatedly mentioned here, and the 'false rich family' in the hero's heart. That is to say, the canary in the hero's heart is a symbol of true elegance, and he thinks he is pretending Yes, so I yearn for this kind of true nobility."

I flipped through it, and soon finished watching the hero's teenage years.

After that, it will be after the protagonist enters the society.

The title of the second volume is "Hai Li and Xiang Sui", which seems to be the names of the two heroines.

[Hili is a woman Junya met on a business trip.

The sea breeze that day was salty and hot, and Haili, who was wearing a dress, was stepping barefoot on the beach, and the tide was receding, gradually revealing her fair calves.With indifferent eyes, Haili looked at the distant horizon with a cold expression on his face.However, it is precisely this inadvertent contempt for nature that allows Runzai to discover the unique brilliance of this unique woman. 】

【Xiang Sui is more ordinary.

After get off work, I had a drink with my colleagues for the second round. I was upset and wanted to escape the endless socializing. Runzai made an exaggerated look about throwing up, and was chased away by my colleagues.Holding his suit jacket and briefcase in his arms, he jumped into the alley next to the izakaya and was about to take a shortcut when he ran into Xiangho who was about to throw out the trash.

She was wearing clothes that didn't fit her size and plastic gloves, and she was standing under a street lamp with a garbage bag.

It can be said that it looks very ordinary. 】

【Junya met these two women. 】

When I saw this, I realized that two hours had passed.

Originally, I only planned to adjust my mood and regain my strength, but I didn't expect to be fascinated by watching it.

"However, after watching it for so long, I only saw the heroine appearing... I am slow enough." I mocked myself.

"So Miss Haili is a canary, and Miss Xiangsui is a magpie?" I said, "But wouldn't this be too common..."

But today I have spent a lot of time. Although the book is interesting, it should be moderate.

And I haven't even read a third of this book, and I don't know when I will finish it.

Now it's time to work... Although I mean to say this, it's time to prepare dinner.

When I got to the kitchen, I realized that the reserves of cooking oil were worrying.

"...This is terrible. Almost all the fried food is prepared for dinner today. Everyone will be disappointed if the menu is changed temporarily." I saw that the oil supply was almost bottomed out, and I blamed myself for not noticing this.

I can only rush to the supermarket for a trip, I hope there is still time.

……

……

Meanwhile, Dazai and Kunikida are interviewing a key witness.

He claimed to be one of the purchasers of the memory crystals, and he was also a victim. His wife died of physical discomfort because of eating the extremely emotional memory crystals.

"If it wasn't for the side effects of this thing, you wouldn't have thought of exposing him, would you?" Dazai sat on the soft sofa, looking at the decoration of the room.

It goes without saying that the owner of the house has a large amount of wealth, but judging from the collection, the taste is not flattering.

"You're right." He wasn't embarrassed to be poked at, "If it hadn't happened, how could those who escorted Kashiwagi Shotaro suddenly avoid him?"

"Can you tell me about your situation?" Kunikida was worried that the topic would deviate, so he stabilized the scene again, and took out his notebook and pen to record, "What is the so-called side effect..."

"Some people in our circle have... special hobbies." After thinking about it, he said in mild words: "For example, corporal punishment, or some violent tendencies in bed matters, to be honest, I think It's not a very decent hobby, but people generally don't blame it."

He said: "Kashiwagi Shotaro's selection conditions for extracting memories, you don't know? He can't specify to extract a certain memory, but a kind of fuzzy screening."

Kunikida: "Please tell me, this is very precious information."

"Extract the happiest memories of people within a few months within a radius of a certain kilometer centered on oneself." He said, "We don't know the specific radius. The specific time range may be one year, or it may be It was several months. However, it is also possible that what was extracted was a painful memory."

"The crystallization of painful memories is naturally cheaper at first." He tapped on the armrest of the stool, and said, "Until those people with special hobbies buy these painful crystallizations and feed them to... uh... you know , and then watch them suffer after taking it, to satisfy some of their own special hobbies."

"Kashiwagi Shotaro sold me the painful memory crystal as a sweet memory crystal, and my wife died on the spot after eating it."

"...Condolences."

"That's all I can tell you," he said, "but I hear that Kashiwagi recently got a 'high-end item.'"

"...high-end goods?"

"It is said that it is a painful crystallization of iron red." He recalled the information his friend told him——

"I don't know what kind of pain it is to extract such a terrifying memory crystal."

The author has something to say:

It will take a few chapters to add more, and there is a content that I want to release in one go, the little angels may have to wait for a few days.

——————————————————————————————————————————感谢在2020-09-2023:03:20~2020-09-2123:32:41期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the landmine: He Lai Resonance 22; Gu Yu 1;

感谢灌溉营养液的小天使：Liz30瓶；云云、墨玉20瓶；情深10瓶；夏夕6瓶；TAYSI5瓶；

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!