As a background board, I want to pursue Dazai

When I put down my pen, it was already half past nine in the evening.Imaken had already turned off the TV in the living room, and Makoto also went back to the room on the second floor, and the boys also dispersed to brush their teeth, preparing to go back to their rooms.

A few days ago, I had completely revised the manuscript to be published. Editor Xiaoshan told me after receiving it: "Let's do this, I will submit the manuscript."

"Excuse me."

I have been told today that everything is in order and we are just waiting for the new issue to be released. "Blue" is a semi-monthly publication, and I'm sure my articles will be published soon.

Later, he asked me in an email, "How are you thinking about romance novels?" I had no choice but to say, "I'm already trying it out, and I'll show you next time."

In fact, nothing was said.

"Is Ayi still writing?" Jin Jian returned to the room after brushing his teeth, the hem of his T-shirt was still stained with water.

"Well, you go to bed first." I said, "I have to visit the elementary school tomorrow."

I had already made the bed for him early, and he glanced at the manuscript paper on my desk and said, "Ayi, don't make it too late, it's not good for your health."

In fact, I am only going to make a simple conclusion to the article I wrote last time, and it will not take much time.In addition, the light at night is not good, and the noise of Xisuo will disturb his sleep when writing, so I don't think it will be long to write.

Jin Jian had already crawled into his mattress, I saw that he was about to fall asleep, and was about to continue writing at his desk, when he seemed to be remembering something, and suddenly said: "Ayi..."

"What's wrong?" I put down my pen.

He blinked, his onyx eyes filled with anticipation: "I saw on TV that human children get a kiss before going to bed."

I understood what he meant, and asked him with a smile, "Do you want it too?"

"Oh...but I'm not a child," he said, "so can't I?"

This very old sword, at this time, is both childish and full of untainted innocence. I asked: "You can do it if you want. But you have to tell me-do you want me to give you a goodnight kiss?" ?”

Imai nodded suddenly, "I want Ai to kiss me goodnight."

"Okay." I got up from the desk and knelt down on the tatami beside him, "Then lie down obediently."

The little dagger had already parted his hair, and he was lying obediently on the bed and wrapped his little quilt tightly. In the dim light, his eyes were shining brightly.

I brushed the hair from his forehead and gave him a superficial kiss.

"Good night, sweet dreams."

……

……

Going back to the table and sitting down, I once again gathered my thoughts and devoted myself to the article.

The article I'm revising is "The Virgin"—a half-finished draft in Yahara's inn.After many days, my thoughts have been interrupted. Fortunately, the inspiration was not exhausted at that time, so I can continue to write.

The protagonist, Baozhizi, was criticized by the villagers for her background as the daughter of a prostitute, and her mother is a good person who is kind and generous—although her starting point is because she believes that she is guilty of sins and must atone for her sins, and she passes this principle on to her. Daughter Baozhizi, Baozhizi was born blind, so she believed her mother's words even more because she was punished by the gods.

The scholar Ashin, together with a charlatan he knew, originally only planned to extort some money, but the latter went too far and pushed Bao Zhizi to the position of a saint.This caused Ah Xin, who had received a little education, to suffer repeatedly. He was afraid that the villagers would kill the innocent Baozhizi after they learned the truth.So he helped Bao Zhizi cover up and create a "miracle" that convinced the villagers——

However, Bao Zhizi, who is worshiped by the villagers every day and does not know that the so-called apparition is the work of Ashin, really believes that she is a saint.

She made an impossible promise.

Knowing that the matter was about to be revealed, Ashin plucked up his last courage, found Bao Zhizi overnight, and told her that he would take her away.

After re-polishing the article, I stopped here because I couldn't come up with the best answer for the possible ending.

There are three options next.

One is that Baozhizi and Ashin go far away.

The second is that Bao Zhizi stays and Ashin leaves.

The third is that they stay together.

Option [-] is easy to achieve a happy ending in the public's mind, but it can also turn around and catch readers off guard.But I don't think it's interesting overall.The second is the ending in the conventional sense, which is easy to achieve the "tragedy expected by the readers", and there will not be much surprise.Three... between one and two.

Then try to use the option of "Two people go away and fly high".

I picked up a pen and started to write, and my wrists became sore after writing for a while, but I couldn't be satisfied no matter what.

【Ashin brought Baozhizi who was blind, but Baozhizi couldn't accept that he was deprived of his identity, and he was always honest with Ashin, but he became mean.And Ashin did not expect that a blind girl who is not familiar with the world would become so tricky and difficult to serve after being promoted to a high position.

After all, Ashin is just a poor man, and he is not calm and able to do practical things. Otherwise, he would not be kicked out by his master for stealing things, and he would not join forces with charlatans to make tricks.

This kind of Ashin, at first, was chained by his own conscience, frightened by the poison of conscience rooted in dental caries, and only then did he have the courage to take Bao Zhizi away.But now, the tragedy that his conscience warned him every day has been avoided, and his heart is wild again. 】

"...No." At this point, I was so angry that I wanted to crumple the manuscript paper and throw it aside. Just as I was about to make a move, I remembered that Jinjian was still sleeping, so I could only handle it gently and calm down with myself.

That's not the kind of story I want to write.

This ending is also bad.I don't like it, and readers certainly won't either.The biggest possibility is that the editor regarded my manuscript as a waste manuscript, and my self-esteem became a pile of waste paper along with it.

I have been writing on and off for an hour and a half, and the manuscript paper has been scratched like scratch paper by me.

Sure enough, writing an article also depends on the status.

...I'd better rest first, and if I see Mr. Dazai tomorrow, I'll ask him what he thinks from the reader's point of view.

……

……

next day

Imaken and I changed our clothes and went out, and met Kinomoto-kun's younger sister at the agreed intersection.She was half a head taller than Imaken, with fluffy light brown hair and pure blue eyes.

"Meet you for the first time." I bowed slightly, "Excuse me, is this Sakura Kinomoto?"

"Meet you for the first time!" She also quickly saluted me, "You can just call me Sakura, you are the Miss Inai that my brother said, right? The one next to you is your younger brother..."

"I am Jin." Jin Jian was used to the answer when people asked his name, and he also looked at the girl in front of him curiously.

It's still on vacation, but this girl came to meet us in her summer school uniform.It's so considerate.

"Let me show you the campus." She said, "It's rare to get a place to visit."

Sakura just showed us the way.

"By the way, what grade is Inai-kun in this year?"

"My brother should be in fourth grade." I answered for him.

Jin Jian looked curiously at the playground, the teaching building, and even the two rows of trees opposite the teaching building. He felt novelty.

Sakura introduced as she walked, "This is the teaching building where we usually have classes, and the cooking classroom is also here. Next to it is the club activity center, and in front is the gymnasium..."

I followed her movements and looked over one by one, and then made a note in my heart—in case I got lost in school later.

"Are there club activities?" Imamori looked at the gymnasium in the distance.

I asked: "Is there anyone interested?" Wouldn't it be Kendo?

"Football, basketball, stuff... Ay, I want to try it," he said. "It's really fun on TV!"

I didn't expect him to have a new interest, but it's a good thing. I encouraged him: "You can try them all."

In this way, we listened to Sakura's introduction all the way, and almost went around the campus.It takes less than 10 minutes to walk from home to Tomoeda Elementary School. In this way, Imaken has a lot of free time to arrange for himself every day. Recently, he is with me in the dojo. When I am working, he is with those children Spend time together.

Later, he didn't compete with the children very much, because he told me: "They can't beat me. But they can't play other things in the dojo..."

Now that there is a good place like school, he won't be bored, right?

We walked slowly to the side door, but found that there were still figures here.It was clearly a hot day, and this man was still wearing gloves, holding a small video camera in one hand, and was shooting the scenery. When he heard our footsteps, he turned his head with the camera in front of him.

"Hey..." Sakura said first, "It seems to be the father of Kobayashi from the class next door... I met him once during the sports meeting."

The other party looked young, with neat short black hair, and a decent appearance.Just a little tired, after seeing us, he put down the camera.

"Hello." His eyes fell on Sakura, "I remember you are in the next class..."

"Yes, I'm Kinomoto from the next class." She asked, "Is Kobayashi-san feeling better?"

The man shook his head, forced a smile and said, "Thank you for remembering Xiao Kui... That child has always missed school life, so I specially came here to take pictures of the school and bring them back to make her happy."

"Student Xiaolin will definitely get better."

"Thank you." He smiled palely, "...By the way, who are these two?"

"My younger brother is going to study in this school, so let's get to know the campus in advance."

Mr. Kobayashi's eyes first fell on Imai Ken's face, from the side face to the hair, and then looked at me, "...Excuse me, the two of you are not very similar, are you reorganizing your family?"

This is complicated to explain, and there is no need to explain it so clearly to strangers.

"Yes, we live together."

He nodded, looked at me meaningfully, the tired smile floated on his cheeks again, and said: "It's really not easy for a young woman like you to raise a younger brother alone. I've finished filming, so I won't bother you guys." It's gone." Then, he looked at Jinjian again, and kindly wished him: "I wish you a pleasant campus life."

"……thanks?"

It wasn't until his back disappeared into the side door that I remembered why he thought I was raising my younger brother alone?

Weird.

To be on the safe side, I asked Sakura about this person.

"Xiao Linkui from the next class has been hospitalized since last year...I don't know the exact cause."

I asked, "What about Xiao Lin's mother?"

"It seems that he passed away in a car accident the year before last, and Xiao Lin has been living with his father since then."

If you ask more questions, she doesn't understand anymore. After all, she is just a classmate in the next class who is not very familiar.

After saying goodbye to Sakura, we returned home, and I asked Imaiken for his opinion again. This time he didn't say "anywhere is fine", but said "I think Tomoeda Elementary School is good".

"Why?" I was a little curious why he changed suddenly.

As a result, he stretched out his hand and gestured in front of me, saying, "Because the playground and the stadium are huge!"

Before that, I also compared several other elementary schools and asked for Jinjian's opinion.He had an "anywhere can do it" attitude from the beginning, which made it difficult for me to start.The decision on Tomoeda Primary School was simply because of the rich activities organized by the school, and most of the outdoor activities and sports-related activities were very suitable for Jinjian.

The rest of the work will be handled by Shizheng. I just agree with Jinjian and choose a good school.When the second semester starts, he can go directly to school.

I actually asked Ms. Ishigami in private what to do with the grades in the culture class.

And Ms. Ishigami patted her chest and assured me: "The knowledge given to the swords and swords in this world already includes some basic subject knowledge, at least the content of elementary school is not a big problem."

I thought about it, and it made sense, but I was still a little worried, so I asked, "What about English?"

"...This..." Ms. Ishigami was stunned, "...should it be?"

I think that English can no longer be hopeless. As a parent, it is best to be prepared to be dragged into a conversation by the English teacher.

Start preparing for school shopping tomorrow.

……

……

That night, a strange thing happened.

Mr. Dazai came to eat dinner, well, this is not unusual, what is strange is that he was late.

We were already clearing the table when he came.

Seeing that he was wet all over, Satu, who was standing near the bathroom, directly found a clean towel and handed it over.I still don't forget to complain: "Mr. Dazai, you didn't crawl out of the water, did you?"

He put a towel on his head, "Yeah, the wallet was washed away too."

When Zhenzhu and I passed by with empty plates, we couldn't help but ask, "If you entrust the police, can you find the wallet?"

"Probably not." Mako whispered, "Mr. Dazai has lost at least four wallets."

"...was it all washed away by the water?"

"That's not clear."

Sato couldn't stand it any longer, so he made a suggestion: "Isn't there a wallet with a chain? Just tie it to your belt and you won't lose your wallet."

Makoto: "..."

I:"……"

"I saw a random interview on the street on the Internet, and some cowherds in Shinjuku like to wear it like this." Mako told me in a low voice, "... I always feel that Mr. Dazai would be strange if he did this... But it seems that it is not impossible. ?”

I can probably understand what she was struggling with, but I imagined it - Mr. Dazai walking on the road with a chain jingling around him.

Maybe it's kind of fun.

He got his wish and caught up with a dinner before we finished packing. After dinner, the children did their homework and watched TV.We are free again.

When I went into the room to get something, I saw the manuscript paper spread out on the table, and I remembered the Calvin hell who was scratching my cheeks and ears last night and was not satisfied at all...

If I trouble Mr. Dazai to read it from the perspective of readers, will his suggestions bring me new inspiration?

So I held the pile of manuscript paper in both hands and asked him to read. While he was reading, I resisted the urge to hold my breath several times.When the young man put down the manuscript paper, I looked at him with anxiety.

He put the semi-finished article aside first, "Is what Yi Jun is worried about now, is how the story will end?"

"That's right." I quickly explained the possibilities of the three endings I listed, and then told him my troubles: "I'm worried that this article is too plain to catch the readers' hearts at the end. , the ending may lack surprises."

"If you care too much about unexpectedness, you're putting the cart before the horse. This is not a weird and surprising novel that deliberately creates gimmicks to attract attention." Regarding my troubles, Dazai gave pertinent advice, "If even the author himself doesn't figure out what the article wants to convey Intentions, the reader will only be more confused."

As soon as he reminded me, I realized that I had unknowingly stepped into the trap again. I only thought about how to attract people, but forgot what the fundamental point of the novel was.

Dazai continued to ask: "Yi Jun, tell me about your original intention for writing this article."

The author has something to say:

Very sleepy!No more writing today!Goodnight everybody!

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感谢在2020-08-2514:56:36~2020-08-2623:17:33期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the grenade: stop playing games, 33211;

Thanks to the little angel who threw the mines: 2 for a lonely lemon essence;

感谢灌溉营养液的小天使：塞包子的包子脸78瓶；萧20瓶；今天你更新了吗？10瓶；夜雨9瓶；三木子、@2瓶；夜寻月1瓶；

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!