I am the Lord God in the infinite world
Chapter 68 Copy 5 14
The young man seated had a pair of beautiful peach blossom eyes, and the expression on that face, whether it was anger or a smile, was more charming than others.
The young man looked at the little Golden Crow who was sitting there with the demeanor of a master, and asked a little bit dumbfounded: "Master Little Golden Crow, what's wrong with me?"
When Little Jinwu was telling fortunes to other people earlier, it wasn't the opening remarks.
"Yes, yes, what's wrong with him?"
The players on the sidelines seemed to be more concerned about this issue than the young man himself, if they hadn't stared at the little Jinwu.
Apollo walked over without hindrance, and stood behind the little Jinwu, acting as a "bodyguard" for the time being.The expression is unpredictable, if it is not for the three-headed body, it really looks like that.
This time, the little Golden Crow did not fiddle with his huge tortoise shell, but stared closely at the face of the young man in front of him.
This gaze made the young man a little uncomfortable. He raised his hand and touched his face, wondering what little Jinwu would say.
The game "Angel with Wings" has a face pinching function when building characters at the beginning.
I don't mean to pinch a completely different face again, but under the guidance of the system, I can make certain adjustments to my face according to the proportion, so as not to appear too exaggerated and inhuman.
In many cases, a completely different face can be obtained by changing the details of the facial features a little.
If a true master of metaphysics wants to tell fortunes by showing others' faces in the game world of "Piece of Winged Angel", then he will definitely see himself crazy first.
However, what Little Golden Crow originally looked at was not the face of the person in front of him, but the "luck" and "fate" that shrouded this person.
"Hmm..." The serious-looking little Jinwu shook his head, "I still can't see through it."
Little Jinwu was a little depressed.
Although he is not good at these, and the strength of recovery is not much.
But the person standing in front of him was just an ordinary human being...
It would be fine if those beings with advanced cultivation couldn't see through, but now he can't even see through the past and future lives of an ordinary human being.
I feel like a dead bird.
The frustrated Little Golden Crow made the players a little flustered, they had never seen Little Golden Crow like this before.
Without even thinking about it, all kinds of comforting words were spoken by the players.
As far as everyone has not forgotten, there are still two sleeping dragons who did not appear, and each of them lowered their voices and racked their brains to comfort them.
This appearance made the little Jinwu laugh again.
Seeing the little Jinwu laughing, the peach-eyed young man heaved a sigh of relief: "It's okay if you can't see through it, maybe I will be a very powerful person in the future, so you can't see through it, right?"
Little Jinwu shook his head, "No."
"Nothing?"
"There is no future."
Not only the peach-eyed young man, but other players who heard this were dumbfounded. Fortunately, including the peach-eyed young man, no one was angry because of such a sentence. They just asked puzzledly after a moment of silence, " …Didn’t Little Golden Crow Master say that he couldn’t see through it?”
"That's right... If you can't see through it, what does it mean?"
The little Golden Crow sighed faintly, "When I said I couldn't see through, I meant I couldn't see through your past and future lives, not your present life."
Wow……
The players suddenly looked at the little Golden Crow with admiration. Unexpectedly, the well-behaved and cute little Golden Crow also learned the important skill of "pretending to be aggressive" from them.
But seeing what Little Golden Crow said, there should be a reason for what he just said.
Originally, the players thought that Little Golden Crow would have a happy reversal, but unexpectedly, Little Golden Crow suddenly spoke seriously.
"You were weak when you were born, and you were prone to illness when you were young. When you were seven years old, you suffered a serious illness. There were great changes in your family, and you saved your life. When you were 15 years old..."
The little Jinwu paused for a moment when he said this, his two small eyebrows frowned, and he muttered in his heart that human beings are really troublesome, and he said after deliberation: "When you were 15 years old, something happened that had a great impact on you, and you lived alone afterward. to date."
Little Jinwu's fortune-telling rhetoric for the young man with peach blossom eyes is very different from the previous players.
But everyone didn't pay attention at first.
When they created an account in the game, they could fill in a lot of things.
Little Golden Crow looked like an important NPC in the game, so it was no surprise that he was able to mobilize those data.
The peach-eyed young man also thought so at first, but as Little Jinwu continued to speak, the smile on the young man's face gradually disappeared.
Little Jinwu has already mentioned some things that he has never told others.
The young people felt absurd and unbelievable. The most reliable guess was that the game "Piece Winged Angel" was more terrifying than everyone imagined, and maybe their private information was investigated.
But he is not an important person. The 15-year-old secret is unknown to anyone except his parents. Even if he investigates private information, it is impossible to investigate.
Fortunately, Little Golden Crow's words were always on point.
After saying that, feeling the uneasiness of the young man, Little Jinwu looked up at him: "The point I want to say is not these, you don't have to be afraid."
The worry and sincerity in Little Golden Crow's eyes were conveyed, which calmed down the nervous young man.
Little Jinwu warned softly: "There are some things that cannot be solved by escaping. In the next week, you need to be more careful. Otherwise..."
Little Jinwu didn't say anything later, but the words he said earlier reappeared in the young man's mind.
"There is no future."
Little Jinwu's fortune-telling time ended here.
The peachy-eyed young man immediately went back to his homeland and went offline without giving other players a chance to ask him about the situation.
Little Golden Crow also closed the door to thank the guests for the time being.
The players outside were a little confused by this development, and gathered to discuss what just happened.
As the Greek god Apollo, he didn't understand many things about the East, but he could also see things.
"Does it matter?"
Little Jinwu shook his head, "As long as he is careful, he won't be in danger of his life."
"I mean, are you okay?" Apollo slapped the little Golden Crow's shoulder, and said slowly, "We are friends, right? If there is anything you don't like, you can tell me."
Little Golden Crow held Apollo's hand with emotion, "That's great, Apollo took the initiative to say that we are friends."
Apollo: "..."
Apollo felt the symptoms of his friend syndrome appeared again. He twisted his three-headed body and snorted, "It's good that you're fine."
Little Golden Crow looked up at the sky, and followed Apollo back into the house.
……
The young man with peach blossom eyes is named Tao Yao. He has been absent-minded since he got off the game, and the thoughts in his mind are very chaotic.
Some friends in the game also sent him messages, and most of them were asking him what was going on, but Tao Yao had no intention of replying at all.
It took him a lot of time to calm down his own opinion, instead of thinking about why an NC in the game could say those words, he instead focused his thoughts on the little Jinwu's warning.
"Don't run away." Tao Yao muttered these words, feeling very powerless.
Different from the slightly ordinary face in the game, Tao Yao has a very beautiful face, paired with those peach blossom eyes.Even when he was angry, he was extraordinarily good-looking and charming.
This is a nice way of saying it, in the vulgar words of those who have harassed Tao Yao, "Isn't it just to seduce Lao Tzu by making a fuss?"
People with outstanding looks will be very popular and attract attention since they were young, and everyone will think about giving way, or even scrambling for it.
Tao Yao has been in poor health since he was a child, and there are many children who like him and take the initiative to take care of him.
Occasionally some naive children who want to attract Tao Yao's attention will do things to bully Tao Yao, and will be "justified" by other children.
Before the age of seven, Tao Yao's life was carefree, but his body was weak.
And at the age of seven, Tao Yao's father passed away, and that's how the illness that almost killed him that year came about.
After……
Tao Yao's mother used to live an easy life, but after losing her husband, the burden of the whole family fell on her.This made Tao Yao's mother almost unable to bear it. The person who looked delicate, beautiful, innocent and kind gradually changed gradually.
She began to become bitter, mean and preoccupied, and lost the love she once had for Tao Yao.
She would always express her pain in front of Tao Yao over and over again, saying again and again: "Without you, I would never live like this now."
When she loses control of her emotions, Tao Yao's mother will also fight Tao Yao, and after the beating, she will hold Tao Yao and cry non-stop, and will say in her mouth: "I'm sorry, mom actually likes you, mom is just too uncomfortable .”
Tao Yao has always been a very considerate child, he didn't blame his mother for the change, and he also tried his best not to make trouble for his mother.
As long as it was scolded and said by his mother, he would remember it all in his heart and would not make a second mistake.
But the words "without you" still made Tao Yao start to doubt himself, maybe he really shouldn't exist, because...
Mom looks really miserable.
I don't know if all the children had suicidal thoughts when they were young. Tao Yao never had such thoughts when he was weak and sick, but he had them more than once during the years when his father left.
It started when my mother said the words "without you" over and over again, and no matter what Tao Yao did, it seemed that she couldn't relieve her mother's pain. No matter what I did, it was wrong and I was constantly denied.
He had such an idea.
He felt that his existence was worthless, that he would only make his mother miserable, and that he couldn't do anything well.
During those years, what Tao Yao got the most was "negation", but because he was worried that his mother would completely collapse when he saw him die, he became more and more reticent.
Mom's meltdown continued until she remarried.
When Tao Yao was 12 years old, his mother remarried.
For a widow with a 12-year-old child, it's hard to find a man of that quality.
A man with a stable job, good financial income, just divorced, but no children.Such conditions are not bad for Tao Yao's mother who has "suffered all kinds of hardships".
You must know that there are many men in their 40s, married and divorced with a baby, no car, no house, and no income. When they want to find a new partner, they choose young, unmarried and have no children. Yes, looking for a woman who is good-looking and can be sold.
Of course, this is part of social phenomena and cannot be generalized.
After the remarriage, Tao Yao's mother's strong sense of anxiety finally weakened, and her life also had a backbone.
Although Tao Yao's new father looks ordinary, he looks really good in other aspects. His mother has turned back into the beautiful and kind woman she used to be, and her rough face has become delicate again.She seemed to be ten years younger all of a sudden, with a smile on her face from time to time.
The mother's change really made Tao Yao relax a lot, and the idea of committing suicide rarely reappeared.
He just couldn't forget his father in his heart, and couldn't get close to his stepdad.
In the past, Tao Yao was weak and sick, and often had a fever and was admitted to the hospital. However, after life became difficult, although Tao Yao was still weak these years, his illness has eased.
Seeing that his health has improved a lot, and his mother has a stepfather to take care of him, Tao Yao proposed to live in school.
His mother hadn't spoken yet, but his stepfather resolutely denied it, so his mother also rejected the proposal.
After the proposal to live in school was rejected, Tao Yao and his stepdad got along better and better in the next two years.There are some things in school that he won't tell his mother, but he will tell his stepdad.
He began to accept his stepfather in his heart, and his temperament gradually returned to his original cheerfulness.
but……
That all changed at the age of 15.
Thinking of this, Tao Yao felt cold all over and his face turned pale. He got up and poured himself a cup of hot water and hugged himself, only to feel a little better.
Some unimaginable and terrifying things happen every day in this world. Because they have never encountered them before, many people only listen to those things as stories, and it is impossible to empathize with them.
Sometimes because the plot is too bizarre, some people will comment indifferently.
"This is too outrageous, is it a made-up story?"
"Things like this should be plots that appear in no brains, right?"
"How could such a thing happen in reality?"
Every day after the age of 15, as long as he recalled those things, Tao Yao would think about them countless times.
"Why does this kind of thing happen in reality? Why does it happen to me?"
Tao Yao thought he had a new family and everything was slowly getting better, but on his 15th birthday, he was almost raped by his drunken stepfather.
If it wasn't for him being a boy with some strength, something irreversible might have happened.
He was injured in a scuffle with his stepdad, who was worse, and was taken to the hospital.
If there was anything that broke him down more than this incident, it was his mother's attitude after it happened.
He told the whole story, but his stepfather insisted that he drank alcohol and didn't mean it, he just regarded Tao Yao as his mother.
And Tao Yao's mother...
Standing on the husband's side, he looked at Tao Yao with condemning eyes, saying that he was too aggressive and sent his stepdad to the hospital.
"If you're a little more 'careless', your father's life will be lost."
At that time, Tao Yao looked at the mother who said these words with a very dazed expression on his face. For a moment, he almost couldn't recognize that the woman in front of him was his mother.
his mother...
Is that so?
What Tao Yao was almost forced to do by his stepfather after drinking ended in a "farce".
Although his father went to the hospital, he apologized to him at the time, as if it was really just an accident.
Because the stepfather's attitude was too sincere, as well as the mother's condemnation and various analyzes in favor of the stepfather, Tao Yao almost thought that the distorted and terrifying smile on his stepfather's face when he shot him, and the merciless hands up.
After that, Tao Yao lived a "peaceful" life for a period of time.
But he found that the way his mother looked at him had changed.
It's no longer the way a mother looks at her child, it's...
Eyes full of disgust, jealousy, disgust, hatred, and even wishing him to disappear from this world soon.
When Tao Yao found out that his mother's eyes had become like this, the thought of wanting to die came out again.
Tao Yao suffered for a long time because of her mother's eyes and attitude.
Unable to eat, sleep, and think normally, the painful emotions tormented his body and mind until he could no longer support himself and was sent to the hospital.
That time Tao Yao thought he was going to die, but he woke up again, and found that his mother didn't even look at him.
Then Tao Yao suddenly figured it out.
He hasn't had a mother since a long time ago.
The painful emotions that had tormented him for a long time seemed to have left all of a sudden, and he felt his whole body relax.
He lay alone in the hospital for a long time, and then left alone.
This time, he didn't discuss with his family any more, took some things and left the house.
He first lived with an acquaintance with his classmates, then worked part-time while studying, applied to live on campus with the school, and later rented a house by himself to live alone.
The mother and stepdad in the family also have a tacit understanding, and they all treat him as an invisible person, and no one asks "why".
He just moved out by himself all of a sudden, and has been living alone until now, never caring about what happened to his mother and stepdad.
Nor did he want to care.
Tao Yao never told anyone about these things, so he just walked over by himself, and was successfully admitted to university.
His college tuition was earned by working part-time during the summer vacation after the end of his senior year of high school.
For those who are really short of money, it is not difficult to find a job to make money, especially now that technology is developing better and better, and labor costs are getting higher and higher.
A few years ago, moving bricks on the construction site could earn [-] to [-] yuan a month, but now working hard can earn [-] to [-] yuan a month, which is much higher than many ordinary white-collar workers.
Even if the development speed of the flower-growing country continues, I am afraid that in a few years there will be no need for human labor to move bricks, and it will not be easy to go to the construction site to make money by then.
But under such a tiring life, Tao Yao's frail body has become better and better, almost the same as ordinary people.
Even the game cabin used to play the game "Angel with Wings" was bought with his own money.
Tao Yao has not thought of these bad things related to the past for a long time.
Today, he would sit in front of Little Golden Crow, just to join in the fun. He was also a little curious about his fortune in the game, and didn't expect Little Golden Crow to really say anything concrete.
Who would have expected to hear such words.
Tao Yao was in a daze again, and the hot water in his hand was not so hot anymore.
Because Little Jinwu's words were so accurate, he couldn't really ignore them all. After a round of thinking, he turned back to "don't avoid", and Tao Yao thought of something else.
It also has something to do with his pretty face.
As he grew up, especially after the age of 15, the number of people who liked him became significantly more, and at the same time there were many suitors, both male and female.
After he went to university, there were many people who hinted at him openly and secretly, willing to take care of him.
But because of his stepfather, Tao Yao has not been interested in those who like him these years.
At first he would refuse, but he found that after he refused, those people seemed to be encouraged, and they became more and more aggressive and entangled.
Later, Tao Yao stopped responding, just pretended not to see those people, and stopped smiling casually at others.
Even when he looked at other people angrily, he would be said to be seductive, let alone when he smiled.
The consequence of this is that the students in the university say that Tao Yao is cold and does not take others seriously, but the number of people who like Tao Yao has not decreased. They ran to Tao Yao to confess their love, or created various opportunities to contact him. People are still in an endless stream.
Even if Tao Yao frowned, these admirers could talk for a long time.
Most of the time, Tao Yao didn't know whether it was because other people's brains were abnormal or he was sick. Maybe he shouldn't have such a face at all.
Tao Yao really thought about whether he should ruin his face, but when he thought about ruining his face because of this group of psychopaths, it seemed that he was a little more neurotic, so he didn't do such a thing.
It wasn't until he played the game "Angel with Wings" and mixed among these sand sculpture players that he finally had the feeling that he was still living in the normal world.
The people around are all normal people, they won't suddenly say or do strange things, and no one will "lick" themselves with disgusting eyes, it's really great.
but……
What exactly will happen "within the next week"?
With this in mind, Tao Yao spent the next week seriously thinking about any people and things that could be related to "avoidance". At the same time, he simply stayed in his house except for things that had to go out. inside.
After thinking about it, Tao Yao felt worried, so he just sneaked out and found a small hotel far away to live in.
Although staying in a hotel is a bit expensive, it is better than something irreparable happening.
And he really couldn't drive those words that Little Jinwu said out of his mind. Deep in his heart, there was also a strange sense of anxiety, as if telling him that something bad would happen.
On the fourth day of hiding, which is the seventh day as Xiao Jinwu said, something happened suddenly that made Tao Yao's hair stand on end.
The house that Tao Yao rented was broken into, things were thrown in a mess, all the walls were covered with bright red paint, and every stroke revealed madness.
"I love you".
"I love you."
"I love you."
"I love you……"
"Where did you go?"
On the eighth day that Little Golden Crow mentioned, Tao Yao returned to the rented room. Looking at all this in the room, a chill crawled from the soles of Tao Yao's feet to the top of his head.
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The young man looked at the little Golden Crow who was sitting there with the demeanor of a master, and asked a little bit dumbfounded: "Master Little Golden Crow, what's wrong with me?"
When Little Jinwu was telling fortunes to other people earlier, it wasn't the opening remarks.
"Yes, yes, what's wrong with him?"
The players on the sidelines seemed to be more concerned about this issue than the young man himself, if they hadn't stared at the little Jinwu.
Apollo walked over without hindrance, and stood behind the little Jinwu, acting as a "bodyguard" for the time being.The expression is unpredictable, if it is not for the three-headed body, it really looks like that.
This time, the little Golden Crow did not fiddle with his huge tortoise shell, but stared closely at the face of the young man in front of him.
This gaze made the young man a little uncomfortable. He raised his hand and touched his face, wondering what little Jinwu would say.
The game "Angel with Wings" has a face pinching function when building characters at the beginning.
I don't mean to pinch a completely different face again, but under the guidance of the system, I can make certain adjustments to my face according to the proportion, so as not to appear too exaggerated and inhuman.
In many cases, a completely different face can be obtained by changing the details of the facial features a little.
If a true master of metaphysics wants to tell fortunes by showing others' faces in the game world of "Piece of Winged Angel", then he will definitely see himself crazy first.
However, what Little Golden Crow originally looked at was not the face of the person in front of him, but the "luck" and "fate" that shrouded this person.
"Hmm..." The serious-looking little Jinwu shook his head, "I still can't see through it."
Little Jinwu was a little depressed.
Although he is not good at these, and the strength of recovery is not much.
But the person standing in front of him was just an ordinary human being...
It would be fine if those beings with advanced cultivation couldn't see through, but now he can't even see through the past and future lives of an ordinary human being.
I feel like a dead bird.
The frustrated Little Golden Crow made the players a little flustered, they had never seen Little Golden Crow like this before.
Without even thinking about it, all kinds of comforting words were spoken by the players.
As far as everyone has not forgotten, there are still two sleeping dragons who did not appear, and each of them lowered their voices and racked their brains to comfort them.
This appearance made the little Jinwu laugh again.
Seeing the little Jinwu laughing, the peach-eyed young man heaved a sigh of relief: "It's okay if you can't see through it, maybe I will be a very powerful person in the future, so you can't see through it, right?"
Little Jinwu shook his head, "No."
"Nothing?"
"There is no future."
Not only the peach-eyed young man, but other players who heard this were dumbfounded. Fortunately, including the peach-eyed young man, no one was angry because of such a sentence. They just asked puzzledly after a moment of silence, " …Didn’t Little Golden Crow Master say that he couldn’t see through it?”
"That's right... If you can't see through it, what does it mean?"
The little Golden Crow sighed faintly, "When I said I couldn't see through, I meant I couldn't see through your past and future lives, not your present life."
Wow……
The players suddenly looked at the little Golden Crow with admiration. Unexpectedly, the well-behaved and cute little Golden Crow also learned the important skill of "pretending to be aggressive" from them.
But seeing what Little Golden Crow said, there should be a reason for what he just said.
Originally, the players thought that Little Golden Crow would have a happy reversal, but unexpectedly, Little Golden Crow suddenly spoke seriously.
"You were weak when you were born, and you were prone to illness when you were young. When you were seven years old, you suffered a serious illness. There were great changes in your family, and you saved your life. When you were 15 years old..."
The little Jinwu paused for a moment when he said this, his two small eyebrows frowned, and he muttered in his heart that human beings are really troublesome, and he said after deliberation: "When you were 15 years old, something happened that had a great impact on you, and you lived alone afterward. to date."
Little Jinwu's fortune-telling rhetoric for the young man with peach blossom eyes is very different from the previous players.
But everyone didn't pay attention at first.
When they created an account in the game, they could fill in a lot of things.
Little Golden Crow looked like an important NPC in the game, so it was no surprise that he was able to mobilize those data.
The peach-eyed young man also thought so at first, but as Little Jinwu continued to speak, the smile on the young man's face gradually disappeared.
Little Jinwu has already mentioned some things that he has never told others.
The young people felt absurd and unbelievable. The most reliable guess was that the game "Piece Winged Angel" was more terrifying than everyone imagined, and maybe their private information was investigated.
But he is not an important person. The 15-year-old secret is unknown to anyone except his parents. Even if he investigates private information, it is impossible to investigate.
Fortunately, Little Golden Crow's words were always on point.
After saying that, feeling the uneasiness of the young man, Little Jinwu looked up at him: "The point I want to say is not these, you don't have to be afraid."
The worry and sincerity in Little Golden Crow's eyes were conveyed, which calmed down the nervous young man.
Little Jinwu warned softly: "There are some things that cannot be solved by escaping. In the next week, you need to be more careful. Otherwise..."
Little Jinwu didn't say anything later, but the words he said earlier reappeared in the young man's mind.
"There is no future."
Little Jinwu's fortune-telling time ended here.
The peachy-eyed young man immediately went back to his homeland and went offline without giving other players a chance to ask him about the situation.
Little Golden Crow also closed the door to thank the guests for the time being.
The players outside were a little confused by this development, and gathered to discuss what just happened.
As the Greek god Apollo, he didn't understand many things about the East, but he could also see things.
"Does it matter?"
Little Jinwu shook his head, "As long as he is careful, he won't be in danger of his life."
"I mean, are you okay?" Apollo slapped the little Golden Crow's shoulder, and said slowly, "We are friends, right? If there is anything you don't like, you can tell me."
Little Golden Crow held Apollo's hand with emotion, "That's great, Apollo took the initiative to say that we are friends."
Apollo: "..."
Apollo felt the symptoms of his friend syndrome appeared again. He twisted his three-headed body and snorted, "It's good that you're fine."
Little Golden Crow looked up at the sky, and followed Apollo back into the house.
……
The young man with peach blossom eyes is named Tao Yao. He has been absent-minded since he got off the game, and the thoughts in his mind are very chaotic.
Some friends in the game also sent him messages, and most of them were asking him what was going on, but Tao Yao had no intention of replying at all.
It took him a lot of time to calm down his own opinion, instead of thinking about why an NC in the game could say those words, he instead focused his thoughts on the little Jinwu's warning.
"Don't run away." Tao Yao muttered these words, feeling very powerless.
Different from the slightly ordinary face in the game, Tao Yao has a very beautiful face, paired with those peach blossom eyes.Even when he was angry, he was extraordinarily good-looking and charming.
This is a nice way of saying it, in the vulgar words of those who have harassed Tao Yao, "Isn't it just to seduce Lao Tzu by making a fuss?"
People with outstanding looks will be very popular and attract attention since they were young, and everyone will think about giving way, or even scrambling for it.
Tao Yao has been in poor health since he was a child, and there are many children who like him and take the initiative to take care of him.
Occasionally some naive children who want to attract Tao Yao's attention will do things to bully Tao Yao, and will be "justified" by other children.
Before the age of seven, Tao Yao's life was carefree, but his body was weak.
And at the age of seven, Tao Yao's father passed away, and that's how the illness that almost killed him that year came about.
After……
Tao Yao's mother used to live an easy life, but after losing her husband, the burden of the whole family fell on her.This made Tao Yao's mother almost unable to bear it. The person who looked delicate, beautiful, innocent and kind gradually changed gradually.
She began to become bitter, mean and preoccupied, and lost the love she once had for Tao Yao.
She would always express her pain in front of Tao Yao over and over again, saying again and again: "Without you, I would never live like this now."
When she loses control of her emotions, Tao Yao's mother will also fight Tao Yao, and after the beating, she will hold Tao Yao and cry non-stop, and will say in her mouth: "I'm sorry, mom actually likes you, mom is just too uncomfortable .”
Tao Yao has always been a very considerate child, he didn't blame his mother for the change, and he also tried his best not to make trouble for his mother.
As long as it was scolded and said by his mother, he would remember it all in his heart and would not make a second mistake.
But the words "without you" still made Tao Yao start to doubt himself, maybe he really shouldn't exist, because...
Mom looks really miserable.
I don't know if all the children had suicidal thoughts when they were young. Tao Yao never had such thoughts when he was weak and sick, but he had them more than once during the years when his father left.
It started when my mother said the words "without you" over and over again, and no matter what Tao Yao did, it seemed that she couldn't relieve her mother's pain. No matter what I did, it was wrong and I was constantly denied.
He had such an idea.
He felt that his existence was worthless, that he would only make his mother miserable, and that he couldn't do anything well.
During those years, what Tao Yao got the most was "negation", but because he was worried that his mother would completely collapse when he saw him die, he became more and more reticent.
Mom's meltdown continued until she remarried.
When Tao Yao was 12 years old, his mother remarried.
For a widow with a 12-year-old child, it's hard to find a man of that quality.
A man with a stable job, good financial income, just divorced, but no children.Such conditions are not bad for Tao Yao's mother who has "suffered all kinds of hardships".
You must know that there are many men in their 40s, married and divorced with a baby, no car, no house, and no income. When they want to find a new partner, they choose young, unmarried and have no children. Yes, looking for a woman who is good-looking and can be sold.
Of course, this is part of social phenomena and cannot be generalized.
After the remarriage, Tao Yao's mother's strong sense of anxiety finally weakened, and her life also had a backbone.
Although Tao Yao's new father looks ordinary, he looks really good in other aspects. His mother has turned back into the beautiful and kind woman she used to be, and her rough face has become delicate again.She seemed to be ten years younger all of a sudden, with a smile on her face from time to time.
The mother's change really made Tao Yao relax a lot, and the idea of committing suicide rarely reappeared.
He just couldn't forget his father in his heart, and couldn't get close to his stepdad.
In the past, Tao Yao was weak and sick, and often had a fever and was admitted to the hospital. However, after life became difficult, although Tao Yao was still weak these years, his illness has eased.
Seeing that his health has improved a lot, and his mother has a stepfather to take care of him, Tao Yao proposed to live in school.
His mother hadn't spoken yet, but his stepfather resolutely denied it, so his mother also rejected the proposal.
After the proposal to live in school was rejected, Tao Yao and his stepdad got along better and better in the next two years.There are some things in school that he won't tell his mother, but he will tell his stepdad.
He began to accept his stepfather in his heart, and his temperament gradually returned to his original cheerfulness.
but……
That all changed at the age of 15.
Thinking of this, Tao Yao felt cold all over and his face turned pale. He got up and poured himself a cup of hot water and hugged himself, only to feel a little better.
Some unimaginable and terrifying things happen every day in this world. Because they have never encountered them before, many people only listen to those things as stories, and it is impossible to empathize with them.
Sometimes because the plot is too bizarre, some people will comment indifferently.
"This is too outrageous, is it a made-up story?"
"Things like this should be plots that appear in no brains, right?"
"How could such a thing happen in reality?"
Every day after the age of 15, as long as he recalled those things, Tao Yao would think about them countless times.
"Why does this kind of thing happen in reality? Why does it happen to me?"
Tao Yao thought he had a new family and everything was slowly getting better, but on his 15th birthday, he was almost raped by his drunken stepfather.
If it wasn't for him being a boy with some strength, something irreversible might have happened.
He was injured in a scuffle with his stepdad, who was worse, and was taken to the hospital.
If there was anything that broke him down more than this incident, it was his mother's attitude after it happened.
He told the whole story, but his stepfather insisted that he drank alcohol and didn't mean it, he just regarded Tao Yao as his mother.
And Tao Yao's mother...
Standing on the husband's side, he looked at Tao Yao with condemning eyes, saying that he was too aggressive and sent his stepdad to the hospital.
"If you're a little more 'careless', your father's life will be lost."
At that time, Tao Yao looked at the mother who said these words with a very dazed expression on his face. For a moment, he almost couldn't recognize that the woman in front of him was his mother.
his mother...
Is that so?
What Tao Yao was almost forced to do by his stepfather after drinking ended in a "farce".
Although his father went to the hospital, he apologized to him at the time, as if it was really just an accident.
Because the stepfather's attitude was too sincere, as well as the mother's condemnation and various analyzes in favor of the stepfather, Tao Yao almost thought that the distorted and terrifying smile on his stepfather's face when he shot him, and the merciless hands up.
After that, Tao Yao lived a "peaceful" life for a period of time.
But he found that the way his mother looked at him had changed.
It's no longer the way a mother looks at her child, it's...
Eyes full of disgust, jealousy, disgust, hatred, and even wishing him to disappear from this world soon.
When Tao Yao found out that his mother's eyes had become like this, the thought of wanting to die came out again.
Tao Yao suffered for a long time because of her mother's eyes and attitude.
Unable to eat, sleep, and think normally, the painful emotions tormented his body and mind until he could no longer support himself and was sent to the hospital.
That time Tao Yao thought he was going to die, but he woke up again, and found that his mother didn't even look at him.
Then Tao Yao suddenly figured it out.
He hasn't had a mother since a long time ago.
The painful emotions that had tormented him for a long time seemed to have left all of a sudden, and he felt his whole body relax.
He lay alone in the hospital for a long time, and then left alone.
This time, he didn't discuss with his family any more, took some things and left the house.
He first lived with an acquaintance with his classmates, then worked part-time while studying, applied to live on campus with the school, and later rented a house by himself to live alone.
The mother and stepdad in the family also have a tacit understanding, and they all treat him as an invisible person, and no one asks "why".
He just moved out by himself all of a sudden, and has been living alone until now, never caring about what happened to his mother and stepdad.
Nor did he want to care.
Tao Yao never told anyone about these things, so he just walked over by himself, and was successfully admitted to university.
His college tuition was earned by working part-time during the summer vacation after the end of his senior year of high school.
For those who are really short of money, it is not difficult to find a job to make money, especially now that technology is developing better and better, and labor costs are getting higher and higher.
A few years ago, moving bricks on the construction site could earn [-] to [-] yuan a month, but now working hard can earn [-] to [-] yuan a month, which is much higher than many ordinary white-collar workers.
Even if the development speed of the flower-growing country continues, I am afraid that in a few years there will be no need for human labor to move bricks, and it will not be easy to go to the construction site to make money by then.
But under such a tiring life, Tao Yao's frail body has become better and better, almost the same as ordinary people.
Even the game cabin used to play the game "Angel with Wings" was bought with his own money.
Tao Yao has not thought of these bad things related to the past for a long time.
Today, he would sit in front of Little Golden Crow, just to join in the fun. He was also a little curious about his fortune in the game, and didn't expect Little Golden Crow to really say anything concrete.
Who would have expected to hear such words.
Tao Yao was in a daze again, and the hot water in his hand was not so hot anymore.
Because Little Jinwu's words were so accurate, he couldn't really ignore them all. After a round of thinking, he turned back to "don't avoid", and Tao Yao thought of something else.
It also has something to do with his pretty face.
As he grew up, especially after the age of 15, the number of people who liked him became significantly more, and at the same time there were many suitors, both male and female.
After he went to university, there were many people who hinted at him openly and secretly, willing to take care of him.
But because of his stepfather, Tao Yao has not been interested in those who like him these years.
At first he would refuse, but he found that after he refused, those people seemed to be encouraged, and they became more and more aggressive and entangled.
Later, Tao Yao stopped responding, just pretended not to see those people, and stopped smiling casually at others.
Even when he looked at other people angrily, he would be said to be seductive, let alone when he smiled.
The consequence of this is that the students in the university say that Tao Yao is cold and does not take others seriously, but the number of people who like Tao Yao has not decreased. They ran to Tao Yao to confess their love, or created various opportunities to contact him. People are still in an endless stream.
Even if Tao Yao frowned, these admirers could talk for a long time.
Most of the time, Tao Yao didn't know whether it was because other people's brains were abnormal or he was sick. Maybe he shouldn't have such a face at all.
Tao Yao really thought about whether he should ruin his face, but when he thought about ruining his face because of this group of psychopaths, it seemed that he was a little more neurotic, so he didn't do such a thing.
It wasn't until he played the game "Angel with Wings" and mixed among these sand sculpture players that he finally had the feeling that he was still living in the normal world.
The people around are all normal people, they won't suddenly say or do strange things, and no one will "lick" themselves with disgusting eyes, it's really great.
but……
What exactly will happen "within the next week"?
With this in mind, Tao Yao spent the next week seriously thinking about any people and things that could be related to "avoidance". At the same time, he simply stayed in his house except for things that had to go out. inside.
After thinking about it, Tao Yao felt worried, so he just sneaked out and found a small hotel far away to live in.
Although staying in a hotel is a bit expensive, it is better than something irreparable happening.
And he really couldn't drive those words that Little Jinwu said out of his mind. Deep in his heart, there was also a strange sense of anxiety, as if telling him that something bad would happen.
On the fourth day of hiding, which is the seventh day as Xiao Jinwu said, something happened suddenly that made Tao Yao's hair stand on end.
The house that Tao Yao rented was broken into, things were thrown in a mess, all the walls were covered with bright red paint, and every stroke revealed madness.
"I love you".
"I love you."
"I love you."
"I love you……"
"Where did you go?"
On the eighth day that Little Golden Crow mentioned, Tao Yao returned to the rented room. Looking at all this in the room, a chill crawled from the soles of Tao Yao's feet to the top of his head.
The author has something to say: two more in one, see you at [-] pm in the next chapter!
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