Jiaojiu Nuanyang

When we meet again, I feel an invisible birth.

Fang Kun kept his head down while eating in silence. It took only 10 minutes from sitting at the table and picking up the chopsticks to putting down the rice bowl and getting up to go back to his room.

Fang Wei couldn't hold back his face, and scolded his son: "Fang Kun, why do you get older and more ignorant? Your Uncle Chen came all the way to visit you in R City, and you can't even speak a word?"

"Hello, Uncle Chen." Fang Kun didn't resist, put his hands in his jacket pockets, and didn't lift his head: "I'm going back to my room to write a review."

Fang Wei was even angrier now.Angrily, the man slapped his chopsticks on the table vigorously: "Why did I give birth to such a thing as you! I'm so mad!"

The woman sitting next to him didn't say a word, she coaxed her son gently, and fed the little boy fish with a small spoon——

I just steamed a small piece of silver cod, without Fang Kun's share.

In front of the little boy was an iPad with cartoons on it.Seeing the funny place, he couldn't sit still in the chair, twisted vigorously, and slapped it out, spilling all the fish in the spoon.

The woman bent down to pick it up and put it on the table in distress, and muttered: "This one will cost ten yuan, little ancestor, you can really hurt people."

Chen Jingdong only felt a throbbing pain in his head.All he could see was the thin figure standing a few steps away, his lips were stubbornly pursed and his face was filled with a negative attitude of neither compromise nor confrontation.

"It's okay, Brother Fang." Chen Jingdong had no choice but to hold a glass of wine: "Have a glass of wine, don't scold the child."

"It's just what I'm used to." Fang Wei cursed, drank a glass of wine, watched Fang Kun enter the room and closed the door, shook his head with a long sigh: "Dongzi, this kid is really hopeless."

Chen Jingdong felt stuck in his throat after eating this meal.

The child he loves and cherishes, who was said to be worthless by his biological father, exists like a shadow in this family.

What went wrong?

"Okay, Brother Fang, I'm going back to the hotel. Hold on." Chen Jingdong stood at the door, thought for a moment and asked cheekily: "Will Xiaokun show me around tomorrow weekend? I have never been to R City. "

"I'm not going to work at the port tomorrow, so I'll take you around. Our family has a car, which is convenient." Fang Wei drank half a catty of white wine, a little face-to-face, and vigorously patted Chen Jingdong, who was half a head taller than himself: "Brother Fang Take you to the seaside to eat the most authentic small seafood, a place that tourists can't find at all."

"No, no, no." Chen Jingdong slightly increased his volume, secretly anxious in his heart.This kid Fang Kun is angry with him, so he really doesn't plan to take pictures?

"You see there are so many things going on at home, son, I mean the youngest son, he is still young, Brother Fang, you rarely have a rest, so leave me alone. If it's convenient for Fang Kun—"

"Okay! What's the inconvenience?" Fang Wei made the decision without hesitation, and agreed on Fang Kun's behalf: "Where do you live, Dongzi? Actually, you should be allowed to live at home, that is..."

"You're welcome, I'm staying at the Seaside Hotel."

"That's right. I'll ask Fang Kunming to find you at the Haibin Hotel at nine o'clock in the morning." Fang Wei said hi, his eyes flushed with envy: "Your troops are well treated, and Haibin is the best hotel here. , You can see the sea when you open the window, it costs several hundred yuan a night.”

Chen Jingdong didn't try to defend himself, he smiled at Fang Wei, waved his hands at the woman and the little boy, and finally turned up the volume slightly, shouting at the closed door: "Xiao Kun, I'm leaving. See you tomorrow ,do not forget."

After walking downstairs for a while, Chen Jingdong couldn't help turning his head.

He wandered his eyes, looking up the building.

The curtains were drawn on that small window, only a very faint light reflected, reflecting a faint figure behind the curtains.For a long time without moving.

Distressed to overwhelm the mountain.Chen Jingdong clenched his fists tightly.

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Chen Jingdong suffered from insomnia.

Tossing and turning, just can't sleep.

Half a catty of liquor is nothing to him, but this afternoon and night, every bit of what happened to Fang Kun pulled his internal organs, making him feel so uncomfortable that he wanted to yell and destroy everything. All of this is to restore the boy to the kind of smile he likes.But he was so powerless.

Fang Wei is not Fang Li, and Teacher Qu is not Teacher Huang.

With different perspectives and different levels of emphasis, Fang Kun's revitalization in City A and the No. [-] Middle School in City R are like existing in two different worlds that are incompatible, absurd, indifferent, and terribly frightening to think about.

Chen Jingdong turned over and took a long breath.

There was actually an awkward relationship between him and Fang Wei.Not so familiar, but not a stranger either.Some words can't be said even if they are stuck in the throat.

If the other party is Chen Jingxi, he can speak out, and even quarrel, it doesn't matter if he fights.Because he knew where the bottom line between their brothers was, they just talked about things, and there was no overnight feud.

If the other party is a stranger, he can also point it out frankly.As for whether the other party will change or not, what he thinks is out of Chen Jingdong's consideration.Having said that, at least I am happy.

I have never been so aggrieved, because there is Fang Kun in the middle.

That kid pulled his heart, connected to his liver, grabbed his spleen, and stepped on his lungs.But the child didn't even bother to look at himself when he was eating.

How did it become like this?

In the deep night, Chen Jingdong was unusually sober.

Thinking about it, I don't think it's funny.

I have never been a mother who cares about things carefully.Even if he played so well with Gao You, he had never been like this.

He is calm enough, even a little bit of the normality of people who grew up in the city - well-mannered but cold and indifferent, with nothing to do with himself.

How come to this kid Fang Kun, everything has changed.

If he can take Fang Kun away——

What are you thinking!

There was a faint pain in the heart, which seemed to be a very familiar feeling.

When something happened to Gaoyou back then, he also watched helplessly, orders and prohibitions were imposed, and military orders were above all else.He can't ruin the entire team's mission for his own selfishness.

Not quite the same.

The same is powerless, but he can still think of a way.Time is tight, but not so urgent.

He must get Fang Kun out, he can't let Fang Wei's carelessness and short-sightedness ruin Fang Kun's future.

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"Can you make my father sever the father-son relationship with me in the newspaper?" Fang Kun sat on the reef by the sea, with a toothpick in his mouth from nowhere.

"This is impossible." Chen Jingdong was startled: "Fang Kun, why do you think so?"

"Forget it." Fang Kun said in a casual tone, opened his mouth and spat out the toothpick: "I'll just ask."

It's also the sea, but the East China Sea on the side of City R is a bit darker, not so clear and bright.Compared with the Sanya where the two had been, it was completely different.

"Do you still remember when we went to Sanya..." Chen Jingdong wanted to break the silence and repression, and ease the atmosphere.Unexpectedly, Fang Kun interrupted him directly and rudely.

"I don't remember!" Fang Kun's indifferent little face was indifferent, and he stretched his waist: "It's all in the past, it's so boring to keep mentioning it."

"Fang Kun." Chen Jingdong became anxious, took a step forward, stretched out his hand to grab the child's arm, and said in a low voice, "What's wrong with you? What can't you tell me? Didn't you call me Brother Sheng? "

Fang Kun stared at him fixedly, without speaking for a long time.

After a while, the child looked away and hummed softly. The words were almost blown away by the sea breeze, but Chen Jingdong's heart skipped a beat when he heard it.

"No one can count on it."

"Fang Wei is your father, he won't harm you." Chen Jingdong tried to reason: "Have you tried to tell him clearly, what do you want? He is different from you, he stopped studying and worked around a long time ago, maybe He can't think of so many delicate things in his mind. You have to explain to him."

"What?" Fang Kun sneered.The expression on that face even contained a bit of malicious indifference: "Say I'm not a scumbag, unlike him? Say I want to study hard? He will say," the boy imitated his father's tone exaggeratedly: "Then you Fuck it! I pay you for your reading and buy materials for you. Did I not let you study? You are not up to date! You are always kicked back by the class teacher for self-criticism! Don’t tell me that your teacher has problems, Don’t other children in that family have such a thing?”

The sea breeze was strong, causing the young man's lips to turn pink and pale: "You asked me what's wrong? Didn't you see it last night? Is it me, or is it him? Maybe he's right." Fang Kun laughed at himself, lowered his head, and said in a muffled voice, "I'm not studying that material. I'm depraved by nature. I've thought about it and stopped reading. Fuck it. That old woman doesn't like me, Don’t you just want me to drop out of school because I can’t take it anymore? Hmph, if I drop out, I’ll definitely find someone to stop her and beat her with a sack—”

"Fang Kun!" Chen Jingdong exerted force unconsciously: "Your teacher has a problem, but you can't let yourself fall because of her fault! Such an excuse is shameful!"

"It's shameful to be shameful." The young man shrugged indifferently, and lightly slapped off the man's big hand grabbing him: "It's so strong, it hurts like hell."

I feel cold all over.Chen Jingdong found that the situation he didn't want to face the most appeared.

"That old woman," Fang Kun raised his eyebrows, and stretched out his hand: "Smoke a cigarette together? Don't stare at me, my brothers all smoke, what's the big deal? Do the math, don't let me down. Talk about that old woman. I just entered junior high school here, and she is the head teacher. We didn't get married this time. She disliked me as soon as she entered the first grade of junior high school. Fuck! I didn't chase after her daughter, she made a big fuss and went to the principal every day to complain .Did you know? I have never attended her Chinese class. At first, she kicked me out and asked me to stand at the door of the classroom. Later, I was too lazy to listen to her. When she entered the door, I went out and stood in the corridor. basking in the sun, bragging with the buddy who was kicked out of the classroom with the next class. Oh, that kid got into a gang fight last year and was hacked to death. In fact, he was wronged, but he was just picked up to make up the number, so hard ,died."

Fang Kun in front of him seemed to be a different person, as Fang Li once said.Doing nothing, playing truant, fighting, picking up girls, and degrading.

Subconsciously, Chen Jingdong knew that this was not what Fang Kun really looked like, but he couldn't tell.He didn't know what words to use to make Fang Kun open his heart to him again——

Commissar Xu said.It may not be difficult for a person to open his heart to accept you, but if you do something wrong and this person closes his heart to you, it will be even more difficult to open it again.

"Fang Kun, we are friends." Chen Jingdong swallowed with difficulty: "I'm stupid, I can't tell you. But I know you are not like this. Sorry, I can't bring you back to your original life. I miss you Well, I hope you can get away with this kind of life you don’t like through your own efforts. Whether your family is satisfied or not, you have no choice. You don’t answer my calls, and I don’t know your current situation. Oops……"

"It's not bad." Today's Fang Kun has been interrupting him, rushing to talk.With a bit of deliberate and self-righteous strength: "My dad has planned my future. Ha. He plans to let me drop out of school and go to the Port Authority to drive an excavator with him. It's okay. In the Port Authority, it doesn't matter if you don't have a driver's license. There is no traffic police check. Wait a few years to save some money and buy a house. My father and the others live in a rented house, and his wife’s family is local, but the local rural area is not good. Dad bought a house. Maybe I will have to pay the mortgage? It’s not a big deal. They all live like this, and I can’t stand it. In a few years, I’ll find another woman to marry... Wife and children If you are hot on the kang, it will be like this for the rest of your life."

That kind of stagnant water in the calm, that kind of despair of eating and waiting to die, roaring with deep-seated malice and indifference, is more unbearable than pain.

"Brother," Fang Kun called him for the first time this time: "Go back, there is nothing interesting here, really. Go, don't come here again."