Jiaojiu Nuanyang

Chen Jingdong drank too much.

Sitting alone on the toilet at home, with his head in his hands, his mind was buzzing, and thousands of horses and horses walked by.

After a while, Xie Yongzhen said generously and kindly with a cigarette in his mouth: "Brother Dongzi, they are all in City A, and I will go out for a drink when I have time. I, Xie Yongzhen, can't stand it. Back then, I didn't even earn the training qualifications for Feiying But it doesn't matter, now you guys are awesome, don't you just sit here with me and drink and talk about the mountains haha, contentment!"

After a while, it was Zhao Quan's cherished words like gold and his words from the bottom of his heart: "Jingdong, you can be a good soldier anywhere."

After a while, it became Commissar Xu's earnest and earnest words: "Dongzi, you were too eager to mobilize back then, and I didn't have time to talk to you. I know Gao You's sacrifice greatly stimulated you, and the psychological intervention effect was minimal. But you just walked away without saying a word, and to tell you the truth, I am not satisfied."

Lu Ganning's words echoed in his ears: "Chen Jingdong, look at you, you don't have any energy at all. Do you still have a soldier in the ****? A tired and slippery bureaucratic style. Don't blame me for speaking badly, you are in my team It wasn't like this when I was in the school, let alone in Feiying. You are a good seed, and you will be ruined in the logistics department."

The eye sockets are hot, it is an unbearable pain, overwhelming.

The past that was sealed up, through the wine medium, broke down the thick protective door at will, and surged out, as fresh as yesterday.

Gao You has a good relationship with him, to be exaggerated, the entire field force and the Flying Eagle Special Forces Brigade know about it.

The two were recruits who joined the army in the same year, bunk bunks, from the recruit company to the same unit, and later participated in the Flying Eagle selection training, survived the devil concentration camp together, and both stayed in Flying Eagle with proud achievements. People most yearn for and desire the commando armband.

From that day on, their pride, their responsibility, they stepped on the line of life and death and attacked silently, shoulder to shoulder, back to back, tacit understanding and trust, they were watered together in the bottom of their hearts and became an unbreakable part of life.

The two of them stayed in Flying Eagle for more than three years, and they went on thrilling missions again and again, but luckily they all came back alive.

Major injuries and minor injuries are military medals, which will not make people shrink back, but will only arouse stronger courage.

The difficulty of the task that came out was not small.Gao You went out as Feiying's most powerful blaster back then, and Chen Jingdong was the sniper.

When the accident happened, everyone was caught off guard.

Gao You installed all the explosive devices and pressed the delay start switch. As a result, the mission person did not know what kind of call he received, yelling that the whole staff fell into a state of frantic alert.

Gao You can't come out.

Chen Jingdong was lying on his stomach less than 200 meters away from Gaoyou.

For 200 meters, he sprinted with all his strength in less than 22 seconds.But he couldn't move, and the captain's voice changed into a split in the communication channel.

All personnel entered the first level of alert.In situ.Do not act without authorization!

The finger holding the trigger was shaking all the time, and Chen Jingdong was lying on the tree, looking at the warehouse not far away, tears streaming down his face.

3 minutes, countdown.

Gao You smiled easily in the headset, as if he didn't care.

Dongzi, let me sing you a song.

It's always fun to go through difficult times together.I don’t believe in despair, I don’t feel hesitant, I compete in my dreams, I work hard every day, I’m in the wind and rain, I wake up and get drunk…

All the team members on that expedition cried.

In Chen Jingdong's Cantonese singing that always made fun of his inaccurate accent, the dazzling light of the explosion condensed Gao You's short-lived but blooming youthful last fireworks of life.

During the years of training together and fighting together, Gao You's favorite thing to say was the quack-like line in the old Hong Kong movie Young and Dangerous——

As a brother, there is no afterlife in this life.

It turned out that Chen Jingdong was not willing to listen, and always scolded him for mourning.It wasn't until Gao You's death that Chen Jingdong found out that if he wanted to scold him in the future, there would be no one to scold him.

Chen Jingdong sniffed, and thoughtlessly pulled a handful of roll paper and covered his face.

After returning to the team after completing that mission, he will die.

This failure is reflected in various aspects.At first, it was psychological. Counseling and intervention did not work at all. Chen Jingdong smoked all night and could not sleep.As soon as you close your eyes, there are piercing explosions and dazzling flashes.Later, it gradually became serious and began to affect his training and his daily life.Until one time on the shooting range, a rookie who had just joined the team for less than a year had his self-esteem destroyed by a ten-shot match. Chen Jingdong put down his gun and realized that he had no place to stand in Feiying.

In fact, it is very clear in my heart that Feiying has never lacked good partners and good brothers like them, and the tacit understanding is perfect.Similarly, Chen Jingdong was not the first batch of good brothers and good partners who went out together but failed to come back together, nor will they be the last.Someone must understand his mood.But others don't understand, for Chen Jingdong personally, this feeling of losing his brother is devastating, an unavoidable and eternal pain.

That kind of lethality is big enough to fight against the profession he is proud of and destroy it in one fell swoop.

It was under such circumstances that Chen Weiguo decisively took him back to the logistics department of city A after a phone call.He, Chen Jingdong, was once the most disgraceful deserter.

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Before arriving home from get off work, Mother Chen called Chen Jingdong and told him not to take off the order in a hurry when the weather was cold, and to cover up the cotton wool trousers for a while.When it was over, he complained about him, Xiaokun was no longer in City A, and he didn't see Chen Jingdong go home for dinner.

Such a mention brought back the child that Chen Jingdong didn't want to think about.

Chen Jingdong didn't hesitate before calling Fang Kun.

Whether you are friends or brothers, it should be the bottom line not to interfere in each other's family affairs.

But he couldn't forget Fang Kun's attachment to Fang Kun when he stepped back and turned back three times before he left. He was worried that the child would give up on himself and ruin the hard work of the previous period.

As a result, after two and a half years of mental training, Chen Jingdong went home at night and ate a takeaway box lunch, typed a draft for a long time with a cigarette in his mouth, and when he pressed the dial button on the phone, his heartbeat flustered——

Fang Kun didn't answer.

The monotonous beeping sound kept ringing until it automatically hung up after nearly 1 minute.

Dazed for a few seconds, Chen Jingdong comforted himself that maybe the child was busy.Either busy with homework, or busy with his brother.

Didn't Fang Wei also say that there are many things at home, and Fang Kun is required to help.

It's okay to comfort myself, Fang Kun will be able to call back later.But in Chen Jingdong's subconscious, his heart was always on his mind.The sixth sense told him that it was not the reasons he guessed.

The truth that he didn't want to face surfaced, Fang Kun just didn't want to answer his phone.

The clock on the wall ticked, and an hour passed quickly.Three hours passed quickly.

The screen of the mobile phone in front of Chen Jingdong was always black, reflecting the bright ceiling lamp above his head.

Smiling self-deprecatingly, the man rubbed his brows, got up and went to wash.

It doesn't matter if you don't want to think about Shu, or if you hold a grudge.Children are the most forgetful, aren't they?They have been moving forward, losing all the way, always embracing the freshest and most fascinating, and like to come and go quickly.

To Fang Kun, he, Chen Jingdong, was just a piece of driftwood in a bad time.Now that the whole family is reunited and everyone is happy, who will remember those pasts?

There was a voice in my heart that disagreed with him——

Fang Kun is not that kind of child.He has a deep affection for his grandparents, so why would he throw away you, Chen Jingdong?

It would be nice if Fang Kun was already full.

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Fang Kun didn't answer Chen Jingdong's calls and didn't return them, but that didn't mean he had a complete break with City A and no contact with anyone.

When Chen Jingdong saw Fang Kun's photo on Zheng Shunshun's phone, Chen Jingdong felt so mixed up in his heart that he couldn't express it.

A little bit of hatred, and a little bit of childish resentment, like a puppy being robbed of its bone.

"Uncle," Zheng Shunshun sat opposite him, the bright spring sunshine came in from the large floor-to-ceiling windows of McDonald's, golden, soft and spread on the girl's black hair, and her energetic face: "It's really nice to bother you again." Sorry, but I'm worried about Fang Kun'er."

Chen Jingdong stared at the boy with a cynical smile on the screen in front of him: "Is there a problem? It seems that he is doing well."

"That's not true." Zheng Shunshun bit his lower lip: "I talked to him twice on the phone. One time he was at home, he didn't say anything, he just fooled me, but I could hear the other side, The crying of the child, and the movement of playing mahjong, one can imagine how bad his learning environment is! Also, I haven't called him for a few minutes, and his father should be yelling at him over there. , Said him, said he didn't learn well, at a young age, just..." Zheng Shunshun blushed, and it was quite difficult to say: "Anyway, I misunderstood the relationship between the two of us. Fang Kuner didn't explain, just told me Say goodbye and hang up the phone."

Feeling depressed.Chen Jingdong tugged at the collar of his shirt, trying to make an objective comment without personal emotions: "Maybe you are too pessimistic. Xiaokun has a younger brother, who is young and hasn't gone to kindergarten yet. It's normal for children to cry. As for Playing mahjong, heh, adults sometimes need a little leisure and relaxation, maybe you just happened to meet it. You also said that you had a total of two phone calls with him. His father, "Chen Jingdong exhaled : "I have seen that people are not bad, but they don't read much, and the way of caring for children is relatively, uh, simple and rude."

"Uncle, I'm not a child!" Well, these half-grown children always like to flaunt that they have matured and are no longer children.In this regard, Zheng Shunshun is the same as Fang Kun: "There was another time when we went out for a spring outing. I was so happy that I forgot that he was supposed to be in class, so I called. It was about eleven o'clock in the morning, and he was playing billiards outside. ! If you still don’t believe this uncle, then I’ll show you this!”

The little girl was furious, took her mobile phone, lowered her head and pressed it quickly, brought up a webpage and pushed it over again: "Here, look, Fang Kuner's school website. It's only been a month since school started. Penalties are up!"

The smaller the phone screen, the smaller the photo.But even if that appearance is as big as a sesame seed, Chen Jingdong won't admit his mistake at a glance.It's Fang Kun.

One inch ID photo.The boy's hair was shaved short, and he looked cold-eyed, looking like a stunned young man.

Suddenly, what Fang Li said that day came to mind——

Forget it, we have done our best for Xiaokun, and we can't carry his future through to the end.

My heart was sour and swollen.It's only been a month. Is this still that shy, stubborn, and inferior boy with a sunny smile?