run to him

After the great cold, the mountain city seems to be stealing a little warmth from the successive cold waves.It was sunny for several days in a row, and there was still fog in the morning and evening, but the sky was much clearer.

For most people, the New Year doesn’t change much. It’s just that from December to January, they don’t feel any emotion when they see similar clouds and water. Only when they still can’t change the habit of writing the date will they suddenly jump out I slammed on my reminder, then woke up and realized: Ah, it's been a whole year.

Lin Chan shrank behind the drawing board, secretly peeled off a piece of fruit candy and put it in her mouth.He pressed the green apple flavor under his tongue, and it was very refreshing after the sweet and sour spread.

The first time I found fruit candies from the side pocket of my backpack, I didn't think it was a surprise, but after finding one or two every day, Lin Chan thought, Jing Ye might have specially prepared them for him.

It wasn't a New Year's gift, but it reminded him by mistake: It's a new year.

And he is there for you every day.

Most of the fruit candies are green apples and lychees that he likes, occasionally mixed with lemons that he doesn't like so much but acceptable.

After the first model exam, the school's classwork eased a little, but the training for the art college entrance examination was like an unstoppable mountain pressing on the boy's shoulders.The pressure on both sides doubled, and Lin Chan had to give up the romance, put away her thoughts of teasing Jing Ye, and be a "good boy" who concentrates on studying at important moments in life.

However, to a certain extent, his strategy of taking retreat as an advance was successful, fueling Jing Ye's arrogance.

Today it is fruit candy, and tomorrow it will become breakfast of love and the peeled fruits that appear on the desk from time to time—the shape is bumpy and the size is uneven, and he can tell whose masterpiece it is just by looking at it.

After all, a rough person like Jing Ye can do it by eating fruits and washing himself, how can he be so meticulous.

I was taken care of...

There is also a little clumsy but gentle gesture.

When Lin Chan realized this, the corners of her mouth turned up involuntarily, and it was too late to suppress it, so the teacher who was changing the painting in front of her had a panoramic view, and deliberately reminded him to cough twice.

"...What?" Lin Chan pressed the corner of her mouth, returning to her usual cold expression.

In the eyes of the studio teacher, his coldness is nothing more than a child's trick. Chi Nian has long since stopped taking it seriously like when he first came here, and he put the revised drawing under Lin Chan's eyes: "Some small details are still there." Pay attention again, during the exam, don't practice like you usually do to save trouble—how many schools have you applied for this time?"

"Teacher Tu said that anyone who can apply can be reported. Teacher Tao and her have an explanation, and I will listen to them." Lin Chan paused, and found a little bit of surprise in Chi Nian's eyes, and couldn't help being a little annoyed, "What are you doing!"

Chi Nian: "I didn't expect you to be so obedient."

"Critical period." Lin Chan blew a breath, pulling up her too long bangs, "Besides, you are all for my own good."

He always mocked when he imitated adults, but halfway through the sentence, he seemed to be poked in the heart, and a warm feeling flowed out, and the second half of the sentence that followed was not so thorny.

After a moment of surprise, Chi Nian smiled, and put the pencil in the groove on the top of the splint: "Then remember to read the traffic information in time."

"what?"

"This year's Chinese New Year is early. Generally speaking, you won't wait until the [-]th day to start the single-entry exam. If the time is advanced, there will be more questions. Now that you have signed up, you must prepare for the test center to be in Beijing." Chi Nian reminded .

The topic should have ended here. After Lin Chan finished thanking the teacher, she held the painting and studied it for a while and then suddenly asked: "Last time you said that if there is something you can't find someone to talk to, you can make a fuss with the studio teacher. Right?"

Chi Nian: "Huh? Yes, I mentioned that...you..."

What's the problem?

Lin Chan didn't speak, and rubbed the edge of the drawing paper with her fingers.

At the end of every day's training, I concentrated on changing the paintings, and left after finishing the corrections. The other students had almost left, and sporadically two or three chatted with other teaching assistants at the door.At this time, the classroom was empty, with the left obliquely ahead, the setting sun was warm and brilliant, dyeing the white curtains and the terrazzo floor a soft orange.

Seeing that he was silent for a long time, Chi Nian got up and took a pack of biscuits from the cabinet in the corner, and carried a stool for Lin Chan.

"Sit down and talk." Chi Nian broke open the biscuit and handed it to Lin Chan, trying to stir up the topic, "Actually, at this age, it's normal to think about everything, and you're still young, if you meet someone at home or school... ..."

Lin Chan shook her head: "It's about feelings."

The movement of biting the biscuit stopped for a beat.

Lin Chan was afraid that he might misunderstand, so she quickly said, "It's someone else, I've known him since..."

"Scared me." Chi Nian said exaggeratedly. Seeing Lin Chan smiling, he knew that the matter was over, so he relaxed and scratched his hair—his hair was soft, and when it grew long, it could be cured after being rubbed twice. A messy bird's nest—half joking and half guessing, "Why, did you fall in love at school?"

Lin Chan shook her head again: "The first love I told you about... didn't like me before."

"Hey?"

"But it seems that I have started to like it recently, a little bit, and the sense of distance is not obvious."

Chi Nian asked, "Isn't that great?"

"Right, so at this time, when the other party gives a little response, he will start to think, 'Do I really care about him', 'I should only be persistent because I didn't get it before', 'Maybe I really don't like it that much'... I don't know if you have experienced it." Lin Chan said, frowning, but her body's guard movements relaxed.

He is not very old, and he doesn't understand too complicated feelings. He used to understand that liking is liking, but when he really implemented it, he suddenly started to panic because of the imminent love.

If, if Jing Ye confesses, or expresses an obvious meaning...

do we really want to be together

It's good to be ambiguous, and it's not bad to know well, but after being together, you will start to quarrel.Movies, TV dramas, and novels are all portrayed in this way, and there are still many contradictions and rifts behind. Only after experiencing it can we welcome the finale of "living happily together", but no one is sure whether they will part ways after encountering these in reality.

In other words, did he handle it well?

If he and Jing Ye can't make it to the end, what is the effort now?

Lin Chan couldn't figure it out.

The boy who has always been very stable showed his 17-year-old confusion. Chi Nian's heart softened when he saw it, and the movement of raising his hand to touch his head froze in mid-air, and instead flicked Lin Chan's brain.

"It hurts!" Lin Chan covered her forehead and glared, "Where did you learn that!"

Chi Nian is confident: "The boyfriend is there."

Lin Chan: "...Tch!"

"Kids think so much all day long, be careful of hair loss." Chi Nian withdrew his hand and ate the biscuits without any psychological burden, "If you really like it, you have to take this step, and if you have conflicts, you will do it later, no There are only a few people who quarrel. And it’s okay to quarrel, let’s communicate slowly... The title of ‘first time’ is not the most precious thing, I told you before.”

At the end of November, when Jing Ye had just returned to Chongqing, they were sketching at the Nanshan Observation Deck.Just at the intersection of the two emotions, there was a moment of confusion, and Lin Chan was restless.

Chi Nian comforted him, "Just keep a little liking."

If that's all it is, then he should be able to do it.

It's normal to have conflicts and disagreements, wait until problems arise and let everything go back to the original, to like him.If they really are the best fit for each other, liking will dissolve the edges and corners.

It's called being "together".

Before being together, he and Jing Ye have to face each other's hearts, right?

"Oh..." Lin Chan seemed to think about it, seeing Chi Nian's serious face as a life mentor, she suddenly thought of a prank, and smiled badly, "Teacher Chi."

Chi Nian was vigilant: "What are you doing? As soon as you call me Teacher Chi, nothing good will happen."

Lin Chan: "You were talking about so much truth at the time, and then you said don't mind your first failure, and then you were afraid that I would take it too seriously... Did you misunderstand something?"

Chi Nian let out a short "Hey" and hurriedly shut up.

After all, there was something wrong that only the person involved could tell clearly, after Chi Nian finished "Hey", he stared at Lin Chan in bewilderment.The other party was unmoved, and he said again: "It's reasonable, you're a minor... Besides, I wouldn't have come to Chongqing without Brother Xi, forget it, I'll treat you to milk tea another day, the positive and the negative are equal."

"I don't want you to invite me, it's all a mess." Lin Chan laughed.

"Then I wish you a smooth relationship?"

Lin Chan patted him on the shoulder like an adult: "I borrowed your auspicious words from Mr. Chi, and suddenly felt that it is not impossible to be friends with you, but your boyfriend is too fierce, it is better not to invite other people to eat."

"Is he fierce?"

"It's fierce." Lin Chan put on a pure and benign face, "It looks like the type that will break someone's leg if they don't pay the rent when collecting rent. You should pay more attention."

Chi Nian looked at him speechlessly.

Lin Chan succeeded in her mischief, broke a small biscuit in half, patted the crumbs that accidentally fell on her pants, and said seriously again: "But thank you very much, I understand a very important thing."

Chi Nian smiled: "That's not a waste of time."

"Aren't you curious?"

"It's important that you know it yourself."

After Chi Nian finished speaking, he stood up and picked up the plaster specially placed in the front row.

The cell phone in the coat pocket vibrated, Lin Chan looked down, and sent him a wechat message: We're at the bus stop outside your studio, is get out of class over yet?

Pressing and holding the happy little yellow face, Lin Chan paused and chose the grin above.

"I'm leaving, teacher, see you hard work, teacher!"

The ending sound echoed in the studio, and when Chi Nian turned his head, the boy who was still a little bit sad just now jumped out of the classroom and ran away.After a while, his figure appeared downstairs, heading towards the setting sun.

It's rare to be so energetic, Chi Nian thought.

After school time, the bus stop on Huangjueping Main Street is crowded with young faces.

When Lin Chan arrived at the station, she was confused for a moment, and then behind the billboard, she spotted a sneaky person wearing a disposable mask, black clothes, and a black baseball cap, looking at a puppy basking in the sun on the street.

Black is the most common color, but when Jing Ye wears it, his whole demeanor suddenly becomes colder, not as easy to bully as usual, showing the loneliness of alienation from the crowd.

Will Jing Ye be lonely?Lin Chan thought for no reason.

Just as he was about to walk over to call for someone, Jing Ye had already seen him and waved his hand very slightly.

Lin Chan trotted two steps: "Why didn't you drive today?"

"Limited numbers." Jing Ye conveniently pulled up the hood of his coat and put it on Lin Chan's head.

Lin Chan: "Then you don't have to say anything..."

"I just want to come." Jing Ye smiled and patted Lin Chan on the back of the head again, before asking, "I thought you had finished class early, what's the matter? It took so long."

"Talked with the teacher for a few words... hey, 223 Road!"

With a long brake, the bus pulled into the platform and stopped.The car door opened with a "creak", and the crowd swarmed up. When the door was about to close, Lin Chan grabbed Jing Ye's hand and somehow went up.

It's not a festival, but the bus is so crowded that there are no seats and we have to stand opposite each other in the middle.

When the two found a place to stay, the bus driver impatiently started the car.Before Jing Ye could stand still, the sudden start made him fall backward uncontrollably, trying to grab the back of the chair in a hurry——

Holding his arm with one hand and pulling it back, Jing Ye instinctively bent over and bumped into Lin Chan's chin.

Before the painful words could be spoken, Lin Chan took half a step back, but the hand that was not holding the ring did not move back, and was still protecting Jing Ye.

"Be careful." After speaking, Lin Chan turned towards the window.

The clear and crisp juvenile voice in my memory suddenly became like an adult, deep and magnetic, as if I could touch the resonance of my throat and chest...

It took Jing Ye a long time to say "hmm", but Lin Chan didn't hear the meaning in it.

The scenery outside the window receded, and the brilliant dusk was gradually left at the top of the long slope.Lin Chan stared intently at the car window, where the shadows of him and Jing Ye were reflected - and he was obviously taller than Jing Ye.

From having to raise his eyes slightly, to now when his eyes are lowered, he can focus on him——

"I used to think I liked Jing Ye, because Jing Ye was Jing Ye. After he left, I anesthetized myself, thinking, he just happens to be the type you like, and you can also like other people who are similar to Jing Ye...

"But when Jing Ye came back, I couldn't figure it out again.

"I still like Jing Ye, if I can't let go, I will continue to like him, he walks towards me, or I run towards him.

"I want to hug him, every spring, summer, autumn and winter."

This is what he just realized, very important.