Rebirth of Su Zhan

Su Zhan saw his mother drawing at the big desk. It looked like it was a Chinese painting. The corners of her pink mouth were slightly raised, and her profile was quiet and gentle, like a classical beauty stepping off a meticulous painting.The melancholy he felt when he was standing at the window just now was gone.

As soon as Zhong Yiying looked up, she saw the heads of two children poking in from the door. Their pink, tender and fair looks were elves and cute, and she smiled warmly in her heart, "Zhaner Faner, isn't it?" Are you playing football below? Why did you come to the study suddenly, is there something wrong?"

Su Zhan ran to his mother, hugged her leg and said, "Mom, are you painting? What are you painting?" Su Fan had already scratched the edge of the table to look at the painting on the table——

I saw green hills with ink and wash, blue tiles and gray walls, and rivers running across them. Climbing up the steps, it is a simple and elegant temple.The vegetation has withered, and there seems to be a thin layer of snow on the hexagonal pavilion with double eaves.

Although the painting is similar to freehand brushwork, it reveals a sense of desolation and coldness.It is not at all the atmosphere that Myanmar would have in the hot weather.And there are two small poems written on the side of the painting, Su Zhan is hiding in his mother's arms and leaning on the side of the table, staring intently at——

"Hanshan Temple outside Gusu City, the bell rings to the passenger ship at midnight." Su Zhan read each word softly, but his childish voice was like the distant and long bell coming from Hanshan Temple in the morning light of Xiaosu in winter The sound hit Zhong Yiying's heart one after another.

After Su Zhan finished reading, he heard his mother's voice ringing above his head, but it was wirelessly lonely and lonely-"Hanshan Temple outside Gusu City, the midnight bell to the passenger ship."

Su Fan knew this poem, tilted his head and asked Zhong Yiying, "Auntie, is this the Hanshan Temple in Suzhou City? This poem was written by Zhang Ji of the Tang Dynasty."

Then the clear and immature childish voice suddenly answered, "Auntie, are you homesick?"

Su Zhan raised his eyes and looked at Su Fan, but his heart moved. Yes, his grandfather, whom he had never met, was from Suzhou, and his mother also grew up in Suzhou before going out to study.But when she came back, her country and hometown had fallen into guns, ammunition, burning, killing and plundering.Su Zhan himself was born and raised in Myanmar, and he had never been to China in his last life, let alone Suzhou, the hometown of his grandfather and mother.

And Su Zhenggang himself was an orphan without father and mother, and General Zhong led him out of Chahar. At that time, Su Zhenggang had only one purpose in joining the army—to have something to eat, to survive, in the Northeast, in Chongqing, to Yunnan, go to Myanmar, in short, it doesn't matter where you can live.Even when the national army withdrew to Taiwan and the route from Yunnan to Hainan to Taiwan was cut off, he did not feel like other national army generals that he was completely abandoned, as if the sky was falling.

It's funny to myself, but I never thought that my mother and the general's father are different.Until I died in the lake in my last life, I never thought about why my mother always liked the poems and songs of Jiangnan most of the time; she always liked to drink tea and chat with guests from China. The window, looking far to the north.

Going over those layers of mountains and passing through those lush forests is the national border, her country, her hometown.

Zhong Yiying was amazed by Su Fan's intelligence and dexterity, looking at the handsome and gentle face of his eldest son, he just felt that if Su Fan grew up in the southern country at this time, what a gentle and refined boy he would be, not in this barbaric, full of A foreign land of war and poppies.

She smiled but didn't answer, she only asked Su Fan to stand in her arms and squeezed next to Su Zhan, Zhong Yiying put her arms around the two children and pointed to the painting and said, "This is Hanshan Temple, it's in the mother's house." Hometown, what Ah Fan said is right, it is in Suzhou. There are small bridges and flowing water, and wonderful gardens. With a longing look, "It's a very beautiful place."

"Every New Year's Eve, my grandpa and grandma take my mother to Hanshan Temple to burn incense and worship the Buddha to listen to the bell. At night, the sound can be heard far and far away. Next to it is the Grand Canal, and boats passing by on the river can hear it. That's why It's the midnight bell to the passenger ship..."

Su Zhan and Su Fan looked at each other, because Zhong Yiying just hugged them and chattered, as if telling a story in a dream.

Su Zhan looked at the Hanshan Temple described by his mother, and listened to the descriptions she narrated, as if in those moonlit nights, the long and long bells penetrated far and far away through the deep night.

Su Zhan raised his head and reached out to touch Zhong Yiying's face. He said solemnly to his mother, "Mom, when I grow up, I will take you back to China. Let's go to Suzhou."

Su Fan also nodded at the side, stretched out his hand to caress Zhong Yiying's hand and said, "Yes, when the time comes, when the New Year comes, Dad, I and my younger brother, let's go to listen to the bells of Hanshan Temple together as a family."

Zhong Yiying grabbed the hands of the two children and put them in her arms, touched their foreheads affectionately, and said with a smile, "It's okay if you can't go back. Mom is already very happy to have two good sons. Bi Tinghan The bells of the mountain temple are still ringing happily. As long as you two brothers are well, it doesn't matter where your mother is."

This is the first time that Su Zhan has a desire to work hard for it - to go back to China, to go back to Suzhou.As Su Fan said, during the Chinese New Year, the whole family went to listen to the bells of Hanshan Temple under light snow.

Because even at this moment, Su Fan and his mother don't know how difficult this matter will be.They, like all the thousands of Kuomintang soldiers who stayed in the Golden Triangle, are foreign orphans abandoned by Taiwan and the mainland.

Before Su Zhan's grandfather died, they and several teachers guarded the radio station which had been repaired for three days and three nights, finally waiting for the order from the Taiwan authorities.A telegram and a few words can change the fate of everyone's life—you have to find your own way out.

Since then, they have been surrounded by the Chinese, Burmese and Thai governments on three sides. They have a country and a family in the north, but they have nowhere to go. They stay in a foreign country and are driven out.As a last resort, the troops who could not survive started the drug caravan business. They wanted weapons and an army because they wanted to fight for territory and a place to stay; they wanted to make money and survive because they had to exchange for food.

What Su Zhan knew was that until his death, many people were still orphans in foreign countries without nationality.

How easy is it to return to China?

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On the second day, Su Zhenggang had nothing to do, and was taking Su Zhan and Su Fan to ride a horse. The two children rode the same horse.As the relationship between Su Zhan and Su Fan got better day by day, General Su's wife, who was happy in her eyes, was also in a better mood, and even General Su was in a better mood.

Although he didn't pay much attention to Su Fan, but seeing the youngest son and eldest son getting along in harmony without arguing, and looking at the white and tender faces of the two sons, Su Zhenggang felt that there was still a heavy task on his shoulders—he had to Bring up the two sons well, let them continue to be in the army, and take care of the army that stays here.Su Zhenggang, who wished to become a 24-year-old father, personally held the reins for his sons, and explained the precautions and key points of horse riding to the older and younger sons.

Su Fan is relatively big, so he sat behind Su Zhan, holding the rein with both hands under his father's guidance, but he didn't dare to use much force.Bowing his head is the top of his younger brother's hair, which is soft and lustrous in the sun, and he can even smell the smell of toffee on his body.Pressing against his younger brother's limp body, Su Fan felt his heart was full.

Su Zhan was even more comfortable.

The sun was just right, and I was warmed by the sun. The pony, a special product of Myanmar, walked step by step like a cradle under the traction.With the protection of his father and elder brother, he could sit on the horse with his eyes closed and fall asleep. He could simply lean on Su Fan and squint his eyes to rest his mind. He squinted his eyes leisurely, let his eyelashes filter out the sunlight as much as possible, and listened half brightly and half dimly. Hearing the old man's explanation and the pony's footsteps "clack-tack-tack", he was so comfortable that he couldn't help but want to whistle.

A small soldier ran over in a hurry, first saluted Su Zhenggang with a standard military salute, and then hurriedly whispered a few words into General Su's ear.

"What! The whole army was attacked?" Su Zhenggang suddenly asked the soldiers loudly.Because he was too shocked, General Su's loud voice was played to the extreme. The voice that shouted the password for more than 20 years was not covered, and so coincidentally pointed at the ear of the little pony, directly took a step forward and swung the tail of the little pony Surprised.

Su Fan, who was studying carefully while not forgetting to protect his younger brother, and Su Zhan, who almost fell asleep leaning on his elder brother, almost fell off his horse. Fortunately, Adjutant Li and General Su, who had been following him all the time, hurriedly Pulling the rein, Qi Li calmed down the frightened horse.

A little kid who was so frightened that his face was a little pale still didn't forget to look down at his younger brother's expression, and tried to comfort him calmly, "Is my younger brother scared? It's okay, it's okay, my brother is here, I will protect you! "

Su Zhan was dumbfounded by someone accusing him of becoming a younger brother during this period of time. It is really unacceptable to have a brother who wants to tie Su Zhan to his belt and carry him away for 24 hours.

Su Zhan hummed silently to Su Fan who thought he was a protector, "I wasn't scared! But Ah Fan, your complexion is very bad, you shouldn't be as surprised as Xiao Ma!"

Su Fan was very embarrassed, but he could only purse his lips, and calmly said to his younger brother, "I was just too worried about you just now."

Su Zhenggang, who was so frightened by the small accident that he almost fell off the horse, was so frightened that he hugged the two sons, one on the left and the other on the right, and ordered the pony to be taken back to the stable, and he carried the two sons to the main house.

Lieutenant Li followed, and asked as he sprinted, "General, is there something wrong with that batch of goods?"

Su Zhenggang's complexion was ugly at this time, his black and thick eyebrows were tangled, and his smiling face when he was facing his son was also removed. The whole person looked extremely severe, and even though he didn't say a word, it made people feel even more timid.

"Let Mr. Cai, Mr. Liu, and the commanders under them come over to Lao Tzu for all the mess! By the way, let him send the news to General Chen and General Feng, saying that our troops were beaten by Laos That’s right, there’s no need for it, I guess Lao Feng already knew about it, and his subordinates did a good job! But that bastard in Laos dared to beat our people, his grandma!”

General Su became angry, he even forgot all the words his wife told him to be gentle in front of his sons.

A General Su who was carrying them was still walking vigorously in his military uniform. Su Zhan and Su Fan wrapped their arms around General Su's neck and looked at each other suspiciously.

What Su Fan thought was, is there going to be another fight?

Their life here seems to be peaceful, and they don't have the feeling of drifting in a foreign country like rootless duckweed as deeply as Yiying, but Su Fan also knows that this is not their country in the first place, Burmese and Thai Even China, which has never been to China, is trying to expel them.But Taiwan, where they were supposed to belong, could not go back.