between men and women

No.20 eight posts

People can't control who they fall in love with, but they should be able to control who they don't hurt.

After realizing that I already had that kind of thought about Peng Zhiran, I started to distance myself from him.The lessons learned by Jia Qinghe are there. In the era when homosexuality was regarded as perverted, I never imagined that I could bend straight men.

But I'm too close to Peng Zhiran, I can't make it too obvious with my tablemate and the lower berth.

So I started calling Zou Feng and Liu Gang when I was eating.The two of them are also meal buddies, I told Zou Feng, now that we are both in the second grade, why are we still eating and cooking in two foolish ways? Should we take advantage of our seniors? If one person queues up to order the dishes for four people, it will be fine if the time comes to help them out. If the four of them eat together, they can eat a few more dishes.

Zou Feng and Liu Gang thought it was good to hear it, but no one would be lazy.

So the four of us ate together, as long as two of us went to buy food and vegetables every day, and the other two went to the dining area automatically when the time was almost up.I deliberately diverted from ordering meals on the same day as Peng Zhiran, and always bought groceries with Zou Feng and the other. I ate faster and faster. After eating well, I always used this as an excuse to go first, so as to shorten my time with Peng Zhiran. time.

I thought it was inevitable for two people to sit together in class, but I didn't expect that there was a sudden trend of changing deskmates in the class.There was a girl named Bo Rong who had a good time with Zou Feng before.She is the kind of girl who is carefree and gossips, and has a straightforward personality. One time Zou Feng sat behind her in an exam and asked her to copy the answers, and she gave it very quickly. Later, the two became acquainted.

Bai Rong felt that the political education class was boring, so he changed seats with Zhou Taoyu before class, and sat and chatted with Zou Feng.After chatting for a few times, one day she suddenly came to me to change seats, saying that she wanted to chat with Peng Zhiran.I changed it with him.

I don't know what she talked with Peng Zhiran in class, I just know that they didn't talk too much about each other. Bai Rong's deskmate is Shi Jienan, she is a pretty girl, and she can be regarded as the fifth in our class. One of the golden flowers, seeing me drawing things on the book, asked me if I had learned sketching before.

I learned some when I was young, but I stopped learning after two years, so I chatted with her a few times.

Afterwards, for some reason, Bo Rong, Shi Jienan, and Chen Jianing, who was very close to them, gradually warmed up to us boys, especially with Peng Zhiran, Zou Feng, and me. They would chat with us. After the weather was cool, the three of them came up with the idea of ​​playing badminton for some unknown reason, and pulled us to play badminton with them.

I am terrible at all sports, and my level is not as good as those of the three girls. I am often disgusted by them. The three of them will take turns to fight with Peng Zhiran and Zou Feng. Whoever ends up will sit with me and watch.I like to sit by the side and watch Peng Zhiran play. Although he doesn’t play very well, he has tall legs and long legs, and his movements are very smooth. I can’t help but think of him holding my hand and playing with me that day. The look of dancing.

Since the three girls had a good relationship with us, the three of them naturally became our dance partners when we learned ballroom dancing.Although it was never agreed upon, it was natural that Peng Zhiran would pair with Chen Jianing, Zou Feng would pair with Bai Rong, and I would pair up with Shi Jienan.

A few times down the road, I found that Hou Minqi was always staring at the six of us intentionally or unintentionally. I think it was because she was rejected by Peng Zhiran after her confession, and now seeing Peng Zhiran and Chen Jianing dancing together, she felt unwilling.

Unexpectedly, after the self-study was over that night, Hou Minqi's godbrother, the senior in the third grade, came to our class to look for me.

No.20 nine posts

Inexplicably, I followed him to the platform on the sixth floor.When he got there, he said, "Stinky boy, are you in two boats?"

I was at a loss: "Why are you on two boats?"

He grabbed my front and stared at me: "I want Hou Minqi to be my girlfriend, but she told me that she likes a boy in your class, so she rejected me. When did you date Jianan these two days?" That's right, Hou Minqi looks sad when dancing! Don't you have two legs?"

I was surprised: "Since when did I have a relationship with Hou Minqi? She likes me!"

The senior's eyes popped out and he slapped me on the head: "He said it wasn't you! Don't think I don't know that you let your brother step on me on purpose that day just to dance with Hou Minqi! It's not who you are!"

I was anxious: "It's really not me!"

He patted me on the back of the head again, and I got angry all of a sudden: "You're sick! If I tell you it's not me, I'm not me. Fuck you treat her like a treasure, and I still don't like her!"

"Oh, you little boy!" He raised his hand and slapped me on the left cheek as he said.I jumped up all of a sudden and wrestled with him and started fighting!Hit me!Damn, I'm suffocating to death, and I'm worried that no one will fight!

As soon as he jumped up and punched and kicked twice, he was pulled away.It turned out that Peng Zhiran brought Zou Feng and the others here.As soon as Zou Feng hugged my waist, he pulled me back desperately: "Chen Jia, stop beating, stop beating, you will be punished if you are caught by the student department!"

"Fart!" I jumped to jump back: "Damn it, he hit me, tell me not to hit me now! Punishment is punishment!"

The senior also rushed over: "Come on, come on, who is afraid of whom?"

Liu Gang, Zhou Taoyu and the others pulled him: "You fucking hit him first, how can you be with the student department? If you want to punish him, you should be punished first. You are about to graduate, is it necessary!"

"Okay," Peng Zhiran rushed out and stood between us and shouted, "What are you hitting!" Pointing at the senior, he said, "You hit the wrong person! Hou Minqi confessed to me, you fucking beat him, you're sick Ah!" Pointing at me again: "You, you are punished for an irrelevant woman, your brain is broken!"

With his voice, we finally stopped moving.I broke free from Zou Feng's shackles and only stared at the senior. He pulled his arm out of Zhou Taoyu and Liu Gang's hands in a daze, and patted me on the shoulder: "Brother, I'm sorry, brother, I hit the wrong person. Look, what should I do?" Say an apology."

I shook off his arm and saw that there was a bag of "Hongtashan" in his slip pocket, so I reached out and took it away, shook him and said, "Two more bags!"

He smiled: "Okay." He patted my shoulder again and walked away.

Even though this matter is over like this, my breath is not over yet.I glared at Peng Zhiran, it was this bastard who just joined in the fun and caused trouble, which caused me to be slapped in the face for nothing, coupled with the recent annoyance in my heart, I couldn't let go of my breath, turned around and went into the men's room next to me, Just lit a cigarette.

Then Peng Zhi came in, winked at Zou Feng and the others, and told them to watch the wind outside, if there was a teacher or something, they could say something.

I just lowered my head and smoked fiercely, ignoring him.He stared blankly at me puffing out cigarettes, and asked, "Do you know how to smoke?"

I snorted and didn't answer.It's just smoking, I don't know anything.

My parents divorced in the first grade, and my parents remarried in the second half of the third grade. My father knew how to call friends to play mahjong at home, and sometimes asked me to go to the bathroom on the way.I sat on the mahjong table and drew cards for him in the third grade.In the fifth grade, when he and his mother had a big fight for three days and a small fight for two days, I sneaked into his cigarette, but the first time he choked badly, and the second time I didn’t feel good smoking, so I didn’t smoke it again later. I haven't smoked it.

But when I saw the pack of cigarettes in my senior's pocket today, I suddenly wanted to smoke one.I don't know why, but I just feel that the breath in my chest is very stuffy, and I don't need to do anything to spit it out, and I feel uncomfortable.

Seeing that I ignored him, Peng Zhiran silently leaned against the wall next to him and waited for me to finish smoking.I know he only thinks that I'm angry that he brought me and Hou Minqi together to cause today's incident, how could he know that besides this useless incident, he is the one who is blocking my heart even more.

As a result, I smoked two cigarettes in a row and got drunk.

No.30 posts

The feeling of drunkenness is not very good, my head is a little dizzy, and I feel a little nauseous.

Holding back the discomfort, I closed my eyes and leaned my head against the wall to relax, and felt Peng Zhiran approaching behind me.

"What's wrong with you?" He asked in a low voice.I leaned against the wall and shook my head. He stretched out his hand to break my shoulder. I was turned to face him. He suddenly froze and said, "Chen Jia, are you crying?"

I cried?I don't.I wiped the corners of my eyes and tried to push him away, but he blocked my hand, pinched my chin, and raised the left side of my face to the moonlight outside the door: "It's a bit swollen, go back and apply it." His fingertips slid across me I couldn't stop trembling, but I coveted the warmth of his fingertips and couldn't bear to avoid it.Peng Zhiran...you bastard!

I don't know what it's like for ordinary people to fall in love. After finding out that they like someone, they will pay attention to him all the time, and then get deeper and deeper.

I only know that I have always wanted to escape, but I can't escape no matter what, the place where he is is like a huge whirlpool, and there is something below that is pulling me to sink and sink, I can't extricate myself...

Ever since I was beaten, Peng Zhiran never dared to bring me together with anyone. Sometimes without knowing it, Bai Rong, who is so big, would talk about me and Shi Jiannan, and Peng Zhiran would immediately come out to stop her: " Bo Rong, don't talk nonsense."

At the end of the semester, Shi Jienan fell ill and had a two-week rest.After two classes in a row, I danced alone against the air. One day, a third-year senior stood in front of me and said that her dance partner had sprained her ankle, so let’s make do with this class.I said yes, but the second time her dance partner continued to sprain her ankle.I stared at the senior and asked, "Is it true?" Because I saw his dance partner playing basketball in the gym the day before.The senior was stared at by me for a while, a little embarrassing, she smiled awkwardly and whispered: "Well, Chen Jia, right, I just want to be your friend, you don't mind." I don't know why I three I have attracted girls older than me twice, is it because I look like I lack maternal love?I didn't want to get entangled with girls, so I said directly: "I'm sorry." Then I walked up to Peng Zhiran and said, "I'll change my partner with you."

My original intention was to let Peng Zhiran partner with the senior sister, and I partner with Chen Jianing.I don't know that Peng Zhiran's psychological shadow from last time may not disappear, he was afraid that he would piss me off again because of his messy mandarin ducks, let go of Chen Jianing with an "oh", took my hand, put on my waist and jumped stand up.

I followed him dumbfounded, and Chen Jianing and senior sister were also stunned.He kept walking for two steps before realizing something was wrong and stopped to look at me.I just let him hold hands, hold my waist, and laughed.

But to be honest, I really like the way he hugs me like this, so dumb, so silly.

well.