heart stealing game

The saddest thing in my life is not being used and abandoned by my lover, or even dying for my lover in the end.Instead, the person I fell in love with in two lifetimes was lost to myself.He fell in love with me and not me, and it was me and not me who killed him.What a sad life this is!So what's the point of my rebirth?

-- Gail

I'm Gail.Gail Ravenclaw.I am a half-breed of a magical creature and a wizard.I have the most beautiful and gentle daddy in the world.

If only I was just Gail.In this way, I won't fall in love with my daddy, get nothing after asking for it, and finally kill "myself" with my own hands, and still can't save the person I love.

Why do you fall in love?Why does that "I" not love him?This is a vicious circle, always a maze with no way out.Buried "myself", buried him, and buried me.

My name is Gail Ravenclaw.My daddy is ICE and my dad is Gellert Grindelwald.But I hated him so much, and I hated myself too.

Because I used to have a name Gellert Grindelwald too.The German Dark Lord, the owner of Grindelwald, the leader of the saints, even loves a man named Dumbledore Albus.There are two me in one world.

It's just that in the world I used to have, there was no ICE, and there was no child named Gail with Grindelwald's blood.

In that life, I was bright and arrogant as a teenager, obsessed with black magic, and then fell in love with Albus.Break with Albus.Accept the Grindelwald family, establish saints, and control the entire European magic world, except England.Then try everything possible to get back together with Albus.Finally disheartened, he duels with Albus and is imprisoned in the tallest tower in Nurmengard.Keep my love day after day.In the end, in order to save Albus, the last power of the saints was used.Then he died in embarrassment under Voldemort's Imperius Curse.

The first half of life was full of glory, and the second half of life was miserable.Everything is for a young love.

I have never concealed the cruelty, indifference and arrogance in my bones.All the saints know how iron-blooded and fierce my methods are.They are willing to surrender to me, worshiping me crazily, saying that I am a born king.I fell off the throne for Albus.Gellert Grindelwald can be fierce, cunning, cold, and ruthless.But there was nothing he could do about Albus alone.I can almost imagine other people's evaluation after death.The Dark Lord, who fell in love with the greatest White Mage, died for love.There will be praise, there will be slander, there will be longing, there will be dismissive, all kinds of speculation and evaluation.Because of my "great" love.

Why did you fall in love with Albus?In love with those blue eyes like a clear sky after rain, in love with that gentle smile, in love with that soft auburn hair?

That breath that makes people seem to live in spring forever?Everyone thought it was just a young love, but I used practical actions to make this love last my whole life.Like-mindedness, mutual attraction of personalities, and love for each other.Then there were quarrels, accidents.The death of his sister made him cruelly cut off the relationship between us.No matter how hard I tried, he used it to draw a line between us and wouldn't look back.When we saw each other again, he already had white hair, and time had marked his face heavily.The once smooth chin is a long white beard.Looking tired and embarrassed.But no matter how it changes, he is the gentle boy with the most beautiful sapphire eyes that I have always loved.It is the cinnabar engraved on my heart, which cannot be erased or erased.That's why I blocked Voldemort's Imperius Curse for him without hesitation, and even completely pushed the last foundation of the saints into the abyss, preserving his Order of the Phoenix.I finally achieved my love with death.

I never thought I would wake up again.

I woke up in the darkness, like a fish trapped in a narrow water glass, I could only move slightly in the water.No matter how hard I try to struggle.At that moment, I thought I was saved by someone.Then get stuck here in humiliation.

But the gentle and pleasant male voice slowly comforted me.

He called baby, talking to me over and over again.

The gentle tone and deep love soothed my anxiety and doubts.

I don't know why I became a child in a woman's womb.

But I know this man is my daddy and he loves me very much.

I thought people like me would go to hell when they died.The soul will also be wiped out.My hands are covered with blood, and my feet are piled up with white bones.I do not regret.Nor do they believe in redemption.

Even so, I was still not abandoned by Merlin.This is the so-called rebirth?Or it may be because the sin is too serious, even hell will not accept it.

But the long darkness actually made me, who was not even afraid of death, feel terrified.If it weren't for that gentle voice, I would probably be slowly driven mad by this situation.That voice seemed to have infinite magic power, washing my soul day by day, taking away my restlessness, irritability, and even self-defeating and self-loathing.

Probably no one would believe that such a confident Dark Lord Gellert has always been such a pessimistic person.Chasing love crazily, but in fact, at the beginning, I have already decided that this is a defeat.Then in the end, he successfully destroyed himself with this love.

Such a strong and desperate love, but after I woke up, it disappeared in the endless darkness.I have never regretted falling in love with Albus, but just putting down two words made me gradually walk out of my past.

I have also recalled countless times why I fell into it like this and ruined my life.But the source can never be found.There is no doubt that I love Albus, really, really love him.Even though I know the man who made a duel with me and finally forced me to be imprisoned in the highest tower of Nurmengard, his blue eyes are still bright but too much has been mixed.For so many years, I was the only one who stubbornly waited in place and guarded that love.Albus has long since ceased to be the boy I love.He is Albus Dumbledore, the greatest White Mage who defeated the Dark Lord to protect the wizarding world.My Albus died in an accident when he was 16 years old.

I have changed so much, how can he remain the same?

I finally faced up to my heart, and I no longer love.Merlin gave me new life, and I should accept it.I gave up everything I had as Gellert Grindelwald.

In fact, I have known for a long time that my love is over and completely withered in that duel.In the end, I chose to die for Albus, so why not my revenge?With the help of Colin Malfoy, that lunatic, even if Albus and his Order of the Phoenix can survive, they will still face the end of being completely eradicated.If I really still love Albus as much as before, I would not choose to die like this, but stand up strong and reorganize the saints.With the support behind the saints, Albus may have a chance to fight Voldemort.If I'm not wrong, there should be someone around Voldemort who can predict the future, although I also find it incredible.But I believe in the ability of the saints I created.Those news can't be false.

But so what?Gellert Grindelwald is dead, saints are ruined.Nobody was going to die for Albus anymore.

Letting go of my past, the only thing that makes me feel guilty is that those saints have always followed me, even though I was imprisoned in the highest tower of Nurmengard, they were still loyal to me for so many years, and they kept trying to take me away from there .They all betrayed saints for me.In the end, the whole army was wiped out for my own selfishness.I'm the worst boss ever.I hope they will never meet a king like me again in their next life.

The days passed slowly, and even I felt incredible.I was actually able to stay so peacefully, soaked in the water, in the dark, only accompanied by that gentle voice.

Sometimes, I even envy this mother whom I have never met, for she has such a man who loves him wholeheartedly by her side.Together they conceived me.Although the mother in this life is dumb.Over the years, I have never heard a word from her.But this man with a gentle voice loves her so much that he is by her side almost every day.This kind of love is what I have longed for but have never been able to get in my whole life.Maybe it's just that Albus really isn't the right guy for me.

At that time, I even thought, no matter what kind of magical creature I am, I will be just like my parents in this life, find a suitable and loving person, and live a normal life.Plain is the real happiness.

It's just a fantasy.Rebirth is the punishment that Merlin bestowed upon me, and everything has long been doomed.

The painful roar of the man, I felt something was wrong at that time, but subconsciously ignored it.After a while, after a while of struggling, I still couldn't get out of the prison, although I felt that I had left my mother's body.

For a month, I had to accept the fact that I became an egg again after becoming an "embryo".

What made me even more terrified was that after turning into an egg, I could feel the breath of someone close to me.The father with a gentle voice will face me, play the piano, and read books as before.Gentle and pampering.Treat it like a treasure.

But I have never felt the breath of others except him.Where is mother?Will it be like my mother in the previous life who gave birth to me and died of dystocia?

I didn't discover the truth until a man used magic power.There is no so-called mother. This fluctuation of magic power has continuously maintained my absorption for nearly six or seven years. How could I not be familiar with it?From the beginning to the end, there is no mother who can't speak that I imagined, only this man who I don't know whether to call my father or my mother.

I even suspect that this is not my world. Men can have children. What kind of world is this?I was deeply troubled.

But these cannot destroy my closeness and love for this man.Regardless of whether he is a father or a mother, the love he has paid for me for so many years.He is the only family member I care about the most.

I will be a good son, make him proud and make him happy.

When I was bored alone, I also made a lot of guesses.Living alone with children.Is the lover dead?Or was it abandoned?Or was it accidental?

It should be the former.He loves me very much.It is because I am the crystallization of his love.

20 years doesn't seem like a long time to me.Coming out of the shell, this embarrassing way of birth, when I saw his silly smile, everything disappeared.

I tried my best to find fault with him, and secretly called him an idiot in my heart, but I never took my eyes off this man.I stared at his face almost greedily.This is my "mother".He is even more beautiful than I imagined.I used to think that there is no one in the world with eyes better than Albus, the transparency of the sky, the clarity of the water and the gentleness of the wind.But his eyes are like hot springs in a blue pool, the tenderness inside makes people feel warm from the bottom of their hearts.The slightly dense mist carries water vapor, glowing with sparkling light.

"Mother" is such a beauty!

Life as a baby is miserable, but luckily men are dull enough.I really don't like pretending to be a normal baby, and I can't.And the silly daddy is completely a child control, without any doubt attributing everything to the precocious wisdom of the Yi clan mixed-race child.Although this is his own "reason".

I never thought about acting like a baby to others before.But facing ICE, I would do it subconsciously.I really like the silly way he smiled at me, because I couldn't find North because of a word.Looking back suddenly, it turns out that dependence and love existed a long time ago.Before I fell in love with him, he had quietly occupied my whole world.

When he was three years old, there was an extra platinum peacock in the family, Abu, the godson of ICE.The first to hack into my life and ICE's.I actually naively started to be jealous of a brat, because his arrival took away my time.I even played tricks on him, making him miserable every time, just to vent my dissatisfaction.Is it because people become children and their emotions gradually become childish?

I even thought that if I were still the leader of the saints, I would have to cultivate an heir who was as smart and outstanding as Abu.Unfortunately, this issue is not something I need to consider now.

I've established that this is the world I used to live in, both in terms of time and events.Everything indicates that this is the world I used to live in.What's even more frightening is that the former self is also living in this world.The same space, two selves.But despite the surprise at first knowing, it didn't take long for me to let go.What about the original world?I'm not Gellert, I'm Gale. ICE's Gail.I will not change whether it is the former self or the former lover.To them I am the future, to me it is the past.Such an ordinary life is far away from those past right and wrong.Thinking of that Colin Malfoy, I even wanted to immediately cut off ICE and the Malfoy family.But after carefully weighing the pros and cons, I gave up.

Since the past me didn't meet the present me, then I don't have to worry.I don't want to change anything in the past, but the result is that I lose my peaceful life with ICE now.

Thinking of the surprise when I saw my face for the first time, if I really met someone who was so similar to myself, I would not be able to investigate, let alone forget.I never thought that even if I was reborn, I would look exactly like my former self, except for the color of my eyes.I also have a pair of blue eyes like ICE.It's like the child of Albus and the former Gellert.

However, when I thought about the sadness and sadness that ICE looked at me sometimes, I was sure that my father, ICE's lover, must look very similar to me before.That's why ICE lost sight of me.I tried hard to find those children in the family in my memory.After much deliberation, I gave up in vain.

At that time, I never thought that this world is not my original world, and some things have long been deviated.They are all familiar people, yet they are so strange.

If it was with Abu, it made me slightly wary, but the appearance of Voldemort when I was a child completely made me lose my sense of proportion, and I put on all my guard.

The child adopted by ICE turned out to be Voldemort, who would set off a bloody storm in the wizarding world in the future.No matter how dull I was, I found out that something was wrong.

Voldemort, as the man who almost cornered Albus, is Albus' greatest enemy.How could I not have his details?Even though I was only the outline of a child with that face, I was immediately sure of his identity.After all, he was the one who killed me.

At that time, those who knew about his childhood were silenced except Albus.If Albus hadn't revealed it, even I wouldn't have been able to find out.How ironic, those nobles who were attracted by Voldemort's so-called pure-blood theory did not know that the king they supported was a half-blood who grew up in the Muggle world.

The most important thing is that I am absolutely sure that Voldemort grew up in an orphanage until he was 11 years old, and was never adopted.At that moment, I even had a strong panic.Did my arrival change history, or was this not my original world?

Did the me who used to be really exist?Or is it all just speculation?

And ICE, I really exist.Thinking of Daddy, all the uneasiness in my heart receded.Anyway, at least now I really exist.I am ICE baby.

Freed from the horns of my thoughts, I looked at the extremely weak child in front of me.Regardless of whether he is the cold-blooded, cruel, almost monstrous Voldemort in my memory in the future, I have the ability to protect me and ICE.

I put away my killing intent, not because of Abu's arrival, but because I finally completely got rid of the shackles of my past.Whatever happens to the wizarding world, or even what happens to Albus, is no longer a concern for me.I just want to protect me and Daddy.I also believe that I have the ability to protect my current life.After all, the magic power of my life will definitely far surpass my former self when I grow up.

Besides, now that my eyelids are lowered, what else can he do?I will never be afraid of a kid who is not yet an adult.The most important thing is to kill him now, I can't face ICE at all.Disasters in the wizarding world have nothing to do with me, I don't want to do anything to make ICE sad.Just be a good son who makes him proud and happy.

Just because I can't kill him doesn't mean I'll let him get close to ICE.Abu and I jointly gave him a "big gift" to make him fully aware of his situation, what to do and what not to do.He "must" be clear.I don't mind having an extra child in my family, but I would never allow him to be close to ICE.

He is indeed smart, and after suffering a few losses, he fully understands it.I have never deliberately gotten close to ICE, and have always kept a distance from ICE.And cleverly use ICE to get what he wants from me and Abramovich.

Now that the purpose is achieved, I don't care about those things.

Whenever I think of that time, I almost choke with regret.I just kept blocking Voldemort's approach, but I forgot that feelings are always two-way.Those little sympathies, there are many more gathered together.Even though Voldemort was not close to ICE, ICE unknowingly categorized him as relatives.

It was my mistake to give him the opportunity to hurt ICE.

The seeds were planted long before I knew it.

If I could, I'd rather not have rescued Toby Regbo.Even though I felt extremely guilty towards him.He was a loyalist of my previous life, and he died for helping me with Albus in the end.

If I hadn't rescued him, I wouldn't have known my ridiculous life experience.It's not knowing the relationship between me and "myself".You won't lose yourself in a love on the sidelines.If I don't know who ICE is in love with, if I haven't seen "myself", if I haven't discovered the "love" that belongs to ICE bit by bit, then I won't think too much, won't regret, won't be jealous, Could it be that my possessiveness towards ICE will never turn into love?

But I've done it.The most worthless thing in the world is regret.

I rescued Toby Regbo, and inadvertently exposed my background.How ridiculous, I am actually "my" child.Even if the Gellert Grindelwald of this world isn't actually me.But whether it's style, person, character, or thought, that's another me.No one knows yourself better than yourself.I know that even if I am the Gellert of this world, I will do the same things as he does. "I" has long been trapped in a whirlpool named Albus, and I can never get out and don't want to get out.

The only difference between me and myself in this world is that my world has a variant named Colin Malfoy.And his world has ICE.

Knowing that it would be the same if it were me, I am still jealous that this "me" gets all the love from ICE.Decades are like a day. ICE never mentioned him, but has always loved him.Even before I knew I had a father but didn't know who it was, I obviously didn't care.But because that person is "myself", I began to care a lot.

I know

A wall in Dao's heart has collapsed.I can no longer call Daddy with peace of mind like before. All my feelings for ICE are piled up, so I can't tell the difference.

So I resolutely went to Germany to meet another "me". I really wanted to know how the former ICE fell in love with him.Will he be different from me and like ICE a little bit?

The anxiety and sourness in my heart are intertwined.Obviously at the beginning I believed that I knew "myself" best, but now I don't know whether to pray for what I think or a different self?

Seeing this so-called "self" of my father, I don't know whether to be disappointed or happy.He doesn't have the slightest affection for ICE, as I thought.In his heart, ICE is just a Wing Clan who can't remember what he looks like, a silly "White Eagle".Just a funny pet.The only thing that impresses him is the pair of blue eyes.Because it was the same color as Albus.

Just as I started guessing myself.The same "me" as I used to be.There were ripples in my heart one after another.If it were me, ICE would fall in love with me too.

He loves this Gellert Grindelwald.Is it possible to love me too?Not as a son, but as a lover?

Because of his looks and those blue eyes from ICE, Gellert Grindelwald is obviously more sincere to me.I knew he was imagining me as his and Albus' son.

See, no one knows him better than I do.

In his few memories of ICE, I finally know the origin of my name.Gail.That's when ICE was a cub and liked to call Gellert Grindelwald because of his slurred speech.

ICE's love for me all stems from his love for this "self" in front of him.You can tell the mood of ICE from the name.

I was so jealous of "myself".I don't know how to deal with ICE.In order to prevent Gellert Grindelwald from appearing in front of ICE, he was forced to stay in Germany and accept the training of his heir.

Forced to stay in Germany for two years, I finally exchanged an improved Polyjuice Potion that I worked so hard for many years to finally meet Albus in my previous life in exchange for the chance to go back to ICE.

This was who he had been, and even an heir was less important than a chance to see Albus.

The moment I saw ICE again, I knew I was done.The gushing emotions instantly washed away all my self-deception.

I fell in love with this solo love that I've witnessed for decades, and with ICE like this.

As Gellert Grindelwald, I will not fall in love with IC

A person like E, but as Gail, I fell in love with him like this.It's a dead end and I'm at a loss.

Even knowing that my refusal to call daddy would make ICE sad, I still couldn't say it.Daddy?How can I, who loves him, spit out these two words?

ICE in Gellert's eyes, Gellert in ICE's eyes.The more I probe, the more heartbroken, jealous and even desperate I become.

Obviously Gellert and I are almost the same person, and the person ICE loves will always be the Gellert who bought him when he was young, not me as Gail.

There is no chance of such a love.

What scares me even more is that not only me, but even Abu finds the beauty of ICE.The "fighting" that was once a child has become a real fighting.Fortunately, ICE rejected Abu's feelings very simply.

I breathed a sigh of relief, but suppressed all my thoughts even more bitterly.

ICE found Gellert, who came to Hogwarts with me, and I was ecstatic that even though he still loved Gellert, he was still most worried about me getting involved in danger.

Even if it's just a father's love for his child, I'm still happy.At least I know now that the love from ICE isn't because I'm his and Gellert's kid, it's just because I'm Gail, his son.

I told myself, it's okay.It doesn't matter if we can't be together.I can always be by his side, just me.Even if only as a son.

The me who used to go forward bravely in love, never back down, and use whatever means I have, is no longer.

I fell in love with ICE, but I didn't have the courage to be desperate, and I was reluctant to make ICE suffer a little bit. I can't stand the slightest alienation from ICE.

I trapped myself in a cage and stayed beside ICE peacefully day by day.Even I thought I was satisfied.If you can't even fool yourself, how can you fool others?

It never occurred to me that ICE would die.Not even a dead body.

When Abu found me, the poison had already spread to his heart.We all know what choice ICE would make if it knew about Abramovich's situation.That's why Abu would rather die, and I help him undo the "protection spell" without hesitation.It was useless to regret not stopping Voldemort from splitting his soul at this point.I don't have no friendship with Abu, but when I compare with ICE, I will give up without hesitation.I believe that if it was Abramovich, he would also make such a choice.

Abu is dead.While preventing ICE from getting the news, I began to guard Voldemort closely.Even though I know he loves ICE as much as me and Abu.I was extremely uneasy.Voldemort, who had lost his mind and fell into madness, no one knew what he would do.

Besides, after ascertaining the materials Voldemort collected, I quickly guessed what he wanted to do.How can I give him a chance to attack ICE?

I arranged everything carefully, but I missed the strength of ICE.For so many years, he has never shown anything. I have been working hard to protect him, and I have miscalculated the strength of the Yi Clan.

Knowing about Abu's death, ICE got rid of my stop, and stepped into the trap deliberately set by Voldemort without hesitation.

Not only did I miss ICE's strength, I also missed ICE's feelings for Voldemort.They have not been close for so many years, which has blinded everyone.

In ICE's mind Voldemort is the same as me and Abu.

So after knowing the truth, he gave up resistance without hesitation, and even sacrificed his life and soul in order to save Voldemort.

When I finally got rid of the curse that imprisoned me and found them, ICE had disappeared in a golden light.The feeling that my heart was dug out alive made me miserable.

Obviously already crazy, but I still have reason.

ridiculous! Voldemort killed ICE, but was protected by what ICE left behind.

Looking at the same desperate and crazy Voldemort, the malice gushing out of my heart completely turned into biting coldness and hatred when I saw the familiar and no longer familiar book in Voldemort's hand.

I hate myself so much!How sad!The other "self" made such deliberate plans for Albus, killing ICE who loved him without hesitation.For the irreconcilable feud between me and Voldemort.In this way, even if I accept the saint, I can still protect Albus in a disguised form.

At this moment, I hate myself so much for knowing "myself" so well.

I killed ICE!I became more and more calm, ICE, you have to wait for me, I will come to you.I won't let anyone down, including myself.

Looking at the head in my hand and the blood all over my body, I don't mind at all.Turns out killing Albus Dumbledore really didn't feel the slightest bit.No wonder that "self" set up such a situation so ruthlessly.He just missed out on what I knew about "myself".

I smiled and placed Albus' head in Gellert Grindelwald's arms.Looking at his disbelieving expression.How could I let him die so easily.

He killed my love, I killed his love.

I crippled his magic power little by little.smashed his limbs.Looking at him with slowly dead eyes.No!This pain is simply not enough.How could I let go of "myself" so easily.

I grabbed his chin, forcing him to hear what I had to say.

"You killed Albus. If you didn't count ICE, how would I kill him?"

Pain in his eyes?No!Still not enough!

"You can rest assured that I will die too. After all, what you do is also what I do."

My voice is filled with hatred that burns everything up, hatred for myself.Little by little, I talked about the familiar things in my memory, which were all the things I had when I was Gellert Grindelwald.We are all the same.

In addition to the pain, his eyes were slowly stained with shock.

"Is it familiar? Surprised? It's obviously something that no one else knows except yourself. Gellert Grindelwald, you don't know how much I hate you. We are the same person! I let go of Albus , gave up everything being Gellert Grindelwald. But you ruined both of us! Haha, why should I be Gellert Grindelwald? You killed the person you would fall in love with in the future, and I Killed someone we once loved. Gellert Grindelwald, you should live in hell forever, without redemption!"

I watched him trembling on the ground like a bug.Just now I have been working hard to maintain my last dignity, but now the whole person is on the verge of collapse, and the only thing I can maintain is that unbelievable touch!

"I hate it! I hate it! Why didn't I recover my memory before ICE died? Then even after I kill you, I will no longer exist, at least ICE is still alive!"

"I hate it! Why did you kill ICE! Why?"

Seeing him finally collapsed, sobbing and unable to speak, evoked a sarcastic smile, to him, but also to myself.

Merlin, so is this my punishment?

I cast the Avada Kedavra on myself and slowly closed my eyes.The heart hurts too much, so the pain on the body is also a relief.

I have engraved a magic circle around here.This Gellert Grindelwald would die in pain like this.

We are not alone!Absolutely not!

Merlin, I don't have the strength to hate you anymore.

Does this pay off my sins?

Then please let my soul and ICE reincarnate into the same world.

I am willing to trade everything for meeting him again.

Don't miss it, don't get it wrong, don't be sad.

ICE, you only think of yourself as Gail, okay?You don't want Abu, you don't want Gellert, you don't want Tom.Just one Gail.

ICE's Gail.Gail's ICE.