heart stealing game

There is no constant, it is difficult to know and it is difficult to be an enemy.This is the comment given to me by the fortune teller.So I killed my father, my mother, and the first person who was kind to me.Also killed the person I fell in love with.Being burdened with blood and hatred has become a joke, and lovers are separated forever.I can only live in the long wait.Believe he will come back.

--Bu Jingyun

When my mother was pregnant with me, my father abandoned my mother who was pregnant with Liujia in order to search for the rare cold iron in the world, and never returned.She didn't cry or cry when she was born, she started babbling when she was two years old, and she didn't know how to speak until she was three years old. The first word she said was not 'mother', but she looked at the clouds in the sky and yelled -- cloud!It was named Bu Jingyun.I am withdrawn, do not like to talk, hide in the corner all the year round, and the children nearby call me a monster.This is what I have known since I was four years old, when my mother beat and scolded me intermittently.My birth, and why my mother doesn't like me.

When I was four years old, my father finally came back. He was carried back. He still couldn't find the piece of cold iron, and he caught an illness on the way. The man lying on the bed mourning with a sallow complexion was my father.He didn't even call me by my name, so he died of illness not long after returning home.

On the day of my father's burial, I stood there silently with a blank expression, ignorant and sad.I have a father, and he hasn't picked me up like the father of the dog next door.It's not like Erya's father, who bought me a lot of fun things.He didn't even call my name affectionately and lovingly like all fathers.He lay quietly in that big cold box, and left forever and ever.

I listened to the whispers of the adults around me, "What a cold-blooded monster, he doesn't even know how to cry when his father dies."

"A son like this must be killed."

"Yu Nong is so pitiful. After her husband died, she still has such a beastly son. What should I do in the future?"

My mother rushed forward frantically to beat and scold me, and I stared at her blankly, neither dodging nor dodging, letting her fists and slaps fall on my body and face.What is crying?

There is no pain anywhere in my body.I still pursed my lips tightly.Is the transparent water drop falling from the corner of the eye crying?I can't and can't cry.

The grown-ups next to him couldn't stand it anymore, and held back the already crazy mother.

Dad was finally buried.Since then, my mother has not said a word to me.In her eyes, I am not as good as that stray wild cat.

The fortune-teller in the village would always shake his head and sigh when he looked at me, "Heavenly Fiend and Lone Star, restrain father and mother, restrain wife and son.Doomed to be accompanied by blood and death.

From then on, even those children who bullied me stopped talking to me, as if they were afraid that if they approached me, they would be killed by me.Only the widowed old woman in the village would give me a sweet potato with a look of pity.I threw sweet potatoes on the ground, pity I don't need it.I believe there will always be someone who understands me, is close to me, and loves me.I won't be alone all the time.Gradually, even the old lady stopped talking to me.I huddled in a corner silently.No one heard the voice in my heart, why did dad die?Why doesn't mother love me?I looked at the people around me coldly, they were either laughing, angry, or cursing.That's a world I'll never understand.

When I was five years old, my mother took me to remarry.She obviously cried so sadly at her father's funeral, and even resented me for ignoring me because of her father's death.But less than a year after his father died, he married another man.My heart was full of disappointment, those tears that I envied were so cheap.

His mother married Huo Butian, the owner of Huojiazhuang.I also met the first person in my life who loved me.My whole life is sad and helpless.Happiness is always short-lived like a flash in the pan.One of the two things I regret the most in my life is not that I didn't take revenge, and that I didn't kill Xiongba with my own hands.But he didn't call Huo Butian "father" before he died.

My heart was wrapped in layers of barriers.No one is willing to work hard to get in, and I don't want to go out humblely.

My mother was seriously ill when I was eight years old. Even though she has been beating and scolding me for so many years, she is as cold as if I don't have this son.She is still my mother, she gave birth to me.She didn't know that I had stood far away so many times, watching her kindly smile at Huo Butian's two sons and wipe the sweat off their faces.I once wished so much that she could turn around and see me, smile at me, and stop calling me a beast, a monster, or the cold Bu Jingyun or Huo Jingjue.Instead, call me Yuner.

It's not that I don't long for her love, but I suppress that longing very deeply.I knew she didn't want or want to see me.If possible, maybe she would have preferred to have an abortion than give birth to me back then.I was the one who caused the widow at a young age, and it was also I who caused her to be judged by the neighbors around her.But I always wish her well.Even if I can only watch from a distance.

Centennial Ganoderma lucidum can extend life.It took me two days to climb up the steep cliff, despite being pecked by the eagle all over my body.I finally found the Ganoderma lucidum and rushed back.

I watched the lingering sick bed still cursing my mother, and stood there numbly.She asked me if I hated her, would I cry for her when she died?

There is a deep sadness in my heart, I can't cry, and I don't have that kind of cheap tears.Why does my mother have to think that only crying means sadness?

She held my hand, before I even took out the ganoderma lucidum, she was so angry that she could only breathe her last.

"You...as expected...don't cry!"

"Butian...I didn't...blame him wrong, he...really...didn't shed...half a tear for...me..."

i watch her close

eyes, she was unwilling to believe until she died, I have always loved her, no matter how she treats me, she has always been my mother.

I left with a lot of sadness, and my parents and my mother, I am finally alone.But the world is so big, where is there a place for Bu Jingyun?

To my surprise, Huo Butian didn't drive me away from Huojiazhuang, but loved me as much as his own son.He taught me the Huo family's swordsmanship without hiding anything, even more dedicated than his own son.The relief in his eyes when he looked at me made my frozen heart tremble.That is a real father's earnest expectation and comfort for his children.

He understands me, he knows that my heart is not cold, I just don't know how to get along with others, and I don't care about others' malice or pity.

I have quietly accepted him and acknowledged the connection between us, although the sound of dad hovered in my throat and never shouted out.I have accepted the name Huo Jingjue.

It's not Bu Jingyun who no one loves, but Huo Butian's son Huo Jingjue.As if a tired bird returns to its nest, the wandering and lonely heart has a place to settle down.

Clouds are inherently impermanent, but the world is even more impermanent.The lone star of Tiansha, is it true that God can't see that I have a little happiness.So when I finally accepted Huo Butian, I turned everything into a sea of ​​blood.

It was such a festive day, but Huojiazhuang turned into a sea of ​​flames.

Looking at the flames soaring into the sky from a distance, I didn't even care about the white fox in my hand. This was originally a birthday gift I prepared for Huo Butian, so I ran back desperately.

Large expanses of blood merged into rivers.Corpses lying all over the place, with grim expressions, this is hell on earth.

My heart was shaking and I was praying.I saw Huo Butian, and also saw the warmth and anxiety in his eyes, he was telling me to run away.

In just an instant, his head rolled towards me. I wanted to scream, roar, and cry loudly.But I can only stand there in a daze.father!father!father!All the words were blocked in his throat and he couldn't speak out.

You have clearly seen the dawn of happiness, why did it all disappear overnight?Who ruined my life again and pushed me into the cold, dark and lonely abyss again.

The only person who loved me was destroyed, and my world collapsed. Only one obsession and strength remained in my life, hatred!

I want all these people to be buried with him.

The sword technique has been used to the extreme, but I am still defeated by these two murderers.I thought it would be the end of death.I was rescued.

It was an uncle in black and a child named Jian Chen in white.

Although the child is always twittering, which doesn't bother me very much, but I

Not annoying.This is the second kindness I have received in my life.

I know that Uncle in Black is very powerful. When he taught Jian Chen, I couldn't help being fascinated by it. There is such an exquisite sword technique in the world.

Only when I competed with Jian Chen did I realize how far away my desire for revenge is.Even though I worked so hard, why couldn't I even defeat Jian Chen.My heart is full of resentment and resentment.

I hate the injustice of the sky, and the ill-fated fate!I hate Xiongba who ruined my life even more!

At the moment filled with hatred, I actually comprehended this trick, and my grief was inexplicable.

The sword move has already been used, but fortunately the uncle in black stopped me.As soon as he touched it, my sword intent was defeated.He is so powerful, I felt infinite joy at that moment, I knelt down and begged him to accept me as a disciple, and I saw the hope of revenge in him.

But the uncle in black looked at me with worried and defensive eyes. He even entrusted me to the care of Master Fuxu. He wanted to use Buddhism to wash away the hostility and hatred on my body.My heart was frozen instantly, he didn't understand me, revenge is the purpose of my existence!

Since Huo Butian died, my life should have gone with it, and I am still alive today, just for revenge!What's the use of living if I can't take revenge?

I have never felt so lonely, no one understands me, only myself can rely on!

Regardless of Jian Chen's persuasion, I left alone.I looked at the simple and kind Jian Chen, I would never be able to become such a person in my life!

I came to the foot of Tianxiahui alone, on August [-]th, which is the full moon.The laughter and warmth around me can't make me feel a little warm.I sat with my knees in a dark corner on the corner of the street.Looking at the crowds coming and going, looking at those exquisite and beautiful moon cakes, I feel hungry.

Even if no one helps, I still want revenge.The chilly wind blows on my face.I looked at the notice on the wall, will the world recruit disciples?

I seem to have grasped hope again, I can completely lurk beside Xiongba, and when I have the ability to revenge, I can kill Xiongba with my own hands.

On that Mid-Autumn Festival, I found the hope of revenge and met another important person in my life.

It was a boy who looked slightly younger than me, and he was more delicate than the people on the New Year pictures.He smiled at me, held the moon cake and stretched out his hand in front of me, which made me feel unreal for a moment.By the time I realized it, he had already stuffed the mooncake into my hand, and gradually moved away from the crowd.

I didn't throw the mooncakes on the ground, maybe because there was no mercy in his smile, maybe because I was really hungry.

I ate the mooncakes in two or three bites.Looking at the moon cake wrapping paper in my hand, I thought about it, folded it and put it in my arms, feeling a rare warmth in my heart.

returning a Favour many times more.Just looking at his clothes, we probably will never have the chance to meet.

I will go to the world without hesitation.He was also smoothly accepted into the Tianxiahui sect, even though he was only a servant.Seeing Xiongba from a distance, I suppressed the hatred that was rolling in my heart, now is not the time.

I was assigned to be a servant in the stables, no matter how others bullied me, I was like a boring gourd.I hate it so much that as long as I resist, I will beat those people black and blue.Over time, no one came to provoke me again.

There is a small hill behind the stables, and whenever I have time, I will practice swords there.I want to become stronger little by little, not letting go of any opportunity.

I didn't expect to meet the little boy who gave me mooncakes again.He was wearing a blue robe, his hair was tied up, and he was holding a book in his hand.Looking at me, I smiled very warmly, with curiosity and apology on my face.The big eyes are very cute when they blink.

After I watched him apologize to me, he left quickly.Can't help but think of the colored paper in the package again.He has already forgotten that during the Mid-Autumn Festival, I looked like a beggar in a mess.

I turned around and continued practicing with the sword. He was doing well.And I'm just a man with a lot of hate.It's best for him not to know him.

I didn't expect that after that time, I could meet him almost every time.He is reading a book on the grass not far from me.No further attempts to speak to me were made.

Obviously I am practicing sword, he is reading a book, as if there are two worlds.I feel very warm.Even the sorrow in my heart has dissipated a little.

I also know that when he leaves, he will always wave to me from a distance.Even though I never responded.For that waving, I am even willing to be scolded for returning home late, so that I can leave later and wait for his farewell.

He is like a distant light to me, I tell myself not to get close, but I can't help but yearn for it.

After two years, I was finally allowed to participate in those campaigns of Tianxiahui.This is my first step towards Xiongba.I did it.Become a true Tianxiahui disciple.

After I came back, I obviously didn't need to go to that mountain to practice martial arts, but I walked up it unknowingly.There is a faint expectation in my heart, I know what it is.

Obviously all reason is clamoring for danger, but the feet can't stop.

Sure enough, I saw him, he pulled me, his face was full of anxiety, and he talked a lot.It turns out that this year, not only did I care about him, but he also regarded me as a friend.

My heart is extremely soft, this is the first love I have received that is not mixed with impurities, it actually makes me feel a little overwhelmed.

I said the first sentence we met after so long, "Bu Jingyun" is my name.

Maybe I can have something other than hatred.A little warmth is enough.

I let him pull me, Ayun, and Ayun yelled, feeling slightly astringent and sweet in my heart.

I began to participate in battles, big and small, with more and more blood on my hands.Even the disciples who fought together fear and loathe me.He even gave me the title of "Don't Cry Death".

That's the title I hate the most.

A year of big and small battles, countless blood and heads helped me open the way to revenge.

Xiongba actually personally accepted me as a closed disciple.No one knew how excited I was at that moment.

I thought that I was one step closer to the hand-bladed hero, but I didn't know that the sky would not let me go, and there was even more deep-seated hatred waiting for me.

I was forced by Xiongba to personally kill Huo Lie, his father and son who came to assassinate him.Huo Lie killed his son with his own hands just to hide my identity.The Huo family is really gone completely.I am the only one who has no blood relationship and lives in the world for revenge.

The torrential rain seemed to be trying to cover up the unbearable blood debt this morning with the sound of the rain, and settle it privately, so that this blood debt would disappear into the world...

I will never let Xiongba go!The hatred was engraved in my heart one by one, boiling in my blood.The rain fell on me, icy cold.My senses have long been numb.Just walking straight step by step.How unfair is the sky?Let me not even die generously.I was left in the frying pan of hatred, tormented and suffering, without redemption.

The rain slid across the corners of my eyes, and I was obviously overwhelmed by the great grief and hatred, but I still couldn't cry.

I roared into the roaring sky, trying to vent all my grief.But still can't cry.

As soon as my legs were weak, I fell headlong into the ditch next to me.The filthy soil made it hard for me to breathe.And I have no energy left to struggle.

At that moment, my heart was full of sourness and bitterness, and my hatred was overwhelming.I actually want to die here so sadly.God is so unfair!God damn it!Hate my life!hate myself!

In the blur, as if in a dream, I heard a familiar and anxious cry.

When I woke up again, I was already lying on a clean bed, and I was also wearing a clean underwear, although the clothes were much smaller.Looking sideways, I saw Xiaobing lying on the side of the bed with a flushed face, fast asleep.

He saved me?The peaceful sleeping face is like the most beautiful portrait, so beautiful that it is unreal.

I subconsciously reach out to touch

Touching his cheek, it was hot.He has a fever.

I hurriedly helped him to the bed, picked up the dirty clothes and changed them, then quickly ran to the hospital to call Dr. Su, stared at him after prescribing the medicine, and then clumsily fed him bit by bit go down.Soft and hot lips, it is obviously a bitter medicinal taste, but it makes me feel a little sweet.By the time I realized it, his lips had already been licked red like ripe cherries, so gorgeous.I was in a trance for a while, and it turns out that not all red things in this world make people feel sick.

The numb and trembling feeling has never been so intoxicating to me.I don't understand, but instinctively feel wrong.

I actually ran away.Fortunately, Qin Shuang took care of him.

I felt like I was about to split into two halves, one half was a deep-seated hatred, and the other half was a wonderful feeling for Xiaobing.

The feelings towards Xiaobing and Huo Butian are different.Equally warm, but more fiery and fierce.I touched my lips, and the feeling that made my heart tremble seemed to have not disappeared. The numb feeling was like the surface of water broken by stones in my heart.

But my heart suddenly froze, what am I thinking?Thinking of Xiong Ba, thinking of the death of Huo Butian and Huo Lie, my eyes turned red.Bloody enmity, how can I be distracted by other things!

I buried Holly well.When I came back, I still couldn’t help but slipped into Xiaobing’s room quietly. It’s a simple house. The whole room was extremely damp. The wooden chairs and tables even had broken legs, and they were only barely usable when they were padded with stones.Is this Xiaobing's life?I can't believe it.

I always thought that with such a bright and warm smile, he must be like Jian Chen who never knew the sufferings of the world, so I never inquired about his affairs.But everything in front of me overturned my self-righteous thoughts.

I looked at Xiaobing who was lying weakly on the bed, and suddenly felt a pain in my heart, it was heartache and pity.

Everyone has their bitterness.I want to take care of him and understand him, but I am not qualified.I can't protect myself, how can I help him in order to take revenge on me who has no future?

Qin Shuang also took good care of him. I asked Qin Shuang to ask him to be with me, and it didn't matter what seat he was in.Qin Shuang immediately agreed.That's all I can do.Give him a better life.

The days are passing by slowly, and no one knows the anxiety in my heart.The world will become stronger and stronger, Qin Shuang, and Xiongba's new disciples, Nie Feng and Duanlang are all loyal to Xiongba.And I have no chance to approach Xiongba alone.

What's even more strange is that Xiongba began to rectify the Tianxiahui. Those who were not loyal to him either died in an accident, or they did wrong things and were kicked out of the Tianxiahui.I even faintly feel that his martial arts are stronger.

I had no choice but to suppress my uneasiness and convince myself to continue dormant.Even if everything is destroyed, I will make Xiongba pay the price.

It's different from before. At that time, I had the will to die, but now I vaguely don't want to die like this.Whenever there is an urge to assassinate Xiongba desperately, Xiaobing's smiling face will appear in front of my eyes, and the reluctance and nostalgia that touches my heart make me stop.

I thought this kind of liking was just a nostalgia for my friends, but when I stood outside the door and heard Nie Feng's confession, there was a "bang", and the feeling that I hadn't understood exploded in my head.

Men and men can also be together, and like.I like Xiaobing, just like Jianwu does to Nie Feng.

For a long time, I had been suppressed in my heart, and all that strong possessiveness burst out in an instant.

I want to be close, I want him to only see me, but I have never done it.If I die in the hands of Xiongba, what will Xiaobing do then?

But when I heard Nie Feng's confession, all my defenses collapsed, and I couldn't tolerate a single bit of it.I don't want to let him go.

I have never wanted him so much.

If I try my best to survive, do I have the right to be with Xiaoice?What if he was robbed?

So I worked hard to survive, can I keep him selfishly?

I followed my heart and told him to stay with me.like you.

I kissed the lips that made me toss and turn for countless nights.

He responded to me and he liked me too.

Half happy, half worried.Half regret, half happy.

Please allow me to be selfish.

I can't let go of my hatred, and I can't let him go.

Looking at the bruises on his body, my heart was full of murderous intent and anger.It turned out that someone was still bullying him, and with his temperament, he definitely wouldn't say it.If it weren't for my shrinking and hesitating all the time.How could there be such a flaw?I finally made up my mind, I want to protect him openly, as long as I am still alive.

I didn't tell him about my revenge.He doesn't know anything.If I unfortunately die at the hands of Xiongba.With Qin Shuang and Nie Feng's friendship for him, he didn't even know about it, so he shouldn't be implicated.

Such a warm and happy life is less than a month.All poop is destroyed.He is Xiongba's second son, not his own, but he is also Xiongba's child.

Xiongba actually declared Xiaobing to be his "wife" without hesitation.

How ridiculous!Those people who once liked Xiaobing and were cared about by Xiaobing, even his own sister, abandoned him without hesitation.Accepted Xiongba's incestuous and dirty behavior.

I held the sword tightly, fearing that I couldn't help but die with Xiongba in the next second.

I knew that Xiaobing's gaze had been on me all the time, forcing me to hold on to the last sliver of reason.

Xiong Ba asked me alone, with a look of contempt and strong persecution on his face, "Yun'er, don't you congratulate me as a teacher?"

Xiongba knows about the matter between me and Xiaobing.I held onto the sword tightly, and looked up to meet Xiaobing's eyes, with sadness, pain, faint despair, and deep prayer.He is telling me with his eyes, Ah Yun, believe me, don't abandon me.

That's enough!That's enough!I know he loves me, he never thought of lying to me.I even thought that maybe I could fight hard, even if it was impossible to kill Xiongba.

I ignored Xiongba's meaningful words, just looked at Xiaobing, and wanted to engrave him in my heart exactly.

My eyes tightened. At this moment, Xiaobing took out the dagger and stabbed at Xiongba, forcing Xiongba to let him go.Then he ran to me, and he slid his hand across my palm, and stuffed me with a hard thing.Then hug me tenderly, like countless times.

His pleasant voice penetrated into my heart like countless times, "Ah Yun, you believe me, I'm so happy."

"Ayun, I never told you that I love you very much."

"Ah Yun, it's okay, I will die without regret."

I stared blankly at him who was already lying in a pool of blood.There is also Xiong Ba who ran out madly holding him.

Obviously my heart was already churned together in pain, but I still didn't have a single tear.

wrong.It was me who was clearly going to die, why did I become Xiaobing.

Wrong, this must be a dream.It's fake!

The people around me were in a panic, and I walked out of Tianxiahui unknowingly like a puppet.

The bright red maple leaves are swaying brilliantly, which is the red I hate the most.The sky was clear and cloudless.I am dreaming.It seemed that there were still dark clouds just now.

So it must be a dream.

I clenched my fists tightly, the hard thing in my palm instantly pulled me into the abyss, why?Why, you don't even allow me to lie to myself?

I screamed loudly at the sky.Until there is no sound.

I tremblingly opened the note, Ayun, I knew you would believe me.No matter what I say, it's incredible.Ayun will believe me for no reason.So Ayun, I didn't die, I just left and went to a place far, far away. If the soul is still there, I can be reborn. Maybe I will come back, maybe I won't.So Ayun must live happily, so that we have the opportunity to meet.

Ah Yun, do you really have a blood feud with your father?Then can Ayun let go of his hatred?Now this Xiongba is not his real father, nor is he Ayun's enemy.He came from afar just like me, and will eventually return to afar.It's not worth hurting Ayun himself for the wrong person.

Ayun, I love you.Protect yourself for my sake.Leave Tianxiahui.

I touched the note carefully, with a crying and smiling expression on my face.I knew Xiaobing couldn't bear to leave me alone.I knew it.

I walked straight forward, I want to leave Tianxiahui.

Xiaobing, don't worry, I will definitely take care of myself.The enemy is no more, but I won't let this Xiongba have an easy time.

I will listen to you, live and wait for you.So you must come back, come back.

Xiaobing, Ayun is always there, always.Can you come back and see me?