minister under clothes

Probably should turn around and leave for shameful self-esteem, but Yan Tou didn't.

He could barely feel the cold, he just straightened his back against the wind and stared intently at Lu Qingyi.

Lu Qingyi quickly turned his eyes elsewhere: "I still have to go to tutoring, goodbye."

"I'm living outside by myself now. If you don't go back to school, I'll leave the stuff in the dormitory to me first." Yan Tou said immediately.

Lu Qingyi stuffed the business card and scarf left by Wang Zijin into his big bag, and replied seemingly casually: "Whatever, I don't want those anymore. I have already dropped out of Yali."

Yan Tou froze on the spot for a long time before softly saying: "Why..."

Lu Qingyi asked back: "What do you think?"

"Why did I become a scourge, you guys, didn't you react too much?" Yan Tou's grievances were still revealed in the details of his tone.

Lu Qingyi's smooth reaction also paused, and finally he said calmly: "If grandpa hadn't been rescued that day... have you ever thought about this possibility?"

Yan was at a loss for words.

Lu Qingyi raised his eyes: "Of course you haven't thought about it, you don't care as much as I do."

Yan Tou immediately emphasized: "I care!"

Lu Qingyi had expected to dodge his outstretched hand, somewhat angry: "You refused to wait with me, and you gave up the only possibility, Yan Tou! Not everything goes according to your wishes, It's not that you can't delay every minute of what you want! Maybe I can understand that you didn't imagine this relationship for a long time, then, then..."

After taking a deep breath, he continued word by word: "Then you are not worth it to me."

After Yan Tou heard this, he was unconsciously anxious and angry, but before he could think of a more powerful reason, Lu Qingyi frowned and hurried away.

Most of the doctors and patients passing by looked sideways at this beautiful boy of mixed race.

But Yan Tou was not as calm as usual, but felt as uncomfortable as a needle prick.

He couldn't explain clearly, but he felt uncontrollably: Is there something ugly about him that was exposed to the outside, and he didn't know it after so many years of embarrassment.

It turns out that taking care of a place where you can settle down is so much worry.

Yan Tou only rented a small apartment room, all of which were exquisitely decorated and fully furnished, but he was still in a hurry due to various trivial matters. Just moving his and Lu Qingyi's luggage back from the dormitory, he and Lu Qingyi packed up intermittently for three days. night.

Yes, he still made it look like they were still together.

Double bed, double table, and even two toothbrush cups.

It's just that when facing alone, the once sweetness turned into torture.

In the past, everyone thought that Yan Tou had many hobbies, such as playing sports, participating in various social activities, enjoying performances, traveling around, and willing to learn and share. Suddenly I feel that everything is very boring. Going to school is just reading.

On weekends, I feel even more lonely. I keep doing problems until my eyes are out of focus, and then I throw down my pen and go out to wander.

There are many strange people in the mall.

Yan Tou carried a few bags and looked around aimlessly, not remembering what he bought.

When he was at a loss, a very familiar voice suddenly called his attention back.

"This will never work, okay, don't be fooled by advertisements."

It turned out to be Lin Yilin, he naturally held his cousin's arm, with a gentle smile on his face that he would never give to others.

The two stood in front of a large ad. The warmly colored ad displayed a certain brand's Christmas double scarf.

Chen Lu bent his lips: "Then you can use it once with me, it will be useful."

Yan Tou was in a very bad mood, neither wanting to meet them nor spying on their intimacy, but just as he was about to slip away, Lin Yilin, who had an excellent gaze, spotted him from the reflection of the transparent glass, and turned around in surprise: "Xiao Tou?"

"Hi." Yan Tou greeted helplessly.

Recently, Lin Yilin was naturally worried about this spoiled child. Seeing him alone, he sighed secretly, and said softly: "Have you eaten yet? We are going upstairs to the restaurant, let's go together."

Yan Tou refused: "I'm not hungry, I'm leaving."

Lin Yilin immediately pulled him back and smiled: "But we miss you, eat with us if you're not hungry."

"It's so annoying..." Yan Tou had just finished complaining, but when he saw his cousin's threatening eyes, he had no choice but to nod: "Oh."

The plates of beautiful food on the table are like beautifully composed photographs.

Yan Tou poked sullenly, but she really lacked interest.

"If you have anything to say, at least wait until the old man's health is better. How can Lu Qingyi care so much now? If you force him to ask him, this will only be the result." Lin Yilin did not ignore this guy's troubles like Chen Lu did. Don't ask, but kindly analyze.

Yan Tou didn't answer.

Lin Yilin asked again: "What is his grandfather's illness, and how is he doing now?"

Yan Tou was at a loss: "I don't know."

Just as Lin Yilin was about to eat, he immediately put down the knife and fork when he heard the words, and looked at Chen Lu dumbfounded.

"Go to the hospital and inquire about it, and change him to a better doctor and hospital conditions." Chen Lu elegantly cut the steak.

Yan Tou remembered that Wang Zijin seemed to be talking to Lu Qingyi about the heart and cerebrovascular doctor that day, and couldn't help feeling a little depressed: it seemed that he really cared more about his gains and losses.

"You are not like your brother at all in this respect." Lin Yilin's cell phone rang, he got up and left this sentence, then ran outside to pick it up, probably another endless job.

Chen Lu, who hadn't interrupted much, raised his hand to clear his cough, and said in a low voice, "Don't let yourself become a replaceable part of his life."

Yan Tou tangles his handsome eyebrows in annoyance, a little puzzled.

Chen Lu said: "You are his burden. Of course he will abandon you when he is tired. You will bear the pressure for him, so he will turn to rely on you. The reason is so simple. What are you thinking about for so many days?"

Yan Tou didn't answer, but just nodded.

Only now did Chen Lu eat the steak.

Yan Tou suddenly asked: "Brother, how did you understand this, and how did you keep Brother Lin by your side?"

"I didn't understand it before, but now I understand that he also left me." Chen Lu said: "But don't push yourself too hard. If you feel unbearable if you do too much, it means that you don't like that person that much. If you don't Like, why not look forward?"

The implication of this sentence made Yan Tou a little unhappy, he looked to the side angrily, and suddenly stretched his eyebrows: "Brother, do you think Brother Lin plans to look forward?"

Chen Lu followed his gaze in confusion, and found Lin Yilin standing with a tall young man outside the restaurant, looking down at a stack of documents.

The man kept looking at Lin Yilin, and suddenly stretched out his hand to smooth Lin Yilin's messy short hair.

With a crash, the wine glass was accidentally knocked to the ground by the sullen Chen Lu.

The waiter hurriedly bypassed the decorations and green plants to clean up.

Yan Tou, who had been frowning for several days, finally smiled happily.

worth it.

Lu Qingyi mentioned this word.

Chen Lu also mentioned it inexplicably.

Yan Tou can't tell what is worthwhile and what is not.

He only knew that he was like a drowning person, he needed such a mouthful of oxygen to continue to feel everything, he couldn't control how embarrassing he was struggling, how embarrassing it had nothing to do with pride.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry I didn't think carefully for you, I was wrong, I'm willing to wait with you, I don't force you to prove anything for me, I just ask you to see me once a week, I won't let grandpa know, no Contact you in normal times, not in crowded places, you can delete my number, you can not mention my existence to anyone, but don’t really disappear, don’t really forget me.”

In the evening, after Lu Qingyi took a shower at home, he accidentally picked up his phone and saw Yan Tou's text message.

He stood there blankly, and read it several times, not sure if it was a plan to delay the attack that the guy planned to continue pestering.

"It's fine if T-T doesn't see me, at least remember to call me." Yan Tou sent another message.

Lu Qingyi finally replied: "Yes."

Then he turned off the phone, picked up the surgery consent form given to him by the doctor, and sat down on the bed wearily, staring at the unintelligible terms on it, feeling uncomfortable and blurred.

At this moment, how much I long for a hug.

Whether it's from a loved one, from a lover, or from a stranger.

But besides an empty home, what does he have?

He also wants to see through those "buts", "only asks" and "at least", who can give alms, who can be satisfied?