rebirth grass

Yao Wanran asked him to go grocery shopping, and Li Yuege put his hands in his pockets and followed behind leisurely, "Your mother has found a new home, shouldn't you be happy, what's the point of being so sullen?"

"What do you know? Stop talking nonsense here!"

"You know in your heart whether you are talking nonsense. Otherwise, you wouldn't show everything on your face, and you wouldn't even have time to cover it up." Li Yuege recalled that when Li Yibei saw Su Wei for the first time, he panicked for the first time, and he was a little heartless. I think that expression is quite cute, at least it is no longer the indifferent look of Binglai who is indifferent to everything.

Li Yuege himself is cold and ruthless, but he can always watch other people's thoughts with a cold eye.Yao Wanran's choice couldn't be simpler. Although she pursued love rebelliously when she was young, she was a pampered lady after all. After the romantic love passed away, Yi Lao's confidante and lonely life would bring her back to the starting point, where she was once rejected. Her suitor reappeared in due course, love and bread, this time she chose bread only.

No one will stick to the end unchanged, let alone the love that is not the whole life.

Li Yibei can also understand such a choice, but the overlap of the reality that the two worlds are destined to be the same still makes him feel abandoned.

But even so, he doesn't have the right to question, and he can't even remember when the blood relationship between mother and child became more polite and alienated, and the gap in the middle has to be maintained deliberately.

In my memory, Yao Wanran had a young and beautiful face, she was not very talkative, she liked to smile, and she always dressed stylishly and led him across the road, telling him at the school gate, "Xiao Bei, don't run around with your clothes, don't get your clothes dirty." Dirty."

She never asked about his studies and friends, but always said, Xiaobei, don’t put your hands on the table when eating; Xiaobei, don’t speak so loudly, but smile; Xiaobei, don’t wear dark clothes, you Looks good in white...

When he was older, she sent him to learn Chinese painting, practice piano, and even body and etiquette lessons.Everything is not for versatility, but for the so-called aristocratic temperament, in order to be more like her-noble, elegant, and connotative.

He did become quieter and more polite than the average child, but he also seemed out of place and out of place.No one wants to play around with a child who is too clean and polite, always feel that if you get closer, this good child who is always smiling will reveal his hidden and not so friendly side.

It wasn't until he met Li Yuege when he was a teenager and saw the innate domineering and arrogance of the real favored son of heaven that he looked back at himself before he had a feeling of showing himself.

He felt like a joke, refusing to be approached by others, holding his head up and walking silently with a proud posture, but his heart was full of tenderness and humbleness.

And when this kind of humble and thriving grows up, Li Yuege has taken him to experience the splendor of another colorful world. In this world like a different dimension, pretending becomes unnecessary. He only needs to be Li Yibei, and they are like one people of the world.

Li Yuege's pampering nourished his heart, but it also became a hotbed of fall.

He used to think that Yao Wanran was vain and flashy, living in his own fantasy like many superficial and boring women.But she and her poor and indifferent father have passed through a long period of time safely, and in the name of love.

The memory of his father has become very vague, he always seems to be very busy, he spends a lot of time on business trips, and cooks after returning home. Every request about Yao Wanran is always answered well.

He has a happy family that everyone admires, but his childhood was rarely happy.This should not be the parents' fault, and I don't know where it should be attributed.

Li Yibei was absent-mindedly picking vegetables, and Li Yuege followed around idly.

Yao Wanran is not in good health, and Li Yibei and Li Yuege cooked the dinner.

Four people sat at a table, because of Su Wei's attentiveness and Li Yibei's uneasiness, the atmosphere was a bit strange and awkward.

Li Yuege is familiar with himself, drinking and chatting with Su Wei, humorous and generous.

Li Yibei followed the family education of not talking when eating, and he didn't talk much from the beginning to the end at the dinner table. His eyebrows frowned occasionally, and then quickly relaxed, pretending to listen to their topics seriously, but in fact, he kept wandering away.

No matter what, Li Yibei wanted to talk to his mother, but Yao Wanran didn't give him this chance.Su Wei showed up for several days before the Spring Festival, accompanied Yao Wanran in and out of the hospital, took medicine and injections, and was so attentive that he had nothing to say.

Yao Wanran didn't explain anything, but just accepted it calmly, with a calm expression on her face, and even enjoyed such meticulous and considerate care.

Only then did Li Yibei discover that they are surprisingly similar in some aspects—always weighing, always giving up, but selfishly knowing what he wants, and then holding on to it tightly.

Li Yibei spent the Spring Festival alone.Su Wei asked Yao Wanran to go to a hot spring for vacation and recuperation. By the way, he also arranged a perfect travel list for him, but he politely declined, so he spent a very sloppy Spring Festival alone. After eating dumplings on New Year's Eve, he listened to the fireworks outside. The noise of firecrackers and TV was still able to fall asleep.

After the clock struck midnight, he woke up to the sound of firecrackers resounding throughout the city. He almost rolled to the ground hugging the sofa cushions. He squinted his eyes and sat on the sofa for a long time before he heard the doorbell ring.

Opening the door, Li Yuege's smiling face jumped out, "It's New Year, Beibei."

It was as rare as hell to see Li Yuege at this time.For a family like his, the Spring Festival is always ten times busier than ordinary people, full of people, with banquets and entertainment every day, and New Year's Eve is the biggest family gathering, which is very lively.

"Why did you come here at night?" Li Yibei yawned, his eyes still a little bit open.

"Sneaked out, my grandpa just fell asleep, and those relatives just left." Li Yuege raised his hand to touch his face, "Is this already asleep?"

"No. It's just right, come and drink with me."

Li Yibei went into the room, came out with a bottle of wine and two glasses, nestled on the sofa with bare feet, poured himself a glass, and drank with his head raised.

"In a bad mood?" Li Yuege also poured a glass of wine and drank with him.

"Where is so much emotion coming from?"

Li Yibei drank a few cups in a row, his head tilted and sank into the sofa, his eyes were a little foggy due to the effect of alcohol, "Li Yuege, do you think my mother really hates me?"

"Ok?"

"She has never scolded me since she was a child, and she is very kind to me, but she still feels that she doesn't like me, especially after my father passed away." Li Yibei held his wine glass and narrated as if talking to himself, "I don't care what she chooses, I just don't want to end up with nothing. I had nothing before, and I still have nothing now... Do you think I'm annoying? Even my parents don't want it anymore."

"You're drunk, Beibei." Li Yuege removed the wine glass in his hand, lit a cigarette, hesitated for a while in the rising smoke, and said, "Aunt Yao knows about us."

Li Yibei reacted for two seconds, then suddenly rushed over and pinched Li Yuege's neck, "You're talking nonsense!"

Li Yuege easily pulled him into his arms, and stroked his neck comfortingly, "Not only your mother, but also my parents know about it. Lu Xiu knew about our relationship, and Li Mingcen asked, so it was impossible for him not to tell. "

"When did you know?" Li Yibei was dubious, staring at Li Yuege in confusion.

"Probably before and after your father's accident, my mother came to look for Aunt Yao. But she didn't want to talk about you, so why would she hate you?"

"It's not that she is reluctant to say it, it's that she doesn't know how to say it. It's been like this since she was a child. Every time I make a mistake, she just doesn't say it, but she will remember it in her heart." Li Yibei laughed dryly, the shock in his heart was not what Li Yibei expected. Yue Ge only confirmed his conjecture.

He didn't know whether to thank Yao Wanran for pretending not to know or to be sad for his disregard.

"She is your mother, and she always wishes you well. She didn't say it before because she thought you hadn't grown up yet, and if she doesn't say it now, it probably doesn't help. As you said, she never forces you." Li Yuege Kiss his ear, "Okay, don't worry about it anymore, if she doesn't say anything, it may be that we are together by default."

"Who is with you?" Li Yibei lay back on the sofa, smiling and squinting his eyes, with a drunken expression, "Do you think my mother really likes you? If you change your background identity, she may Not even looking at you."

"It doesn't matter, this kind of assumption does not exist, and I don't care what purpose others are trying to please me, because I would do the same if I changed my position." Li Yuege didn't care.Li Yibei is too sensitive, on the surface he doesn't care, but in fact he likes to dig into corners. Once he finds the direction, he will go on even if he knows the mistake.

"Of course you don't care, because you have too much."

Every time Li Yuege said a sentence, Li Yibei retorted. It was still a sharp point of view, but because the words were drunk, the atmosphere was warm and even a little sweet.

Li Yibei was unusually talkative, talking a lot about his father.They are all buried in the bottom of his heart and deliberately forgotten by him, the memories are still fresh, but when he speaks them incoherently, in Li Yuege's ears, it is just a not-so-happy and lonely same year.

Loneliness seems to have run through all of Li Yibei's time in the same year, and it had a profound impact.If he didn't take the initiative to approach and change arbitrarily, he wouldn't be special in Li Yibei's eyes.

But from these nonsense, Li Yuege realized that he had too much important position in Li Yibei's heart.

Even if it was only once important, it is enough, because Li Yibei is an equally important existence to him, and it is very fair for him to wait and redeem this time.

Li Yibei fell asleep while talking, and when he opened his eyes again, he was woken up by the heat.

His body was very hot, the dry heat brought by his familiar burning desire.

Under the quilt are naked hot skin and palms wandering wantonly.

Li Yuege sucked indulgently on his delicate neck and chest, and in his ears were longing moans and panting.

While wrapping fingers and stroking the upright between the legs, the limp body under him moved a bit, the limbs entangled, turned over and pressed against him.

In the bedroom, there was only one lamp on the bedside, and Li Yibei's eyes were shining brightly in the dim and ambiguous light. His fingers groped and slid to the lower body of the two, skillfully rubbing Li Yuege's squirming desire, Said in a non-negotiable arrogant tone, "Li Yuege, let me do it once."

Li Yuege raised his head to meet the eyes of the person above his head, stroking him back and forth, from his shoulders to his round buttocks, tentatively pressing the small folds around him with his middle finger inserted into his buttocks, and just smiled at Li Yibei's request, "Whether I let you or not, only you can."