For the emperor

Cang Tiansu's coming-of-age ceremony did not find a suitable candidate until the eve of the summer solstice. Although the matter has not come up with a charter for people to see, it is not good, but because the previous Minister of Rites was beaten to death by the emperor because of this problem Yes, the new minister who took over the top position in the Ministry of Rituals tossed and turned and didn't expect how to touch the nerves of his immediate superiors on such a question.

After thinking about it, he really didn't know what to do, so he could only grit his teeth and stomp his feet, pretending not to know about such a big mistake for the time being, and continue to arrange the ceremony.

Cang Tiansu still took it calmly, and when the day came, if a candidate had been arranged, he would not need to worry about it; if the candidate hadn't been decided yet, he would pull Duan Yu on top.

It's just a coming-of-age ceremony, it's really not a big deal who presides over it, Duan Yu is his brother-in-law-to-be in name anyway, no matter from the courtier or the clan, his status is not low, and his age is suitable, so he can completely perform this duty on his behalf.

On the evening of the eve of the summer solstice, Duan Yu was entangled in the trivial matters of the Central Army, so he failed to arrive at his Prince's Mansion early as usual, so Cang Tiansu entered the palace in a carriage.

Although he had already left the palace to open the palace, Zhaori Palace was still empty for him. The eldest prince of Cang Kingdom stood quietly beside the resplendent palace for a while, and waved away the little eunuch who came over attentively.

He turned his head and looked to the east. Under the cover of the dense bamboo forest, there was a small path hidden there, which could lead directly to the cold palace. Compared with taking the main road, it could shorten the time by nearly half, and it was also more concealed.

It has been so long since he came back, and he has never visited the Lenggong once, where all the time he spent intimately with Li Mi were sealed away, and the only good thoughts he had left about his childhood were preserved, and it was his life of killing in life and death. The sole source of heat remaining in the bottom of the center.

It is too beautiful and precious, so perfect that it should only exist in memory, Cang Tian never dared to look at it, after experiencing the shattered image of Cang Jinglan and parting ways with Cang Tianci, he couldn't bear another thing. People are not.

He moved forward step by step around the small path at the outermost edge of the cold palace, imagining the fun he had running on the bluestone bricks when he was a child. He was once fascinated by the feeling of running in the cold palace, like a puppy urinating and occupying a lot of land. To stain every inch of land with your own scent.

In summer, he was sweating profusely and got prickly heat. In winter, the cold wind blows like a knife and his cheeks are cracked. Such pure and clean happiness, obtained from such humble little things, looking back now, Cang Tiansu feels a little sad.

A child's possessiveness is always justified and unreasonable. He likes the cold palace and hates any third party who dares to intervene without authorization.

Before the age of 12, Cang Tian was certain that Lenggong was his home, and Zhaori Palace was just his house. The difference between the two was like Li Mi and Yi Hao. Li Mi was his nanny, and he was his mother. For those who are nostalgic, Yi Hao is just a teacher and will never occupy the position of father in his heart.

But now Cang Tiansu sees it clearly, Lenggong is not his home, Zhaori Palace is not his house, they are both Cang Jinglan’s house, he is just a passerby; Li Mi is not his nanny, neither is Yi Hao His wife, they are all Cang Jinglan's subordinates, he is just a mission.

Cang Tiansu closed his eyes, he never blamed Li Mi, although his eyesight gradually broadened to allow him to see the hidden meaning of Li Mi's every action, his nurse also had her own selfishness and considerations, the two Among the two men, Cang Tiansu was the one who was abandoned.

Li Mi told him that your father is a great hero who stands up to heaven and earth, and it was she who spent 12 years building up a lofty and incomparably strong statue in Cang Tiansu's heart, day after day, year after year, brick by brick.

Li Mi used this method to prevent father and son from killing each other. At the last moment of death, she put her arms around Cang Tiansu and said with a smile: "Tiansu, I know he is not a good father, but please forgive my selfishness, don't hate him, OK?"

Don't hate him, these four words echoed again and again every time he dreamed back at midnight, every time he struggled with pain, and when he watched Cang Jinglan, who was seriously ill and comatose, touch the handle of the knife on the way to escape, It settles into the left chest cavity, provoking a dull pain.

That man killed his mother and his nanny, which was the source of all the pain and misfortune in his life. How could he not hate, how could he not complain?

But his mother loves Cang Jinglan, his nanny loves Cang Jinglan, they told Cang Tiansu, who hates so much in their hearts, please don't hate him.

Emotions are the most secure shackles in this world. The two most beloved women in his life locked him firmly, and passed the entangled emotional lines to his hands.

They chose to die, fulfilled their infatuation, let the love and hatred follow the wind, let the merits and demerits be judged by others, and left him standing alone at the crossroads, panicked and helpless, in great pain.If you walk to the left, you are sorry for yourself, and if you walk to the right, you are sorry for the two women who gave birth to him.

Cang Tiansu lowered his eyes, and his long and thick eyelashes trembled slightly. When his emotions were on the verge of losing control, he always had to ask himself, at the two ends of a balance, Cang Jinglan always weighed more than Cang Tiansu. Why? ?

Why?

Cang Jinglan has 72 concubines in the Six Courtyards of the Three Palaces. You are just one of the thousands of stupid women in the world who admire him, but looking at the whole world, I only have one mother and one nanny.

This is not fair.

This is not fair!

He cared about them very much, and the damage caused by this recognition was returned to him with [-] points. Cang Tiansu didn't know whether this should be regarded as Cang Jinglan's success or his own failure.

His Royal Highness Prince Yong of the Great Cang Kingdom stopped outside a dilapidated small house with a big hole in the roof and no trace of blue-black tiles.

This leaky room is where he and Li Mi live every birthday.The gloomy mood finally penetrated the weak sunlight, Cang Tiansu tilted his head and smiled lightly, elegant and pure, pure and dusty.

He didn't want to keep complaining and pitying himself like an abandoned widow, and the boiling emotions in his heart gradually calmed down.

Cang Tiansu raised his hand, and touched the door with his fingertips, and he felt the thick and thick texture of wood. It was spotless, and it was obvious that someone cleaned it from time to time.

The Lenggong is usually deserted, and Emperor Jing didn't have the habit of throwing women who the previous emperors didn't like in the Lenggong. Since Cang Tiansu and Li Mi left, this place has almost become a palace of death.

Judging from the news that Zhao Liu gave him feedback, only the second prince, Cang Tianci, would come here on a regular basis, without any servants, and would do everything by himself.How much time and energy did a little fool who can't even tell the difference between vinegar and soy sauce and never touched a broom in Dalian spend on it?

The door was pushed open, and the jujube wood furniture inside were all intact, clean and tidy, and had only been cleaned once in the past few days.Cang Tiansu pursed the corners of his lips lightly, feeling disappointed and full of mixed feelings.

Cang Tianci received Cang Jinglan's call, and quickly put down the errands in his hand, took off his regular clothes and changed into the prince's clothes.

He is no different than Cang Tiansu who has already left the palace to start a mansion. Although he has moved out of the East Palace because of his age, he still lives in the palace, so it is very convenient to go back and forth.

Cang Tianci was walking towards the Panglong Hall. There were two roads from his Changxin Palace to the Panglong Hall. He had always been used to walking the farther one, and he could see Zhaori Hall from a distance.

As a result, this time on the way, Li Quan came up to him profusely in sweat. Seeing the anxious look on his face, Cang Tianci asked in confusion, "Eunuch Li, what happened?"

Li Quan glanced at his face, hesitated for a moment, and replied: "Back to the second prince, the eldest prince is missing."

"Missing?" Cang Tianci turned pale with shock, his face turned pale, and hurriedly asked, "How is it possible?"

He suddenly thought of Liu Guangliang, who also disappeared for no reason. He disappeared for four years and came back. His body was divided into nine pieces and piled in cement.

——Could it be the revenge of the Liu family's dog jumping over the wall?

Cang Tianci had heard about the incident of Cang Tianrui falling into the water half a year ago, so he naturally didn't believe that Cang Tiansu pushed him into the water. He lived with him when he was a child, and no one could understand Cang Tiansu's pride better than him. He despised such a clumsy method. display.

However, the Liu family has fallen into the status of being able to use this kind of method. It can be seen that there is no reason and lower limit. It is not impossible to really catch Cang Tiansu and kill him quietly.

"The emperor just summoned the eldest prince to enter the palace. Our family went to the prince's mansion to announce the decree. Only then did we know that the eldest prince has entered the palace for a while. On this road, the attendants were driven away, and no one was seen again. "The summer solstice is approaching, and Li Quan's forehead is full of sweat, but it's all cold sweat. "Our family has already searched the neighborhood with people, but we didn't even find anyone."

Cang Tianci was stunned for a moment, and repeated: "He came to Zhaori Hall?" After a pause, the second prince of Cang Kingdom thoughtfully, nodded and added: "I see, I'll look for it."

There was an indescribable hope in his heart. If the guess in his heart was true, it would show that his elder brother's heart was not as cold as it appeared, and he did not miss all the past!

The cotton that had been stuck in his heart for a long time dissipated without a trace in an instant, his beating heart was about to rush out of his chest, and the steps of Godsend were so fast and big that he wished he could fly to the cold palace.

When he came to the door of the small broken house, his footsteps gradually slowed down. The hand that was about to push the door was frozen in mid-air, and there was an unknown singing voice with a mournful tone, in a language he could not understand.

Cang Tiansu was in a ball, with his head resting on the small children's pillow on the bed, lying on his side, huddled in the place he used to lie in when he was a child, singing in a low voice, and patting himself with his hands once and for all.

"When I couldn't sleep before, the nanny opened her mouth, and she must have sung this song." After the song was over, Cang Tiansu closed his mouth, but he didn't sit up, maintaining his original posture, with the corners of his mouth raised upwards. Unprecedented tenderness and beauty.

Cang Tiansu chuckled lightly for Li Shi's "Water Tune Getou", which was absurd. He still doesn't know what the real melody of this song is, and he probably won't have the chance to know it in the future.

With his eyes closed, he didn't need to look to know that the eye sockets of the heavens were bound to be red. This silly child has been very emotional since he was a child.

Eight-year-old Cang Tiansu looked at his silly little brother who was moved to tears by the sweet-scented osmanthus cake that could be made for him, and he was extremely grateful that he did not have such a flood of emotions.

Although his cold heart and lack of emotion can help him filter out unnecessary sorrow and compassion, but he will never be able to experience the pure happiness that God gave at that time.

A thin sobbing sound came, and Cang Tianci covered his mouth to suppress his crying: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." He didn't know what he could say, and the guilt welling up in his heart was about to drown him.

"I really hated you. I thought about it more than once. Without you, maybe everything would be different." Cang Tian Susu looked at him peacefully, her dark phoenix eyes were bottomless, and all her emotions were suppressed. Compressed on the most superficial layer, the eyes are as calm as a quiet snowfield in winter, and the tears given by the heavens flow even more fiercely.

"But it's nothing. When the nurse just died, I hated everyone in this world. I hated the Liu family who was the culprit. Looking at myself."

After a slight pause, a look of melancholy flashed across his face: "I even hate my nanny for leaving so resolutely, not even leaving any room for turning back. I even think she doesn't love me."

"Do you love someone to give him what he thinks is best, or give him what you think is best? She doesn't know what I want at all. I don't need her to take the blame for me. Even if I die myself, I don't want it. She was dragged into the water by me." Cang Tiansu looked down at the floor-sweeping and luxurious prince's clothes, with a slightly bitter smile.

During the four months of going to Yulan, such words sounded in his heart countless times, "Nurse, do you think I am a coward who would rather sacrifice you in exchange for a meager life in your heart?"Or are you clearly aware of my reluctance, but still faithfully act according to the script written by Emperor Cang Jing?

Since you are willing to die for me, why are you not willing to live for me?

Li Mi used her death to draw a gap that could never be bridged between them. She stood on the high ground of morality, and Cang Tiansu, who acted as a stepping stone, didn't even have the right to refuse.

He was forced to accept such a heavy gift, accepting the endless pain and self-blame as well as the grievances and grievances of the previous generation. Everyone was on the stage, some singing bad faces, some singing red faces, the actors devoted themselves wholeheartedly, It was vivid and vivid, no one asked him if he wanted to watch such a play, and then the show ended. As the only audience, he had to pay for it out of his pocket.

Why, why?

"I didn't even witness her death with my own eyes," Cang Tiansu got up from the bed. "Now that I think about it, it might be a good thing. If I saw her dead body, I don't know what would happen."

His expression was in a trance for a moment, his pupils dilated, and a crazy look appeared on his face: "I will eat her, I will swallow her into my stomach one by one, put it in my stomach, and put it in the place closest to the centrifuge, we will never eat her." Never part, never part—"

"Enough, enough!" Cang Tianci screamed, because of too much force, even a vein burst out on his forehead, he rushed over, trying his best to hug Cang Tiansu's thin and thin shoulders, "I will help you, I'll help you! I'll avenge you, and I won't leave you alone—"

He couldn't go on anymore, and when the words came to his mouth, there were only sobs and choked sounds for thousands of words.

Cang Tiansu didn't speak, he raised his eyelids, and through the wide open door coldly met the eyes of the person who had been standing outside for a while.

Li Quan was like falling into an ice kiln, his calves were shaking, he didn't even dare to look at the face of Emperor Cang Jing standing in front of him.