you're nothing but scum

When I woke up the next day and saw that Liang Liang was still sleeping, I carefully got out of bed, checked the refrigerator, and found that we had almost finished eating all the things Song Xiuming brought last time.

I can't always let Song Xiuming bring it back, so I woke up Liang Liang and asked him to accompany me to the supermarket.The supermarket is very close to here, and it only takes a few minutes to walk there. I reckon it should be able to last for such a distance, and it will be exercised by the way.

He looked weird when he heard me say this.

I couldn't help but ask him, "Why are you looking at me like that?"

Liang Liang hesitated and said, "Why are you willing to go out all of a sudden? Are you not afraid of being watched in the supermarket?"

I sneered and said, "I'm still afraid of being surrounded by people?"

Liang Liang immediately looked at me hypocritically with reverent eyes, and said, "Wow, you are indeed Queen Mo!"

I gritted my teeth, and resisted not hitting him on the head, because I was afraid that if I continued beating like this, I would make him stupid in the New Year.

It is true that I am not afraid of crowd watching, but no matter what other people think of me, I just can't stand their sympathetic eyes.

What Liang Liang said is right, let alone a place with a lot of people, I would not even go to a place with one or two strangers.As for why he suddenly looked away today, in the final analysis, it was probably because of what Liang Liang said on his phone yesterday.No matter how other people feel, Liang Liang is different from "other people". I can't let my brother be so secretly sad.

Of course, I would never tell Liang Liang that I was influenced by him to look like this, otherwise both he and I would be disgusted to death.

The two of us packed ourselves up and went out. As soon as I closed the door of my own house, I suddenly had a premonition. When I turned around, I saw Lin Luo running out excitedly, and even stopped at the door, pretending to be surprised He asked with a straight face: "Hey, are you going out too?!"

Liang Liang thoughtlessly, nodded and asked, "You too?"

Lin Luo also nodded and asked, "Where are you going?"

"Let's go to the supermarket!"

I looked at Lin Luo coldly and said with a smile, "I'm bored, let's go with you."

I think Lin Luo is a weird guy, he looks like a very normal college student, but he always seems to like to join me and Liang Liang.

But the two of us are just people who have not gone to school and worked directly. What can attract such a big boy?

one of my legs?Or the chicken feather on Liangliang's end?

Thinking to no avail, I just watched him quietly all the way, and followed the two of them downstairs.

When I go out, I always feel that someone is staring at me. This kind of magical feeling that can only be mentioned in animation and novels makes me feel refreshed when it appears on me.

But I looked around, but didn't see anything

acquaintance.

I think I probably thought too much about Lin Luo's affairs, so I didn't take it to heart.

When I got to the supermarket, I really got attention.

The scene was quite spectacular. I limped over on crutches, and other people cleared the way for me along the way.

I thought about it, and I didn’t seem to have seen a disabled person like me walking around the supermarket with a cane and self-improvement before.

Many of the staff standing on the side looked like college students. When they saw me walking by, they would subconsciously reach out their hands. Liang Liang gloated and said in my ear: "They want to help you, aren't they the first one?" Enjoy this kind of treatment for the first time?"

"Yes, yes," I said with a twitch at the corner of my mouth, "Do you want to try it too?"

"Hey, don't," Liang Liang said, waving his hands, "I said you can save money, and go get a prosthetic when you're done."

I paused when I heard this, curled my lips and said, "You think money is so easy to save?"

I still don't know what I should do in the future.

[-]% of the normal work is impossible to do, and besides, I don’t have any education, and all my work experience is in the “night”, so no one will want me if I say it.

"What are you going to do in the future?" Lin Luo asked.

I sigh.

Knowing that I was worrying about this, Lin Luo said, "Would you like to learn how to use computers? Now there are online job sites for the disabled, so you don't have to go out."

"Then what if Xiao Le has a prosthetic?" Liang Liang retorted, "It's not like he can't walk!"

Lin Luo was silent for a few seconds, then excitedly proposed: "Go to open a newsstand?!"

"Hey, what a bad idea!" Before I said anything, Liang Liang denied it to me.

Lin Luo was a little downcast, looking at me and then at Liang Liang.

I was a little speechless, and said: "Change the topic, change the topic, and you will know when the time comes. What are you worrying about now?"

When Liang Liang ran to the side cabinet to buy soy sauce, salt and vinegar, I saw that Lin Luo was going to follow, so I grabbed him.

Lin Luo looked at me in confusion and asked, "What's wrong?"

I said slowly, "You just throw a disabled person like me here?"

"..."

I looked at Liang Liang's back and asked, "Why do you always follow us?"

Lin Luo's expression became a little stiff.

He tilted his head slightly, and whispered in a tone that was obviously trying to hide his secret: "How can there be..."

"No?" I stared at him and said, "Aren't you planning to go out today when we go out? Where did you plan to go? You didn't even do your own things to walk with us?"

"I, I said I was just bored!"

"Lin Luo," I twitched the corner of my mouth and said, "Don't talk to me either."

Lin Luo was silent.

Although some people don't need a specific reason to get acquainted, Lin Luo's approach is indeed a bit too strange.You say we are neighbors, Lin Luo's parents are not very familiar with us.Moreover, Lin Luo is a college student. As for me and Liang Liang, they are not serious people at first glance. I think Lin Luo seems to be very curious about us, and I also hate to see some young people approach us because of curiosity.

I lowered my voice and said in a very serious tone: "Don't be clinging to us all the time. Don't say that we each have our own lives. Are you afraid that the two of us will bring you down?"

Lin Luo retorted after hearing the words: "I think Liangliang people are very good."

I choked, looked at him strangely and asked, "Have you taken a fancy to him?"

Lin Luo seemed to be shocked by me, and looked at me with dull eyes.

At this time, Liang Liang also ran over, and when he got to our side, he complained: "I just bought some casually, hey, I don't know how to cook, so I don't know how much those things need!"

Lin Luo looked at Liang Liang, then at me, and suddenly covered his mouth and turned his head away, his face turned red.

I was taken aback by this scene, and suddenly wanted to give Liang Liang what he said to me last night: Two little zeros are fruitless!

Next, the two of us walked on both sides of the beam relatively silently.

Liang Liang probably sensed the strange atmosphere, so he walked between the two of us very cautiously, not daring to say a word.Then we went home in this eerie atmosphere.

After going upstairs, I saw Song Xiuming waiting at the door of our room with a cigarette between his index finger and middle finger, and the smoke was lingering at the entrance of the corridor.

I was immediately taken aback.

Not to mention, Song Xiuming is not afraid of the cold. In this winter, he wears a coat and a sweater inside. Although the collarbone is not exposed, the curve of the neck makes me dreamy.The appearance of smoking is so sexy that I really want to grab that cigarette and take a puff too.

I think I've been abstinent for too long. Speaking of the car accident, I haven't even solved it by myself. Then I thought, Song Xiuming didn't put such a pose on purpose to welcome me, did he?

Song Xiuming lowered his head to look at us, then frowned, let Liang Liang and Lin Luo go up, stretched out his hands to support me and said, "Where have you been? Are you so tired?" After touching my cold hand, he said, "Hands are so cold."

I struggled up the last step and caught my breath.

After going to the supermarket like this, I really sweated a lot. I think I'm pretty amazing. I can control these two crutches so well so quickly.

Song Xiuming glared at me and said, "What are you proud of?"

I bared my teeth: "Which eye of yours sees me proud?"

Song Xiuming smiled, my arrogance was extinguished all of a sudden, and I entered the room with a cold snort.

Song Xiuming followed in and threw the cigarette butt into the ashtray.

Liang Liang packed up the things we bought, Song Xiuming knelt down in front of me and helped me massage my legs, and asked softly, "Dare you go to the supermarket?"

I snorted and said, "Why don't you dare, what's scary is others and not me!"

Song Xiuming smiled and said, "It's best if you don't mind. Many of my patients can't face the reality after amputation, and some of them don't even go out."

I am silent.

Maybe I couldn't understand it before, but now I understand it in my heart.For people like us, starting from the loss of that part of the body, there will be many invisible barriers lying in front of us.

Learn to face up to the part you have lost, learn to live as before even if you lose that part, learn to accept the eyes of others...

Once there is a threshold that cannot be crossed, it is estimated that it will become a real useless person.

"Hey, don't tell me, Doctor Song," Liang Liang interjected, "You should help Xiao Le, he has to work!"

I glared at him, thinking that you were the only one who was troublesome, and went back to see Song Xiuming, and asked reluctantly, "What did those patients do after they left?"

"The options are limited," Song Xiuming said. "The question is what do you want to do?"

I do not know either.

It's ironic to think that I used to work with my body.I gave up on myself and said, "Maybe someone likes my taste, so I won't have to worry about losing my job!"

Before I could react, the stump of my left leg was grabbed by Song Xiuming forcefully, and I was furious with an "oops": "Why are you grabbing!"

Song Xiuming's eyes made me stunned.

I've never seen him look so cold before, recalling what I just said, I shrank my neck subconsciously.

But after thinking about it, it's wrong. Sometimes I, Mo Le, do not pay attention to what I say, but no matter what, I never said that I like him. Why should I pay attention to my words and deeds because of his reaction?

There was a slight cough from behind.

Liang Liang hurried past us with a few vegetables, and whispered: "I... go to wash the vegetables first..." After finishing speaking, he went out.

I still couldn't help but slapped him on the head fiercely in my heart-this is the reaction every time!

Song Xiuming and I were the only ones left in the room, I felt uncomfortable, pushed him away and said in a rough voice, "What are you doing?"

Song Xiuming grabbed my hand instead. I struggled, but I couldn’t get away. I got really angry when I said "tsk", and said loudly: "What are you doing? I can say whatever I like! You are not me Parents, take care

with me? ! "

"Mo Le, can you say less annoying things?"

I was taken aback, and instead of being angry, I smiled and said, "Didn't you say that you don't mind my previous experience? After all, you do mind! Why do you always come to pester me because you think I'm dirty?"

Song Xiuming frowned and said, "That's right, I do mind, but if I really said that, you still let me approach you? If I really like you, it would be a lie if I don't mind your past, right?"

I choked, this sounded really unpleasant, but it was not unreasonable.

If I can't refute it all at once, I'm dumb.

"I just mind, the people who touched you before, the fact that you don't cherish your own body, and the thought of self-destruction you still have." Song Xiuming narrowed his eyes slightly, and said in a calm voice.