dream lover

Once Lu Xiaofeng saw a video on the Internet, a man covered in blood was lying on a slope, with an endless abyss below, and a cliff with no way out above his head.Just a slight movement, and it will roll into the darkness.The protagonist can only maintain a stiff posture, lying in place waiting to die.He felt that this was very similar to his current situation.

Now as long as he returns home, he has to face his mother's eyes full of pain.She looked questioningly at her son who came home from get off work, for fear that he would find that man behind her back again.Lu Xiaofeng obeyed her, and just wanted to say a few words of concern for her, but what greeted him was the words that made his ears callous.She persuaded her son to change jobs and return to his hometown, get married on a blind date, marry a wife and have children.

"In this way, even if your father and I are gone someday, we can feel at ease."

Lu Xiaofeng dared not agree, let alone refute, and could only shake his head helplessly.

He hopes to numb himself by working.Rumors about Lu Xiaofeng were flying all over the traffic police team, and he couldn't tell whether the other party's gaze was malicious or just out of curiosity.As a result, I became more and more withdrawn and alone, not communicating with any colleagues at all except for necessary work.

Going to work, going home, life at two points and one line, both sides are suffering.

In such a predicament, only Cheng Yan's name can give him some comfort.

Cheng Yan misses Lu Xiaofeng all the time and often calls him.

Sometimes Lu Xiaofeng's mother would sit by the side, afraid that she would find out that the two were still in touch, so he would say to Cheng Yan: "Don't call me, wait until I find you, okay?"

Cheng Yan understood his scruples.

Whenever I really want to say a few words to him, I have to ask humbly: "Can I chat with you?"

At first, he could bear it, but later Cheng Yan worked out a set of connection codes, and called Lu Xiaofeng using a public phone on the side of the road, or a landline in a hotel.

His mother was watching TV, in a good mood, and asked her son casually, who is calling?

Lu Xiaofeng said it was a sales call to sell a house.

Cheng Yan on the other end of the phone heard the old man nearby, and immediately changed his tone, imitating the tone of a salesperson, and asked, "Hi sir, do you want to buy a house?"

"I do not need it, thank you."

"The location of this apartment is very good, within the third ring road. It is the seventh floor of the building, and there is a roof on the roof. There is a big fish tank with two koi. Although the area is not big, you have left yours everywhere. Smell." Cheng Yan clearly mentioned his own house.

"Okay...I'll think about it again." Lu Xiaofeng's heart beat faster, and he hung up hesitantly.

Before going to bed, Cheng Yan called again.

"Hello, this is the food delivery service."

Lu Xiaofeng laughed, and whispered, "My mother is asleep."

Taking a deep breath, Cheng Yan stopped being funny, that wasn't his specialty.Facing the phone, he confided his thoughts on Lu Xiaofeng: "I miss you, I can't sleep without seeing you."

Lu Xiaofeng turned on the light and made a video call with him.

The video was connected, and Lu Xiaofeng saw Cheng Yan on the phone.

However, Cheng Yan's network was a bit delayed.He, who couldn't see Lu Xiaofeng for a long time, looked at the phone screen feeling lost.Apart from waiting, he didn't know what to do, his eyes were empty and dazed looking at the camera, his unkempt hair scattered randomly on his forehead, covering part of his eyes.

After more than ten seconds, Cheng Yan also saw Lu Xiaofeng.In an instant, his eyes were lit up, and a smile came from his heart.

Cheng Yan brought the phone closer and looked at him seriously.Noticing the dark circles under Lu Xiaofeng's eyes, he said distressedly: "Your spirit doesn't look very good."

The zoomed-in camera captured Cheng Yan's deep eyebrows and long eyelashes flickering, which took Lu Xiaofeng's soul away, and he couldn't care less about what he said.

"Let me show you Lu Liuliu and Cheng Chengcheng!" Cheng Yan walked out of the bedroom with his mobile phone in his hand, and came to the place where the fish tank was placed.The lights in the room were not turned on, and a white light source was installed on the top of the fish tank to illuminate a pool of clear water.Two red-topped koi swim back and forth in the sparkling light, their movements are clumsy and simple, and they shuttle among the aquatic plants, creating a quiet and peaceful picture.

"They miss you too."

Cheng Yan squatted beside the fish tank, raised his mobile phone, and squeezed into the camera with the two fish.The white light also reflected his face, and the soft light made the skin look radiant.Lu Xiaofeng didn't have the heart to look at the fish, he just wanted to look at Cheng Yan more.

The two made an appointment to have lunch together in a small restaurant in the old place.Lu Xiaofeng looked at Cheng Yan eating simple noodles with him, and said with emotion: "I have wronged you."

Cheng Yan said: "The more people oppose it, the more I want to persevere."

He was referring not only to this relationship, but also to his irrelevant attitude towards others.No one can change him except himself.

After eating, Cheng Yan walked to see Lu Xiaofeng for a while.

Because there were no people on this section of the road, when we parted, Cheng Yan took Lu Xiaofeng's hand and expressed his heartfelt feelings, saying that he was reluctant to leave and that he didn't know when the next time we would meet.

Just as Lu Xiaofeng wanted to hug him, he saw a few colleagues coming from the other side out of the corner of his eye.At this time Cheng Yan still wanted to kiss, but Lu Xiaofeng immediately pushed him away.Cheng Yan's center of gravity became unstable and he almost fell down.

Qiu Tian, ​​who was the driver in the car not far away, got out and roared after seeing it, "What the hell are you doing?"

"Why are you talking to Brother Lu!" Cheng Yan turned Qiu Tian down.

When Cheng Yan left, he saw Lu Xiaofeng talking with that female policewoman from the car.There were other traffic policemen present, so what they were talking about should be about work.

Thinking of Cheng Yan's astonishment when he was pushed away by him, Lu Xiaofeng felt extremely uncomfortable, and sent him many messages of apology on his mobile phone.After seeing him, Cheng Yan was busy buying the hotel, so he didn't pay much attention to his mobile phone.

It made Lu Xiaofeng think that Cheng Yan was really angry.Anxiously searching the Internet, what should I do if I make my partner angry?Some people say to give red envelopes, some people say to buy lipstick, but these are not suitable for them.Knowing that Cheng Yan liked to collect his own handwriting, Lu Xiaofeng shut himself in his room and wrote a letter with a pen and letter paper without sleeping at night.

The content is probably about admitting mistakes, plus recalling the little things they did in high school.He also wrote about the scarf weaving for Cheng Yan before, hoping that the man would be happier after seeing it.

After checking for typos, Lu Xiaofeng realized that it was a love letter.

With the mentality of writing everything anyway, Lu Xiaofeng got up early the next morning, sneaked to the door of Cheng Yan's house, and stuffed the piece of paper into the crack of the door.

Cheng Yan was talking about business last night, so he got home very late, and got up to wash and go to work after two hours of sleep.I watched helplessly as someone stuffed a piece of paper into it.

He opened the door, Lu Xiaofeng tiptoed to leave after doing bad things, Cheng Yan called him: "Stop."

Lu Xiaofeng turned around and smiled at him foolishly, scratching his head.

"Come in."

Cheng Yan gave orders in two words.Lu Xiaofeng followed him into the door listlessly.Sitting on the sofa, accompanied Cheng Yan to read the love letter written by himself in person.Arguably the most embarrassing torture in the world.

After Cheng Yan finished reading, he folded the letter slowly and put it in his pocket.Then he looked at him: "What do you want for breakfast?"

Lu Xiaofeng asked: "Are you still angry with me?"

Cheng Yan remembered that he was so busy last night that he forgot to call Lu Xiaofeng, he probably misunderstood.I didn't expect to earn a love letter by playing crookedly.He was so happy that the corners of his mouth twitched, afraid that Lu Xiaofeng would see it, so he turned his face up again.

"Wait, I'm going to the kitchen, soon."

In order to save time for Lu Xiaofeng, Cheng Yan made two sandwiches and heated the milk in the microwave.Take it out and set it on the table.Lu Xiaofeng thought that he came here to apologize, and let others cook for him, with guilt in his eyes.

"Hey me." Cheng Yan who was sitting opposite him suddenly said two words.

Since Lu Xiaofeng thought he was angry, there was no reason not to eat the fat that was brought to his mouth.

Lu Xiaofeng picked up the white porcelain cup used to hold milk, brought it to Cheng Yan's mouth, asked him to take a sip with his own hand, and fed it once symbolically.

While eating breakfast and casually chatting about the current situation, Cheng Yan told Lu Xiaofeng that he had successfully sold the hotel.It's just that because the boss Xu behind the scenes intervened, the expenditure was double the expected amount.Instead of complaining, Cheng Yan intentionally complained, and intentionally asked Lu Xiaofeng, did he know that Boss Xu had a daughter?

"Did you say Swallow?" Lu Xiaofeng didn't shy away from mentioning her in front of Cheng Yan.

"It seems that you know a lot about her." Cheng Yan said angrily.

Lu Xiaofeng knew that Cheng Yan was wary of Yanzi.

Ever since the two of them escorted Yanzi home that time, Yanzi also knew that Cheng Yan regarded him as a thorn in the side of his rival, and consciously avoided Lu Xiaofeng.Cheng Yan still kept mentioning her, which seemed a bit impolite.

"I haven't talked to her recently, we are colleagues, it's such a simple relationship."

Obviously, the two of them met and talked yesterday, and Cheng Yan saw it with his own eyes.He lowered his eyes and looked at the vortex of the milk under the shaking of the cup, and endured it, saving face for Lu Xiaofeng without revealing it.

"She is not that simple to you." Cheng Yan said.

Lu Xiaofeng insisted on telling Cheng Yan a reason, don't make guesses out of thin air.He also said: "I admit that I was interested in her before. That was before I got along with you. There is no need to involve others in our affairs."

Cheng Yan was so angry that he didn't say a word, his face turned pale.

After eating, Cheng Yan sent Lu Xiaofeng to his post, and drove away by himself.Out of the protection of Yanzi, Lu Xiaofeng refused to back down, and the two did not communicate throughout the whole process.After that, Cheng Yan went to the hotel to handle the handover, and was very busy.

After calming down, Cheng Yan washed his hands in front of the mirror and looked up at himself.He became a suspicious man, his former ease and ease disappeared, and he became the kind of person he looked down upon.In the presence of loved ones, take off the mask of coldness that pretends to be.Behind that is a secular and ordinary face, which is no different from all living beings, greed, hatred and ignorance, and the same.