dream lover

Both of them felt uncomfortable, staring at the phone in a daze for nothing, hoping that the other party would send them something.But no one wants to be the one who takes the initiative to find topics.

In the end, Lu Xiaofeng couldn't hold back anymore, and made pork liver porridge for Cheng Yan.His cooking level is the level of the next noodle fried vegetables. This pork liver porridge was specially made by calling his mother and following the instructions on the phone.When I came downstairs to Cheng Yan's house, I met Cheng Yan helping Lao Qin run the dog home.He followed into the house and put the porridge on the table.Cheng Yan looked ungrateful, and changed his clothes and packed things by himself.

Lu Xiaofeng had no choice but to have fun on his own. He was about to feed the two koi fish when he discovered that the big fish tank in the living room had disappeared strangely.He hurriedly called Cheng Yan in the bedroom: "Where did Lu Liuliu and Cheng Chengcheng go?"

Cheng Yan changed his clothes and came out, his eyes glanced at the refrigerator unintentionally, this battle startled Lu Xiaofeng, he stammered and said: "No way? You... Did you give them away?"

Cheng Yan followed Lu Xiaofeng's thoughts and said flatly, "I burned it in soy sauce."

Lu Xiaofeng knew that Cheng Yan was joking, so he quickly told him to stop.

"He died last night, so he threw it away." Only then did Cheng Yan tell the truth.

The two were in the Cold War, and the two fish that Lu Xiaofeng gave them died so strangely.In an instant, he remembered the scene of Cheng Yan pressing other people's heads into the bucket, and once again felt the dreadful alienation in Cheng Yan.Leaving a sentence "Remember to drink the porridge while it's hot", Lu Xiaofeng ran away in a panic.

Cheng Yan couldn't figure out why Lu Xiaofeng was so afraid of him.

All his efforts to bring them closer seemed to be in vain.

Because he was so annoyed, later in his dream, Lu Xiaofeng turned into a fish.Cheng Yan looked at Lu Xiaofeng from outside the fish tank, he didn't want to catch it, he just wanted to watch it quietly and watch it swim around.In the eyes of this fish, the strange creature lying outside the fish tank was very ugly reflected by the water surface, which made it feel frightened.It was lying sickly on the bottom of the water and was about to die. Cheng Yan had no choice but to take the fish to the seashore and release it.

Later, Xu Zhiguo felt that he couldn't leave Cheng Yan at home, so he used his connections to make an appointment with a famous ophthalmologist, so he took Cheng Yan there for consultation.

After reading his eyes, Xu Zhiguo sent Cheng Yan home, anxious to urinate and wanted to borrow the toilet, but he couldn't get in when he opened the door.He found that there were two fish tanks piled up behind the door, one new and one old, and the small space was completely filled.There is also a water basin on the sink, which contains two goldfish sleeping in the water bag.Xu Zhiguo had never eaten pork and had seen pigs running, so he knew that such a big fight was about changing fish tanks.Cheng Yan just cleaned the new tank and started watering it.

"Cheng Yan, do you raise fish in the bathroom?"

Cheng Yan, whose eyes were covered with gauze, couldn't see anything, and cursed in the living room, "Don't touch them."

"I didn't touch it, I dare not touch it." He thought that Cheng Yan who lost his temper like this was quite cute.

Xu Zhiguo didn't see such a fresh side of Cheng Yan in private, so he quickly picked up the topic, saying that he was also interested in these things, and asked Cheng Yan where he got the two koi from.

"none of your business!"

Cheng Yan never swears, and Xu Zhiguo was stunned all of a sudden.He walked over and was surprised to see that the person in his heart who had never had any emotions, tears were streaming from under the gauze.

At this moment, Cheng Yan's depression and depression completely vented out.I know this gay from Cheng Yan's side, only the same kind will not laugh at me, and understand the sadness of it.

Xu Zhiguo patted him on the back and talked about his wife emotionally.

The two are college classmates, and they have been in love for nearly 20 years along the way.When he got married, he really wanted to spend his whole life with this woman.But the trivialities in the marriage slowly wore away that passion.He discovered that her wife was not a fairy who didn't eat fireworks in the world. She would have all kinds of minor problems and lose her temper hysterically because of some trivial things, which made him, as a husband, feel more and more miserable about family life.After the son was born, the relationship also had a brief recovery, and then fell into repeated quarrels.

It's hard to get through tomorrow, and neither of the couple wants to divorce.In the end, she chose to avoid it and asked to go on a long-term business trip to a foreign branch.Xu Zhiguo is actually bisexual. The reason why he chose Cheng Yan was because he knew that his wife no longer loved him, and he wanted someone who could bring him back the excitement of his first love.

So, in fact, Xu Zhiguo didn't really like Chengyan either.

But it doesn't matter anymore.Cheng Yan doesn't care what others think of him at all.

The two sat on the floor drinking beer.Although Cheng Yan drank his head and didn't mention a word about Lu Xiaofeng, Xu Zhiguo naturally guessed the reason.

He felt aggrieved for Cheng Yan, in order to express himself, he stepped on his rival by the way, comforted Cheng Yan and said: "What's so good about that guy? If I see it again, I will beat you twice to vent my anger."

Xu Zhiguo never expected that Cheng Yan would send him to the hospital again just because of such a sentence.Cheng Yan removed the gauze, and after adapting to the light for a while, he swung his fists and landed on Xu Zhiguo's body like clockwork.

If it wasn't for the phone call from his son, he was beaten while answering the phone, Xiaofeng cried on the phone and begged Cheng Yan not to hit his father again, it might really be over.

Even so, Xu Zhiguo still couldn't hate Cheng Yan.The head office sent people to investigate, and tried every means to hide it for Cheng Yan.

However, Cheng Yan took the initiative to confess his fault for beating his boss. In addition to apologizing and paying compensation in person, he also offered to resign from the research institute, and eventually became unemployed.

He thinks this is pretty good, and he doesn't have to spend his time in the workplace anymore.He took Lao Qin's dog for a walk without distraction.

The bruises on the eyes have faded, but the vision has not returned to what it used to be.Cheng Yan went to change the prescription of the spectacle lenses. He was mentally prepared in advance, and his eyes have been like this since then. What the doctor said at the time was also ambiguous.

This is probably the punishment for violence.

Cheng Yan returned the house, stored his luggage, and planned to leave for another city for development.Before that, he wanted to go home to visit his father.On that high-speed train, he ran into Lu Xiaofeng who was going on a business trip.

The two were even assigned to the same carriage, Cheng Yan checked the tickets first, and Lu Xiaofeng and his colleagues came in through the front door just before the departure.

Lu Xiaofeng stared blankly at Cheng Yan who was resting on his seat with his eyes closed.

He recalled that year when he sent Cheng Yan to take the exam in other places, and looked at the lonely figure of that person sitting quietly in the waiting hall.Standing at the ticket checking place, Cheng Yan looked back at Lu Xiaofeng who was seeing him off for the last time, as if he would earn money by just looking one more time.

He was still as handsome and handsome as before, and his eyes that were exactly the same as back then opened.The moment he saw Lu Xiaofeng, countless emotions surged out, and the pain and unwillingness that could not be concealed in his eyes were annihilated in a wry smile called "Relief".

Lu Xiaofeng greeted his colleagues, and quickly sat down on the empty seat by the window next to Cheng Yan, and asked him: "What's the matter with you these days? You refused to answer my calls. you......"

Cheng Yan once again chose to leave without warning. He felt that if he told others, it would be like announcing it with great fanfare in an attempt to get him to stay.

Because Cheng Yan didn't pay much attention to him, Lu Xiaofeng paranoidly occupied the seat next to him, and when the real passenger in that seat got on the bus, he also found an excuse to change seats with him.

The mirror-like large paddy field outside the car window is in stark contrast to the speeding train.The same was true for Cheng Yan, who remained motionless in the car, and Lu Xiaofeng, who was fidgeting.Hearing the broadcast on the car selling boxed lunches, Lu Xiaofeng finally found a chance to wake up Cheng Yan and said, "Are you hungry, may I go to the dining car to buy you food?"

Cheng Yan opened his eyes and said, "I'll get off in one stop."

One gets off at the small station in the hometown halfway, and the other goes to the other province at the end. The two will eventually go to different destinations.

Apart from opening his mouth lonely, Lu Xiaofeng couldn't say anything more lively.He has always been like this, not very eloquent, quickly stood up and said: "Then I have to eat, I'll go to the dining car, and I'll be right back!"

Lu Xiaofeng first handed out box lunches to his colleagues, and then came back with two of them.He sat back in the car window first, and then freed up his hand to help Cheng Yan put down the simple dining table in front of him.Facing Lu Xiaofeng's care, Cheng Yan picked up the chopsticks with dignity.Lu Xiaofeng watched him move his chopsticks, then he bent his eyes and smiled, and moved side by side with him.

In fact, the lunch of the train is still very good. The chicken with mushrooms and fried beans are brightly colored and quite appetizing.However, Cheng Yan thought that this might be the last meal the two of them ate together, as he chewed slowly, the rice became more and more bitter, and he lost his appetite anyway.

Seeing him leaving his seat in a hurry, Lu Xiaofeng asked: "What's the matter, isn't the meal delicious?"

Cheng Yan locked himself in the toilet of the car, thinking naively that as long as he hides until he gets out of the car, everything will be over.He left his mobile phone on the seat, Lu Xiaofeng waited for a long time but did not see Cheng Yan coming back, so he picked up the mobile phone and knocked on the door of the toilet.

"Cheng Yan, your phone rang several times..."

He was pulled into that narrow space all at once, Cheng Yan grabbed his waist, pulled him closer, pulled the door closed with one hand, and locked it.The bodies of the two were basically stuck together, and two words came out of Lu Xiaofeng's mind with a bang: It's over.

The entire carriage was not full, and there was no one standing in the aisle, so no one noticed the two of them in the toilet.

Lu Xiaofeng lowered his head again and again, and gave Cheng Yan the phone, and the latter just put his arms around Lu Xiaofeng and called back the number over there.From the content of the phone call, Lu Xiaofeng finally knew that Cheng Yan was going for an interview in another place, and he seemed to be planning to leave the city.

"Did I hear it wrong, or... are you leaving?" Lu Xiaofeng asked.

He found it difficult to understand, how could someone just leave and give up the environment that had finally taken root?

Cheng Yan also bowed his back and moved closer to the other person's buried face.The faint smell of perfume invaded Lu Xiaofeng's nose. It smelled so good that it unexpectedly acted as an aphrodisiac, so that he couldn't resist the kiss from the owner of the smell.

It wasn't until his tongue was bitten that Cheng Yan had no choice but to turn his head away.

Lu Xiaofeng blushed anxiously and angrily.

Cheng Yan said: "A company over there contacted me." It was an answer to the question just now.

Lu Xiaofeng was angry and forgot all of a sudden, and instinctively choked out a sentence: "I don't want you to go..."

Hearing a sneer, Cheng Yan cupped his chin with his hand, stroked it lightly and said, "I'm a pervert, you're so afraid of me, yet you want me to stay."

After saying this, the teardrops broke down and fell straight down.

Lu Xiaofeng recalled Cheng Yan many times, and this scene was added to his memory. No one could fathom how he managed to laugh and shed tears.