A young girl dreams of a wild god

When it landed, the big fox in human form staggered very obviously.His eyes were slightly squinted, and the metallic blue pupils were filled with mist and chaos.

He was really sleepy, and the sleepiness gushing out from the depths of his soul kept tempting him to close his eyes.This feeling is safer than death, more comfortable than eternal sleep, if not for his strong willpower, he might have passed out before being dragged by Xuezhi.

"Sorry, I'm sleepy." Saying that, Oda Sakunosuke shook his head vigorously. "...Can I sleep?"

"No, no, hold on! Teacher!"

Oda Sakunosuke heaved a sigh of relief and stood up stiffly.He stared at the godless eyes, looking miserable looking at the void.

"...It's so miserable." Nakahara Chuya said dumbly, "I feel like he's about to fall asleep with his eyes open."

"Eat them, teacher." Yukie raised her hands to Oda Sakunosuke. There seemed to be a hole in her palm, and white rice was gushing out of it.

The smell of rice is sweet, and it has a sense of presence in the small study.To others present, the rice just smelled good and made people want to taste it.But for Oda Sakunosuke, who suffered a serious loss, this thing is like the nectar that suddenly appeared after being thirsty for half a month, making his throat roll unconsciously a few times.

Oda Sakunosuke bent down and took the handful of rice from Yukie.When it touched his lips, those rice grains immediately melted into a puddle of white rice milk, which was smoothly swallowed by him.

After drinking one handful, Yukie was already waiting by the side with the second serving. Oda Sakunosuke ate five servings in one go, and his eyes finally became clear.

"It's enough, Xuezhi." Lan Tang said, "It's useless to eat more, what he needs is digestion and natural recovery."

Hearing what Lantang said, Xuezhi withdrew the divine power in her palm.The rice turns into tiny dots of light and disappears into the air.

"How do you feel now, teacher?" Xuezhi put her hands behind her back and looked at the expression on his face.

Oda Sakunosuke heard her words, but his eyes were attracted by someone and he couldn't pay her attention.Xue Zhi turned her head following his gaze, and saw her elder brother who was standing quietly at the edge of the crowd with his back to the door.

When no one noticed, he had slowly moved from the center of the book party to the door.He looked like he wanted to rush out the door and rush out of this room with too much concentration of happiness.But the voice in his heart suppressed his impulse, nailing Dazai Osamu's feet to the ground.

When the eyes of Oda Sakunosuke and Yukie fell on him one after another, Dazai Osamu tilted his head and showed a very faint smile.With his hands in his pockets, he shrugged to his friend.

"...Long time no see, Oda Tsukuru." He said with a trembling ending.

Oda Sakunosuke's expression was very dazed, he stood there for a long time in a daze before opening his mouth.

"Dazai... You should change your habit of teasing animals." Said the big fox who was tired of being teased by Dazai through the gate of the courtyard.

Obviously there are a lot of things to say to Osamu Dazai, such as "Long time no see" and "I'm back, how are you doing?" and other greetings.But when he spoke, Oda Sakunosuke chose a very wonderful opening statement.

This time, it was not just the three people who didn't know the inside story, even Dazai Osamu, the culprit, was very obviously stunned for two or three seconds.In the vainly quiet atmosphere, Oda Sakunosuke let out a dull 'ah'.

"…puff."

Osamu Dazai's laughter broke the silence in the room, he arched his back, trembling at the seriousness of Oda Sakunosuke.

"Hahahaha! As expected of you, Odasaku."

"I'm serious, after experiencing it myself... I feel like I can empathize with animals."

"That's it, the attributes of men in the healing department are directly full." Dazai Osamu said with a smile, "...How about it, are you going to visit Tsushima's house?"

Oda Sakunosuke agreed.

Xuezhi watched her brother and Mr. Fox leave the study with eyes full of gossip, then moved to Zhongya Zhongya, and tugged at his hand.The brown-haired man raised his eyebrows and turned sideways so that she could whisper in his ear.

"Zhongye, did the teacher know brother before his death?"

At first glance, it is a bit tricky!It was definitely the first time I saw my brother showing such an expression.

Nakahara also said: "...If I remember correctly, he seems to be Dazai's former friend? Although I had a glass of wine with him, it's been a bit long, and I don't have a deep impression."

It had been four years, and it was already rare that a glass of wine could remind him of the existence of this person.

Xuezhi made a long "Oh" and said, "Will you also go to visit Tsushima's house? I'll lead the way."

"Is there any reason for me not to go?... Lantang, together?"

Rantang, who was standing next to Tsushima Genemon's body, shook his head, "Go ahead, I'll read his body. Although it won't cause any trouble, his sudden disappearance will bring you a little trouble, right? "

The conscientious Lan Tang made the two cubs look at each other in dismay, and there was a strange sense of sight of the parents supporting the family and running away by themselves.

"Thank you, Lantang Mama!"

"Please finish it off, Lan Tang."

Holding Nakahara Chuya's hand, Xuezhi led the way in front, leading him through the winding corridors.The servants at home hid in the shadows, looking at the two of them with probing and curious eyes.

They didn't know that Genemon Tsushima was dead. To them, today was just a special day.This little bit of specialness does not prevent them from peeking at the guests, as well as the eldest lady who dared to come back after running away from home.

This sight is annoying enough.

"This is my room." Xuezhi pinched her waist with one hand, and pointed to a door with the other, "I have lived here for more than ten years."

Zhong Yuanzhong also opened the door and looked into the dark room.Xuezhi was one step behind him, and touched the door after entering.Wooden vines immediately grew on the wooden door, locking the door firmly.

"Have all the things in this room been put away?" Zhong Yuan said, looking at the empty room.

After Xuezhi ran away from home, the servants of Tsushima's family quickly counted the things she left behind.This bedroom that originally belonged to her was cleaned up almost completely, the room was empty, and there was no trace of anyone who had ever existed.

No one in this family cares about Xuezhi, and no one really loves or cares about her.

This realization made Nakahara Chuya clenched his fists, wishing to make a big fuss and tear down the entire roof of Tsushima's house.

Unlike Zhong Yuan, who was furious, Xuezhi didn't care about the changes in his bedroom.

Unsurprisingly, after all, that was what they did when the elder brother took over the house. ——Pick up all traces left by the other party, and let this person completely disappear in Tsushima's house.

At the corner of the right wall, Xuezhi found his target.Through the sleeve, she stroked those nicks inch by inch with her fingertips, and couldn't help chuckling.

"Look at this, Chuya."

Zhong Yuanzhong also squatted beside her, and followed her hand to look at the wall.There is a row of vertical horizontal lines engraved on the wall, which seems to be used to record the children's height changes.From the age of four to seven, the horizontal line is very straight, but after the age of seven, until the age of 12, the line is crooked. It can be seen that the person who recorded the height here carved it with his own backhand.

"You were only so small when you were four years old." Nakahara Zhong also said in an exclamation tone, and he used his palm to draw the bottom line to compare with the current Xuezhi.

"Unfortunately, I didn't inherit the gene for being tall." Xuezhi pretended to shake her head a few times. "There was a low cabinet here originally. My brother said he wanted to play a prank, so he moved it away and secretly recorded my height here. As a result, because he covered it up so well, no one noticed that we were in the Graffiti on the walls."

Although after her brother passed away, she can only record her height by herself.When she entered junior high school and left her hometown to go to Diguang... She didn't have the energy to think about it anymore.

"And here, I used to put a very large full-length mirror here. But once I came back from the night, I opened the door and was scared by myself in the mirror... After that, I changed it to a smaller mirror."

Speaking of this embarrassing past, Xuezhi laughed foolishly.

"Here... my bookshelf was placed in this position before, because there are old and new books, so it is a bit messy. Once I bought an old book with insect eggs in it. I didn't notice it, and the larvae crawled half of the bookshelf. When I came back from school, I was so frightened that I lost my schoolbag and scrambled to ask someone to tidy it up."

Zhong Yuan Zhong also didn't start, and snickered, "I can imagine the scene of you asking for help with tears in your eyes."

"I didn't cry. If I cried, I would be laughed at by the servants and brothers and sisters. But if you continue to laugh at me, Chuya, I will immediately cry and complain to Rantang Mama."

"My fault...what else? Tell me."

Xuezhi, who was pretending to be angry, held a ball of air in his mouth, pretending that he was inflated with anger.Zhong Yuanzhong also pinched her face with his hands, and the girl immediately grinned a little to the side, leaking air, and couldn't pretend to be angry anymore.

Under her narration, Zhong Yuanzhong could also imagine the original appearance of this room.

The short table should be closer to the bed so that you can put a water glass.Because she occasionally gets dry mouth in the middle of the night and needs some extra water.She is used to placing all the furniture as close to the wall as possible, so as to leave an open space in the very center of the room, allowing her to read with a book on the floor while others are not paying attention.

"Wow, Chuya!"

"Ok?"

Xuezhi's acting skills are exaggerated, forcing her to look like she is about to fall.Zhong Yuan Zhong also subconsciously raised his arms to catch it, but she was dragged by her, his feet slipped, and he fell to the ground.

The girl in a feather coat with a crane pattern sat astride Nakahara Nakaya's body, putting her hands on Nakahara's abdomen with a smile.She is too light, so light that gravity makes you dare not act rashly, for fear that you will struggle too hard and throw her out.

"This position used to be my bed."

Nakahara Chuya's pupils shrank a bit, and even his breathing became short of breath.

Xuezhi pretended not to notice, and continued: "I'm lying here, growing from a little child to a teenage girl, and then gradually becoming what I am now.... Can you imagine it, Chuya?"

"...Yes." The brown-haired man covered his face and let out a weak breath: "You, don't tease me in this way."

"I'm not teasing you," Xuezhi moved her body, and picked up the hem of her clothes with her hands, "Because I'm seducing, seducing, you."

"Someone will come."

"No, because I turned the door into vines...no one can get in. Chuya, I locked you up."

I'm pretty crazy too.

Xuezhi thought.

"As for me, I really, really, really like Chuya. I like it so much that I want to be with you forever, and I like it so much that I want to engrave your name on the rest of my life."

"This is where I used to live, but there is no shadow of Chuya here, I don't like it."

"So... can I?"

"Yeah, teacher." Yukie, who was sitting on the edge of the porch, saw Oda Sakunosuke approaching, and shook his sleeves at him, "Brother isn't there?"

Oda Sakunosuke: "He seems to have found something, and he just walked towards the kitchen. Why are you sitting here alone, where is Zhongyuan?"

"Zhongye went to get me some water... Hey, I have a premonition that my brother and Zhongye will meet in the kitchen. No, the kitchen will not be safe."

"Indeed, the kitchen will be demolished." Oda Sakunosuke nodded affirmatively.

"...Pfft." Xuezhi covered her mouth with her sleeve, and said with a smile: "When the teacher can't speak, it just looks cured. After turning back into a human, the whole thing is healing."

"No? I don't think I'm healing anywhere? Ah, but since you all say that, then I probably belong to the healing department?"

"That's the point, it's very interesting."

Shaking his feet, Xuezhi asked him: "Does the teacher hate this state?"

"Ok?"

"Forcibly leaving the soul like this, even the freedom of reincarnation is deprived."

Oda Sakunosuke was silent for a while: "I had a dream before."

"dream?"

"I want to write... use my hands to write my own story. So I put away my gun and never kill again. Because a murderer is not qualified to write about other people's life."

Xuezhi felt that she could guess what he wanted to say next, "So this dream was shattered?"

"Ah, my adopted children died because of me, I must take revenge... risk my life." Speaking of this, Oda Sakunosuke let out a sigh.He turned his head to look at Xuezhi, and laughed because of the anxiety on her face.

"I have said these words to Dazai, but I think I have to convey these to you no matter what. Yukie, I probably can't pick up a pen now and write novels. But I think, let's do this first Live, and then find something I can do, something I want to do. Do more good things, save other people's lives, and maybe lie in bed one night, and I want to write again."

After a pause, he said again: "At the moment of death, I actually regretted it. I once saw the loneliness of a certain boy, but I just watched it. I never really reached out to him once, touched him. That crying child. Now that I have a chance, I must at least make up for my regrets, not leave others behind, and seek a safe death myself."

"...I see." Xuezhi patted him on the shoulder, "Can I call you Odasaku? This name is so catchy."

"Okay, that's what my friends call me... To be honest, I sometimes even forget my surname Oda."

"Hey, Odasaku!"

"Stay away from me, you bastard, you're disgusting!"

"Huh?! I haven't complained that you smell like slugs yet! Why? Taking advantage of my sister-chan and acting like a good boy!?"

At the other end of the corridor, Dazai Osamu and Nakahara Nakaya were walking on the left and right, almost close to the wall, and they did not want to get closer to each other.Nakahara Chuya was holding a water glass in his hand, so he couldn't spare his hand to beat him violently.Relying on this, Osamu Dazai used gravity to make his nerves jump.

so good.

In a trance, Xuezhi heard a familiar voice sighing in her ear. The voice sighed and almost shed tears.

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The author has something to say:

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Xuezhi: Let me introduce, this is my father

Dad·Odasaku: Ah, how are you?

Dazai: Then Odasaku is also my father?

Chuya: What the hell, don't you feel awkward? ?Hey Oda, what do you think?

Oda:?I think it's okay because Dazai is still a child

Dazai: wwwww

Chuya: ... vomit

…感谢在2021-01-2002:03:34~2021-01-2111:35:20期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angels who irrigate the nutrient solution: 225 bottles of light wind and light clouds; 20 bottles of crooked moon;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!