A young girl dreams of a wild god

It rained that morning when I went to attend Saya Osawa's funeral, and the light rain wet the ground, filling the air with a damp smell.

Today's Tsushima Yukie wore a jet-black dress as mourning for the ceremony.Standing by the window, she looked at the rain outside and was slightly lost in thought.

An orange cat named Kyoko dangled at her feet, holding a ball-shaped toy made of hemp rope in its front paws. The game scene was so lively that it seemed to be fighting some monster that could pretend.

Mr. Fox lay on his side, occasionally blocking Xingzi with his tail to prevent the big cat from bumping into him.After all, if this face-saving orange cat bumps its head, the first reaction is definitely not to reflect on it, but to shift the responsibility to the old father, Fox.

Zhong Yuanzhong also took out an umbrella that was also black from the low cabinet and handed it to her.

"Ah, I almost forgot."

"If you shower yourself with a cold, I'll definitely laugh at you afterwards."

"Anyway, I'll be in the car all the time, so I won't catch a cold." Xuezhi puffed her cheeks, making an angry look.

Zhong Yuan Zhong also helped the girl smooth the messy hair behind her ears, and asked her: "Is it really okay for you to go alone? Or I'll accompany you."

"I'm no longer a five or six-year-old child. Although it's a funeral, I'm not afraid at all." As he spoke, Tsushima Yukie patted the shoulder of the man with brown hair, and took the umbrella from him.

"I'll be back around noon, don't worry about me."

"If you need me somewhere, just call me, forget it, I will pick you up later."

"No need, I'm just going to attend the farewell ceremony of my senior, I'm fine....Then I'm going out, Chuya."

Standing outside the gate of the apartment, Tsushima Yukie put an umbrella on her shoulder and looked up at the gray sky.

The raindrops hit the umbrella surface and made a "dong, dong" sound, Xuezhi thought, when Senior Osawa fell from the upstairs, the sound must have been far more deafening than this.

When Tsushima Yukie arrived at the small auditorium where the ceremony was held, it was still early, and the farewell ceremony had not yet officially started.The people who came to the ceremony gathered in twos and threes, talking in low voices.

A large number of flowers are placed at the front of the auditorium, and these plain flowers surround the portrait belonging to Saya Osawa in the middle.The girl in the photo has a lively smile on her face, she looks fearless, and nothing can trouble her.

"Please forgive me, Mrs. Osawa. Saya has a spirit in heaven, and I definitely don't want you to be so sad."

"Okay, okay... my Saya, how could you be so confused!"

Tsushima Xuezhi looked for the crying sound, and found the woman in black kimono among the crowd.That woman has the same black hair and black eyes as Saya Osawa, but their looks are not very similar. Maybe Osawa-senpai is more like his father?

"Hello, is this my senior's mother?" Out of an inexplicable emotion, Tsushima Yukie stepped forward to talk to her.

Ms. Osawa wiped away the tears on her face with a handkerchief, and looked at Xuezhi with her bloodshot glasses: "Yes... May I ask who you are?"

Tsushima Yukie bowed to her and said, "I am Osawa-senpai's junior in the dance club. Today, on behalf of all the first-year students in the club, I came to see my senior for the last time."

"Ah, that's it, thank you so much."

"Please don't say that. Senior sister has been leading us responsibly in school. Thanks to senior sister, I have improved a lot in ballet."

"That kid has always been good at ballet, that's my pride."

"Yes, senior sister is very good." Tsushima Yukie smiled, and the tone of his mouth changed a little.

"I regret it, because I clearly saw the fatigue of my senior, but I couldn't bring her comfort, and I couldn't keep her...I'm really sorry."

The tone is soft, but there are needles hidden under the cotton.

Ms. Osawa shed tears again because of her words, and her whole body was a little limp.She squeezed Tsushima Xuezhi's hand tightly, as if pinching someone who could save her life.

Perhaps at this moment, Ms. Osawa discovered one thing from the remorse of her daughter's peers-her child should not have died.

"Thank you, thank you so much...I'm sorry, I should say sorry."

"Please don't say that."

Looking at the woman who was taken away with Mr. Osawa's arm, Tsushima Yukie covered the corners of her lips with a handkerchief, lowered her eyes, and looked very sad.

That's right, Ms. Osawa, you have to be more sad.In this way, there will be less regret and powerlessness in my heart.

Soon the farewell ceremony began, and the old monk invited from the temple recited scriptures for Osawa Saya.The guests sitting under the stage remained silent, only occasionally one or two people made a low sobbing sound.

Tsushima Yukie stared at the portrait of Osawa Saya in a daze, because her eyes were a little sore because she stared at it for too long.

The image on that photo was constantly distorted, and at a certain moment, it changed its appearance in Tsushima Yukie's eyes.The smiling girl became gray-haired and blond-eyed, becoming herself.

"Go all the way, senior. I'm sorry, I can't do anything for you." The gray-haired girl put her hands together and said in a very small voice.

"And... thank you, I love you too."

I love your life, the way you are, and love with all of you.Like loving my past self, like loving another dead self.

If there is an afterlife, I hope you can live freely this time.

When the farewell ceremony was over, Tsushima Yukie, who was an ordinary classmate, left first.She held an umbrella and walked out along the bluestone path.

At the end of the road, a woman in a gorgeous kimono is waiting.

The woman's figure was covered by the gradually thickening rain curtain, and she looked hazy, but the red umbrella in her hand and the red amaryllis on the hem of her clothes were still scorching.

Tsushima Yukie was taken aback for a moment.

I still remember her, is this the big sister I met before?

"Long time no see, girl." The woman raised the umbrella in her hand a little higher, revealing her orange-red hair, "I'm Koyo Ozaki, and I'm Chuya's elder sister."

The two of them stared at each other silently from a distance.After a while, Tsushima Xuezhi raised his feet and walked towards her slowly.

"Let's chat on the way, Ms. Ozaki."

"The car is just ahead, come with me, girl."

So it became two people in parallel.

The thick soles of the small leather shoes knocked on the stone floor, mixing with the sound of the clogs under Koyo Ozaki's feet.Hearing the footsteps of the two, Tsushima Xuezhi suddenly spoke.

"When I went out today, Chuya asked me if I was attending the funeral of my senior sister this time...I lied."

"Because for me, today is also my funeral—another mine."

The death of Osawa Saya made her feel very sorry, but besides that, there was also a kind of sadness of the death of a rabbit and a fox.

If she hadn't opened up a little to others because of the existence of Chuya Zhongyuan, if she hadn't mustered up the courage to escape to the other party's side, maybe she would also be lying in that small coffin at this time.

——Just like the future she visited by chance, the 'Tsushima Xuezhi' who failed to escape from Tsushima's house.

Koyo Ozaki didn't speak, but looked at the girl beside her indifferently.

The gray-haired girl was really petite, and she was a soft little one when she was by her side.It's just that her gaze is cold, and the pair of pupils staring at the front are like two inorganic glass beads, making her seem inaccessible and at the same time wanting to be hugged by others.

She seemed to have seen such a look in someone's body.

After the two sat in the car, the rain in the sky became heavier.Koye Ozaki told the driver to drive directly to the downstairs of the apartment where Nakahara Nakaya often lived, and then put on the soundproof baffle.

"When you said these things to me, you didn't just want to confide in me, did you?"

Tsushima Yukie shook his head, "I just want to express my determination."

"determination?"

"Yeah." In the dim car, Xuezhi smiled at the other party, "I've already 'died' once, so from now on, whether it's dancing or falling in love, I will go all out."

"Even if you have already guessed the work between Zhongya and me, even if you know that I don't like you two."

"Yes." Tsushima Xuezhi said. "even so."

The car was quiet for a moment. Two women who had quarreled with a certain man sat on the left and the right, looking out the window at the pouring rain.The ringtone of Tsushima Yukie's cell phone broke the silence, causing the two of them to shift their gazes to the cell phone in her hand.

The note of "Zhong Ye" on the screen... no matter how you look at it, it is full of presence.

this kid...

Ozaki Koyo sighed silently, and almost put his hands on his forehead, "...it's okay, take it."

Tsushima Yukie, who had always maintained a calm posture, had flushed cheeks at this time, and shimmered in those glass bead-like eyes, she looked like an ordinary girl in love.

...how blind is Chuya so that he can't find out that the other party likes him too?

Koyo Ozaki's hands started to itch, and she really wanted to chop something with a knife.

'That's enough, next time he asks me what to give a girl to make her feel happy and out of bounds, I'll just give him a knife. '

The golden Yaksha of Portmafia pronounced the "death sentence" to Gravity in his heart.

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Out of respect for Zhongye, and because she didn't want to cause meaningless disputes on this matter, Sister Hongye didn't go to investigate Xuezhi's background information in private.She currently only knows her first name and knows that she goes to school in Yokohama.

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Chiu Ye, a man who said in his heart that he would not do anything to a girl before she became an adult, but he couldn't help but want to give something away.

Chiu Ye: Here, giving something is different from pursuing it!

Xuezhi: Chuya cares about me a lot recently, I think I can confess successfully (clench fist)

哒宰：出门别说你是我妹妹，雪。感谢在2020-12-3014:00:19~2020-12-3114:53:48期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the landmine: 2 egrets for night talk; 1 for eh;

感谢灌溉营养液的小天使：泉樱77瓶；细雨轻飘、寄軒、cici喵50瓶；雪舞血影13瓶；宁为玉12瓶；Y.H.Y、芊墨10瓶；艽艽_琴歌6瓶；轻佻3瓶；紫梦2瓶；女人类、我要努力成为有钱人1瓶；

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!