you have to talk to me

The taxi stopped opposite the No. [-] gate of Jiangyu Garden, Feng Jimeng was sitting in the back seat, his cell phone kept ringing.

Sauerkraut Yuyu: Where have you been?

……

Sauerkraut Yuyu: Are you here?We are all leaving now.

The phone vibrated, Yu Gang came to call.Feng Jimeng just glanced at it, but didn't answer it, letting it rang until it automatically hung up.

Sauerkraut Yuyu: Are you planning to come over?Say hello to me even if you don't come, you really want to come out.

……

Sauerkraut Yuyu: Don’t come here before I arrive, I’m already gone.I'll ask about the situation for you later, don't be stupid again by yourself.

Feng Jimeng lay on the car window and looked outside, and after a while, he saw Yu Gang's conspicuous red Audi driving out from the gate of the community, and quickly disappeared along the river.Feng Jimeng was still lying on the spot, staring at the gate of the community.

He didn't know what he was doing either.In the car, he still wanted to get closer to Yang Fan, to stand in front of him, and not let him choose Xu Youlin while completely ignoring himself.But when he really got to this place, the courage he mustered up along the way disappeared automatically. He didn't dare to go upstairs, he didn't want to see Yang Fan and Xu Youlindeng being right, he couldn't face the possible failure, he didn't dare to imagine What would happen to him if that happened.

He is far from being as fearless and courageous as he thought, and he is far from being as clear about justice as Yu Gang.When the end came, Feng Jimeng didn't want to face it anymore.

The driver in front suddenly said: "Handsome guy, parking is not allowed in this place. If you get caught, you will be fined. Get out of the car when you arrive at the place."

"I will pay the fine."

Feng Jimeng looked up at Jiangyuyuan No. [-] community, seeing the tight security at the gate, she knew it was a high-end community.Three high-rise buildings are lined up in a row, facing the open river view on the side of the road, and the most prosperous commercial center in Ning City on the other side of the river.In the evening, the lights of the building on the other side have been turned on. If you stand upstairs, you should be able to see a very magnificent and beautiful night view of the city.

The driver had a headache: "That's not what you said, maybe points will be deducted, you'd better get out of the car first."

"Then you drive forward," Feng Jimeng pointed to the traffic light 300 meters ahead, "Just go around the intersection and come back."

The driver had no choice but to go around the two traffic lights twice. When his patience was almost exhausted, Feng Jimeng suddenly saw Yang Fan and Xu Youlin coming out of the community side by side.He immediately directed the driver: "Follow those two people."

"you……"

"I'll give you two hundred more, master, please forgive me."

The driver temporarily shut his mouth and followed the two of them while walking and stopping.

The two of them strolled in the courtyard, neither driving nor taking a taxi.On the way, Yang Fan smoked a cigarette, but he couldn't find the fire after touching his whole body. Xu Youlin took out a lighter from his trouser pocket, and leaned over to light Yang Fan's cigarette.The two walked and chatted all the way, mostly Xu Youlin said, and his hands gestured twice from time to time.Yang Fan mostly listened, only occasionally raising his hand to take a puff of cigarette.Feng Jimeng shrank her head in the car more than ten meters behind, of course she couldn't hear anything.

They stopped at a Thai restaurant not far from the community, talked to the waiter at the door, and went in.

Feng Jimeng asked the driver to park the car here.The driver might be afraid of getting into any trouble, so he decided not to accompany Feng Jimeng to stay longer and let him go down.

The side of Jiangbin Road is full of restaurants, and it is time for meals, and the spicy and delicious smell permeates the whole road.Feng Jimeng ate two bites of bread at noon, and he was quite hungry at the moment, so he didn't make any struggles, and followed into that Thai restaurant.

The interior decoration is very exotic, the seats are separated by fake palm trees and bamboo grids, each seat has a certain degree of privacy, Feng Jimeng is slightly relieved.He saw Yang Fan and Xu Youlin sitting very far in the back, so he chose a hidden corner, just enough to see them without attracting attention.

He ordered some food casually, and said to pay after ordering.The waiter told him that he could finish eating, but Feng Jimeng insisted.

In all fairness, this restaurant tastes good, not too authentic Thai food, modified to suit the tastes of the locals.It's just that Feng Jimeng's food at this time was a bit insipid, and after a few mouthfuls filled his stomach, he kept staring at the two people not far away.

He didn't know why he suddenly became like this, he didn't dare to go forward, and he was unwilling to run away. If Yang Fan saw him, he would definitely be scolded, so he could only follow secretly, using a dry palm leaf as a fig leaf to block his Face.

The two people in the distance seemed to be chatting happily. Every time the waiter went to refill Yang Fan's cup of drink, Xu Youlin took over.The two ate for a long time, most of the people in the store left, and it was completely dark before the two walked out side by side again.

Fortunately, it was dark, and Feng Jimeng followed them more than ten meters away, on the way back to the community.Will Yang Fan stay here tonight?So is the answer he wants already ready?

But Yang Fan stopped when he reached the gate of the community, and Xu Youlin talked to him a few more words, but in the end he didn't follow in, but made a phone call at the gate and smoked a cigarette boredly, as if he was waiting for a car.

Feng Jimeng hurriedly hailed a car, and sure enough the car he hailed had just arrived, Xu Youlin drove the car out from the gate of the community, Yang Fan pulled the co-pilot and got in.

On the way back to Hongcheng, Feng Jimeng heaved a sigh of relief.It felt like a love affair that had been sentenced to death. At the last moment, the sentence was changed to probation.

Four or ten minutes later, Xu Youlin's car stopped at the intersection of Yang Fan's car wash shop on Baiyang Road.Feng Jimeng paid to get out of the car, but after he finished a series of actions, Yang Fan hadn't gotten out of Xu Youlin's car yet.Feng Jimeng watched the time and waited, 10 minutes, 5 minutes... He began to feel irritable.The driver seemed to be more concerned about his metered income, so he waited with Feng Jimeng, without urging him to get off the car at all.

But Feng Jimeng has his own restlessness.What the hell are they doing in the car?Why didn't you get off the car when you got there?Will Yang Fan get off the car?Or did Xu Youlin come down with him and go to his house together?Feng Jimeng bit the corner of his mouth, wrapped his hands around his waist, and kept shaking his legs. He couldn't help but kept looking at the time, as if he was holding a time bomb in his arms.

Xu Youlin stopped the car, but didn't immediately unlock the door.Yang Fan sat in the co-pilot with his arms folded, without urging him.The two were silent for a moment, and finally Xu Youlin couldn't hold on anymore, and glanced at the rearview mirror.

"Xiao Fan, do you want to think again, don't answer me in such a hurry. I'm really sorry for the past..."

"A Lin," Yang Fan looked ahead calmly, "There is no one who is sorry for the other between us, it's just that life has reached a fork in the road, and it's time to go our separate ways. The past is over, for me , those are very precious memories...but that's all."

Back then, because of his grandmother's illness, Yang Fan insisted on going back to Hongcheng.Naturally, Xu Youlin didn't want Yang Fan to come back, not only because they would go to another place because of this, but he also knew that this was definitely not the life Yang Fan wanted.Xu Youlin proposed to take his grandmother to Beijing for treatment, but this suggestion was not practical. The two fresh graduates simply couldn't afford a sick old man.So Xu Youlin's practical suggestion is to let grandma live in a better nursing home first, and after a year or two, when the two of them have gained a little foothold, they can take grandma there.But Yang Fan couldn't accept it.

After Yang Fan came back, the two stayed away for a while, and finally Xu Youlin couldn't take it anymore, and after calmly thinking about the future of the two, they broke up.

This was undoubtedly a very heavy blow to Yang Fan at the time. Sick relatives, financial pressure, gloomy future, loss of dreams, and finally even his lover left him.But the reality couldn't allow him to be depressed, and finally endured the pressure, gritted his teeth, and fumbled to open a car wash shop. From the beginning, he was the only one in the shop, and now there are seven or eight employees.From having nothing to a house and car, to afford all the needs of a sick old man, only he himself knows how hard it is.

Although it was difficult and painful, it took a long time to heal his wounds, and even longer to let go of Xu Youlin, Yang Fan never complained to him.That is the person who accompanied him through the green years, took him to taste the ups and downs of love for the first time, and gave him a lot of help in life and studies.If one day Xu Youlin needs it, he will not hesitate to lend a helping hand.But that's all.

No matter how heart-piercing the love and hate, how sweet the relationship is, when you really put it down and look back, it's just calm and breezy.Time moves forward and cannot go back to the past, and the same goes for feelings.This was the first time when Yu Gang helped Xu Youlin test himself, Yang Fan already had the answer.

Xu Youlin didn't think so. He was the one who took the initiative to let go back then, but he was also the one who never walked out after so many years.He agreed with Yang Fan's claim that he had reached a fork in the road, but after so many years, he returned to his starting point.He felt that he was still Xu Youlin from before, and Yang Fan should also be Yang Fan from before.

"Xiao Fan, have your ideals of love and life changed over the years?" Xu Youlin looked at him deeply, "I don't think you have changed, you are exactly the same as before, and I have never changed, I am still the same Ah Lin, with everything you want, we can live in our ideal way together, we will live happily, there is no one more suitable for you than me, you know."

Yang Fan still looked ahead, looking calm, but he could see his pain from his furrowed brows.

Xu Youlin touched his shoulder and made him look at him.

"I also plan to open a bar, which is next to TATA, and I have all the stores. I will invite the band to come to the bar to sing. We can invite any band you like, and it can also be your own stage. This is the promise I made to you back then, and I have come to fulfill it to you," Xu Youlin put his hand on Yang Fan's cheek, he was eager and anxious, the calmness on his face was cracked like glass, without this layer of protection, He looked so fragile and lonely, "I really love you, the only thing I haven't stopped these years is loving you, Xiaofan."

Although he had put it down, Yang Fan still couldn't see Xu Youlin's appearance, he turned his eyes away: "Ah Lin, don't be like this."

"Give me one more chance, and I'll prove to you everything I said, okay?"

Yang Fan said with difficulty: "A Lin, I don't love you anymore. We can be friends, but..."

"I know," Xu Youlin raised his eyes, and he could make up for the brokenness on his face, "You like that high school student, right?"

"His name is Feng Jimeng."

Xu Youlin sighed lightly: "Over the years, you really haven't changed at all, you're still so willful and don't take anything seriously, but some things can't be done with enthusiasm, you Have you thought about the future with him?"

Yang Fan didn't speak.

"How old is he, sophomore or junior?... You haven't thought about it, in fact, you know very well that you have nothing to do with him, but now you are playing emotional games."

When Xu Youlin became vicious, he was really vicious and vicious. He hit Yang Fan's pain point right away and made him very angry.

"What does this have to do with you? Xu Youlin, I've already told you clearly, don't make it so ugly."

But Xu Youlin didn't stop there: "If you really like him, just stay with him. I can wait until the day you part ways."

Hearing this, Yang Fan looked at him in disbelief: "Why have you become like this now?"

Xu Youlin smiled faintly: "As a loser, I can only play every card to gamble. You can also gamble, but the probability of you losing is 99%. After you try it ,us……"

Yang Fan became a little irritable, he frowned and interrupted Xu Youlin: "Let me get out of the car."

Xu Youlin was also a little angry, grabbed his shirt tie and pulled it to the sides, glanced at Yang Fan, then pulled his clothes again, his gaze stayed on his shoulder blades for a second.When he looked at Yang Fan again, he was no longer angry, his eyes became sentimental or sad, he pulled Yang Fan over, and was about to lean over to kiss him.

But Yang Fan pushed his chin away and reiterated again: "Let me go down."

"After so many years...isn't it okay to kiss now?"

Yang Fan's face was ashen, and he stopped talking, just like this, he and Xu Youlin were in a stalemate for a while.In the end Xu Youlin pulled the corner of his mouth and laughed twice, not knowing whether he was laughing at himself or Yang Fan who fell in love with a teenager.Finally, he let go and opened the car door.