you have to talk to me

After saying this, Feng Jimeng's nerves suddenly tightened.

He may not be the kind of "liar" who asked himself, but in a sense, he is really a liar, even if it is a bit of accidental accident to become this liar.

Fish from Other Mountains: What do you want to lie to, money or sex?

Fish from Other Hills: If you meet me, I guarantee you will be fooled by both.

Door:……

Men: Don't just give people money easily, there are many scammers on the Internet.

Fish from Other Mountains: Then you should have done it long ago. At this stage, it is time to cheat vigorously. I am being dazed by you right now, and it is basically responsive to requests.If there is no answer, you will definitely answer if you act like a baby or something.

Fish from Other Mountains: Do you want to try it?

Gate: No more.

Fish from other mountains: You see, you liar is not professional at all.

Fish from Other Mountains: If you are really a liar, then you won’t refuse everything I offer you.

Fish from Other Hills: I am not afraid that you will lie to me, but I am afraid that there is nothing you want here.

Men: No, it’s a pleasure chatting with you every day.

Fish from Other Hills: Just want to chat?

Gate: I don't think about anything else for now.

Fish from Other Hills: Why do I feel like a failure.

Gate: I don't know either.

Fish from other mountains: Aren't you curious about what I look like, don't want to know my name, what I do, where I live, and have no interest in my life?

Feng Jimeng didn't know how to reply.

He was indeed curious when he said he didn't know Yang Fan was the fish in the mountain.But for the purpose of hiding himself, he never probed these questions, because once you start to probe others, others will start to probe you.

Fish from Other Hills: Show you my photo.

This sudden proposal made Feng Jimeng at a loss, he struggled with how to tactfully refuse, but before he could finish typing the words of rejection, a selfie had already been sent.

It was taken in the living room of this house. Yang Fan was lying on the table with his chin between his forearms and a cigarette in his half-curled fingers. He looked like he had just woken up.His hair was drooping in a mess, his brows were slightly frowned in the wisps of smoke, and his eyes were lazily looking at the camera.Behind him is the balcony of the living room, and outside the balcony on the eighteenth floor is the rising sun.

Sloppy and lazy, his spirit is a bit worse than his usual appearance, he doesn't feel so "Yang Fan", and he is closer to Feng Jimeng's appearance in Feng Jimeng's heart.The people in the morning sun are also like plants in the morning, with night dew on their bodies, it always makes people feel that the eyebrows and eyes of the people in the photos are wet.

Feng Jimeng stared at this photo without moving, until the phone screen turned black, he closed his eyes, and then heard the sound of something collapsing in his heart, and the big fish floating on the top of the mountain crashed to the ground.

Although he had already discovered that Yang Fan was the fish from the mountain, before this moment, he could still have the one percent fantasy that all this was just a coincidence, that the fish from the mountain was someone else.When chatting with other fish in the mountain, he could try his best not to think about Yang Fan.When talking to Yang Fan, I tried to treat him as someone I met for the first time in my life.

But it was impossible now, the two figures he tried his best to distinguish were completely overlapping at this moment, as if mocking his childish and useless efforts.

Fish from other mountains: My name is Yang Fan.I am 30 years old and live in Hongcheng.

Fish from another mountain: The workplace is at No. 32 Baiyang Road, and he is the owner of a car wash shop called "Yangfan".

Fish from other mountains: If you want to find me, come to this place.If I happen to be away, you can ask other people in the store how to find me.

Fish from other mountains: I will live here forever, hoping to wait for you one day.

Men: Stop talking.

Feng Jimeng's words seemed to be a door that was resolutely closed, and the messages from the other side stopped, about a minute later.

Fish from Other Hills: Sorry.

Fish from Other Mountains: Did it cause pressure to you?Just pretend I'm talking to myself, and don't need to answer anything.

Feng Jimeng pinched the phone in a daze, he felt guilty.Just now Yang Fan relieved him, took him home to take a bath, gave him food and shelter, but suddenly threw him such a heavy emotional burden that he didn't know how to deal with it.

Fish from Other Mountains: Angry?

Door: No.You talk so much it's a little hard for me to digest.

Yang Fan lit another cigarette, took a deep breath, and let it out slowly, his mood calmed down a little.

He was too anxious.

It may be that the words are rushing, the more you talk, the stronger the grievances accumulated during this period, and you need to vent.It may be because he intuited that today's "door" is not too emotional, he is a little frustrated, and wants to take advantage of it.It may also be that he himself is not a patient and reserved person.So Yang Fan poured out all his emotions when neither the other party nor himself was fully prepared.

After calming down, I realized that I had crossed the line a bit.

Fish from Other Mountains: Then stop digesting and talk about other things.

He cut off the chat just now, and found a new topic a little bluntly.

Fish from Other Hills: Which 21P song do you like the most?

Feng Jimeng exhaled lightly, pushed back the chaotic emotions that had just surfaced, tightly closed the lid, and continued the topic abruptly.

doors: "carradio" and "kitchensink"

Fish from other mountains: Their rap is very characteristic, and the rhythm of these two songs is particularly good.

Gates: I like the words carradio, causesomebodystolemycarradio, andnowIjustsitinsilence, sometimesquietisviolent.

Door: Let’s say quietisviolent.

Quiet is violent.

Feng Jimeng thought of many silent late nights, the sudden sharp quarrels in the next room ripped through his night like a siren, and the tranquility.

When he was a child, his parents would be very afraid of quarreling. He could only plug his ears with paper balls, cover his head with a quilt, and curl up against the corner of the wall.Later he learned to use music to isolate himself from the outside world.

When he grew up, when he had nothing to do, he always had a lot of uncontrollable thoughts, and some noisy voices were arguing in his head without stopping for a moment, which drove people crazy, wanting to vent and destroy.But at the moment when the music was connected, the voice in his head disappeared, and his world became quiet instead.

So everyone should have their own "audio".If his stereo was stolen, he'd probably go crazy too.

Fish from Other Hills: What about kichensink?Which strange lyrics moved you?

Doors: I'm a kitchensink, you don't know whatthatmeans, because akitchensinktoyou, isn'tkitchensinktome.

Door: The sink is different for you than it is for me.Can you understand that feeling?

Fish from Other Mountains: It’s like when you were a child, your mother gave your toys to other children, but she didn’t understand that you had so many toys, but you had to cry so sad for one of them?

Gate: Well, probably.

Fish from other mountains: I prefer another don'tleavemealone.In fact, all leavemealone wants to say is actually don'tleavemealone.

Door: possible.I also like this sentence.

Gate: There is also "goner" Iwannabeknownbyyou. "cancer" the hardest part of this isleaving you. "stressout" "trees" "jumpsuit"...their songs are all very nice, almost every song has a point that touches you and allows you to find yourself.

Yang Fan had a faint smile on his face.When talking about this band, "Gate" will change from the way of cherishing words like gold in the past, and become eloquent.His excitement and liveliness can be felt across the screen, and because of this liveliness contrast, people have become a lot more childish.There is no way to hide the special liking, whether it is a person or a thing.

But in fact, most of the band's songs are gloomy and sad, and some are even hysterical. They are not the popular sadness of love frustration, but deeper and more real injuries from life, years and time.Injuries are cumulative, so healing is slow and takes years and months.

Yang Fan didn't want him to find himself in these lyrics.The empathy and resonance of every sentence means that he has experienced every pain.Every hoarse roar of the lead singer must be his voice bursting from the heart, even though he is usually so taciturn.

He thought, if we meet one day, he must take him to the 21Pilots concert.

Fish from Other Hills: Do you have any favorite bands in China?

Men: I don’t hear much about it in China, and I don’t particularly like it.And you?

Fish from Other Mountains: Recently I heard that Caodong has no party, it may not be your favorite type.

Yang Fan conveniently shared a few songs.

Men: No, I really like it.

Fish from other mountains: Then our tastes are really the same.

Fish from Other Mountains: Do you... want to hear me sing?

Door: I want to hear it.

Feng Jimeng said without hesitation.

Suddenly a voice request came over.Feng Jimeng thought it would be like last time, it was just a recording file, he looked at the green button, a little at a loss.After waiting for a while, there was no connection, and the other party hung up the phone.

Fish from Other Hills: You just listen, no need to speak.

When the voice came again, Feng Jimeng put on the earplugs and connected the voice.

Yang Fan didn't speak for a while, the two people on the phone, facing each other silently in this quiet night, could hear each other's breathing.

Yang Fan's heart that had been silent for many years suddenly throbbed, and the cold symbol in the phone suddenly breathed, had temperature, had life, and became a concrete person.

After a long period of silence, Yang Fan's cell phone vibrated.

Door: What's wrong?

Yang Fan coughed twice, his voice came out of the earphones, a little distorted: "It's nothing, do you have any songs you want to hear?"

Men: I want to listen to 21P, but it's too late now, it will disturb others, so you can sing whatever you want.