Small tear bag [entertainment circle]

Cen Yi watched his expression become more and more strange, as if there was something unspeakable.I couldn't help but think a little more, and tightened my grip on the game currency that I had been with for many years, "It's your friend who runs a game hall... Do you want to take it back?"

If so, he seems to have no way to refuse.But when the baby has been cherished for so long and has feelings, of course it is reluctant.

"That's not it."

Yan Fan smiled, with a nostalgic tone, "Nan Huo is only interested in the design process of these small objects, and he doesn't care much when the finished products are finished. If he thinks it takes up space, he will give it away."

Besides, people are gone, and it is impossible to ask for anything again.

Cen Yi felt relieved and put the game currency back into his pocket.The name sounded familiar, "Senior Nanhuo, is that the guitarist in the band Dawn?"

"You even know him?"

"Of course, I have a full set of Dawn's concert videos at home, and I have watched them many times."

As if suddenly realizing something, he lowered his voice, "But I remember... Senior Nanhuo seems to have passed away many years ago because of an accident when he was out at sea."

He has followed Dawn for many years, and it is certainly impossible to miss such an event that has a great impact on the band.The news of Nanhuo's death was reported overwhelmingly on the Internet, and after that, fans posted long articles of condolence every year.

Nan Huo was the original founder of the band and was compared to the foundation of Dawn.He is also much older than other band members, especially for Shen Wenji, he is like a father.However, shortly after the end of the world tour in its heyday, due to an accident, it remained forever in the depths of the sea, and its bones were hard to find.

The unfortunate death of "the best guitarist in the world" in the hearts of fans has aroused a large number of remarks that "after Nanhuo, there will be no dawn in the world".

Not long after, Dawn really announced their disbandment, and the remaining three developed independently, and have never been together in the same frame until now.

"Indeed... it's already the seventh year after counting."

Yan Fan sighed, "Brother Nan used to treat Shen Wenji as his own younger brother. Your Teacher Shen is also the closest to him. After the incident happened, every few days every year, you would go to Nanhuo's old house to stay for ten and a half months, and you would never see anyone. A few days ago, I left the base to go to that small fishing village."

Cen Yi nodded, feeling inexplicably depressed.

Shen Wenji never mentioned this matter.It's not the character who can say these things, and there is no reason to mention it to him.But when he was looking at the commemorative coins, he couldn't hide his sad eyes and tone.

He was still jealous at the side at the time, but now that he thinks about it, he is too ignorant.

"A few days every year...is it the anniversary of the death of senior Nanhuo?"

"Well. It's past zero now."

Yan Fan took out his phone and glanced at the time, "That's today."

Cen Yi was stunned, "Then Shen Wen, where is Teacher Shen, where are you now?"

"It's probably drunk in the base."

Yan Fan said, "I usually stay at Brother Nan's place. This year's stay is shorter than in previous years. I probably came back early because of work. Doesn't this collide with Yigong's life? This one, look It’s not very reassuring, but it’s still reliable in doing things.”

Perhaps it is because of the impact of the emergence of game currency.Shen Wenji hasn't asked clearly what his thoughts are, but he has unconsciously begun to divide Cen Yi from the ordinary "younger trainees" to the more intimate "myself".

"Before Shen Wenji persuaded you to go home because of this. After all, with Nan Huo's matter first, he was afraid that you would not be able to bear the pressure of doing this job, and he couldn't think of doing something self-destructive. It's not very nice, but After all, I feel sorry for you."

Yan Fan shrugged and said, "Actually, he's not the only one who thinks that way. When you first joined the show, we all looked at you like a porcelain doll."

"I know... know."

The corner of Cen Yi's mouth was about to rise, but he felt something was wrong.His expression froze, and he looked at him suddenly, "Senior Nanhuo passed away... Wasn't it because of an accident while going out to sea?"

Yan Fan was also stunned.Only then did I realize that not everyone knew the truth, so I shook my head and said, "It's just what the news said."

"Then he..."

"It was suicide."

When Nan Huo first formed Dawn, it was only out of love, and by the way, he thought that he could occasionally accept some commercial performances in exchange for some wine money.

It was completely unexpected that their lead singer had such a terrifying ability to attract fans and money.It is even more unexpected that after being accidentally discovered by a street performance, the development of the band is like a rocket, soaring all the way without breathing, and reaching the point of world attention.

If Shen Wenji is the soul of Dawn, Nan Huo is the cornerstone of Dawn.At first, he didn't sign with a company and didn't have an agent. What kind of commercial performances, evenings and music festivals, the itinerary was all his communication and care during his busy schedule.

There was a saying that was once circulated among fans and was sought after: I most want to fall in love with Shen Wenji.I want to marry Nan Huo the most.It is enough to prove that not only in the hearts of the band, but also for countless fans, he is the most solid and reliable existence of dawn.

But Nan Huo has never been able to enjoy such a prestigious life.He loves music and the stage, but it is difficult to adapt to the days when his every move is watched by countless pairs of eyes, and his personal life is exposed.For a while, the idea of ​​​​retiring from public view was born.As soon as he showed his thoughts, he was scolded.

The soul may be free and unrestrained, but the foundation stone is not.At least everyone's requirements and expectations of him are not allowed.

"It was the time when we were preparing for the World Tour. He only mentioned once that he was too stressed and tired, but we didn't take it seriously."

It's been too long since I've talked about these old things.Maybe it was because of drinking at night, the corners of Yan Fan's eyes were flushed, and he rubbed his face with a long sigh, "What kind of red was the dawn at that time... how many pairs of eyes stared at me, each of us stayed up late at work under pressure. Advise him to persevere and take a good vacation after the world tour is over... Now that I think about it, it's really true."

What happened later, Cen Yi could already imagine.

What Nan Huo wanted was not just to rest for a few months.He wanted to withdraw from the spotlight completely, and it was enough to play music as a hobby.Want to live an ordinary life.

But it seems that no one supports his desire to stop.Whether it's fans or these brothers.

So we waited until the end of the world tour, and everyone went on vacation.He also went to sea in the name of relaxation, seeking complete relief, and stopped himself on that day forever.

Cen Yi was too sad to speak.

He learned the guitar because of Shen Wenji.

Who taught Shen Wenji's guitar?Nanhuo.

He had also looked forward to it, and hoped that such talented and tacit understanding of the two people could develop the band forever.But he never thought that it was thousands of expectations like his own that weighed him down and drove him to a dead end.

What I always thought was God's jealousy of talents turned out to be a man-made disaster.

Yan Fan said, "Before Nanhuo's accident, the last call was to Shen Wenji."

"He has no father or mother, and has always regarded Nanhuo as a close relative. After so many years, even if we all look down on him, he can't make any money."

Cen Yi asked in a low voice, "Is it because he couldn't be saved?"

Then Shen Wenji must be blaming himself.

Yan Fan nodded, "That's why we never persuade others, saying that we should stick to our dreams to the end."

"Those who really want to persevere will persevere no matter what, and will not change the direction of their hearts after a few words of encouragement or obstruction. In the end, it must be you who can decide which path you take, whether you want to do it or not."

"This show is just a starting point. If you want to go on, you will experience more in the future. Some people support you until the end of time, and some people want you to disappear from the world, but that is not a reason for you to persist or give up.' Or Die or fight to the death' idea can have, but never everyone has."

"Remember, the most important thing is whether you want to do it or not."

Yan Fanyu said earnestly, "Just in case, I said just in case, it doesn't matter if you really want to quit. Life is not just this way, so why not do something? But life is only once, and it must be held in your own hands. "

"Maybe others can't accept it, but at least Shen Wenji absolutely supports you. Whoever dares to scold you, he will scold you back for you on the way home."

"..."

Truth is something Shen Wenji would do.

Cen Yi smiled, "I will remember it well."

"Then PD... when will our dinner tonight end?"

Yan Fan looked at him with raised eyebrows.

Cen Yi said embarrassedly, "I want to go back and see Teacher Shen."

"It will probably take a while. The work is finally over, and they all want to relax."

Yan Fan said, "It's okay if you leave first, I'll find a car to take you back. Have you brought your cell phone?"

"Take it."

The former director sent everyone's mobile phones back.Cen Yi touched his pocket, put the game coins into the brooch and put them in, "Thank you."

Yan Fan's gaze fell on his pocket, paused for two seconds, and said inexplicably, "Thank you too."

In the middle of the night, Shen Wenji was hiding in the room alone.

Today is a bit special, logically he shouldn't be here.To put it a little further, in previous years, he would not be entangled in work these days.

But this year, when Yan Fan came to ask him to record such a long program, he unexpectedly agreed.The reason may be that I heard the sentence

"Do you remember what you were like before?"

What is it like?

The sound, color, light and shadow on the stage echoed in my mind, flickering and dancing.

Cen Yi won.

Amazing stage.Shen Wenji closed his eyes, and could even hear the slight tremor in his singing.

Perhaps Cen Yi himself didn't realize that the imperceptible trembling was not caused by fear or nervousness, but an uncontrollable excitement immersed in it.

He enjoys the stage.He was born to belong on the stage.

Shen Wenji recalled his performance on the stage that night.Thinking of how he danced too much and almost stepped on the empty steps, and was pulled back to the middle by Qi Ran, he laughed to himself.

Little madman.

How similar to the lead singer of Dawn in the past.

When I came back to my senses, two of the four bottles of Su Niang were empty.Shen Wenji had just picked up the third bottle when he suddenly heard a knock on the door behind him.

"..."

It is the direction of the two cat dormitories.

This room was converted from a storage room, with a special structure, with two doors at the front and back.When others knock on the door, they also knock on the front door. They will not go to the decompression area to move the large picture frame that was placed there as a cover to find the entrance.

Only one person will knock on the door in that direction.

Only then did Shen Wenji remember that he didn't seem to have told him that the door for normal access is actually next to it, the equipment storage room that has been locked and disabled.

It's because I didn't expect him to come again for the second time.

As soon as the door was opened, the strange smell of wine mixed in the air was particularly noticeable.

Cen Yi raised his smiling face, and said in a familiar tone, "Good evening, Mr. Shen! Ah, it's almost dawn, sorry."

"..."

Shen Wenji: "You came back by yourself?"

"Well, they're still chatting."

"how about you?"

"I also want to chat. But I wanted to chat with you, so I sneaked back."

Cen Yi poked his probe inside, but it was still pitch black.Seeing that he was still standing there without moving, they discussed it very well, "Don't you want to let me in? Then we can play cats outside for a while. If you don't want to chat, you can go back to sleep. But I'm not sleepy, you Are you sleepy?"

"..."

Although a little confused about the situation.Shen Wenji sighed, and made way sideways, "Then come in. I only have wine."

"It's okay, I can drink too!"

Cen Yi was full of confidence.After I came in, I realized that it was wrong for me. Today's wine is the kind that my father likes to drink, it is bitter and spicy.

The room smelled heavily of alcohol and tobacco.Shen Wenji walked to the window and opened it wider.

"My dad has to have appetizers when he drinks this kind of wine."

He looked at the deserted wine bottle and glass, and always felt that something was missing.With a flash of inspiration, he ran out the door again, "Wait for me to come back right away!"

A few days ago, the supermarket downstairs was finally open, and the express delivery in the base was also open.Everyone bought snacks to share with each other, and they ate them in dormitories one by one.

He himself can't take spicy food very much, and the snacks are mostly sweet.But thinking that when Dad drank, the dishes were always salty and spicy, so he sent a temporary message to ask Xia Yubing and Zhao Xingxing.The two asked him to take whatever he wanted, anyway, everyone knew where to put the snacks.

Cen Yi went back to the dormitory to search for dried whitebait konjac and a small packet of shredded lotus root slices with braised seaweed.

Shen Wenji waited without knowing why, and was shocked when he saw that he took so much, "Didn't you go out for dinner tonight?"

"I've been full for a long time, I'll give you something to eat. This should be enough for appetizers."

He said seriously, "They all said that Alpha has a big appetite, it can eat three of me in one meal, it's terrible."

"..."

Shen Wenji almost laughed, "Then I'm also a terrible alpha?"

"You're all right."

Cen Yi had natural trust in him, "My dad likes you so much, so of course I can rest assured of you."

Cen Yi thought to himself, Professor Cen should be worried about me.Drinking and chatting with my husband here in the early morning, it's a bit exciting to think about it.Don't hold back your passion and confess that you have done something shameful to others.

Then don't drink, so as not to be overwhelmed.

He solemnly pushed the glass away from him.

Shen Wenji sat down with him, but shook his head while pouring wine, "I'm not a good student. How could Teacher Cen like me."

In order to prepare for the concert, he often asked for leave, and later even dropped out of school.From the teacher's point of view, how can they like such a student who is not doing their job properly.

"who said it!"

Just as Cen Yi picked up a pack of dried fish, he waved his voice to strengthen his tone, "He's very fond of you! He told me that even if you don't make music, you will be very promising in whatever you do after you finish reading the book. He also said..."

Shen Wenji: "...still say?"

Cen Yi glanced at him and subconsciously whispered. "He also said that if your family members knew, they would be very proud to have such a child."

Shen Wenji's life experience is not a secret.Others have to be scruples when they speak, but he himself doesn't mind it very much. He raised his head and drank the wine from the bottom of the glass, "My family is not so lucky."

Cen Yi likes his tone of voice, and feels particularly seductive even after drinking a drink, so he unwrapped the dried fish and handed it to him to eat. After thinking about it, he took the initiative to say, "Actually, I don't have a mother either."

Drinking together is always miserable and I don't know what's going on.But it does sound a bit sympathetic, "I've only seen photos. She died when she gave birth to me."

Professor Cen and his wife are both ba, genetically restricted, it is a bit difficult to have children.It just so happens that both of them like children, and they tried many ways to finally conceive, and they were so happy.

Cen's mother was not in good health when she was pregnant, and she was persuaded by the doctor several times, fearing that she would have problems during childbirth and would not be able to recover.The baby was always healthy and healthy at the time of the pregnancy test.Therefore, even though she knew that childbirth would be difficult, she was more determined than anyone else in wanting to bring her child into this world.

Later, when Cen Yi was born, she died of dystocia.Professor Cen had a child and lost his wife. What kind of turmoil he experienced in his heart during those two years is hard to describe, but every time he mentions it, he always laughs and calls it inhumane.

Perhaps it is also because of this that Professor Cen loves his only son very much. He has been a father and a mother for so many years, and the whole campus is famous for loving children.

Even though her mother was absent during her growing up, Cen Yi never felt that she lacked love.

Shen Wenji nodded, lowered his eyes and poured wine, "Miss her?"

"Sometimes. But not too sad."

Cen Yi said honestly, "Because I know I won't be able to see each other no matter what, I don't think much about it."

I can't see each other anyway.

For some reason, Shen Wenji thought of the phone calls he had taken over the years.

Nanhuo's body sank in the depths of the sea and could not be found, so he always harbored some delusions that "maybe he is still alive, but he is just missing and doesn't want to come back".

Maybe one day I want to come back and call him.

Every time the bell rang, he answered it.Looking forward to the hearty laughter of that person on the other end of the phone, hoping that the phone call that day will not be the last time between them.

But seven years.

Seeing his gloomy expression, what flashed in Cen Yi's mind was the accusation against Shen Wenji that he had seen on the Internet before.

That was the first death day after Nan Huo's accident.All relatives and friends were posting blogs to commemorate him, only Shen Wenji's account remained indifferent, and was accused by a large number of online judges of being ungrateful, insulting and making things difficult, and some even asked him why he didn't follow him to die.He never explained it himself.

But who will understand him, every year, when everyone mourns verbally, he goes to the seaside thousands of miles away alone, and remembers alone in the old house where the old man lived.

Cen Yi couldn't imagine how he would feel if Professor Cen passed away suddenly one day.But he couldn't help but took out the game coins, "This...you should keep it."

On the way back, he realized that the tour hadn't started when Shen Wenji gave this to him.

How could Shen Wenji at that time have expected that such a game coin, which was casually used to amuse children, would be a relic left by his fatherly brother.

If I had known earlier, I would be reluctant to give away such a precious thing.

He was very reluctant to give back the things that had been with his pillow for so many years.With a reluctant expression on his face, he took out the game coins from the brooch.

One in each hand.The brooch was kept in the palm of the hand, and the other hand held the game coin and stretched it out to him, "Here, I just want a shell."

"..."

Shen Wenji couldn't help laughing, the hand holding the cup really stretched out, but there was a crisp sound when the side of the cup touched the coin in his hand.Shaking his head, he said, "Just keep it safe. It's better than leaving it with me."

There is no reason to take back what is sent.What's more, he and Nan Huo are not particularly delicate people, and they don't have special feelings for objects. If they keep it for themselves, they will be lost at some point.

"also."

Cen Yi also laughed.As if he thought it was so interesting, he tapped his wine glass lightly with the game coins, "Then from now on, if you want to watch it, just call me. I'll bring it to you right away."

Shen Wenji hummed, took back his glass and drank it down, and casually said, "Did Yan Fan tell you?"

"..."

Cen Yi was dejected, "Why are you so smart?"

Suddenly rushing back from the dinner party, and suddenly drinking and chatting with him so obediently, it looks suspicious no matter how you look at it.

Shen Wenji asked: "It's because of this that you came back to look for me?"

Cen Yi had no choice but to admit it with a nod, and muttered, "I don't want to care about you or anything... You see, I didn't plan to tell you anything unnecessary. I just wanted to talk to you for a while, it's useless Kind of words are fine."

"Because before, you always showed up when I needed you. So I thought, at least when you need...whether you need it or not, I have to be by your side."

The lights in the room were not turned on, there was still only projection, the picture was muted, and light was provided silently.His eyes are clear and bright, and the newly dyed blond hair is still very conspicuous in the dim room, and even has a soft light effect.It's the little angel himself when he smiles.

Shen Wenji looked at it with a strange mood.

He is a very caring child.But he didn't remember any good deeds he had done for Cen Yi, and he deserved to be so grateful.I remember many times when I almost made people cry.

Did you say that you don't need such company?

Although I'm used to spending the day by myself, but now there is someone talking with me in front of me—even if I don't talk, just staying here, it's very comfortable to watch.

Besides, even if Cen Yi didn't come... what he was thinking just now was obviously someone else.

Do you want to say thank you?It seems strange too.

Shen Wenji's talent points are not added here.The social interactions he has experienced in his career so far have not trained him to be better at chatting. After thinking for a while, he said, "You did a good job today. You won the game, what do you want?"

Infected by such a promise at that time, he became inexplicably nervous.I am also curious about what kind of request Cen Yi will make

When he said that, it was obvious that he had been planning a small calculation in his heart, and finally caught the opportunity to speak.

That was then.Cen Yi won the game, but shook his head, "I don't want anything."

Shen Wenji said, "Tell me. I'll listen first, and I may not agree."

"..."

Cen Yi whispered, "I want to watch you play the guitar."

I've been thinking about it for years.

When I saw him when I was a child, I only heard voices.It is a pity that I did not witness it with my own eyes until I found information on the Internet after the person left.

Since then, there has been a desire for this.

But Yan Fan said that after Nan Huo's death, Shen Wenji never touched the guitar again.

Especially today, it would be inappropriate for him to make such a request.

"I don't have a guitar here."

Sure enough, it will be rejected.

Cen Yi felt sad, but then heard another sentence.

Shen Wenji said: "Do you have any in your dormitory? Bring it to me and try."

The author has something to say: Let Teacher Shen consecrate the guitar in the dormitory (not

Come to Liao

After finishing writing today, I feel like I have written a lot

It's not very obvious at a glance

It's quite enjoyable to update two chapters in one breath

It would be even better if it wasn't the next day

Teacher Shen, please bless my hand speed (?

Goodnight everybody

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