Small tear bag [entertainment circle]

Yi Chi doesn't quite remember the first time he talked to Soda. Long before he returned to work abroad, he formed a random team in a certain game. At the end, he saw the friend application in the lower corner and added it.

His game ID is "easytbl", which is a random code input when creating an account.But when I was chased and asked what it meant, I joked casually that it meant "easy to belate (easy to be late)", but I didn't expect it to be remembered in my heart.

His game age is much older than Soda, and after adding friends, his daily life is to bring elementary school chickens to score points-the opponent's game is not very good, but he has a sweet mouth and good understanding, and he can take it with him to pass the time in his spare time.

One day when he was chatting with his brother in the dormitory during the game, he heard the surprise voice from the communicator, and he knew that the opposite side was a mixed-race elementary school chicken.

The elementary school chicken has lived in the country since he was a child and rarely returns to China. Please teach him Mandarin when he is flying in the game, and he will follow behind him when he plays the game.The voice in the game sounds milky, and in his heart he is positioned as a junior high school student.

Until something happened to his group, experienced bad reviews, disbanded, and the company terminated the contract.Going to see a doctor alone, returning to China to recuperate alone, hiding at home alone and unwilling to go out, unilaterally cut off all contact with relatives and friends.

Only this elementary school chicken is still active in his dying life, and every time he plays the game, his brother and brother will keep screaming.

The technology is also improving rapidly, and before he knows it, every time he suddenly gets tired of him and stands there waiting to die, he can kill everyone around him and wait for him to recover.

It's hard for Yi Chi not to think about whether it's because of his influence that he once again mustered up the courage to participate in the work of the men's team without telling everyone around him.

Until we met at the dts base, and heard the phrase "Does your name mean you are easy to be late" (Chapter 10).

The elementary school chicken he thought was standing in front of him was actually taller than him.

—It's Soda.Just like the game ID, there is no chance of admitting mistakes.

Yi Chi has a premonition that he will make his debut. Several years of experience in the men's team has provided support for this premonition, and it also perfectly fits the aesthetic direction of the national scouts.Eventually they became members of the same regiment.

It seems to be led by a pair of hands called fate.

Cen Yi didn't quite understand: "Isn't this rare?"

If you bring it into yourself, you will probably regard it as a predestined fate and joyfully be the best in the world with him.

Yi Chi showed a struggling look.

After thinking about it, he simply jumped out of bed, squeezed out the last bit of strength tonight, moved the bedside table and pushed his own bed aside, and the two sheets merged into one.

Turn off all the main lights, leaving only one light in the corridor, and the atmosphere in the room instantly enters the night chat mode with girlfriends.

He climbed back on the bed and sat next to Yi Chi, and his voice was a little softer, as if whispering, "Da Da likes you very much. Don't you think this is bad?"

Yi Chi bent his knees and pulled up the quilt to cover half of his body, not knowing where to start.

It's not a good or bad question that can be answered.

"Our regiment... Eureka, will be disbanded. You know that?"

"Ah."

Cen Yi nodded, not quite understanding why he suddenly mentioned this.

Only Yi Chi knew in his heart that his original purpose of joining Eureka was not just because of the pure "dream".

He interviewed dts with the idea of ​​being able to forget the past. With the fan base of the previous group, the road to forming a group is not difficult.

He debuted again until today, although he did not achieve his original goal, he does not regret forming a group.No matter Cen Yi, Soda or other people in the group, he likes them.

Eureka is fine.They are all newly discovered, newborn hopes.

He just couldn't help himself.

His enthusiasm ended earlier.

"I've been sick for a long time. After this disbandment... I won't be a boy group anymore."

Yi Chi whispered, "It's the same with Soda. Sooner or later, they will be separated."

"It's not that I don't like you, I just want to do this with my own hands. It's not like before, everything can only accept the result helplessly."

Before becoming a member of a group, he and Soda were online friends for many years.If Eureka is disbanded and the game account is canceled, all the media that can connect him with everyone will disappear.

Cen Yi gradually became sad when he heard this: "Do you think...after we are disbanded, we will no longer be friends?"

He likes Yi Chi, Soda, and everyone in Eureka.I will not work together in the future, and I don't want to alienate anyone.

Yi Chi seemed to be talking about his plan to isolate himself from others in a pessimistic tone.

But if it's a future that makes me sad just to say it, why bother doing it.

Yi Chi couldn't express his feelings, his thoughts were chaotic, he could only shake his head with difficulty: "But...it's different."

Maybe it's because I've been sick for too long.Cen Yi couldn't empathize with his pain and could only feel anxious.Pausing for a while, remembering that he just said that when he cut off all contact with his relatives and friends, he would still play games with Soda, "Then at least Dada can accompany you?"

Yi Chi said without hesitation, "No."

During the time when he was playing games with Soda, he thought that the opposite party was just a little chicken. He never thought that he would meet one day, nor did he think that all kinds of things would happen until now.

He obviously hoped that someone would accompany him, but he was not frank at all.Cen Yi snorted a little, and said to him, "You obviously..."

"I already have someone I like." Yi Chi interrupted him.

Cen Yi was stunned, and subconsciously asked, "Is that your captain?"

"..."

He could only smile bitterly: "Do you even know that?"

"Can't say that either."

Cen Yi rubbed his nose, feeling a little guilty about the guess he blurted out.Does anyone else know or have not thought about it, "Actually, I guessed it until just now."

At first, it was because of something that Qi Ran had inadvertently mentioned to him.

Last time when chatting alone in the dessert shop because of pheromones, Qi Ran said in frustration, "A Chi never called me the captain", and was frustrated by this, as if his qualifications as the captain were not recognized.

Later, it was proved that it was not because of Qi Ran's personal ability problem, he began to pay attention consciously or unconsciously, and found that Yi Chi had never called it that way.Not counting external titles, Yi Chi never called Qi Ran positively as "captain" when the two of them communicated directly.

The reason is only the special meaning behind this title

He'd used it for someone he'd never see again, and he didn't want to use it for anyone else.

He is always insomnia.

It's useless even if you close your eyes, it's someone you can't even see in your dreams.

He tried his best to take the step of reorganizing the group, hoping to forget all the past experiences and want to start again.But as long as he is in the position of the boy group, he will always bring in the picture of his predecessor.The activities we did together, the stages we performed together, every detail can be compared.

He mustered up his courage, tried this once, and knew he had failed.

Perhaps only by completely leaving all this can we completely break away from the past.

Whether it is work or people.Leaving the stage, his companions, and the environment engraved in his habits, maybe he can start all over again.

Cen thought, how is it possible.

As long as he still feels that the person he likes is the captain, that past can never be removed from his heart.No matter where you go, you will stick to your heart, like a shadow.

"Can you tell me about the captain?"

Cen Yi asked.

"I've never heard you talk about him. I'd love to know."

Yi Chi looked at him suddenly, speechless for a while.

It had been too long since anyone had spoken so frankly about anything related to his former regiment that at first hearing something full of words could be an answer, but couldn't figure it out.

Cen Yi thought he was embarrassing him, "Ah...can't you say it? That's okay—"

"No!" Yi Chi shook his head quickly, "What do you want to know?"

It turned out that I didn't know where to start.

Cen Yi thought for a while, "Well... Actually, anything is fine, I want to hear it. Ah yes! How did you form a group last time? Did you also debut in a draft?"

"It's not a draft, it's picked out by the company. Everyone joins the company at different times, and the time to be a trainee is also different." Yi Chi said, "But the youngest of us also practiced in the company for three years before making his debut. Yes. The five of us...have lived together for a long time before our debut."

"Well, has your captain practiced for that long?"

"He is longer than us. He has been in the company for five years."

Yi Chi pursed the corners of his lips. It wasn't a smile, but it made his expression more vivid. "After I joined the company, he was the first person I met."

The following story, Cen Yi felt in a trance, was another version of the story of "the big brother brings the little chicken".It's just that the character in the story who didn't know anything and was taken care of by the senior became Yi Chi.

In Cen Yi's impression, this is the first time he heard him say so many words in one breath, and the words can make people really feel that he once loved someone as passionately as Soda.

"He's been really nice and nice to me."

Yi Chi's speech speed gradually slowed down, elongated to a standstill, until the inevitable end, "Why..."

"Why can't such a good person have a good life?"

Cen Yi knew what he should comfort him, but seeing his depressed appearance, he couldn't tell any reason at all.

Cen Yi suddenly touched the root of his pain.

Maybe it's not that he doesn't like Soda.It's just that there is already someone he likes in his heart, and letting his feelings be transferred to another person is like a kind of betrayal.

Or self-punishment.

Cen Yi asked softly, "Is that why you don't want to accept Da Da?"

Yi Chi nodded, then shook his head again.

The light is maintained at a relaxing brightness, so that the soft and light voice will let half of the psychological defense line be removed.Like talking to himself, Yi Chi continuously told him the worries in his heart.

"Of course I know he likes me. He has all the emotions on his face like a fool, who can't see it.

"But I have been sick for a long time, and I don't know what the future will be. The diagnosis of the disease is genetic, so I have no plans to fall in love and get married.

"He is very suitable to be a star. I was a trainee for three full years... I kept training, taking classes, and training every day. If the captain wasn't with me, I couldn't bear it in about three months. Feeling homesick, gave up the stage and returned to China.

"If he wants to be a star...Of course he can't fall in love. Because of this, I couldn't express my heart to the captain until that day.

"Actually, I really want to know if he likes me like I like the captain. I want to know, but I don't dare to know. What can I do if I know..."

"If one day I'm gone, will he become what I am now?"

Yi Chi said in a low voice, "I also want to know."

Is it because you are afraid of losing, so you give up on your own initiative?

It is obviously something that you already have, as long as you hold on to it.

Is it because you are afraid that you will not protect yourself well?

Don't want soda to go through his pain again?

……

Cen Yi listened carefully and thought about it. Originally, he wanted to give him a good chat, but after hearing it, he had already forgotten the previous part. He only felt that countless pressures and troubles were accumulating layer by layer. People can't breathe.

I was a little angry when I thought about it.

Just listening to it feels heavy, how can I not get sick if I keep it in my heart.

"You adults just like to think too much." Cen Yi sighed, "Can't you imitate me and be more simple-minded."

"……yes."

Yi Chi looked at him, smiled inexplicably, tears rolled down his eyes inadvertently.

Cen Yi was startled, and frantically wiped it off with his sleeve: "I didn't mean to scold you..."

"I know."

Yi Chi tilted his head slightly to avoid his hand, lowered his head and lightly pressed against his shoulder, the heat flowing from his eye sockets to his shoulder.Cen Yi heard his murmur.

"I have always envied you, Yiyi. I also want to have an optimistic and strong heart like you, and work hard like you...but I am already very tired."

He let out a long sigh, as if all the strength in his body had also dissipated. "I'm very, very tired."

"So I give up, don't pull me any more, and don't say anything good for me. Am I not qualified to give up? Don't I have the right to give up? Can't I just give up? I just want to live a little easier... Otherwise I How should I live? I want to know how to live... I will definitely make you sad, and I am sorry that I am such a selfish person, but I am really tired."

The burden on the shoulders gradually increased.His voice gradually lowered, making it hard to hear: "I don't want to accept anyone anymore."

"Already... have no strength, no longer like...anyone..."

Cen Yi slowly stroked his back, allowing him to vent the despair that had been struggling in his heart for a long time, until the murmur was replaced by regular breathing, and then he carefully laid the sleeping person flat on the bed.

Even in his sleep, he frowned uncomfortably, with a fragility and childishness, this kind of Yi Chi was far from the calm and strong brother in his heart.

Cen Yi padded the pillow and covered him with a quilt, and said softly, "You have worked hard."

He obviously didn't give up.Obviously, he is taking medicine and working hard every day.

I must be exhausted.

At least tonight, hopefully he can relax and get some rest.

Cen Yi coaxed him to sleep, but she couldn't fall asleep anyway, tossing and turning in random thoughts.Thinking of the girl who walked to the depths of the sea alone, and thinking of Shen Wenji's unbearable revealing emotions in front of him.

Why do people have such a hard time?

Isn't this world...isn't it desirable.

I don't know when I fell asleep. When I woke up, it was still dark.Cen Yi sat up tiredly, rubbed his eyes and touched his phone by the bedside, only then remembered that his phone had fallen into the sea and hadn't been turned on yet.

I don't know if Shen Wenji's method has any effect.He took out his phone, took a deep breath, and nervously pressed the power button.

It's on, there's a signal!

There is no flower on the screen either!

Shen Wenji has appeared!

Fortunately, the phone was not sacrificed.When Cen Yi opened WeChat, the first thing he saw was a message from Professor Cen.At zero o'clock, I sent him a huge birthday red envelope and sent a voice message.

Cen Yi clicked to listen, it was his loving voice with a smile.

"Yiyi. Happy birthday, you will always be Daddy's baby."

Cen Yi's nose was inexplicably sour, and while shedding tears, she responded to his message and glanced at others along the way.

This year's work made his birthday known to many people.In the early hours of the morning, there were a lot of birthday wishes. Just judging from the number of online messages, it was the most lively birthday he had in 18 years.

After Yi Chi woke up, he was full of remorse. After arguing with Soda, he was overwhelmed by emotions, and shouldn't have vented on him again.

I don't know whether to say sorry first or happy birthday first.

"Did it scare you last night?"

"rest assured."

Cen Yi quickly wiped his face, turned his head and asked with a smile, "How did you sleep yesterday?"

Yi Chi paused, and said frankly, "I slept well."

"That would be great. Instead of saying I'm sorry, I'd rather say thank you."

Cen Yi touched his shoulder, then patted his, and said righteously, "I'll share my luck today with you!"

Yi Chi also laughed, and said seriously, "Thank you."

Thanks to Professor Cen's tireless repetition year after year, Cen Yi has believed since childhood that every birthday person can get kindness from all over the world on their birthday.

But birthdays seem to be a bit of an exception.

Waking up too early will make you feel less refreshed. Cen Yi intends to take a shower before going out. Standing in the bathroom and looking in the mirror to see the sunburn marks from the previous day, the skin on his back and neck is peeling off.

The burning pain has eased a lot, but it's still not very comfortable.After applying the ointment, he put on his clothes carefully, looked at his face again near the mirror, thinking that he would ask the sister who is a very good makeup artist to help him cover the dark circles later.

It's not going well in the morning.

When I went to have breakfast with Yi Chi, I met Shen Wenji and Nan Zifei. It was surprising that these two could get up so early. Cen Yi asked, but before Shen Wenji could answer, Nan Zifei complained, "He did it himself. The nightmare woke up early! You still insist on knocking on my door and waking me up forcibly!!"

Shen Wenji corrected the details rigorously: "It's not a nightmare."

Cen Yi: "..."

There is no doubt about the complaint.

Nan Zifei was noisy.His reaction was not as active as usual, which made Shen Wenji pay more attention.

"Didn't sleep well?"

"Not getting enough sleep."

Probably fell asleep too late yesterday, Cen Yi yawned and said, "I have to eat breakfast to recover my blood."

Shen Wenji knew that his work schedule today was all about physical activities, so it was rare for him to express thoughtfully and proactively: "I can carry you for a while when I can't walk."

Cen Yi worked hard to cook with a walnut bag in one hand, and after hearing the words, he swallowed and gave him two seconds: "I'm so touched."

"..."

Shen Wenji sighed: "Do you want more millet porridge?"

"want!"

Nan Zifei only heard about today's schedule during the meal, and refused without much thought, "Are you going to climb a mountain today? Then I won't go."

"But You Qi will go too. It will be a whole day." Cen Yi said, "Don't you want to stay with him for a while? If you are afraid of getting tired, maybe he will carry you too."

Even if he can carry it, can he carry it from the foot of the mountain to the top of the mountain?

No matter how you say it, at least you have to walk for a long time by yourself.Nan Zifei said soberly, "No. My liking is nothing more than that."

"..."

It's easy to see.

Later, You Qi and Qi Ran also came over for breakfast, and they both expressed regret when they heard that he wanted to stay in the hotel to do homework.

"You can also do your homework at other times. It's a rare opportunity to come out and play."

Thinking that there was something wrong with the parents, You Qi glanced at Shen Wenji, and dared not speak out.

Nan Zifei sincerely hoped that his parents would cooperate with his performance.But Shen Wenji never accepts innocent blame, and throws the blame back, "He lacks exercise, and he doesn't want to move."

In the end, he was dragged out to climb the mountain together.Fortunately, the mountain is not high, the level of development is not bad, and the road is paved and it is not difficult to walk.After passing several famous landscapes to take pictures, stop and experience something interesting, and a large group of people climbed up talking and laughing.

When I was approaching the top of the mountain, I passed the last project site, and I saw a lot of people queuing in front of me from a long distance away.Cen Yi asked curiously, "What is that?"

"Bungee jumping." The director suggested, "Do you want to try it?"

This program group is very kind, and there are no mandatory items that must be completed, so most of the time they can play as they like.

Yi Chi silently took a few steps back.

He didn't participate in the last time he went to an amusement park to ride the jumping machine. Since the accident of the former captain, he has had a deep psychological shadow on the scene of falling from a high altitude, and he can't even see it.

Height is not the biggest problem, but Cen Yi is not very good at playing straight up and down.A few bold people in the group digested it internally, and finally came to a conclusion: "Teacher Shen, let's go first."

"..."

Shen Wenji had no choice but to take the blame again: "You can't broadcast it even if I go."

"It's okay, just have fun. The main reason is that everyone wants to watch you play." Lin Qiuming urged the director together, "Isn't Teacher Shen afraid?"

There is nothing you Mr. Shen dare not do.

Lin Qiuming continued to use aggressive methods: "If Teacher Shen doesn't go, let Yiyi do it."

"Why are you making a fuss?" Xia Yubing couldn't bear to listen, "How dare you say such a thing as an alpha?"

"Tsk, am I the kind of person who would be embarrassed?"

"..."

At the critical moment, Cen Yi decisively turned to the other side, sacrificing Teacher Shen's life: "Then I'll help you line up!"

Shen Wenji had expected it a long time ago, but when he really heard it, he still couldn't laugh or cry, felt a little unconscionable in his heart, raised his hand and rubbed the top of his head a few times before letting go.

"Look well."

Cen Yi dare not dance by himself, but is very interested in watching others dance.Obviously, there are many people who think the same as him, and more than half of the crowd seen in the distance are watching the excitement.Shen Wenji didn't waste much time waiting and came to him.

Looking down, there is a bottomless blue sea, which makes people feel sympathetic.Many people started to tremble only when they stood on the edge of the platform. Before they came up, they felt nothing. They stood on the edge to take a look, and then squatted down and dared not jump down.

Shen Wenji was particularly calm.One of the reasons is that he has played with this thing more than once, and there is nothing to shake.Another important reason was that Cen Yi was watching from behind, so he couldn't perform well.

Cen Yi watched him tie up the jumping rope, his whole mind was glued to him and he couldn't turn his eyes away. For some reason, he felt a little regretful and wanted to call him back.

Shen Wenji seemed to be aware of it, turned around and beckoned to him, with a hint of "look at me", eliciting several suppressed excited voices from the side for no reason.

Uncharacteristically, Cen Yi was not immediately impressed, his uneasiness increased, and his unconscious voice was almost inaudible.

"Wait...don't jump."

After a distance, Shen Wenji couldn't hear what he said, and when he uttered the first word, he had already adjusted his posture and fell backwards.

The sound of the wind penetrating through the body ruptured the eardrums.Cen Yi's heart constricted for a moment, and his face turned pale with discomfort.It was as if being pulled into another person's body by time and space.

On the tall building, he fell down with a hollow expression, regarding death as his last sustenance.On the edge of the abyss, he let his body drown in the deep sea, only expecting to fall without reply.

Every part of the mind and mind is clamoring not to do this, but no sound can be made, and the body is as light as losing consciousness.Cen Yi rushed forward uncontrollably, as if he wanted to climb over the fence door to grab the fallen corner of his clothes.

The staff on the side were taken aback by his actions, and hurried back to stop him: "What are you doing! Dangerous! Go back quickly."

"..."

Shen Wenji was the first person to jump so decisively today.Whistles and applause kept ringing around, and Qi Ran and the others were also attracted, watching very enthusiastically, and did not notice his reaction.

It was only after Shen Wenji was pulled up by the safety rope that he realized that his eye circles were red with patience, and a face that was not happy in any case was mixed with the scene of exuberance, which was particularly conspicuous.

The essence is that he just wants to be handsome, but he didn't expect that the pretentiousness would have such serious side effects. Seeing his tears, Shen Wenji panicked for a moment, touched his face and asked in a low voice: "What's wrong?"

The jumping posture is not good enough?

Cen Yi held down his hand with all his strength, only when he held it tightly did he feel real, and cried on the spot with a wow: "I thought you didn't want to live anymore!"

"..."

Only now can he understand Shen Wenji's mood at the seaside.At that moment, I didn't want anything, and nothing was important. I just wanted to catch that person and keep him, but I could only watch helplessly.too painful.

Maybe it's also the feeling Yi Chi has experienced.

After all, he is a very face-saving person. After he became a celebrity, he didn't care if others always said that he loved to cry. He usually deliberately showed himself to be optimistic and strong. Occasionally, when his eyes hurt, he would drop a lotion to explain that it was not tears.It was the first time that I couldn't stop crying in front of everyone no matter how hard I tried.

A large group of people were frightened by his aura of "no matter what monsters and ghosts come today, I just want to cry to my heart's content", and they all looked at Shen Wenji for help.

Didn't you make you cry?Think of a way.

Shen Wenji: "..."

Why are there so many pots today?

Maybe it's too much pressure. It's normal for young people to get emotional occasionally.The director understood very well. Although he didn't know the specific reason, he was willing to tolerate him and told the whole group to rest at the same place for a while before going down the mountain. "Everyone should go to the toilet for the date, and meet in half an hour."

Shen Wenji took him to a place where there were few people to comfort him alone, and only after exhausting his gentle tone in the remote pavilion did he ask what was going on.

Absorbing too much negative energy in a short period of time will affect even the most optimistic people.Cen Yi was crying a little out of oxygen, dizzy and still twitching, dragging him in a daze and asking if you miss, you are not allowed to die for me.

"..."

Shen Wenji was in a strange mood after asking the whole story. He felt distressed and thought he was so cute. He wanted to laugh but held back with dignity, and slowly echoed, "How dare I? You are so unreliable."

"I will never let you rest assured!"

Cen Yi said hastily, "I'm so willful and impulsive and I always get into trouble, and I always make you worry...you have to watch me for the rest of your life! Do you know...you still laugh! Stop laughing! "

Shen Wenji restrained his expression and nodded solemnly: "Understood."

"I will never come to climb the mountain again!"

"it is good."

"Never bungee jumping again!"

"Row."

"Shen Wenji..."

"Ok?"

"Shen Wenji." He said heavily, with great determination and expectation.

"Let's all live well, shall we?"