Small tear bag [entertainment circle]

Seeing that he was going to hand out the report card of Class A, Cen Yi was almost tripped by the steps when he came running.

When it was obvious that other people's results were announced, it was Yan PD who was in charge of the work.His posture hasn't changed much, standing beside him like a human figure.

Originally, he was thinking of quickly getting back his bad grades and quitting, so he tried not to have any contact with him at such a humiliating time.

This is the end of the matter, let's make a quick decision.

Cen Yi watched the road secretly first when he was off the stage, and walked quickly all the way on the stage, staring at the floor.When he came to Shen Wenji's side, he whispered "Thank you Teacher Shen" and reached out to get the report card.Pulled a bit and didn't pull.

He was taken aback for a moment, thinking that he had lost his strength.Pulling again, only then did he realize that Shen Wenji hadn't let go, so he had to raise his eyes in confusion.Suddenly looked at him.

Shen Wenji was looking at him.

In the previous encounters, Shen Wenji seldom looked directly at him so firmly.So much so that at this moment, Cen Yi really saw the cold gray eyes that fans called the sea of ​​ice.More beautiful than any photo he has reposted, and possesses the magic power that cannot take your eyes off.

It's exciting.

But what he heard next was so cold that it made people panic.

Staring at him with such beautiful eyes, Shen Wenji said to him, "If you don't want to stay, you can go home anytime."

"..."

He didn't have a radio on him, and it wasn't very loud.But as the only witness on the stage other than the two parties involved in the conversation, Yan Fan stood very close, not only heard clearly, but also felt a thump in his heart, subconsciously looking at Cen Yi's reaction.

Cen Yi was stunned by his words, but when he recovered, he couldn't answer anything.He only clenched his lips, and pulled the report card out of his hand with both hands.

He opened it and took a look, revealing a wry smile of "as expected".

It was unbearable to see.Yan Fan said, "Cen Yi, please go to your class."

He nodded and bowed, "Thank you pd."

Yan Fan sighed, "Come on."

"I will."

Cen Yi didn't look at Shen Wenji again.Walking off the stage with the report card in hand, he walked to the side of the stairs amidst the attention of the audience, and stopped in his tracks.

He didn't go up the steps.

There was a commotion among the trainees.

Qi Ran looked down anxiously, seeing him suddenly stop and move sideways instead of going up, and muttered in disbelief, "It's actually... Class F."

When talking to Cen Yi in private, they also predicted the worst situation.

But his performance on the first stage was too impressive, and he worked really hard at ordinary times.It's hard to believe that the PD and the instructors really didn't consider his actual ability at all, and they scored based on the performance they saw in pen-hold shooting.

I don't know whether to say it's unfair or too fair.

Looking at the movement at the scene, although there were some people who said "he really didn't play well", most of them showed incredible reactions to this result.

All the companions around him are asking him, "It's okay, Yiyi?"

"It's okay... In fact, it shouldn't be a special surprise. I really didn't do a good job."

He took a deep breath and smiled slightly. "I will work harder."

After a short pause, Yan Fan continued to finish the unfinished work, "Class A, Qi Ran, Yi Chi."

Just as the two were about to leave, they heard him say again, "There's no need to come down. Congratulations, the level remains the same."

There was a burst of congratulatory applause on the field.Cen Yi sniffed, turned around, smiled and waved his hands, applauding together.

"Finally, Soda, He Haojun, Lin Qiuming, and Zhao Xingxing from Class A."

Yan Fan said, "Please come and receive your grades together."

The ranking announcement ended with Lin Qiuming and Zhao Xingxing being relegated to Class B. Only Qi Ran and Yi Chi are left in the original class of Class A.

"Compared to the lineup of last season, all seven members of class A were alphas. It doesn't matter if it's too in line with the mainstream trend, the show will be very unwatchable."

Having dinner together in the evening, Yan Fan talked about the rankings, seeing that the person across the table was usually silent, he also mentioned him, "Brother Xiao Yu, why do you like being a bad guy so much."

"Don't call me that."

Shen Wenji frowned, "Why do you say that?"

Although he looks like a villain on the outside, he has never realized the hobby of this character.I don't even bother to spend that effort.

Yan Fan said, "Just the sentence you muttered to Cen Yi on the stage today."

"Don't you want me to care about him myself?"

Standing all night, just waiting to say that sentence to him.Shen Wenji asked in surprise, "Why did I become a bad person instead?"

"... My day, are you concerned? You are ridiculing! It's ridicule!"

He complained in an exaggerated tone, "My God, you should pack up and get ready to choose a better nursing home, Mr. Shen. This brain circuit is the fate of being single until old age."

"..."

Shen Wenji ignored his disgust.He said slowly, "I'm serious."

"Before Brother Nan left, no one could tell that he didn't want to do it for a long time."

In such an environment where everyone is working hard and running in one direction, it is harder to give up than to persevere.But no one has ever stipulated that once a person starts pursuing what he wants, he must never give up.

Human thoughts are never static.Giving up is not a shameful thing, but many people, many, many people, will laugh at such a normal personal choice.

In such contempt, many people will persevere because they are ashamed to speak out.Even if you no longer have enthusiasm and yearning, and don't want to do it anymore, you have to be forced to persevere.Persevere until death.

It seems that in the eyes of others, as long as he persists, persistence itself is an honor.

No one cares what he really wants.

"Brother Nan... he is... oh."

Yan Fan no longer had the arrogance that disliked him at first for wanting to die alone, and he even understood his attitude towards Cen Yi all along.

People who have seen tragedy with their own eyes will be more sensitive when they see similar situations.

No matter how long the time has passed, the trauma is still a trauma, and the accompanying sequelae will affect the whole life.

Shen Wenji has been paying close attention to this child, probably because he is worried that similar things will happen again.

Not to mention being entrusted by a mentor.

He was persuaded by Shen Wenji, "You are also reasonable. After all, you are young, and the ups and downs are really easy to lose your mentality. I will ask the psychiatrist in the base to take a look later."

"You too." Yan Fan said, "It's okay to talk to the doctor. The past is over, so don't torture yourself with your heart."

Shen Wenji hummed noncommittally.

Yan Fan sighed, thought again, and said, "I can understand your intentions, but Cen Yi may not accept your love. If you speak too bluntly, don't worry that my little one will hate you."

Shen Wenji said, "It doesn't matter, as long as he hears it."

It's not to force him to go home, but to give him an opportunity to express his thoughts.A path that can be chosen.Tell him it's okay to do this.

As long as he hears it and knows that there is such a choice, some people think he can make this choice.When you're tired, you won't hold on blindly.

If you don't want to stay, you can always go home.

There is no such thing as ridicule and ridicule.The literal meaning is what the sentence really means.

Shen Wenji thought to himself, as long as the meaning is conveyed, it will be fine.Because it doesn't matter if you remember him well or against him.

……Bar.

The topic touched on the gray area in the past between the two of them, Yan Fan consciously didn't say any more, and skipped the show to talk to him about other things.

Shen Wenji responded one after another.The meal was almost finished, and suddenly a question popped up, "Will he really hate me?"

"..."

Yan Fan was happy.

"Go and see if you don't know."

The rating is followed by personal interview time.

In the part he was already familiar with, when Cen Yi answered the question, his overall state was much worse than before.The voice is low and small, even if I stayed up late until the early morning, I didn't have such a tired tone.

Doesn't smile much, and doesn't respond positively.When thinking about the problem, the silent expression is distressing.

The sister who was in charge of his interview couldn't bear to talk about anything that poked him in pain.After recording the main questions, ask him to go back to the dormitory early and have a good rest, "Don't be sad, this is just the beginning. In the future, your grades will not depend on your grades, but on the votes of the audience. At that time, there will definitely be many audiences who like you."

Cen Yi said thank you in a low voice.

The first task is finally over, and tomorrow we will go to rehearse the stage of the theme song mv, everyone will come back earlier than usual to rest.

In the pink of this room, he is the only one who is dusty.

Everyone didn't chat any more that night, they all washed up and went to bed, and they also wanted to take care of his emotions.

Cen Yi was lying on the bed, the words he heard during the interview were still playing in his mind.

Shen Wenji could be considered one of the audience.

But he doesn't seem to like me.

Cen Yi thought, in his heart, am I that bad?Bad enough to go home?

In fact, Shen Wenji can't be blamed for thinking that way.

Why didn't he answer Shen Wenji immediately when he was on stage?

Isn't it because he himself has such doubts about himself?

Cen Yi took out the coin from under the pillow, pressed his palm against his chest, and suddenly questioned the meaning of what he left behind.

When he came, he had a clear goal, to meet Shen Wenji.Now that I have seen Shen Wenji, there is no reason to stay any longer.

At that time, he couldn't answer, was it because he already had the idea of ​​leaving in his heart?

Objectively speaking, during the time here, he couldn't eat well and sleep well, and he was doing things he was not good at every day, and he was very tired every day.

But there was always a kind of energy in his heart, some kind of unspeakable impulse, which made him not want to stop here.

Is it because you are not reconciled?Or do you want to prove yourself out of embarrassment?

That's it?

That night, Cen Yi felt more confused than ever before.

After Oake's defeat, he was comforted countless times by everyone. It's okay, just keep working hard.I also accepted this numbly, it doesn't matter, and continued to work hard.

Everyone will fail.Smile for the camera and let things go like no big deal.

But I never seriously asked myself why it didn't matter.Why did he fail and keep trying.

But now, countless question marks burst out because of Shen Wenji's words, which made him recover from numbness to real pain.

pain.But it makes people understand.to think.

The next day, except for class F, all other trainees went to the theme song stage for rehearsal.

There are more than [-] people in Class F.The practice room was not deserted, but the atmosphere was rather gloomy.When Cen Yi came in, everyone leaned against the corner and whispered.

Today, the teachers are all going to watch the rehearsal, and they won't come here. We can only rely on everyone's self-consciousness.

The usual class bell still rings on time, but today they are the only class in the building.Everyone encouraged each other and started practicing as usual.

After all, it is a class with generally weak abilities. He is very conspicuous here, and can even lead the rhythm and help correct other people's movements.When I look at myself, the more I look at myself, the more I feel dissatisfied.Practice it over and over in front of the mirror, trying to figure out why.

Everyone was driven by his performance, and gradually the whole class practiced in full swing, working harder than usual.It's that kind of heart that doesn't accept fate.

After the rehearsal, Qi Ran deliberately came back to have dinner with him.Watch him fill up the plate and bring back what he likes and what he doesn't like.In order to have a balanced nutrition and have the strength to dance, they all chewed and swallowed with a wrinkled face, holding their breath and enduring nausea to swallow.

"I don't think meat tastes too meaty now."

Cen Yi heaved a sigh of relief after finally finishing his meal.Drinking fruit juice, he teased himself, "My dad must be very happy. He nagged me about being a picky eater for years without success. Unexpectedly, I changed it within a few days of the show."

For some reason, Qi Ran looked very distressed, and stretched out his hand to pinch his cheek.

It doesn't show up even if you eat too much.It's only been a few days, and I've exhausted all my children's milk fat.

After dinner, we went back to the practice room together, and Cen Yi asked curiously, "What was your rehearsal like? Is it fun?"

"It's interesting."

Qi Ran tried his best to describe the environment of the scene for him to make up for his regret that he was not there. "The stage is layer by layer, and the second half of the song will rise one by one. It's like a big cake with many layers."

He returned to Class F, sat on the floor and listened to a story, "Sounds very interesting. It's good, everyone, do a good job."

What kind of big brother tone is this.Qi Ran chuckled, "How was the practice this morning? I saw you standing at the front leading the dance, like a small squad leader. You look very decent."

"It's still the same."

Cen Yi changed the subject, "Your clothes are so handsome, are you uniform?"

When he came back from the rehearsal, he came over before he had time to change his clothes.I just saw a few trainees in the same outfit in the cafeteria.White shirts with zero points, silver borders, and trainee uniforms with a blue-gray base.Simple and beautiful.

"Well, everyone has it." Qi Ran said, "Do you want to try wearing it?"

Cen Yi did not refuse.

Qi Ran took off his uniform jacket and put it on him, "Ah, it's quite suitable, Cen Yiyi, have you grown taller?"

"Maybe you're getting shorter."

Cen Yi casually joked with him.Touching the soft and slippery fabric, I sighed again, "It's really beautiful."

In the next second, tears fell without warning.Blots quickly into a small dark patch on the fabric.

"Burning."

He whispered, "Is it because I can't dance well?"

This sentence is like a preview, the beginning of a catharsis.Tears could no longer be controlled, he lay in Qi Ran's arms and wept unscrupulously until he hiccupped.

It's also good to cry.Although this scene looks too miserable, it is more beneficial to relieve emotions than holding it in your heart.

Qi Ran stroked his back and slowly gave him comfort, listening to his sobs intermittently.

"I can't... what should I do? No matter how I practice, I can't dance."

"I don't, I don't want to go home... I want to, like you guys, dance."

"Don't worry. You're not coming home."

Qi Ran took out a wet towel and wiped his face.Patiently waiting for him to calm down, he said calmly, "Actually, when I came to look for you, I looked at the door for a while."

"Yiyi, you are too tense. When dancing, people's physical state is very honest. What you feel is what you will be seen by others."

"I, too, feel it."

He was still twitching, but he was quickly attracted into the state of learning, "But no, I don't know, I don't know how to do it, to be like you, that's good."

Qi Ran shook his head, leading him out of the misunderstanding of his thinking, "In such a short period of time, no matter what, you can't be like Yi Chi or Haojun, or me."

"It's not that you're not good enough. It's just a purely technical comparison. We started practicing much earlier than you. If you were caught up so easily, then why did you put in years of hard work? Wouldn't it be very unrealistic?"

Cen Yi was thoughtful, "There is a way, reason."

Qi Ran asked again, "Yiyi, how long have you been learning music?"

"Since...the age of ten."

"It's never been broken, has it?"

"Ah."

"So you see. Here, no one can surpass you in the vocal position."

Qi Ran said, "Not only because of your innate aura, but also because of your study and practice for so long."

Cen Yi understood what he heard, but he became confused again, "Then I'll be like this... I'll never be able to dance as well as you guys?"

Qi Ran smiled, poked his forehead lightly with his fingertips, and said helplessly in a "you, you" tone, "Why do you think so? You are Cen Yi. The unique Cen Yi."

"You never have to dance like someone. Just shine and you're good enough."

"Didn't you tell me before? He said he liked the melody of this song very much. It is positive and light. When you hear it, you will feel happy in your heart and cheer up your whole body."

Qi Ran said, "Then when performing, convey what you understand and feel, together with the good mood you have generated from it, to everyone through the stage."

Cen Yi calmed down and thought about it, Mao Sai suddenly realized. "Just like when singing, skill and emotion are important. So is dancing."

"Correct!"

Qi Ran was very relieved, and changed the tone of "it really is my smart baby", "It's right to think so. Show everyone what you are good at. Then you will definitely do well."

"My teacher once told me a word, never give up trying."

He said earnestly, "Because you don't know when and where the next stage will appear."