Non-violent non-cooperation

On the night of the fourth day of the Lunar New Year, Lu Yan and his family fell out.In the end, Xia Nuan cried and left in resentment, Lu Shengyuan sat on the sofa and kept smoking, Lu Yan's mother's face was pale, and her heart ached from anger.

Lu Yan stood at the door for a long time. In the wet and cold winter in the south of the Yangtze River, he wore a thin shirt and smoked two cigarettes in the corridor before regaining his courage and re-entering the house.

He entered the door, walked with unusually heavy steps step by step to the sofa where the old couple sat side by side, slowly bent his knees, and knelt down in front of the old couple.

──He grew up so big, this is the first time he kneels down to his parents.

When his matter got into such a trouble, he was ashamed of the elders in the family, he lowered his head and didn't dare to look up at their faces, "Dad, Mom, I'm sorry for you."

"I'm sorry for what?" Lu Shengyuan's voice was almost choked up. He and his wife reached out to grab Lu Yan, but Lu Yan refused to get up. He looked at this son who made him feel deeply guilty. More than 50 The man who was [-] years old, tears just fell down, "It's dad who is sorry for you. I know what my own son is like. If it wasn't for me... If you weren't dragged down by me, you would never agree to that Ye San. Conditions... If I knew at the beginning, I would never let you make such an exchange even if I died! This time you come back, I should have told you these words a long time ago, but Dad can’t open his mouth, Dad is ashamed of you, it’s Dad I'm sorry, Xiaoyan!..."

The two elders were very emotional, and at the end, they burst into tears...

Lu Yan's heart was pulled together, but he still closed his eyes, clenched his fists and made up his mind. With a dry voice, in the old man's sobbing voice, he said what he had thought about for a long time. Out of the mouth: "Mom and Dad, what I want to say is not only this, I'm sorry, but also because... I... I don't like women. Even if I'm not with Ye Shaodong, I was with Xia Nuan before. We have been together for so many years, we have never had further physical contact──I have no impulse towards women, not even a little bit..."

!With a bang, Lu Shengyuan accidentally knocked over the ashtray in his hand.

The cigarette butts and ash inside were scattered on the floor in a mess, immediately staining the whole scene with a mess.

The two old men on the sofa were stunned for a while, their faces were so pale that they couldn't speak a word.

Lu Yan just bowed her head and knelt quietly, but bit her lips bleeding...

After a long time, Lu's mother trembled, leaned over in a cautious, very uncertain but expectant voice, and asked Lu Yan, "Xiao Yan, if I object to your father, can you listen to us?" , not with men..." The old lady subconsciously avoided saying that word, she paused for a moment, she was a little incoherent, but she still instinctively avoided the topic, "Find a girl Son, even if it's not Xia Nuan, live a good life with her, okay?"

Lu Yan shook her head, her voice was very low, "If it was possible, I would do it without you telling me. But mom... this kind of thing is born, I can't do anything... I can't do it."

Lu Shengyuan's cigarette burned to the root and burned his fingers before he suddenly came back to his senses, threw the cigarette, the old man's voice was hoarse, "What do you mean by telling us today? It's you... You fell in love with that man Do you want to go back and meet him?"

"I won't go back, and I can't go back." Lu Yan shook his head, thinking about all the things that happened during this period, looking back at this moment, it looked like a farce full of loopholes, he smiled wryly, and slowly lost the strength to support himself , leaning her head on his mother's lap, at that moment Lu's mother's maternal love as a mother made her hold Lu Yan's hand on her knee, both mother and son's hands were cold, but they clenched instinctively, To support and warm each other.

Lu Yan didn't know his parents' attitude towards homosexuality, so he didn't dare to ask.But the reaction of his parents at this moment has already relaxed his tense nerves a lot...

Lu Shengyuan sighed deeply and long, and the guilt and debt in his heart for letting his son exchange his body for a kidney has not yet receded, and now he looks at his son who has lost a lot of weight in the past few months , I can't bear it even more.

No normal parent will be indifferent to seeing their son being gay, but no matter how disgusted or unwilling they are at the moment, they can't complain, reprimand or even hate at this moment that they did everything to keep their father alive son.

The three people in the room felt pain in their hearts at the moment, but no matter how painful they were, they still couldn't say a word to comfort each other...

After a while, Lu Shengyuan couldn't help sighing again, "What did you mean by that just now?"

"Dad, I hate him. So I personally stole the account information from his computer and gave it to his opponent... I almost sent him to the detention center all by myself. In the future, the evidence may also send him to prison directly. I always felt that he owed me, huh, but it wasn't until today that I realized that he doesn't owe me anything anymore, even if he owed me before, he has paid it off now."

Lu Yan turned her face away, put her forehead on Mother Lu's knee, buried her face as if avoiding, and spoke slowly.The logic of his words was a little unclear, but he didn't explain it, as if he was speaking to himself. In the end, the original plain words had gradually become infected with that hopeless, helpless feeling. cry──

"...But what I owe him, I'm afraid I will never have the chance to pay him back."