Zhang Yun's ancient life

When Zhang Yun opened his eyes, he could be sure that this was not the world he was familiar with, because unless he was an extremely retro person, no one would make his home look like this.

Blinking his dry eyes, Zhang Yun wanted to see clearly what the room he was living in now looked like, so that he could judge his current situation.

After carefully looking around, Zhang Yun frowned. The owner of this family should not be in a very good financial situation. From what he saw, he said that the walls of the house were a bit flattering.

A room of more than 10 square meters, without any decent furniture, the only thing in the house that can be called an object is the wooden cabinet next to the west wall. It is just a wooden cabinet without any decoration. It seems to be old , because the lacquerware on the wooden cabinet has almost fallen off, and the whole cabinet is full of pits and holes, like a mangy dog ​​suffering from hair loss, standing there lingering, and it will end its life at some point.

On the left side of the wooden cabinet is a wooden frame. On the wooden frame is a copper basin, which carries a bunch of things that can’t be identified as towels or rags. The copper pattern is no longer visible due to long-term use of the copper basin. Even the bed under him was made of wooden planks, and Zhang Yun was worried that he would accidentally crush it when he lay on it and creaked.

Sighing, Zhang Yun moved his body lightly, the unbearable pain hit his whole body in an instant, he gritted his teeth to suppress the scream that was about to overflow his mouth, his hands tightly grasped the quilt on his body, and he let go only when the pain passed. Breathing heavily with hands.

Zhang Yun took a deep breath and wanted to recover some physical strength as soon as possible, but the touch on his hands made him feel a little strange. He looked down and found that although the quilt covering his body was covered with patches, and the quilt was made of coarse cloth instead of cotton, it was all The starch is very soft, and the stitches are all sewn in, so it feels comfortable to the touch.

The room is very bright, cleaned very clean, without a trace of dust, there is an unknown small flower on the window sill, blooming brightly, when the breeze blows, the room will be filled with a faint fragrance, which makes people feel like I can't feel comfortable.

Zhang Yun raised his eyebrows, thinking to himself that although the owner of this family lives in poverty, he works very hard.

Before he could look away, there was a sound of footsteps outside the house. Zhang Yun turned his head and moved his eyes to the door, wanting to see the face of the person who rescued him clearly. The footsteps came to the door, and then there was the sound of the door opening, and the curtain was lifted When he got up, a young man came in from outside the house. The person who entered the house obviously did not expect that Zhang Yun had woken up. He stared at Zhang Yun in a daze, then turned away and stopped looking at Zhang Yun. Asked: "You woke up, how do you feel now?"

how does it feel?Now Zhang Yun only feels that his heart is beating faster and his blood is boiling, but he is very clear that this is not caused by a physical disease, but caused by this person around him. Zhang Yun never thought that one day he would Fall in love with someone at first sight.

Probably because it was strange not getting an answer for a long time, the person who entered the room turned his eyes back to Zhang Yun, and was startled by his fiery eyes, and stood by the door for a while at a loss, then raised the curtain to make a fuss. out.

Zhang Yun stared at the door curtain for a long time, and did not look away until he could no longer hear footsteps, and then he was a little dissatisfied with his out-of-control emotions. Zhang Yun knew that his sexual orientation was different from others, and that was when he was in the second year of junior high school. Going out with a few good friends, a group of 15 and 16-year-old boys got together, and I don’t know who gave advice, so the younger brothers slipped to a movie theater in the village.

It is said to be a movie theater, but it is actually a small private movie room. All kinds of movies are shown in order to make money, let alone management. Anyone can go in as long as they are paid.A few brats collected enough money and went in smoothly.

Zhang Yun doesn't remember what movie was shown, but he only remembers that the hero and heroine hugged each other and gnawed on it not long after the movie started.

I can't remember the following plot clearly, but I only remember that the companions who came with him were very excited, and their ears were full of heavy panting.

Zhang Yun didn't know how others reacted. Anyway, he knew it very well. Ever since he saw the white meat of the heroine, his stomach was filled with acid reflux. After pressing down for a long time, he couldn't help it. The group of people said hello and left without looking back.

From that day on, Zhang Yun realized that he was a little different from others, so he observed carefully, and found that many of the classmates around him had sprouted love buds, and those guys who walked with companions on the way home They often talked about who in which class had such-and-such a pretty face, and whoso-and-so in that class was too good-looking to say anything.

But Zhang Yun has never been interested in these things, and his eyes have always stayed on people of the same gender as him.

And one morning, facing wet underwear, Zhang Yun thought of the male star in his dream who was famous for his coquettishness, and finally had to admit that he was a different person.

Zhang Yun was very panicked, what should he do if he doesn't arrive?Those who dare not tell others, for fear of being regarded as a monster, can only turn to books for help if they cannot get help from others.

So Zhang Yun spent that summer vacation in the city library. Every morning, he left home at dawn, rode a bicycle for more than 2 hours to the city, and then plunged into the library. I can’t come out, I searched all the books I could find, and finally figured out what I am, homosexuality, sex, love, or inborn, belong to the level that is basically hopeless, what kind of perversion and perversion are in the eyes of the world of.

Zhang Yun hugged the book and remained silent for a long time, until the staff came to remind him to come back to his senses, put the book in his hand back on the shelf, and pushed the car all the way home.

From the day he grew up, people noticed that Zhang Yun had changed. He no longer went out to play with those big and small kids. Instead, he stayed at home and tried his best to help the family. People who knew him praised him as a grown up and sensible person. His parents are also very relieved, but Zhang Yun just wants to find something to do to make him feel better, because he feels sorry for his parents, and he knows that he has no chance to become a good son in the eyes of his parents in his life.

Later, after Zhang Yun graduated from junior high school, he didn't want to continue his studies. His grades were not very good. Another reason was that his eldest brother was admitted to a university in Beijing, and his two younger sisters were also admitted to the city. Zhang Yun wanted to go out to work to earn some money. This would not only reduce the burden on the family, but also help his brothers and sisters. This is the only thing he can do for them. thing.

But his father disagreed. He was afraid that he would suffer a disadvantage outside at a young age, and he was even more afraid that no one would care about him. The already heavy burden was uploaded and pressurized, so he refused to read it life or death. My father had no choice but to ask the relationship to get an indicator through the back door and send him to be a soldier.

The father had good intentions. He hoped that his children would become adults even if they could not become talents. He was willing to exhaust all his efforts for this wish. Seeing his father who had never bowed his head to others in his life, he said everything softly for him. Zhang Yun didn't refuse the quota that was exchanged for the smiley face after exhausting the words. He obediently picked up his bags and followed the conscription team to the train.