I am in love with myself

It was a rare clear night, with a crescent moon hanging in the distance, no wind, but it was still too cold to stretch out your hands.

At [-]:[-], just after evening self-study, the students scrambled out of the school gate like fish that opened the gate. An Mu and the others walked slowly, but they were not yet crowded.

An Mu wanted to pretend that he didn't hear that question, but unexpectedly, Maomao got out of the car suddenly, put the handlebar into Jian Yixi's hand, waved his hand, and sent Jian Yixi to wait at the school gate first. , she wants to talk to her alone.

"An Mu, don't blame me for asking the question bluntly. I'm caught between the two of you. It's hard for me, you know? If you two break up, who do you think I should be with? Or be a Sandwich biscuits?

Now this is no longer a problem for the two of you, it is a matter for the three of us. Only by knowing your true thoughts can I help you adjust and strive to ensure the stability of our triangular structure to the greatest extent. "

After a busy day, An Mu just felt tired now, and wanted to go home quickly, wash up and sleep.

If someone else asked her such a question, she would never pay attention to it, but it was Mao Mao who was the most helpless of her.

She understands Maomao's temperament. Maomao is 3 minutes hot about everything, but he really cares about his friends. Otherwise, in his previous life, he would not have been implicated by himself and suffered bullying together, and finally died without knowing why.

Casually dismissing Maomao at this time will only make her think more wildly, it's better to have a good talk once and for all.

An Mu said, "I only consider Jian Yixi a friend."

"friend……"

Maomao wasn't surprised by her answer at all, and walked slowly following her pace, holding her arm.

"I'm going to say no, do you believe it?"

Maomao shook her head: "I don't believe it, if you really don't like anyone, then you must like Jian Yixi!"

"I don't like Jane Yixi."

"Then you have someone else you like."

An Mu said helplessly, "I just have to like someone?"

Maomao said seriously: "That's not true, if you can explain why you can go home with Jian Yixi."

"I'm just worried about her."

——The main thing is to worry about the adoptive father.

"You mean, I don't worry about her, I'm not enough friends?"

Maomao wasn't just being arguing, she was really a little bit worried.

Normally, who would give up an exam to accompany a friend home to visit a doctor?If that kind of fatal illness is understandable, the point is not.

"Then why do you want to give up the exam to accompany her? Why are you so kind to her?"

Some problems will only get darker and darker, and no explanation is the best explanation.

An Mu said, "Anyway, I don't like her."

Maomao answered quickly: "Then who do you like?"

An Mu rubbed his temples, "I like you, is that okay?"

Maomao slapped his hands, "Damn~ You can pull it down, I can't believe it if you say it~ Can you say something reliable?"

It seems that Maomao is sure that she likes Jian Yixi.

An Mu recalled Jian Yixi's guess that night, and said, "Okay, it's my teacher."

"And then? Got a picture?"

Mao Mao obviously still didn't believe it.

An Mu said, "No, I changed my phone after coming here."

"Okay..." Maomao sighed, "If you don't tell the truth, I really don't know how to adjust the relationship between you two."

"No need to adjust, we are fine now."

"Hidden dangers, understand? There are hidden dangers!"

An Mu raised his forehead: "You beat me into a trick, forcing me to admit that I like Jian Yixi, right?"

"Of course not!" Maomao pondered for a moment, and said, "Since you said you liked your teacher, then...you returned to China because your relationship was discovered?"

This question is a proposition, and no matter how you answer it, it will lead to a series of questions.

An Mu: "Yes."

Maomao touched his chin, "Let me guess, you were hit hard by this incident, and then you met Qi Liran, so you broke out unprecedented sympathy, thinking that you can't help yourself, at least help this poor guy?"

An Mu: "Almost."

"Let me guess again. You said that you joined the group because you were depressed. The group is full of sad people. According to your description, there should be a lot of people in that group. Why do you have a deep friendship with Qi Liran?" gone?"

An Mu: "I..."

Maomao interrupted: "Don't talk about it, I'll continue to guess. Qi Liran lived on campus before, and she didn't have a mobile phone or a computer, and she didn't have access to the Internet at all. You can only get to know her after her headshot, that is, after the college entrance examination.

The college entrance examination was in June, and you transferred back to China in August. In other words, you and her have only known each other for more than two months at most. What made you get close quickly across such a short period of time?

I remember you are from Beijing, right?

You have just been arrested for a puppy love, and your puppy love is still your teacher. At this time, your family should be very angry. Since the matter is so serious that you are forced to go back to the country, then you must find someone to watch you. Going back to Beijing is not inevitable. ?

It must have taken a lot of effort for you to convince your family to come to Weicheng, a place where nothing shits like a bird, under such circumstances?

What is the charm of Qi Liran that makes you spend so much effort?

You were found out as a teacher-student relationship, and she was shot in the head as a school bully. It stands to reason that you two have nothing in common, and she shouldn't resonate with you.

I thought about it and thought about it all afternoon, but I still couldn't figure it out. Just now, it suddenly dawned on me!

Guess what I want to understand? "

An Mu had already guessed what Maomao wanted to say.

Maomao said with a serious face: "I found that it's not that you two have something in common, on the contrary, your trajectories are almost exactly the same!"

Maomao took her arm and squeezed out of the school gate. Jian Yixi was waiting on the side of the road. Seeing Maomao dragging An Mu to a corner, he hesitated for a moment, and then walked over with the cart.

Maomao was still analyzing with An Mu.

"Qi Liran is lovelorn, and you are also lovelorn. This is the starting point of the common ground. But there are many people who are lovelorn. This alone is not enough for you two to talk about everything, so I speculate that you both like the same sex. , Qi Liran likes women, and you also like women, right?"

Female... teacher?

Chen Han suddenly appeared in An Mu's mind.

She glanced at Jian Yixi.

Although it seems a little bad to use Chen Han as a shield, but Mao Mao and Jian Yixi are not the kind of people who can't figure it out, and they will never talk nonsense. Instead of listening to Mao Mao's rambling, it is better to follow Mao Mao's words, Quick fix.

An Mu lowered her eyes and sighed desolately. The dim yellow street lamps leaked through the canopy of trees and mottled her body with dead branches, but they couldn't illuminate the darkness.

"Really... I can't hide anything from you. Let me tell you, it's okay. Don't talk nonsense, otherwise... I'm afraid it will cause trouble to her."

Seeing her like this, Maomao was a little at a loss.

"You Why are you so sad suddenly, don't scare me."

An Mu took out his phone and found the private message Chen Han sent her to show them.

"It's her, you know her."

Maomao and Jian Yixi looked at each other and quickly moved over.

"Chen Han?!"

Chen Han is familiar to all the students of Weicheng No. [-] Foreign Language School, so Maomao and Jian Yixi naturally know her too.

Chen Han launched the "Caring for Teenagers, Eliminating Violence" public welfare activity, until now, some people have mentioned that she indirectly forced Weicheng Second Foreign Language School to change the pending class system, and ordinary classes were no longer arranged according to grades, which really made many students feel uncomfortable. relieved.

It was because of her that An Mu's plan could go so smoothly.

Jian Yixi and Mao Mao also got to know Chen Han specifically, knew that she was a well-known designer, and had seen many photos of her. She is really a fair-skinned, beautiful, long-legged, very intellectual beauty.

However, the two of them only knew about Chen Han. An Mu didn't mention it. They didn't even know that Chen Han had been An Mu's teacher.

After reading the private message, Mao Mao's mouth was completely closed, and she looked up at An Mu with great confusion. Before An Mu could see the emotion in her eyes clearly, Mao Mao hugged her.

"My dear sisters, go back and get a good night's sleep. Tomorrow will be bright again."

This ambiguous private letter, no matter how you look at it, looks like An Mu likes Chen Han, but Chen Han rejects An Mu, so An Mu changed schools sadly, and pretended to have amnesia to escape the past.

Maomao hugged her for a long time, sobbing and even shedding two tears, he didn't know whether it was because of his remorse for asking the bottom line, or because he was imagining some sensational drama.

An Mu rubbed his temples and said he was sleepy before she could comfort himself with long-winded words, and then managed to stop Maomao.

Momo sighed and pedaled into the car and left. An Mu turned and walked home. After walking two steps, she noticed that Jian Yixi was also downcast.

After shouting twice, Jian Yixi looked up at her as if she had just realized it.

"You called me?"

"It's okay." Jian Yixi smiled a little forcedly, "I just think you... are very bitter."

"It's nothing, it's already over."

Jian Yixi held her arm tightly and tightly.

"I think her attitude seems to have eased a lot, and she should also like you. If you..."

"I don't like it." An Mu interrupted her, "Don't guess, I don't like her anymore."

"Well, I don't like her, who made her hurt you in the first place, we don't like her anymore!"

That being said, Jian Yixi obviously didn't believe it, so he went home with a weary look on his arm.

Lying on the bed after washing, listening to the sound of An Mu turning off the lights in the next room, Jian Yixi tossed and turned under the blanket, unable to fall asleep.

The phone screen next to the pillow suddenly lights up, Jian Yixi fishes the phone and clicks on it, it's Mao Mao's message.

[Meow meow: It's terrible, it's terrible! 】

[Meng Xi's written talk: What's wrong? 】

[Meow meow: The more I think about it, the more I think it's wrong. You didn't read Chen Han's last message. You obviously have thoughts about An Mu again. If An Mu still likes her, she will definitely not let go of this opportunity. An Mu this obviously doesn't like her anymore! 】

[Meng Xi's writing: An Mu did say that he doesn't like her anymore, but I don't know if it's true or not. 】

[Meow meow: It must be true!I've been thinking about it all the way since I left, and I can't sleep until now. The more I think about it, the more I feel that there is only one possibility for An Mu to forget his old love so quickly! 】

[Meng Xi's written talk: What? 】

[Meow meow: What else do you ask me?Think about it, what is the best way for a person to get out of a broken relationship quickly? 】

[Meng Xi's written talk: I don't know. 】

[Meowing a meow: Tsk!Why are you so uneducated? ! 】

[Meow meow: Of course I'm in love with another person!It's you! ! 】

Jian Yixi's heart skipped a beat suddenly, the cool white light from the screen fell on her soft white face, the previous irritability seemed to disappear in an instant, leaving only her eyes shining like cold stars.

She suppressed her heartbeat and tapped the words.

[Meng Xi's written talk: Why don't you have a long memory?Still talking nonsense? 】

[Meow meow: The conscience of heaven and earth, I told you this after really thinking about it, I am almost scared to death now! 】

[Meng Xi's written talk: What are you afraid of? 】

[Meow me: What do you think I'm afraid of?Aren't you afraid?In case what I speculate is true, when An Mu is really in deep trouble in the future, if you confess to you and then reject her, wouldn't that be equivalent to walking on Chen Han's old path?Do you think she and Chen Han are estranged now?Chen Han helped her so much, she didn't have a soft heart, do you want to do the same? 】

With those words, Jian Yixi's deer was trampled to pieces in an instant.

[Meng Xi's written talk: You are all guessing. 】

[Meow meow: What if it is true? 】

[Meng Xi's writing: Anyway, I won't ask An Mu again. 】

[Meow meow: I will definitely not inquire again after inquiring, and I don't want to expose her scars again, but I am always worried, can't you think of a way? 】

[Meng Xi's written talk: What can I do? 】

[Meowing a meow: A method that can quietly make her give up without affecting her relationship! 】

[Meng Xi's written talk: Simple, I just need to find a boyfriend. 】

[Meow meow: That's right!Why didn't I think of it? !Yeah!find a boyfriend!That's it!Before winter vacation, you must find a boyfriend!The sooner the better! 】

[Meow meow: Don't give me a little bit, I'm serious. 】

[Meng Xi's written talk: Where do you want me to find it? 】

[Meow meow: I really can't find it, can't it be fake?Just find a boy with a good relationship to pretend to be with you. 】

[Meng Xi's written talk: Which boy has a good relationship with me? 】

【Meow Mi:……】

[Meow meow: Alright, don't waste traffic, think of a way. 】

[Meng Xi's written talk: Otherwise, I'll go back to my hometown and find a classmate to play a guest role? 】

[Meow meow: Not very reliable, An Mu is not stupid, not so easy to fool. 】

[Meng Xi's written talk: Then I have no choice. 】

[Meow meow: Otherwise, why don't you rent a boyfriend? 】

[Meng Xi's written talk: Do you think I can afford the rent? 】

[Meow meow: Then... Shall I ask my brother to help out with a guest appearance? 】

[Meng Xi's written talk: How could your brother mess around with you? 】

[Meow meow: I'm not afraid if he follows me, but I'm afraid that he will sue my mother. 】

[Meng Xi's written talk: Alright, let's go to sleep. 】

[Meow meow: Wait!There is a way!We can cosplay! 】

[Meow meow: Me!Is it okay if I cosplay you as your boyfriend? 】

[Meng Xi's written talk:? ? ? ? ? ? 】

[Meow meow: Just tell An Mu that your online dating partner is running towards you, she won't follow you two on a date, right?At that time, I'll pick up a few pieces of my brother's clothes and put them on. Once I wear the baseball cap, let's face the roadside window, or find a good angle to take pictures, and send them to An Mu while dating. How realistic it is!Even with an IQ of 300, An Mu would never guess that it was fake! 】

[Meng Xi's written talk: This... can this work? 】

[Meow meow: It works!You will start to reveal to An Mu that you are in an online relationship intentionally or unintentionally tomorrow. I will apply for a trumpet later. We will pretend to be dog food, and we will show up immediately after the exam. It is absolutely realistic! 】

Maomao is a man of action, and he did what he said, and applied for a trumpet on the spot, and added her. After all the hard work, it was already past one o'clock in the morning.

Maomao said good night and went to sleep, Jian Yixi was also sleepy, her eyes were closed, her body was heavy, but her mind refused to rest.

She's out of her mind.

Intellectually, she understood that Mao Mao's actions were a bit silly, but emotionally, she felt that she should do so. She didn't want to become the next Chen Han, but she felt suffocated when she thought that An Mu might break up with her.

No, absolutely not!

Regardless of whether An Mu has friendship or love for her, and whether following Mao Maohu is childish or not, she has to give it a try. If it's friendship, it's just like going shopping with Mao Mao. If it's love...then cut it off. It's never wrong to take precautions before they happen.

But... But what if An Mu really gave up and rekindled his old relationship with Chen Han?

Jian Yixi, who had already figured it out, suddenly became confused again. She covered her head irritably, turning over and over again.

That Chen Han is so good, in fact, it seems to be a good match for An Mu...

No!certainly not!She hurt An Mu, she doesn't deserve it!

right!Not worthy!

So what on earth is she going to do now?

It didn't matter, anyway, she absolutely didn't want to be a stranger to An Mu.

The end of the semester was extremely busy, and the time passed quickly, and the exam was over in the blink of an eye.

An Mu's grandmother had passed away long ago, and only her grandfather was left. She had six children, all of whom were very filial. Except for An Mu's father and little uncle, the others were all in Beijing, mainly to accompany the old man.

As soon as An Mu left the examination room, her little aunt called.

"When will you come back? The old man has been talking about you for several days."

"I'll go back after receiving the notice in two days."

After the exam, I can't leave right away. I have to get a notice and hand out my winter homework.

The students were laughing and saying goodbye and leaving, and there were sounds everywhere about going out to play at night.

Maomao pushed the bicycle, intentionally or unintentionally bumped into Jian Yixi with her elbow.

"Shall we go play tonight too?"

Jian Yixi lowered her head and ignored it.

An Mu asked, "Where are you going?"

Without even thinking about it, Maomao blurted out: "Go to ktv, no! Go to the bar! They said that the resident singer of the night is super handsome~ I want to see and see~"

An Mu frowned: "Which bar do minors go to?"

"What's wrong with being a minor? Just don't drink alcohol? Jian Yixi, tell me, do you want to go?"

Jian Yixi hesitated for a moment, looked at Xie Maomao, and then at An Mu.

"I... I won't go, I have something to do tomorrow."

"What's the matter?" Maomao asked intentionally.

"Zhao Qi... will come to see me tomorrow."

"Zhao Qi? Just your online dating partner? What? You two want to run away?"

Jian Yixi nodded indiscriminately.

"That's fine, wait for your good news~"

After leaving the school gate, Maomao rode away on his bicycle. Jian Yixi took An Mu home, sneaking a few glances at her along the way.

An Mu pretended not to see it.

Jian Yixi finally couldn't hold back.

"You...don't ask me?"

"Ask you what?"

—Ask where did you get an online dating partner out of nowhere?

"It's... Zhao Qi."

"Didn't you say that two days ago?"

"You don't object?"

——I'm still curious about what you want to do.

An Mu smiled slightly, his amber eyes seemed to contain the Milky Way, dark and bright.

"I don't object to it. I just remember to come back early at night. It's too late and it's not safe."

Jian Yixi forced a smile, she couldn't explain why she was suddenly depressed, and wanted to call Maomao immediately and tell her to cancel the plan.

An Mu...it doesn't seem like she likes her, otherwise why didn't she react at all?

So is she being self-indulgent again?

Besides, An Mu doesn't like her, she should be happy, why can't she be happy?

An Mu didn't like her, so did he still like that Chen Han?

But she was so indifferent to Chen Han.

Or...the deep love and the deep hatred, because I love so much, so I don't want to forgive easily?

Then what is this?It's ridiculous and embarrassing to have a fake date with Maomao. If you have this spare time, you might as well think about how to change Jian Yihu's supervision to criminal detention. She swore in front of An Mu, but she hasn't done anything yet.

"or……"

--I'm not going.

Before the second half of the sentence was finished, An Mu took off his down jacket and hung it on the hanger, opened the courier he had just picked up at the gate, took out two simple black tube tops and handed them over.

"Try to see if it can be wrapped, as long as it doesn't leak, it's fine."

Jian Yixi was stunned, she only took off half of her coat, reached out to take the chest wrap, opened it and pulled it twice, it was quite elastic.

"This is……"

"Wear this to sleep at night, don't wear your bra again, I don't listen to you after saying it several times."

Jian Yixi blinked her eyes, her long eyelashes curled up, the corners of her pursed lips were not smiling, but she also pursed out that faint dimple.

"You...you bought it for me online?"

"You can't buy it online, there's nothing for sale around here, and we don't have time to go to the mall."

"No, I mean...you bought it for me specifically?"

"Don't worry, it's not worth a few dollars."

An Mu had already changed into her pajamas and came out. The room was well heated, and ordinary single cotton pajamas were enough.

Jian Yixi looked at An Mu, then looked down at the tube top.

This... This is not a question of money at all, who would care about a girlfriend to the point of... this?

An Mu suddenly remembered, "What did you want to tell me just now?"

Jian Yixi squeezed the breast wrap in her hand, first shook her head slowly, then firmly.

"It's nothing, I'm just thinking, what should I wear on a date tomorrow?"

The author has something to say: N years later

Xixi: I wish I could kidnap my 16-year-old self...QAQ

Maomao: As long as you can get better soon~┓(￣︶￣)