I am in love with myself

Jian Yixi woke up just after pulling out the needle. An Mu helped her press the needle hole, looked up at the sleepy Jian Yixi, remembered what she had promised, and lowered her head to blow through the pressing fingers.

Originally, I wanted to say something that my adoptive mother often said, "The pain flew away", but I really couldn't say it.

There were no lines, so she blew a few more times as compensation, and then raised her eyes, only to see Jian Yixi's sleepy eyes staring at her face without blinking, the tip of her eyelashes trembling slightly, as if she hadn't fully recovered from her sleep. wake up.

An Mu whispered, and Jian Yixi subconsciously raised her eyes to meet her gaze.

With just one glance, Jian Yixi woke up in an instant, like a brat who was caught stealing food, with the obvious shock of being caught, he blinked a few times in conditioned reflex, and quickly turned his eyes away.

"Uh...in...in...I...I fell asleep just now, are you bored by yourself?"

Jian Yixi stammered stupidly and cutely, and An Mu's eyes showed a trace of tenderness. She thought she was embarrassed to be taken care of, and didn't care. She pressed the needle lightly and felt that the bleeding would stop. lay down.

"It's not boring, I played with my phone for a while."

"That, that's good."

Jian Yixi took another sneak peek at her, and the more she looked at it, the more she felt that An Mu's mouth was really pretty, especially when she was blowing for her just now, her mouth was pouting, and her lips were so red that they were in full bloom. The flowers seem to invite people to pick them, and just looking at them makes her very...very...appetite?

Jian Yixi managed to find a word that she thought was quite suitable, and didn't dare to read more, didn't dare to think deeply, so she quickly changed the subject.

"What time is it?"

An Mu glanced at the phone.

"It's almost time."

"One o'clock?! It's so late?!" Jian Yixi got out of bed, "You must be starving to death, right? Let's go, I'll treat you to dinner..."

Before she finished speaking, Jian Yixi's knees softened, she became dizzy and fell back to the hospital bed.

An Mu frowned and reached out to support her.

"Slow down, you have been burning all night, and you haven't eaten, and you still get up so violently, it's no wonder you can get up."

Jian Yixi rubbed her temples angrily: "I'm really useless."

"Do you still need to blame yourself for this kind of thing?"

"I just feel...as if I've been bothering you all this time."

"If you have the energy to be polite, why don't you gather more energy so that I can help you back home."

An Mu didn't help her get hospitalized. Firstly, the environment in the hospital was noisy and the Internet was chaotic, so it might not be peaceful to be hospitalized. Secondly, when she first came here, she was only focused on getting acupuncture to reduce the fever, so she didn't have time to do it. After the fever subsided, there was no need to do it again.

Jian Yixi sat for a while and regained some strength. An Mu put on the windbreaker that was left aside for her. This time, Jian Yixi's refusal was invalidated and she could only wear it obediently.

An Mu helped her get down slowly, and walked slowly. Fortunately, it was the first floor, and there was no need to squeeze the elevator or anything. She left the hospital smoothly and hired a taxi.

"Fusheng Garden." An Mu reported the address.

This is the community where An Mu lives, passing Jian Yixi's villa area.

Jian Yixi didn't think much about it, she leaned against the wall of the car and closed her eyes.

She had a severe burn before, as if she had soaked in a hot bath all night, and her whole body was sore and limp. Even when she closed her eyes, she felt that her eye sockets were sore and her eyelids were fluttering. With Mu supporting her, she could really soften to the ground.

"My sister...has she posted a v blog?"

"Posted."

An Mu thought that she would ask in detail, or borrow her mobile phone to watch, but after waiting for a long time, Jian Yixi did not continue. She braked, and Jian Yixi slammed her head against the wall of the car.

The voice wasn't too loud, but Jian Yixi managed to control her body somewhat, and An Mu glanced at her.

The sunlight outside the car window intersected, flickering on her pale face, the blush on her cheeks under the high heat has long since disappeared, and what remains is only faded mess, even the lips have lost their blood color, and the dry skin on the lips is raised It seemed to be mocking her as a caregiver, she didn't even give the patient a drink of saliva, she was really incompetent.

After all, it was her former self, An Mu only took one look at Jian Yixi, and understood everything.

It's not that Jian Yixi doesn't want to ask, nor does she want to know what her sister has done, but she doesn't dare to speak, fearing that she won't be able to control her emotions.

This is not the time when she was drowsy with fever in the morning, she is sober now, and she doesn't want to expose too much in front of people.

Jian Yixi's head shook with the car, and knocked off the wall of the car again.

An Mu reached out and pressed her head to his shoulder, but Jian Yixi didn't move. Jian Yixi could do whatever she wanted, obediently like a dozing kitten.

Jian Yixi didn't dare to ask, so she took the initiative to say it.

"Your sister posted v blog, and I also posted, not only me, Qi Liran posted, Lu Yuexin posted, and two other girls who participated in the candid video also posted, and now even Chen Han has stood up to help you speak, You don't have to worry about anything."

Jian Yixi didn't open her eyes. From An Mu's angle, she could only see her eyelashes trembling slightly, and she uttered a word in a fairly steady tone with her dry lips curled up.

"Qi Liran? Lu Yuexin? Why?"

"It's a long story. In short, I contacted Wu Shutao's family and persuaded them first. They came forward to persuade Wu Shutao who had just started serving his sentence.

Wu Shutao is the so-called robber who smashed Qi Liran's head. He is still very young, in his early twenties, and has not yet graduated from college. His family told him everything about what your sister did.

In the past two months or so, Wu Shutao himself has regretted it very much. His family did not take much effort to persuade him to testify against your sister.

His family gave me his dictation, and also brought Wu Shutao's mobile phone to let me intercept the chat records. With these, I went to find Qi Liran and persuaded her to speak up for herself and her lost college entrance examination.

Qi Liran hates your sister, and Lu Yuexin and the others also hate your sister. When Qi Liran and I found them together, they were originally reluctant to cooperate.

But they are not fools. Of course, they will not let go of such a good opportunity to clean up and take revenge.

Especially, they hate your sister more than me.

The alliance is easily established, and they all have solid evidence. Even if your parents help your sister find a navy, they will not be able to suppress Chen Han's tens of millions of real fans, and there are still so many fans who turn black.

The most important thing is that the more water troops there are, the more intense the backlash will be, and the more momentum will be created, which will be more beneficial to you. "

The home was not far from the hospital, and they arrived as soon as they were talking. Foreign vehicles were not allowed in the community. An Mu got out of the car and explained the situation to the security guards. He registered his name, address and phone number, and was finally allowed to go.

Jian Yixi finally came to his senses at this moment, opened his eyes and looked at the unfamiliar neighborhood outside the car window, with the French plane trees passing by alternately reflected in his eyes, and said in surprise: "Aren't you going to take me home first? I think I should be passing by right."

Hospital → villa area → Fusheng Garden.

It should be in this order, why didn't An Mu tell her to get off the car when passing by the villa area?

The taxi drove all the way to An Mu's downstairs. An Mu got out of the car first, then walked around to the car to help her down, and they entered the apartment building together.

At noon, the owners either go to work or go to school or eat and sleep at home. The corridors are empty, and the footsteps echo.

When the elevator was free, An Mu supported her and said, "Why are you going home? Your mother is in the hospital, your father is at work, and the nanny only listens to your mother's orders to prepare food and drink for your sister. How can she care about you?"

Jian Yixi lowered her eyes and smiled faintly, lightly and bitterly.

"But that's my home, and I always want to go back."

—That’s not necessarily the case.

When she got home, An Mu turned on the water dispenser, mixed a glass of warm water for her to moisten her lips, and then turned on her phone to order takeaway.

"The liquid was prescribed for three days, and I have to lose tomorrow. The day after tomorrow depends on the situation. If it doesn't work, I will ask for leave."

An Mu's apartment is not too big or too small, two bedrooms and one living room are just right, it is enough for a family of three, unlike Jian's villa which is too big, it is not like a home when it is empty.

Jian Yixi said: "On Monday the day after tomorrow, I have to submit a report for inspection and criticism. I'm afraid it's not easy to ask for leave. Besides, I feel much better now, and I should be fine after a night of sleep."

"It will depend on the situation."

After Jian Yixi finished, the living room fell into a strange silence.

There was only one sofa. An Mu sat gracefully on one side of the sofa with her legs crossed, while Jian Yixi sat obediently on the other side with her knees together. .

The takeaway will take a while to arrive, An Mu glanced at Jian Yixi's half-empty water glass, took it and put it on the coffee table.

"Lie down and rest for a while, and then go to bed and sleep well after dinner comes."

Jian Yixi was pushed to the ground by her, and the slippers she had just changed fell onto the floor tiles with a few clicks. An Mu went back to the room and brought out a thin blanket, and put it on her body for the time being.

"Don't really fall asleep, just close your eyes and rest for a while."

Jian Yixi hooked her lips and smiled, her weak smile couldn't bring out the faint dimples.

"Forget it, I will definitely fall asleep as soon as I close my eyes, lend me your mobile phone, and I'll call home."

An Mu passed over his cell phone.

Jian Yixi didn't shy away from her, she just lay on her side with her arms pressed out of the thin blanket, recalling her mother's number and dialed it.

The phone rang many times before it was connected, and Wen Qiaoyun's voice showed impatience through the phone.

"Hello. Who is this?"

"Mom, it's..."

After only two words, Wen Qiaoyun exploded, and An Mu could hear the hysterical soprano voice from so far away. Although she couldn't make out what she said, she could see the last bit of blood on Jian Yixi's face If it fades away quickly, you will know that it is definitely not a good word.

Jian Yixi tried to explain: "I have a fever and just finished the fluid transfusion, so..."

"No, Mom, I didn't mean to...I..."

"I didn't find those people. I didn't want to embarrass my family. I..."

"Mom, listen to me first, I actually..."

"Don't worry, she..."

Every sentence was interrupted at the beginning, and she was never given a chance to finish.

Jian Yixi raised her arm to cover her eyes, she couldn't see the expression on her face, she could only see her biting her lower lip tightly, gave up arguing, and listened to the frantic bombardment on the phone, trying to wait for Wen Qiaoyun to finish venting Look for another chance to speak.

It's a pity that she couldn't wait for that opportunity in the end. Wen Qiaoyun scolded her heartily, and hung up the phone directly. She didn't hear Jian Yixi answer about her illness from the beginning to the end. Obviously, the other party didn't ask at all.

After hanging up the phone for a long time, Jian Yixi was still covering her ears, and she covered her eyes with her arm for a while before she rubbed them away. The half-drawn eyelids could vaguely see the smoky redness at the end of her eyes.

Jian Yixi sat up and shook her phone: "Can I make another call?"

Without thinking about it this time, Jian Yixi skillfully dialed her adoptive mother's number.

beep --

The adoptive mother picked it up quickly, and there was a noisy road on the opposite side.

"Hello? Chihi?"

Jian Yixi was already three years old when she got lost that year. Although she couldn't tell her parents' names, she knew that her name was Xixi. Based on this, her adoptive parents named her Meng Xi.

"This is not my mobile phone number, how do you know it's me?"

"Damn! Do you have to think about it? You are the only one in our family in Weicheng. When I saw Weicheng written on it, I knew it must be my daughter!"

Jian Yixi supported one leg, supported her elbows on her knees, and supported her forehead with her palms. She trembled silently and pretended to speak briskly, "Where are you? It's so noisy? Are you working on the street with Dad? "

"Well! Business is good today, and several people are looking for your father! I have discussed with your father. We have saved more money in the past two years. When you are admitted to university, we will rent a house wherever you go. We will leave you Come closer, I will accompany you for four years, and when you get married and have a baby, we will...not look for you anymore, we have traveled our own places."

The two old people can't have children, and what they like most is children. During the Chinese New Year, they joked that she would get married quickly after graduating from college, and give them a grandson and granddaughter. Now they are worried about the emotions of Jane's family, and they dare not even look at it. .

Jian Yixi propped her forehead, closed her eyes tightly, her broken hair covered her expression, but she couldn't stop her trembling sounds that were imperceptible.

"Traveling? That's great. Videos are so convenient now. If you miss me, send me a video."

"Hey! Good! How are you over there? Why does your voice sound a bit wrong?"

"I just woke up from a nap."

"Oh, okay, it's fine over there. The private school is not cheap. It must be better than what we teach here. You have worked hard for two years. When you are admitted to university, at least you will have some security in your life. No matter how rich the Jane family is, you will also You have to be able to do it yourself, you can't relax yourself just because the family has money, you know?"

"Huh? What's the matter?"

"I...I miss you, can I go and see you?"

The adoptive mother's original laughing voice suddenly quieted down, and it took a long time to squeeze out a sentence: "Mom misses you too, but you just left, and you will come back to see us soon, your parents must be uncomfortable, and Mom is afraid they will give you embarrassment ……you……"

The adoptive mother's voice was choked up, afraid that she would hear it, so she yelled loudly on purpose: "Oh, no, I can't tell you, your father is still crawling on the telephone pole, and you expect me to hand him things and lift the ladder, that's it , I'll contact you later, hang up."

The adoptive mother hung up the phone in a hurry, but Jian Yixi still heard an uncontrollable sob at the moment of hanging up the phone.

Jian Yixi hugged her knees for a long time, then raised her head and handed the phone back, smiling vigorously.

"My mother... the adoptive mother and the others are working. They know a lot, and they can do all kinds of work. They help people weld advertising shelves, install windows, lay oil and rain cloth to prevent leakage... They earn money with their own hands. I never I think they are inferior, and I don’t think they let me hold my head up, I... I don’t understand why my parents say they have taught me badly?”

Jian Yixi was still smiling, as if she would not be able to speak without smiling.

An Mu took the phone, put it on the coffee table, and waved for her to come over.

Jian Yixi raised her head to hold back the tears that she couldn't hold back, and suppressed them back, then knelt and crawled over.

Before she finished speaking, An Mu suddenly hugged her, just like when she left Shunyi for Weicheng 12 years ago, her adoptive mother suddenly hugged her at the station.

Until now, An Mu still clearly remembered the temperature of her adoptive mother's embrace. I believe that the 16-year-old himself remembered it even more clearly.

At times like this, a thousand words are worth a hug.

"They're not ashamed, and you're not bad."

The warm and soft body in his arms was stiff, and it took a long time to relax, and the voice he spoke again was choked with uncontrollable sobs.

"I...I don't know how it became like this...Obviously...A few days ago, my parents said that they had been looking for me for many years, that they missed me very much, that they would definitely make up for me in the future, and that they would treat me well , But... But why did it happen in the blink of an eye? Am I so unlovable?"

"Who said that? I like it very much, and Mao Mao likes it too."

"You... like me? It's not just the adoptive parents, you also like me. It seems... I'm not that bad..."

Jian Yixi leaned against An Mu's arms, as if she suddenly lost all her strength, and pressed almost her entire weight, causing An Mu to lean back on the armrest of the sofa, causing her back to hurt a bit.

An Mu didn't move, endured the pain in his back, and quietly listened to Jian Yixi's depressed emotions all night.

"My mother said that I deliberately opposed my sister and deliberately wanted to embarrass my family. I don't know how she came to such a ridiculous conclusion?

Am I not Jane's family myself?Am I embarrassing my own family Am I out of my mind?

My mother also said that those who deserve to die should not die, and those who don't deserve to be forced to do this now, what does this mean?Do you mean I deserve to die?

I know she is angry, and I also know that my sister's suicide made her very distressed, but I still feel uncomfortable. I really want to try it. If I commit suicide too, will she be as nervous as my sister? Nervous me? "

An Mu pressed her shoulders and pushed her away slightly, frowned and looked at her, and said word by word: "Nothing is more important than life, and no one is worth your death for her, don't even think about it think."

An Mu knew herself well. She knew that no matter what, she would never give up her life easily, but she still didn't want to hear such words from her own mouth.

——Is it okay to sacrifice for adoptive parents, but die for Jane's family?Even if it's just casual talk!

Jian Yixi's small face was as pale as paper, and her eye circles were terribly red, tears were hanging in her eye sockets, and it seemed that she would not be able to hold them anymore.

She tried her best to keep her eyes wide open to keep the tears from rolling out, and said with a smile, "I know, I'm not so stupid. If I'm gone, my adoptive parents will be so sad."

"Don't laugh if you don't want to laugh, it's ugly."

Jian Yixi touched her face, "Is it really ugly?"

"Ugly."

The corners of Jian Yixi's mouth were drawn higher, and her smile was really ugly. This time, before An Mu reached out to hug her, she suddenly hooked An Mu's neck, and buried her head in An Mu's neck.

She didn't speak, but hugged An Mu tightly. Her thin body trembled slightly. At first, she was holding back, but then she couldn't help crying anymore. The warm tears soaked through the shoulders, and also soaked An Mu's dusty years. memory.

If there was such a person that I could rely on back then, maybe I wouldn't lose sight of the truth and only want to please Jane's family.

No one is really stupid, and most of the time just lack an opportunity to face reality cruelly.

After eating the takeaway, Jian Yixi slept in An Mu's double bed, and slept until the night was dark before waking up, only to be woken up by An Mu's cell phone.

Jian Yixi yawned and got out of bed, feeling much refreshed. When she walked into the living room, An Mu was nowhere to be seen, only a little warm gleam from the glass door of the bathroom, and the faint sound of splashing water.

An Mu was taking a shower.

Jian Yixi picked up the phone and looked at it. It was not someone else but a familiar number that jumped on the screen.

It's Wen Qiaoyun, her own mother!

Did she finally remember to care about her?

Jian Yixi's sleepy eyes were instantly filled with surprise, and she quickly pressed the answer button.

"mom!"

"Where are you?!"

The irritable voice rushed to her ears, instantly extinguishing Jian Yixi's joy, and her voice also cooled down.

"I'm at a friend's house."

"Which friend? It can't be that An Mu, right?"

Jian Yixi, who is not good at lying, hesitated for a while, but still told the truth.

"Heh! Hehe...You are really good! Jian Yixi! You come back to me right now...Wait a minute, which building is her house? I'll pick you up!"

The author has something to say: fat chapter!

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