I am in love with myself

It was just the right time for Jian Yixi to transfer to another school. The school was applying for provincial support for the school. Except for the third year of senior high school, all staff had weekends and weekends, actively responding to the call of the country to reduce the burden.

Today is Friday, and there will be no classes for the next two days. After school, the freshmen and sophomores had fun and squeezed out of the school gate, and An Mu also came out with Jian Yixi Mao Mao.

Mao Mao's house was in the opposite direction. She leaned on the car seat, put her feet on the ground, waved goodbye to them, and smiled at An Mu with a wink: "I'm waiting for you tonight~"

An Mu waved his hands helplessly.

After Maomao left, Jian Yixi stood on the side of the road waiting eagerly, but there were no familiar license plate numbers everywhere.

Although Jian Yihu returned home early, but Jian Yixi was still there, the driver logically said that he should wait at the school gate.

But this is just a theory. In fact, An Mu had expected that no one would come to pick her up. She could even imagine that Jian Yihu was twisting the facts and crying and complaining at home, while Wen Qiaoyun called Lao Zhou angrily. Leave him alone.

[Since she can decide not to go to school by car, she can find a way to come back by herself! 】

An Mu could think of it, and so could Jian Yixi.

It's just that Jian Yixi thought differently. What she thought was that she walked alone in the morning, and her family members might think that she should not be willing to take the car, so she didn't let the driver make the trip for nothing.

Jian Yixi's thinking was too gentle, or in other words, she was too beautifying Wen Qiaoyun.

An Mu knew that Jian's house was now a dragon's lake and a tiger's den. As long as Jian Yixi went back, she would definitely be heartbroken, but An Mu couldn't stop it.

Only Nirvana can be reborn, and there must be a price for growth. All she can do is to minimize the pain of Nirvana and reduce the price of growth.

Jian Yixi waited for a while, then turned her head and smiled at An Mu embarrassedly. Just after the heavy rain, the temperature suddenly dropped several degrees. Jian Yixi's nose turned red from the cold, and she sneezed several times in succession. It seems to be full of breath.

"I guess I have to borrow your car, but the driver didn't come."

Without even thinking about it, An Mu took off his uniform jacket and was about to put it on her body. Jian Yixi quickly waved his hands and said, "No, no, I'll take you by bike later, and you'll be warm in a while."

This is true.

An Mu knew himself. It was impossible for him to wear someone else's coat and let others freeze, so he didn't insist and put on his uniform again.

The torrential rain washed away the dust in the air, and the air was a lot fresher. Taking a deep breath, the whole lung seemed to be fresh, but the road conditions became worse. Deep or shallow puddles.

Jian Yixi rode very carefully, trying her best to avoid the puddles. If she couldn't get around, she would ride slower. She would also remind An Mu to raise her legs so as not to splash in dirty water.

An Mu hugged Jian Yixi's waist, feeling the warmth from under the thin shirt, and reminded, "Don't forget to bring your coat tomorrow."

"Well, the main thing is that I got used to it in Shunyi. September in Shunyi is still very hot. We all say that September is the autumn tiger. It gradually gets cold after the National Day. It's really cold here too early."

——No, mainly because no one reminded you.

Just like "your mother told you to go home and wear long johns", you are still a child before you enter the society, and most people still have to be reminded by their family members to wear a coat.

"Didn't your mother remind you to bring it?"

"No, she's too busy. Besides, I'm already my age, so I should worry about myself."

But she reminded Jian Yihu.

In her eyes, only Jian Yihu is the daughter, and there is no place for you at all.

The road was not far away, and it took more than ten minutes to arrive. Jian Yixi got off the car and put her schoolbag on her back, waved goodbye to her. The night wind blew the hair on the side of her face, and An Mu found that her forehead was really wet. There was a thin trace of sweat, and the broken light was dizzy against the light.

"See you on Monday." Jian Yixi said goodbye.

An Mu said, "Call me immediately if you need anything."

"Do not worry!"

Even if it was him, An Mu couldn't guess whether this "don't worry" meant "don't worry, I'll call you right away if something happens" or "don't worry, nothing will happen".

An Mu didn't get on the bike until Jian Yixi's figure completely disappeared at the gate of the community, and then walked slowly home.

The house was empty and no one was there. Originally, An's father, An's mother was worried that she would live alone, but they couldn't bear her insistence, so they had no choice but to ask her to call home at ten o'clock every night to report her safety.

It's ten o'clock in the evening in Weicheng, and it's around four o'clock in the afternoon in Paris. It's the peak time for meetings and discussions. But in order to ensure that she arrives home safely, An's mother deliberately staggered four o'clock. No matter how important the meetings and discussions are, they are all moved to after four If they couldn't move away, they would also arrange for a secretary to guard the phone, which showed how important An Mu was to them.

This was a treatment that An Mu had never enjoyed in her previous life.

It would be a lie to say I wasn't moved at all.

But she is not the real An Mu. She doesn't know where the real An Mu is, and she doesn't know if An Mu will come back. Maybe when she opens her eyes tomorrow, she has disappeared, and there will be nothing in this world anymore. The 28-year-old Jian Yixi was only 16-year-old An Mu.

After several days of busy work, An Mu was a little tired, but she couldn't sleep yet. She edited the v blog first, and attached the video link of the classroom before going into the bathroom.

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An Mu didn't have @见依湖them, but only @见义河 and Chen Designer, but this didn't prevent the v-blog from being forwarded to Xunqian Chaochao, and it didn't prevent Jian Yihu's fans from rushing to her v-blog .

When she came out from the shower, the v blog had already turned upside down, black fans ran wild with joy, real fans shouted that the house had collapsed, passers-by watched the fun, only a small number of people still insisted on believing in Jian Yihu.

An Mu rolled his eyes casually before putting down his phone, letting the situation ferment overnight.

After drying his hair, Chen Han has already reposted this v-blog, creating even more momentum.

The notification bar kept reminding that there was a new private message, but An Mu didn't click on it, and got into bed after cleaning up.

An Mu was tired, so he turned off the lights and went to sleep.

Once the lights went out, the room was pitch black, the curtains were drawn heavily, no light could penetrate, and there was no light source except for the fluorescent light on the hands of the clock on the wall.

An Mu closed her eyes, her long hair was casually scattered on the pillow, and she took a long breath after a while, as if she was asleep, but she didn't.

She was half asleep and half awake, and she didn't know whether she was dreaming about the past or remembering the past. In short, she saw her past self, the 16-year-old self.

Tonight, 12 years ago, after such a rainstorm, the secretly shot video has been spread on the Internet, and it is spread everywhere that it is a video of Jian Yihu changing clothes.

When she came home from school, Jian Yihu had finished crying and complained. Jian Xiangwei was so angry that he dropped the water glass, and Wen Qiaoyun pointed at her nose and scolded.

She scolded too much, she couldn't remember the specific content clearly, she only remembered a few sentences.

[Do you know that you are a woman?Are you not ashamed to take off your clothes in front of so many people? 】

[To put it mildly, you are called uneducated!To put it bluntly, it is dissolute and shameless! 】

[You are like this at a young age, who can care about it when you grow up? ! 】

【Look at you like this?What did your adoptive parents teach you? ! 】

[Also, with them like that, what good things can they teach?Don't call them parents anymore!Do not contact them again! 】

These are all good, but the most unbearable thing for her is the sentence that Wen Qiaoyun has said countless times.

[If I had known earlier, I shouldn't have asked you back! 】

Wen Qiaoyun will probably never know how much harm this sentence has brought her, which is no less than "I should not have given birth to you if I knew it earlier".

She remembered that that night Wen Qiaoyun became more and more angry when she scolded, and with Jian Yihu's push, she couldn't help but slapped her twice, and asked her to kneel down to apologize to Jian Yihu.

That's right, just kneel down.

She grew up so big, except that she was really naughty in elementary school and was punished to kneel twice to the slag, but she never knelt again.

It's not that she hasn't made any mistakes again, but her adoptive parents said that she has grown up and has self-esteem, and she can no longer be punished like she was when she was a child. If she made a mistake, they would talk to her, and they would only reprimand her when she was angry.

She is also more sensible, and she seldom bothered them after she went to middle school.

But that night, Wen Qiaoyun asked her to kneel down to Jane Yihu, who was only ten minutes older than herself. What was even more ridiculous was that she really knelt down. According to Wen Qiaoyun's request, she knelt down and cried to apologize.

She couldn't remember what happened afterwards, but she only remembered that she knelt for a long time, and Jian Yihu didn't get her up right away, but deliberately said a lot, and deliberately made her kneel more.

She was kneeling alone, and was accused by the whole family sitting on the sofa, and she really felt that it was her fault.

That night... She seemed to cry all night, didn't step out of the room all weekend, and no one cared whether she had eaten or not.

An Mu opened his eyes in a daze, and looked at the wall clock. There were three dark green lines, one was moving, and the other two pointed to four o'clock in the morning.

It seemed that she was really asleep, and it was almost dawn.

She got up and went to the bathroom, washed her hands and came out, and then lay back on the bed. She was sleepless at all, and the emotions from 12 years ago seemed to have continued from her dream to reality, making her feel depressed.

She simply got up and walked to the window, opened the heavy curtains, and looked out the window.

Before dawn, the night was still dark, the heavy rain took away the dark clouds, and the sky was still full of stars. On a rare clear night, the crescent moon seemed clearer and brighter than usual.

An Mu pressed the window sill and looked at the night sky quietly for a while. The chaos on the Internet did not affect the peace at the moment. The 16-year-old himself was probably sad wrapped in a quilt right now?Or... fell asleep?

Things have changed, she shouldn't be punished to kneel anymore, right?

Although there is still a small fault on her body, the trouble caused by Jian Yihu is even bigger at this moment. There are videos to testify that even if Jian Yihu wants to blame her, she can't forgive her, especially Jane Yihu also used Jian Xiangwei's name to frame her. She stole the forum account, this is not clear to others, but Jian Xiangwei definitely knows it very well.

Compared with Wen Qiaoyun's sentimentality, Jian Xiangwei is more or less rational, and should not be distracted by Jian Yixi at this time, but should seize the time to solve the collapse of Jian Yihu's character design. The sooner this kind of thing can solve the negative impact smaller.

As for Jian Yixi, there was a high probability that she would be driven back to her room after being scolded, and they had no time to talk to her at all.

An Mu stood for a while, went directly to the bathroom to freshen up, changed into jeans and a bottoming shirt, and specially put on a warm beige windbreaker, took the keys and mobile phone and went out.

At six o'clock in the morning, the street was already bustling with activity, the doors were opened earlier, the sanitation workers were doing the final finishing work, the bus drove slowly, and there were a few people sitting in the car sporadically.

Autumn in Weicheng is really cold. Before I can feel the tail of summer, I suddenly shrank from the cold.

In previous years, it was not so fast. It was an autumn rain and a cold, and it was cold enough to freeze hands. This year, the rainstorm was brought forward, and it should return to the temperature a little in two days.

An Mu held the windbreaker pocket in his hand, the cool air hit his face, and he took a deep breath. His whole lungs were clear. No matter how sleepy his consciousness was, he could wake up in an instant. He strolled along the wet sidewalk. The ground was covered with dead branches last night The dead leaves have all been swept away now, leaving only the dark dampness all over the ground.

An Mu walked all the way to the gate of the familiar villa area and entered the familiar breakfast shop.

She said she was familiar with it, but she was only familiar with the facade. She only came to eat once, and was severely reprimanded by Wen Qiaoyun, saying that there was a nanny at home who made breakfast, so why would she eat unhygienic food outside?It will never be eaten again.

She was very obedient, and never dared to enter this shop again.

In fact, Wen Qiaoyun doesn't think it's unhygienic. She never stopped Jian Yihu from eating takoyaki and Kanto cooking. She just felt ashamed. The guards and security guards often eat at this shop, and her daughter also eats this kind of street stall. They seem to be at the same level, how much has the price dropped?

An Mu ordered a cage of steamed shrimp dumplings. Five small steamed dumplings were neatly placed in a bowl-sized steamer. Each of them was thin-skinned and filled with big fillings. The soup overflowed with a bite. It was delicious, but they were too big. Small, one bite at a time.

An Mu chewed slowly, dipped in vinegar from time to time, and took a sip of salted tofu nao. The softness of tofu nao and the delicious shrimp dumplings satisfied his appetite and dispelled the morning chill.

Coming out after breakfast, I walked back contentedly, and saw a girl wearing a familiar school uniform of Weicheng No. [-] Foreign Language School walking over in a distance.

The girl walked feebly, without raising her head, just looking at the road under her feet, with the tip of her ponytail hanging around her neck, and she didn't feel itchy when she scratched her neck, she still walked with her head down.

An Mu closed his eyes slightly, and his long eyelashes trembled slightly.

Isn't this... Jian Yixi?

So early in the morning, where did she go?Why haven't you changed your school uniform?

An Mu didn't make a sound, and walked towards her, blocking her way.

Jian Yixi didn't even look up, subconsciously bypassed her and continued walking.

An Mu blocked her again. When she went to the left, she also went to the left. When she went to the right, she also went to the right. Jian Yixi finally realized what was wrong and raised her head.

With just one glance, An Mu frowned.

Jian Yixi's cheeks were strangely red, her broken hair was messy, her originally black and clear eyes seemed to be out of focus and dull, her face was so red, but her lips were very pale, as if she had been for several days and nights He didn't drink any water, and his dry skin was slightly raised.

An Mu frowned even more, and raised his hand to touch her forehead.

hot.

"what's wrong with you?"

——Why are you running back and forth while you have a fever? !

It took two seconds for Jian Yixi to realize that it was her. Her eyes moved obviously, and the corners of her eyes were flushed. She quickly lowered her head and rubbed her eyes casually. When she raised her head again, the corners of her eyes were still red, just a faint blur of water. The marks are gone, and there is still a smile on his face.

"Why are you here? Are you shopping? Or do you have something to do with me?"

Jian Yixi patted the shirt and skirt, and smiled embarrassedly: "Did you call me? I forgot to bring my mobile phone."

An Mu took her hand, turned around and went to the side of the road to hail a taxi.

"I'll talk about it later, go to the hospital first."

"But I... just came back from the hospital, and I have to go home to get things."

Jian Yixi spoke a little slowly, as if she was confused by a fever, her voice was so soft that her feet seemed to be soft, and she couldn't tell when she was walking, but she could tell that she was unstable when she stood still, and her figure was shaking dangling.

An Mu hailed a taxi, stuffed her into the car, sat in and closed the door himself, reported to the nearest hospital, and then touched Jian Yixi's forehead again.

Jian Yixi didn't answer her, watching the car drive away, she turned her head anxiously and was about to open the door.

"No, I have to go home to get something, and I haven't picked it up yet."

"Take what?"

Jian Yixi barely opened her smoldering eyes, and said: "My sister's mobile phone, she forgot at home, my mother asked me to come back to get it, otherwise she would be bored in the hospital."

"Hospitalized? Who is hospitalized?"

"My sister."

"What happened to Jane Yihu?"

"She..." Jian Yixi lowered her head, clutching the hem of her skirt helplessly, "I didn't expect to push her to this point, I really... really didn't expect..."

An Mu's beautiful eyes were half closed, and she leaned back on the back of the chair. She reached out to put Jian Yixi on her shoulder, and stroked her head soothingly. The hair passing through her fingers seemed to be stained with the hot temperature.

"She's out of her wits, and she did it on purpose."

Jian Yixi struggled to raise her head and looked at her, "No, you don't know her..."

"I know, she committed suicide, right?"

Jian Yixi froze, slowly lowered her head, and leaned against An Mu weakly, her hot breath brushed against An Mu's earphones, making An Mu a little irritable.

"It's not your fault, you don't have to blame yourself, she didn't really commit suicide, she just pretended."

"But her wrists are bleeding."

"It will bleed if you scratch the skin just a little bit, it's nothing at all, what did the doctor say?"

"The doctor said...the arteries were not injured, and she was fine, but she was stimulated and emotionally agitated, and she refused to go home no matter what, so my mother hospitalized her."

An Mu said indifferently: "If I'm guessing right, she must have taken a lot of bloody photos, and she asked you to take the phone because she wanted to take pictures of the tragedy in the hospital. It's good for posting sympathy on the Internet, and it can also scare your parents by the way."

"cell phone……"

Jian Yixi was in a daze from the fever, and when she heard her mentioning the phone, she suddenly remembered again.

"No, I have to go home to get my mobile phone, my mother asked me to send it over..."

An Mu was a little angry. He frowned and held her who was struggling to get up, and hugged her shoulders tightly.

"Don't move! If you move again, I will be angry!"

"Look at what you've been burnt to? What else do you care about your phone?"

"Burn?" Jian Yixi raised her hand and touched her face, "I said why is it so uncomfortable."

An Mu didn't want to admit that he was such a stupid idiot.

An Mu ignored her.

Jian Yixi raised her head in a daze, and her hot forehead rubbed against her chin, causing her to retreat to the side subconsciously.

"How do you know I have a fever?"

Jian Yixi was laughing, weakly and without dimples, she looked pitiful and a little silly.

An Mu gave her an angry look.

——How old are you, you can't even take care of yourself.

"You've burned like this, and I'm not blind, how could I not see it?"

"But my parents didn't... didn't see it."

Jian Yixi was still smiling, but her eye circles were even redder. She couldn't hold back and quickly lowered her head. A drop of tear rolled down on An Mu's dark blue jeans, and disappeared into the rough texture in the blink of an eye, leaving behind a dark stain. Watermark.

An Mu's heart suddenly stabbed.

How could she have a fever without knowing it?

She's not really stupid.

But in that situation, who would care about her?Even if she said that she had a fever, her parents would only treat her as a mess, and even think she did it on purpose.

She refrained from saying anything, not only because she didn't want to cause trouble, but also because she humbly hoped that her parents would pay attention to her and care about her.

But obviously, no one noticed, or maybe noticed, too lazy to ask.

An Mu hugged Jian Yixi's shoulders, his hands tightened again and again, suddenly he didn't know what to say, and after a long time he said: "Call me immediately if you have something to say, why are you so disobedient?"

Jian Yixi lowered her head and rested her shoulders, her breath trembled a few times before she spoke with a sob: "Why are you calling?"

"Take you to the hospital."

"Why are you going to the hospital?"

"see a doctor."

"Should I still need an injection?"

"Maybe."

"But I'm afraid of pain..."

An Mu lowered her eyes to look at Jian Yixi, she couldn't see her face from this angle, she could only see her stamen-like curled long eyelashes laid out, facing the flashing street scene outside the window, a little crystal light flashed from time to time micromans.

——Is she... acting like a baby?

An Mu suddenly remembered that Jian Yixi raised his hand in the cave and cried out for pain.

No, it's not coquettish, it's just a coincidence, she has never been coquettish, and she has never acted coquettishly with anyone.

But it is easy to be vulnerable when you are sick, and it is normal to say a few words that are not like yourself.

"Then... I'll ask the nurse to be gentle."

Jian Yixi seemed to laugh, choked with sobs.

"But... no matter how light it is, you have to stick the needle in, and it still hurts..."

An Mu, who couldn't act like a baby and had never been acted like a baby, was at a loss for words for the first time since his rebirth.

"Then...then what do you say?"

"Will you blow me off...?"

An Mu remembered that when she was a child, she was afraid of injections, and her stepmother would coax her and fly away after blowing the pain. She couldn't help feeling a little pity for her 16-year-old self.

"Okay, I will give you injections in the future."