Dousha Bao

Liu Heng called Liu Yi, but couldn't get through. He called the company. The secretary who was on duty that day said that the president had something to do and didn't come to the company today.

After Liu Heng finished picking Dou Sha, he received a call from Lu Hengda, and drove towards Liu Yi's house with Dou Sha. Liu Heng vaguely felt that this incident had hit Liu Yi very hard.

The absolute bachelor finally changed his mind about wanting to have a child, and made all the preparations, but in the end he was unable to conceive because of sperm motility problems.

Liu Heng was driving in front, and Dou Sha was sitting in the back parking space, leaned over and asked cautiously, "What's wrong, Uncle?"

Liu Heng looked at Dou Sha in the rearview mirror, thought for a while and said, "Uncle originally wanted to give Dou Sha a younger brother and sister, but due to some reasons, he couldn't."

Dou Sha felt the seriousness and helplessness in Liu Heng's tone, and sat in the back without saying a word. After a long time, when Liu Heng's car was approaching Liu Yi's community, Dou Sha frowned and said, "Then uncle is very sad."

Liu Heng said: "It's very sad."

Liu Heng pressed the password to enter the door. When he opened the door, he found that the crystal chandelier in the hall was on, and a few men's coats were thrown on the sofa. The floor heating and air conditioner in the room were not turned on.

Dou Sha huddled under the down jacket, revealing two big eyes looking inward, trotting across the sofa into Liu Yi's room.

Liu Heng stood in the hall and glanced around, he felt a sense of loneliness, Liu Yi's smell, as if there was no one else living in this house except Liu Yi.

Dou Sha patted Liu Yi's door, then carefully opened the door.

The room was very dark, the curtains were drawn, and the lights were not turned on. A strong and pungent smell of tobacco permeated every corner of the room. Dou Sha paused at the door for two seconds. After adapting to the darkness, he finally saw the bed. A figure sits on the head.

Dou Sha yelled, "Uncle." She ran towards the bed.

Liu Heng just walked to the door and saw Liu Yi lying on the head of the bed without moving or making a sound.

"Don't turn on the light!" Liu Yi's voice was a little hoarse, and that was all he said.

Liu Heng paused and withdrew his hand that was going to turn on the light. He knew that Liu Yi didn't need anyone to comfort him at this time. No big man likes to tear his own wounds for others.

Liu Heng didn't go in, he closed the door and left Dou Sha behind.

Liu Yi was lying on the edge of the bed, and there was a pack of emptied cigarette cases scattered on the bedside table. Ever since he heard the news, Liu Yi had been smoking in the room alone. He was sober and knew how much he had smoked. I know what time it is, and I even know that I haven't had a drink or a meal.

Liu Yi and Liu Heng are very similar. They come from the same family, received the same education system, and have a very similar working atmosphere after they grow up. They are used to control and like to arrange their lives within the plan.

Just like this surrogacy, Liu Yi has learned Liu Heng's lesson. Except for the confidentiality work, he is almost responsible for everything else by himself. All the preparations are done and the money is ready. Information within your control.

—he cannot give birth! !

The doctor at the surrogacy agency explained a lot to Liu Yi on the phone, why she couldn't have a baby, what are the key points, what to do if she really wants to have a baby, what is the probability, and what kind of psychological preparations do you need to make.Liu Yi held his phone and stood listening for a long time, but he didn't hear anything. There was only one sentence lingering in his mind... can't be born.

What does it mean to be unable to give birth?That means he won't have kids!No matter how much money you spend to find the best surrogate, you can't give birth! ! !

Liu Yi used to be an absolute bachelor, a lifelong old virgin. Some of his views were related to his experience of studying abroad in his early years. He finally changed his views and wanted to have a family of his own. However, his physical condition determined that he would never be able to. have children of their own.His expectations are shattered, his hopes are shattered, he will not have children, and he will probably spend his whole life alone.

It was like falling into a cliff from a high altitude, he had never felt such a feeling in his life, sad and even desperate.

Dou Sha walked to the bed, tried to open her eyes wide in the dark and groped towards Liu Yi. When she came to Liu Yi, she finally managed to see Liu Yi's outline clearly, and called out obediently: "Uncle."

Liu Yi's throat was very dry, and his Adam's apple moved up and down before he said, "Dousha is out of school?"

Dousha put her little hand on the edge of the bed, touched it upwards, and touched Liu Yi's hand: "Uncle smokes a lot."

Liu Yi: "Well, uncle won't smoke so much next time."

Dou Sha didn't know what to say for a while, although he could feel that Uncle was very sad, and Uncle smoked a lot, but he didn't quite understand why Uncle couldn't have children, Da Chengzi and Dad could give birth to Dou Sha, why Uncle Can't?The uncle loves him so much. When Liu Heng was abroad when he was a child, Liu Yi hugged him and coaxed him. Why can't the uncle have children? !

unfair! !

Dou Sha didn't have much understanding of the word "unfair" before. This is the first time that Dou Sha is definitely very unfair and angry. She feels sad for Liu Yi and for her uncle.

"Is uncle crying?" Dou Sha's voice was also low.

"No." Liu Yi reached out and touched the child's head.

"Papa said uncle can't have children, is that true?"

Liu Yi put his hand on Dousha's head and pressed it gently. It took a long time this time before Liu Yi nodded and said, "It's true!" He said this as if he was sighing, and he didn't know he was answering Dousha's question. , still consoling myself.

It's true, it's all true.

Dou Sha felt more and more uncomfortable, and the child's emotions came suddenly, like an erupting volcano or noisy ocean waves, all of a sudden, and the onslaught was violent.

The room was dark, and Dousha's small hand held Liu Yi's big hand, feeling the warmth of Liu Yi's palm.Liu Yi was dressed very lightly. Sitting on the cold bed in the room, he wore only a shirt and suit pants, but his palms were still warm. Dou Sha was wearing a thick down jacket, and his little hands were indeed cold.

Liu Yi grabbed Dou Sha's little hand with his backhand and pinched it in the palm of his hand. Dou Sha asked in the dark, "Why can't you give birth? Why not? Why can other people but uncle not?"

Dou Sha asked three whys in a row, every word in Liu Yi's heart, yes, why, he also wanted to know why?But what if you know?

Dou Sha asked very wronged, as if the pain in Liu Yi's heart was transmitted to Dou Sha's heart along the palm of his hand.

Liu Yi held Dou Sha's little hand, and slowly the two of them warmed up. Liu Yi suddenly felt a little real, as if his soul had just recovered after being drained. He sat up, pulled Dou Sha into his arms, and Coaxing Dou Sha like he did when he was a child, he patted Dou Sha on the back and said, "It's okay, uncle still has Dou Sha."

Dou Sha pursed her lips and buried her face in Liu Yi's arms. With the other hand, she grabbed the clothes on Liu Yi's chest and said in a muffled voice, "Uncle will have children in the future! There will definitely be!!"

Liu Yi hugged Dou Sha and hugged the child firmly in his arms. In the darkness, Liu Yi's face was extremely blurred, and those pool-like eyes flickered for a moment, and finally returned to silence, just like his heart.

After Liu Heng left with the bean paste, Liu Yi turned on the air conditioner at home, went to the bathroom to take a shower and change clothes, and washed away the smell of tobacco all over his body.

Liu Yi came out after a change of clothes, a sweater over his shirt, but he was barefoot and without shoes.

He pushed open the door of a room and stood there looking at it for a long time.

The room is a baby room that was just furnished not long ago. The walls are pink mixed with light blue. The floor is covered with a thick layer of cushions. Two cribs are placed next to the floor-to-ceiling windows. There are many cabinets on the walls of the room. There are countless toys from 0 to 3 years old, as well as diapers, bottles, pacifiers, children's clothes and shoes...

This room was arranged by Liu Yi himself, and it took Liu Yi a lot of effort. Sometimes Liu Yi came back late from overtime, and he would stay in this baby room for a long time. He also spent most of his weekends in this baby room. ... At that time, he often thought of Dou Sha, how pitiful and cute Dou Sha was when Liu Heng was not around when he was very young, and when he closed his eyes and lay on the bed every night, he even wondered whether his child would have Dou Sha in the future pretty……

He thought a lot, and even asked the professionals of the surrogacy agency. He thought that Liu Heng could do well and he should be able to do it. He did a lot of thinking, but in the end, everything was empty...

Liu Yi took a deep breath, finally lowered his eyes and did not look into the room again. He slowly closed the door, took out the key in his hand, and locked the door completely.

Liu Yi sat back in the study, checked his mailbox and logged into the company's internal system to read documents. He was a little short-sighted and would wear glasses when working.

At this moment, Liu Heng was facing the computer with his glasses on. The lights in the study were not turned on, only the cold light from the computer screen shone on Liu Heng's face, reflecting his stern face.

It seems that he has always been such a serious and expressionless person, and his heart is also firm and cold. He has never been weak and helpless, let alone sad.

Many years later, only Dou Sha remembers that when he was a child, his uncle was also sad about something. He locked himself in a dark room and licked the wound alone.

He hugged himself and said, "It's okay, Uncle has no children, and Dou Sha will be Uncle's children from now on."

After Dousha grew up, he felt extremely lucky. He had the love of Big Chengzi and Liu Heng, the care of his grandparents, the love of family and friends, and even Liu Yi escorted him all the way.