Do not love me

She didn't close her eyes all night, she was tired but kept her eyes open, afraid of missing any sign of her waking up.It was finally quiet, and now, finally, it was just the two of them.Tezuka also finally put down his disguise mask, looking at her face with eyes full of affection.

Those pale fingers were still tightly held in his hands.It's cold, even if they hold each other tightly, it's still cold.

He tightened the corners of his eyes again, focusing on lifting the eyelids that were already tired and wanted to close.

He looked at the disfigured face more than once as if to confirm.It's just that every time I look at that face, it always looks like that.

He closed his eyes tightly, the eyes that could shine into his heart.I didn't realize it was so beautiful before, but I'm used to it.No matter what, I can't quit.

wake up.He knew that Qiangami Weiai would definitely wake up.right?Wouldn't he abandon him who was chasing after those vain family reputations?You will not give in to God just because you are under these pressures.Yes, it's all because God was too harsh and surly to her.

He just begged that this time, she would not be so blindly obedient to God's ruthlessness.

Eyelids lowered, really tired.I really want to close my eyes and fall asleep like her, maybe I can meet her in my dream.That way, even if he won't wake up, he won't be afraid anymore.

Just as I thought, I dreamed of meeting differently.Tezuka took her cold hand and cupped his face with the palm facing inward.I don't know who is warming to whom?In short, warm up two people.He gently closed his brown eyes, and suddenly the whole room was lifeless, as if he had really fallen asleep.

The golden sunlight sprinkled down little by little, accumulated little by little, and finally scattered all the dye on the two people whose fingers and palms were intertwined.

I didn't react for a while, and I don't know if it was because I was too tired to bear the glare of the sun after not sleeping all night, or because I stood at the door for too long and my legs were already numb?It actually made Atobe retreat several steps hastily.

Maybe not, those reasons...the reason why Atobe almost fell down and couldn't stand still may not be...

That kind of Tezuka... the still paralyzed face, under the faint sunlight, is so soft that it becomes a person with unfamiliar facial lines, the person with eyes full of affection, the person who is full of invisibility but incomparable tenderness is really the one he knows Tezuka Kunimitsu?

Heh... He is very sure that his eyes are not too dazzled to see clearly.

So, now is finally enough reason to fully explain Atobe's surprise, right?So, he panicked.

I'm late.

Woke up too late.

Is there no chance?

In such a scene, even if it is obvious that her deceased child belongs to another person, he can't get involved.Those who step in are not in their turn.How could he have the heart to step in?Then the self who knew the ending, moths flew into the flame and burned himself, leaving an incurable wound and then patted his ass and left?

Slowly raise the corners of your lips.

How can such an unglamorous approach be suitable for a gorgeous self?

Why bother?Atobe Keigo, in fact, you already know about it, right?Obviously knowing that turning the car around and choosing this direction would be such a process, or maybe this is the result.Why bother to pretend to be magnanimous, pretending to be injured, when no one will give you a fatal blow.

After the hypocrisy is over, you will be injured, turn around sadly and leave, and then sincerely bless them?

No, he's not so Madonna.

He won't turn around and leave.

Even though he was left with an incurable wound, he didn't pat his butt and leave.

Hehe, I'm really sick.Moreover, he was so sick that he didn't know his anger and worry, and his sourness was just because of the love he never bothered to touch, the kind of feeling that could be moved in just a moment.He even had to rely on himself to witness Tezuka's carefully foolish appearance before he woke up.

It's okay to be late.It's okay to be late.It's good to know that you are in love.Being so clear is at least better than being ignorant before.

Although, the heart hurts a little bit more, and it is a little bit more broken.

However, this level, he can accept.

Reach out, not knock.Just hold on to a piece of driftwood to support his heavy body and not let himself fall.I have no strength anymore, I haven't eaten or rested all day.Everyone is tired, right?

He was inexplicably envious and jealous of Tezuka's good spirit.

Yes, just jealous of those good spirits.Nothing else.It's not jealousy, he can hold her hand so easily and naturally to keep her warm.

There is no silver 300 taels here.

Laughing, I have such nerves.Because, that woman who can't see herself all the time.

Suddenly remembered the woman who appeared in Kanagawa that time.

Actually, that person is her, right?It's just that such a familiar figure with unfamiliar constraints made him dare not admit it.

Heh, she could clearly see her own, but she never noticed it.

Let go of the hand holding the wooden door tightly, turn around, and walk in the other direction.It's not leaving, I just want to find a place where I'm not so tired to rest...

Chen Guang finally left no room for all the images, covering the entire ward, and the position occupied by the gorgeous young man just now.

The corner of the wooden door was refracted by the morning light to reveal a bright white light spot, which was clear but blurry.From a distance, I only saw a halo, but when I got closer, I realized that it was just a small piece of broken nail.

The edge of such a small piece of white nail is mixed with traces of red.If you are careful, you will definitely find that it is just a blood stain that has dried up.

Fool, doesn't it hurt?

Looking at the middle finger with the broken nail, Atobe frowned deeply and asked himself.

Can't help but turn around, looking at the door that was not closed.

Of course it will hurt.

Gritting his teeth secretly, he finally resisted the strong desire to look back, as if he was afraid that he would regret it even if he hesitated for a second, he withdrew his eyes, clenched his fists, stepped up his steps, and walked into a room with a half-hidden door around the corner. s room.

The dark office was not illuminated by a single ray of sunlight, and it was dark and silent.It was quiet, and the beating of the heart calmed down.Closing the door behind him, Atobu sat down on the sofa.It doesn't matter whether the master in this empty office is there or not.

The moment he raised his head, he swallowed a certain bitterness.

As for what it is, Atobe doesn't want to know.

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Unlike the gloom of the past, today's sunshine seems particularly bright and dazzling.Maybe it's been too long since I felt such warmth, the person on the hospital bed trembled their eyelashes slightly under the afterglow.Then, as expected, he slowly opened his eyes.

However, those beautiful pupils in the past have changed, and it is not clear what is different.Just a little sluggish.

She quietly looked at the white ceiling refracted by the sunlight, obviously there was nothing, but she looked at it very seriously, as if, there was her most precious thing in that position.

There is warmth in the palm of the right hand.Finally, he turned his eyes and looked towards that warm place.The sleeping side face is so familiar yet strange, as if the person you have loved for thousands of years suddenly breaks into your dreams again.

The heat told her that it was not a dream, that he really existed, but what does it matter?

Now, what if it shows up?

Unable to free the tightly held hand, Qiangami Weiai raised the other unbound hand, little by little, as if confirming something, and attached it to the lower abdomen where there was hope.

Flat stomach, and a little pain.

That position... nothing left.

The corners of his mouth twitched, and his eyebrows were wetted by something.Finally unable to support such passionate shaking, he had to slowly close his eyes.

In an instant, the eye sockets that were only slightly moist had spread, and the crystals blurred the entire cheek.

Is it tears?Qian Shangwei suddenly became a little unclear.Because she couldn't even cry... What kind of tears are tears without crying?

Suddenly I didn't know what to do, I froze on the spot, unable to cry, I had to let the salty liquid keep falling, wet the pillow towel, and wet the messy hair.

"Wei...are you awake?"

With uncertainty and painful shock, Tezuka looked at the teary face and murmured.Originally, I just wanted to be quiet, as if I didn't notice her tearful face.However, he couldn't stand her being so tolerant that she couldn't even pronounce a simple single syllable.It hurts even more to see it like that.As if, in the next second, he was going to lose her.

Such a calm, extremely painful but unchanged face.It broke his heart more than crying.

The silent woman didn't answer or show any expression.Let the tears flow down, like Liuli whose bondage has been broken, and can't stop.

"Don't..." Don't look like this...

Tezuka didn't know what to say, he could only reach out his hand clumsily, wiping away his tears.Confused, panicked... at a loss.

I can't open my mouth, I can't say a word, I can't even say a word of complaint.What else can she do?This is the only way to go, I can only shed tears and accuse God of being surly.

God, did you do it on purpose?To make her so miserable on purpose...and even to lose her only hope of living, so...what to do?Do you want her to live rather than die?You can only be willing to be tortured alive, right?She has obviously compromised and let her be disposed of.But why, don't you even want her to die?

Can you tell her, what unforgivable mistake did she make?What crime did you do?

She was speechless, she didn't even have the strength to refute if she complained loudly.

Body, mind, everything is so tired... so tired, it is rare to say a word to God who is always against me.

"I'm sorry...I'm sorry...it's my fault..." He shouldn't be so decisive, he shouldn't have left her side for half a step, and he shouldn't have signed the contract to kill her child...everything It's all his fault.Maybe he really is selfish.As long as she can live and survive well, the child... really doesn't matter.

For Tezuka, the most precious thing is her.

His apology, his self-blame, but he couldn't hear a word.All she knew was that the place in the palm of her hand was vacant, and the place in her heart was also vacant.There is nothing left, even the complaints and grievances that have accumulated in the past are all gone.

Empty...

Tighten your palms tightly, but you can't catch a trace... Even if you cry loudly and complain about others, there is no way to keep it... It's still gone, I'm worried, I don't know how many days... Just like that... Lost so easily .

Can she still live?

There is no reason to live anymore...

However, Tezuka has never been the reason for her to survive.