extinguish the stars

"Cold—"

Gu Qinghan was dreaming vaguely, returning to the day when Yan Jin gave birth again.

He half-kneeled on the ground and held Yan Jin's cold hand, watching the blood under her body seep through the snow-white sheets, and the whole space was filled with a thick smell of blood.

"I'm sorry, I can't hold it anymore." The heart rate kept dropping on the screen of the instrument.Yan Jin looked at him weakly, her face and lips were pale, she let out a short breath, tears fell from the corners of her eyes.

Gu Qinghan suddenly thought of the flowers on the balcony of Yan's house that withered after Yan Jin's mother died.

He clenched Yan Jin's hand tightly, his throat was blocked and he couldn't utter a single syllable, the nerves all over his body seemed to be condensed with tiny sharp ice crystals, and he felt cold and painful even when he breathed.

"My child's name is Niannian." The light in Yan Jin's eyes gradually faded, "I really want to grow up with him..." She couldn't even hug her baby properly.

Until this moment, she never mentioned the past that made her paranoid to the point of giving her life, and just looked at the mid-air with distracted eyes.

She finally let out a long sigh and finally closed her eyes.

All the flowers that Yan Jin's mother took care of are all withered.

"..." Gu Qinghan's heart seemed to be bound by something for a long time, and finally it was strangled into flesh and blood. In an instant, it burst into sharp pain, and the pain made him breathless and his back went numb.

The little soft baby was finally handed into his arms, so delicate and weak, as if it would hurt even the slightest touch.The baby clenched its soft and tender fists in his arms and cried loudly, but he was helpless and wept silently.

Everyone in this world seems to have a home, a lamp and close people waiting for them.He used to have them too, but after he died, they all separated.Now there are only him and Gu Nian, who have nothing to lose and are alone and helpless, and they depend on each other for life from now on in the wasteland-like world.Just thinking about it like this makes me feel that the future is elusive and full of sourness and pain.

Jiang Qi was accompanying Gu Nian to browse the food ordering app to see what to have for lunch, but his mind and attention never left Gu Qinghan, so whenever there was a sound from the hospital bed, he immediately noticed it.

Asking the children to sit obediently at the same place and choose the meal, he hurried to Gu Qinghan's side by himself.

Gu Qinghan, who had been sleeping all this time, was short of breath at this moment, his wet eyelashes trembled violently, and cried silently in his sleep until his eye circles were red.

Jiang Qi knew that he was having a nightmare, so he held his face lightly, called Gu Qinghan's name in a low voice, kissed the center of his brow, and wanted to give him as much sense of security as possible.

Gu Qinghan fumbled for his hand in confusion, "Jiang Qi...what should I do..." He choked up.

He was still in the dream, full of helplessness and fear.It was as if he had returned to four years ago, when everyone around him left him, and he, a person who couldn't even take care of himself, had to take care of everything in a new life from now on.

"There's me, Qinghan, wake up..." Jiang Qi was heartbroken, and he softly comforted him, "I'm here, don't worry."

Gu Qinghan finally woke up in his arms, water vapor condensed on his long eyelashes, his reddish and moist eyes stared at Jiang Qi's blurred face for a long time in a daze, only then did he realize that the old dream was deep, today and night.

"..." As soon as he opened his mouth, there was a sob. Looking at Jiang Qi, he felt full of grievances. The uneasiness and hardships of the past four years surged, and they were about to overwhelm him.He couldn't think more, watching Jiang Qi with tears streaming down his face.

"Don't be afraid, Qinghan, don't be afraid..." Jiang Qi's heart ached.

"Stupid," he gently wiped away Gu Qinghan's tears, "Why are you crying like a child scared by a nightmare."

His low and gentle voice gradually eased Gu Qinghan's terrified heart.

"Dad, what's the matter with you?"

No one noticed when Gu Nian came running over. The kid was pulling Jiang Qi's clothes, tiptoeing his face up, his little brows were furrowed, and he asked his tearful father worriedly, "Do you hurt me?" Ah..." He continued to ask, and he was about to cry.

"...It doesn't hurt...I don't hurt..." Gu Qinghan's thoughts were not completely clear, but he subconsciously comforted Gu Nian in the direction of the voice, "Don't be afraid of Nian Nian, Dad doesn't hurt."

Jiang Qi leaned over to pick up the child and put him on the edge of the bed, seeing that his bright and clear eyes had already been filled with two tears, "Don't worry, baby, Dad is having a nightmare, can you give Dad a kiss?"

Gu Nian nodded, wiped away tears with the back of his hand, leaned over and kissed Gu Qinghan's face, "Father, don't get sick, I'm so sad." He whispered beside Gu Qinghan, looking at him He looked pitiful.

Jiang Qi finally coaxed the crying friends and children, his heart was sweet and sour.

"Take Niannian out for something to eat." Gu Qinghan felt a little tired after the ups and downs, and leaned on the pillow listlessly, "He'll be in a bad mood if he stays in the hospital all the time."

Jiang Qi thought for a moment and felt that his last sentence made sense, but he was still worried that Gu Qinghan was here alone.

"I'm fine, I always feel sleepy, sleep a little longer, if I don't feel well, I'll call Ning Ze back." Knowing what Jiang Qi was worried about, Gu Qinghan said, "You also go out for a walk and get some fresh air. "He squeezed Jiang Qi's palm, and smiled in the direction of his face, a tired and beautiful smile.

"Okay." Jiang Qi quickly kissed the kid on the cheek while he wasn't looking.Now he seems to be suffering from skin thirst for Gu Qinghan, he wants to kiss him and hug him every moment, and feels at ease only when he feels Gu Qinghan's body temperature.

"It's a pity that you can't eat now." Jiang Qi lowered his head and rubbed the tip of his nose, "When you get better, what do you want to eat?"

Gu Qinghan actually felt sick to his stomach when he thought of the word "food", but he still thought about it and said, "I just want to eat something sweet."

Jiang Qi laughed softly, "I feel more and more like a child, you love to cry and eat sweets."

Gu Qinghan also smiled, "Go."

After dawdling for a while, Jiang Qi went out with the bewildered Gu Nian in his arms.Gu Qinghan frowned and closed his eyes. His gastric tube hadn't been withdrawn yet, and he felt a strong foreign body sensation from his nasal cavity to his chest cavity, which was astringent and painful, making him dizzy and nauseous.

He was in a daze when the door was opened from the outside again.

"Why are you back again?" Gu Qinghan asked.

The vague figure walked towards him silently, with heavy and dull steps.

Not Jiang period.

"Who is it?" Gu Qinghan asked while holding back his dizziness.

"It's me, Jiang He."