extinguish the stars

When I got home, the floor lamp in the living room was on, emitting a soft light.Gu Qinghan sat in the entrance to change his shoes, and felt dizzy when he bowed his head. Over the years, his body has deteriorated more and more.

"Cold, uncomfortable?"

Gu Qinghan slowly opened his eyes, and saw that Aunt Qiao was invited by him to take care of his daily life. Today he was on night shift, so Aunt Qiao stayed overnight as usual.

"You haven't slept yet?" Gu Qinghan raised his head, still a little dizzy.Aunt Qiao helped him to sit on the sofa. Seeing his pale face and sweating coldly, she made him a glass of sugar water.

"Is Nian Nian good today?" Gu Qinghan finally had some strength after taking a few mouthfuls of warm sugar water.

"Pretty good."

Gu Qinghan stood up and went to the bedroom. On the big warm bed, the child was lying in the middle, hugging his favorite teddy bear, breathing heavily, already fast asleep.

When he was busy, he often turned day and night, so he could only ask Aunt Qiao to pick up the children to take care of the food when he was not free. When he was on night shift, he asked Aunt Qiao to stay overnight and take care of the children to sleep.

Gu Qinghan gently put Gu Nian's soft little hands into the quilt, and kissed his forehead lightly as usual.

Obviously his body was extremely tired, but his consciousness was still clear, Gu Qinghan opened his eyes in the dark, he suddenly wondered if tonight was a dream, if he really met Jiang Qi.It's just that the feeling of dizziness became more and more serious in the end, and Gu Qinghan didn't know whether he had fallen asleep or passed out.

He had a dream, dreaming of many things in the past like a horse on a horse watching flowers - 17-year-old Jiang Qi put gardenias in his table hole, 20-year-old Jiang Qi waited for him with a small cake after class, and also dreamed of 23 The year-old Jiang Qi was lying unconscious in the intensive care unit covered in blood.This was the scariest part of the dream, even after so many years, it still haunted him.Gu Qinghan struggled to wake up, but as always he couldn't escape from the nightmare.

The next day, before Gu Qinghan woke up, he felt something stuck in the quilt, he habitually hugged Xiaotuanzi sideways, and when he opened his eyes, it was Gu Nian looking at him with two big eyes blinking.

"Baby is awake..." Gu Qinghan's voice was very low just after waking up, he still felt very tired, so he closed his eyes to relieve dizziness.

"Dad..." Gu Nian stretched out two soft little hands to hug his face, the palms were warm, "Dad, eat."

Gu Qinghan smiled gently, "Alright, Niannian is hungry, right?"

The little man nodded.

Aunt Qiao just came in at this time, seeing that Gu Qinghan had been woken up by Gu Nian, she just smiled dotingly, "I want you to sleep more, but the little guy woke you up."

Gu Qinghan sat up propped up, looking tired, "It's okay, it's getting late."

Aunt Qiao made breakfast and left.When Gu Qinghan was washing up, the follower, Gu Nian, was holding his bear eyes and standing beside him eagerly looking up.

There was a little blood on the toothbrush, which was dissolved into a light pink by water.Gu Qinghan took a look and washed it off, his skin was cold and white in the mirror.

After tidying up, he picked up Gu Nian and put it in the baby chair, and prepared the milk powder with warm water.The three-and-a-half-year-old child is very well-behaved. He took the bottle and drank it by himself.Aunt Qiao made steamed eggs, red dates and yam porridge and a stack of small flower rolls were warmed in the rice cooker, all of which were food for the stomach.

It's just that Gu Qinghan didn't have much appetite, he was too busy in the hospital these days, his irregular diet caused severe gastric ulcer attacks, and he didn't even want to eat when he was in pain.But Gu Nian has a good appetite. He drank half a bottle of milk and ate steamed eggs with his favorite spoon.

"Isn't dad going to work?" Gu Nian raised his head and asked while he was working hard.

Gu Qinghan wiped off the residue from the corners of his mouth with a tissue, "Well, stay home with Niannian today."

"yeah!"

Gu Qinghan looked out the window, on the first day of the lunar new year, the sky was overcast, as if it was about to snow.

In the hospital, Lin Chen was a little bit guilty.He doesn't fully understand what kind of person Jiang Qi is, but he understands what kind of person Jiang Qi is, so it seems to him that Jiang Qi's company with him from last night to now is a bit abnormal.

"Brother, do you want to rest for a while?" Lin Chen asked tentatively, "I haven't slept all night."

Jiang Qi seemed to be in good condition, but he was a little blue now, "No need, I'll go get some breakfast."

The doctors and nurses were already busy, Jiang Qi looked from near to far, but did not find Gu Qinghan's figure, guessing that he is off duty today.

Jiang Qi, who went to buy breakfast, never came back. Lin Chen only received a message from him saying that the company has cooperation to discuss today, and someone will take care of him later.Lin Chen thought, this is normal.

He has known Jiang Qi for two years, and he has long been used to Jiang Qi's temperament when he came to China from abroad, how hot and cold he is to him.

It was snowing outside after ten o'clock, and it was falling more and more.For three-and-a-half-year-old children, snowing is still a very novel thing. Gu Nian didn't watch cartoons, and just lay on the glass and stared wide-eyed.

In the kitchen, Gu Qinghan peeled and cut kiwis and oranges into small pieces and brought them out to him, "Dad, can we go out to play?" Gu Nian asked seriously while eating.

Gu Qinghan looked at it, a little hesitant.

"Please, Dad~~" Gu Nian hugged his arm coquettishly, "Are you okay?"

Gu Qinghan smiled helplessly, "But the snow is too heavy now, why don't you go out when it gets smaller?"

There are not many ingredients in the refrigerator, and it is time to go to the supermarket to buy them.Gu Qinghan himself can do it anyway, but Gu Nian is still a delicate child, no matter what, he has to eat fresh fruits, vegetables and meat.

"Yeah, yum." Having received Gu Qinghan's promise, Gu Nian was obviously very happy, and nodded with a crooked smile.

When the snow stopped in the afternoon, Gu Qinghan wrapped Gu Nian tightly, his hat, scarf and gloves were all in place, and then he carried him downstairs.

The outside was covered in silver, and the kid was very happy. He let go of his hand and ran in the snow by himself.His romantic, innocent, and carefree appearance made Gu Qinghan gratified and somewhat envious.

He thought of the winter in the university many years ago, when the playground was covered with heavy snow, and many people had snowball fights inside.Jiang Qi also dragged him to fight in the crowd, covered in snow.Later, he found an empty corner, and Jiang Qi built him an ugly snowman. At night, when he came out of class, Jiang Qi waited outside the classroom with a small cake for him.He likes to eat sweets very much, but these years he has to take care of him, and he is worried that the children will follow his preference for sweets, so he doesn't eat much.

As soon as Jiang Qi came back, those little things deep in his memory became clearer and clearer.

In the dead of night, Gu Qinghan woke up sweating profusely.After suffering from the cold in the afternoon, his stomach began to writhe again, and there were strings of piercing pains.

He felt dizzy and didn't have the strength to get up, so he shrank his body and pressed his hands on the sore spot. The pain made him short of breath. He couldn't stand it anymore, so he reluctantly got out of bed, bent over to the living room, poured water and took two painkillers. .

The next day, the temperature was very low. On the way to the hospital, Gu Qinghan turned on the car's heater, but he still felt cold and uncomfortable in his stomach.He never had any appetite in the morning, but considering that he hardly ate yesterday, which might affect his work today, Gu Qinghan still parked the car and packed a cup of porridge at the entrance of the hospital.

When passing by the corridor yesterday, he was actually looking forward to it, but there were people coming and going in the corridor, except Jiang Qi.

"Doctor Gu, it's good if you come here. There are a series of rear-end collisions on the highway, and many injured people need first aid. The emergency department is already overwhelmed!" When he was lost in thought, a nurse stopped him.

Hearing this, Gu Qinghan hurriedly ran to the dressing room, hurriedly changed into a white coat, and went to take over the injured.