5t5 always grabs my hat

"The 'curse' of love?"

Bai Ye scoffed.

Of course, I don't believe this kind of nonsense, and I don't want to believe it.

Because Fran had already faded in her heart, and had already been kicked out of her field.In trying again and again, she has determined that no one in this world will always be by her side, and no one will truly love her.

"A person who hates you and tries to humiliate you will not light a fire in the fireplace for you when he leaves, nor will he carefully cover you with a blanket."

Bai Ye remembered these things, so it was clearly presented in front of him in this world, but she herself subconsciously ignored these details.Immersed in sadness and anger, she deleted the only warm memories she had left.

From then on, only the thirst for magic remained.

But for a person who can be called a "demon" because of her outstanding talent, there is no magic in the world that can stump her, and it is not impossible to gradually develop a will to die.

Because of turning into a cat, I can't see Bai Ye's expression, I can only taste one or two from her constantly wagging tail.

Obviously Gojo Satoru's words had a great impact on her.

"...But it can't explain why she saved the king and canceled the magic circle I set up on the border. Isn't it because she believed the rumors and thought that I became the evidence of an evil witch?"

Bai Ye is not an idiot.

She would think that Fran had betrayed her, and of course there were good reasons for that.

"Have you ever asked Fulan why she did this?" Gojo Gou stared straight at Bai Ye for a while, then leaned over to face her wet nose, and talked to her in his heart: "White Ye, what are you doing?" Scared. You were afraid that Fran would really abandon you, so you didn’t dare to ask, and you didn’t dare to read the letter she left you.”

"You have put in so much effort to survive—but is it the reason you want to live in the first place that you live like this?"

Bai Ye stepped back as if being hit by something.

"In the first place...the reason for wanting to live?"

She remembered something that had been hidden deep in her memory.

She hasn't thought about these things for a long time, because they were deleted when she was 15 years old.

In fact, there was no concept of life and death at the beginning, and the maid who took care of her always said that she was a child of a nobleman, and that she would inherit a lot of property and have power and status in the future.She thought that as long as she grows up, she can also have a father.

At that time, when adults saw her, they would often show uncomfortable eyes to her.

It was only later that I learned that it was called "hate".

Children's malice is more intuitive, and they are less fearful than adults. They will speak ill of her and use violence.

"I don't even know what a magic item is" "Orphan" "Demon" "Catastrophe"

is a phrase they often use.

At first, she didn't understand anything, thinking that if she cut her hair off, everyone would tell her what she wanted to know.

As everyone knows, this is just exposing his weakness.

In exchange for the tyranny of others.

What was she thinking as she lay in the house, dying?

she was thinking—

"The maid who takes care of me," Bai Ye opened the conversation after a long silence, her eyes were flat and she fell into a certain emotion:

"She would curse my father every day, praying that he would not have children. So that in the near future, he would take me and her to that gorgeous castle. And she would get preferential treatment for taking care of me .”

"She gave me the best things she could, taught me the etiquette of aristocrats I don't know where I heard it, and told me the difference between me and ordinary people."

Similarly, in order to cultivate a "lady" who is not ashamed, the maid has very strict requirements on her.If she didn't do a little right, she would beat her up and say the most vicious curses in the world, and blame her gray hair and eyes for all the bad things in her.

Curse her existence, curse her mother, curse everyone who lived in that castle.

After venting, he would hug her and repeat her "great wish" over and over again.

Said that all this was prepared for the day when I went back.

"But she died before the day the castle picked her up." Bai Ye looked at Xing Xing, who was lying quietly on the ground, because she had not used magic to preserve it, and now she had turned into an ordinary stone, lifeless.

"The day I was injured, I thought... I can't die like a maid before I know what that magic item is."

She has to live no matter what, she still doesn't know what magic props they use, she hasn't gone to live in the castle as the maid said, won her father's acknowledgment, and she hasn't let him experience the life she lived.

After living alone for two years, she was taken back to the family and told that she would become a powerful witch and contribute to her father's power.

"After returning home, my father said that I will become a witch as quickly as possible."

She believed it was true, thinking that as long as she became a trainee witch, she would be respected and recognized by everyone.

At the age of 11, she passed the apprentice witch exam, and in exchange for a more invisible isolation.

"The talent of the devil".

My father also hated her long gray hair, and whenever he saw her loose, he would have to pull a few strands to relieve his anger.Just because she was laughed at outside and had a catastrophic daughter at home, she almost gouged her eyes out when she was drunk.

It is not what he described at all, as long as she becomes a "witch", everyone will like her.

Bai Ye had asked countless times, why her?

Just because her hair and eyes are gray, just because she was born on a snowy night, just because of a boring legend, did her talent, her appearance, everything about her become the original sin?

"No... I made an excuse for myself. It's because I didn't become a real witch. As long as I become a witch from an apprentice witch, the situation will change."

But no witch in that country is willing to accept her as a disciple.

In the end it was her father who found the mother who had abandoned her.

Hopefully she'll be able to look instead.

So at the age of 12, she met the Ash Witch for the first time.

They both look almost identical.

Same long gray hair, same gray eyes, same face.

But have a completely different life.

Her father admired her, respected her, and treated her tenderly. Ai Wu and Wu even had some warmth towards her.

As a witch, when she walked in that ancient and traditional country, no one dared to be rude to her.

"I was taken to another country by the Witch of Gray. There is no fanatical worship of gods in that place, nor does it hate gray. It's just... still no one is willing to be my teacher."

Willing is her haughty attitude and deeds of genius in her graduation exams.

"This kind of situation made me more sure of this at the time. Everything I suffered was because I was not a witch. As long as I have enough strength, traditions can be broken."

She has never talked about her past in front of anyone, and she tends to solve any difficulties by herself, and even uses the extreme method of deleting memories to pray for the courage to live. Let go of the past that has been chained around your neck since then.

Maybe it's because of turning into a beast.

Or maybe it was the same cat sitting next to her.

Gojo Satoru did not make any speeches.

At this time, Bai Ye doesn't need anyone to talk to her, she just wants to quietly confide the memories swallowed by herself one by one.

She may have a talent for magic that no one can match.

But in other respects it is too blunt and clumsy. When I was a child, I even simply thought: since what you hate is my hair, then I can just cut it off.

The Ash Witch didn't worry about this matter, and let the visits of Baiye's family hit the wall again and again.

When you get back, cook her a hot dinner and tell her that fate will take care of everything and there's no need to worry.

fate?

Arrange everything?

Was all her suffering given by fate?

With such doubts, Bai Ye found the Star Witch - Fran.

Fran agreed.

Accept her as a disciple.

As a teacher, she had already investigated her disciples clearly, and spent a month polishing her vaguely superior attitude.

Another test with a huge disparity in strength made her realize that she was just an ordinary person.

"Fran completely shattered my self-confidence in the first test. But what she said made me feel ashamed and unwilling, but at the same time I was vaguely relieved. Some people didn't take I see it as a monster, even with such a talent it’s normal——this feeling.”

From that moment on, she suddenly felt that she could let go.

There are still people in the world who see her without prejudice.

That is Teacher Fran.

"She gave me the courage to start traveling and the reason to continue to live. This world may not be so beautiful, maybe my previous life was a bit dark, but there will definitely be light in the future."

--but.

After becoming a witch, nothing changed.

Everyone fears her because of her title.

Bai Ye put her head on Gojo Satoru, and buried her cat face.

"Before I became a witch, I went back to my father. You helped me turn the snow into white. I thought... there would be a difference, but it didn't. He was afraid of my talent, but he also hated my failure Become a witch quickly."

"I personally ruined my father's life. Everything he had in the first half of his life disappeared. I can only pray for the mercy of those relatives to survive."

"—I am like this, how is it better than my parents who left me in the suburbs? In the end, what is the difference between me and them? This feeling makes me painful. No matter what I do or change, everyone Fear me, avoid me, hurt me..."

"When you want to act like a spoiled child, you can just hug her. You don't need to talk so much."

This sentence seemed to be still in my ears, Bai Ye, who had become a cat, chose to bury herself in this person (cat), absorbing that little bit of warmth.

"What is the meaning of my birth in this world, what is the meaning of my life?"

How else can cats be comforted directly with cats?

Gojo Satoru turned his head and licked the back of Baiye's neck again and again, to comfort him, and also to follow his instinct, first Baiye transformed back into a human form one step at a time.

He said to Bai Ye in his heart:

"So you escaped from your past, thinking that throwing away these so-called disgraces and imposing a false past on yourself is worthy of living?"

"Fran saw the reason why you did this, so she used her last ability to cast a curse on you."

"Because she knows that if you continue like this, sooner or later you will perish."

Bai Ye's body trembled slightly, she buried herself in the soft hair, and plunged herself into darkness.

It's as if something can be avoided in this way.

"What else can I do? What else can I do? I want to live..."

"I think there is nothing wrong with living? Why do you have to deprive me of the reason to live? Am I born in this world just to die!?... I don't want to live in this world anymore, no matter if I have memories , I still lost my memory..."

A trace of indifference flashed across the ice blue cat pupils.

The Bai Ye he knew didn't have such weakness, even the one who briefly turned back into a cat and had all the memories.

"How about giving up?"

Bai Ye replied hesitantly: "Give up, give up?"

"Yes, let go of such troublesome things and follow the true thoughts deep in your heart, or... simply throw away such deep and troublesome thoughts as death or life, as long as you throw them away, you will never be bothered again."

Bai Ye was obviously tempted.

"...Why give up?"

Hearing such an answer, Wujo Satoru bit the back of Baiye's neck quickly and indifferently.

Then her throat was hoarse: "Admit your weakness, Bai Ye."

"Meow--?"

"Yes, you can live." Gojo Satoru sat on the pile of clothes and held up the white leaves. He looked at the silver-gray long-haired cat shining in the moonlight, and said with a wide smile, "If you can't find The reason to live, then live for me, become my attachment and live in this world."

"for you……?"

Bai Ye tilted her head, her tail was erected obediently behind her, and her cat pupils were a little confused.

"That's right, live only for me. Let everyone else fade in your life, let these eyes only look at me, I will never betray you, I will never leave you, and the two of us will become one." One-"

"how?"

Gojo Satoru showed an extremely gentle expression, and he seduced the somewhat feline Shiraha in a low voice:

"If you feel that there is no reason for you to live in this world anymore, if you really feel that all the past is hatred, then stay by my side and live forever as a cat."

Anyway, you just want to live?

Don't care about your own memory, don't care about your important people, and don't care about yourself.

As long as it is alive, then be a cat and be attached to him forever.

"..."

"Meow-"

When the stars fall, there is no sound.

The gray cat turned into white leaves, the eyes are getting darker and darker.

Gojo Satoru patiently waited...waited...

Ushered in an unceremonious female voice:

"What do you think you are? Gojo Satoru."

The long silver-gray hair was softly draped over her shoulders, and Bai Ye's eyes were cold: "Abduct me? Do you want to die?"

The real white leaf, wake up.

A hint of surprise flashed in Gojo Satoru's eyes.

Then this emotion quickly disappeared, and he grinned and said "haha", "I'm just joking, isn't this to trick you out?"

He put his hand on Bai Ye's waist naturally, and winked at her ambiguously, "Although I don't mind... But, is the location not chosen well?"

When transforming from a cat back to a human, there is no clothes on the body.

Gojo Satoru sat with his legs wide open and bent his knees, and when Bai Ye turned back into a human from the air, it happened to fall into his arms.

"..."

The air was silent for a while.

Bai Ye spat out two words: "Dirty."

With a snap, Gojo Satoru's hand was opened, she stood up, summoned her wand and waved it, and the clothes and hat on her body were immediately put on neatly.

Gojo Satoru: "...You won't scold me as soon as you wake up, right? Isn't this situation force majeure?"

Aggrieved, he picked up his clothes and put them on.

Bai Ye glanced at him, noncommittal.

If she didn't wake up in time, I'm afraid her soul has been deceived by the defenseless.

"But... are you recovering your memory?"

Halfway through the clothes, Gojo Satoru suddenly asked.

Didn't he know there was such an effect?

Bai Ye nodded, "The domain ability of this super imaginary magic spirit has fully stimulated my memory, and the memory magic has no effect." Compared with the appearance when she had no memory, her eyes were a little more calm, "Just now I will let you off just this once. I will resolve the matter of the soul connection sooner or later, don’t try to devour me again, it’s not good for you, Gojo Satoru.”

Ah, it was discovered.

Gojo Satoru smiled and said, "If just now...you really agreed, I wouldn't kill you either."

Raising a cat that turned into a witch is actually not bad.

Bai Ye bent her lips.

She said: "What stupid things are you talking about? If I really promise you, there is no need for that kind of guy to live, just kill him."

It's because of this... that I couldn't bear to kill you.

Gojo Satoru opened his hands, smiled at Shirahiro and said:

"Long time no see, give me a hug?"

Seeing Gojo Satoru's performance, Bai Ye frowned slightly, "Are you acting like a spoiled child to me?"

Gojo Satoru shrugged, "Isn't it possible?"

Bai Ye narrowed her eyes slightly, as if she was examining it, and after at least half a minute, she reluctantly leaned down to give her a perfunctory hug.

As a result, he was directly pressed into his arms.

"Welcome back."

Pressing against Bai Ye's ear, Gojo Satoru said sincerely.

I didn't have time to say this sentence because I was too close.

Bai Ye was taken aback by these words, and at the same time she was stunned, a warm current rose up.

What does soul connection bring about?or something else?

She couldn't tell.

But at this moment, driven by this emotion, she slowly groped and hugged Wujo Wu's waist, and buried her face in his chest.

There was a soft "en".