Growth pain

At the end of the lunch break, the dazzling light in the sky finally dimmed, falling on the low leather sofa in the living room, faintly visible dust in the air.

Lu Shining had an uneasy sleep in his room. He thought he had only slept for ten minutes, and it was already past three o'clock in the afternoon when he picked up his phone in a daze.

He was startled, straightened his back, then bent down again, exhaled and pushed the door out.

Father Lu was sitting on the sofa watching TV, the white hair on his head was dyed golden by the sun, looking like freshly grown cotton.

Lu Shining stood in the aisle, and Lu's mother's voice came from behind him: "Are you awake? Go sit in the living room, what are you doing standing here?"

Lu Shining stepped aside, Mother Lu walked past him, took the remote control from Father Lu's hand, and changed the channel.

"Hey." The little old man said.

Mother Lu glanced at him, "What? I've been busy for a long time."

Father Lu kept silent.

"Should we have dinner at home tonight?" Mother Lu said.

Lu Shining walked over slowly, sat down on the other side of the table, and moved back deliberately so as not to block Lu's mother from watching TV.

"Um……"

In fact, I can stay for one night, but I don’t know if I can still stay after saying those words...

Lu Shining looked preoccupied, and Lu's mother didn't pay attention to what she said. He heard the noise of the children downstairs, so he got up and went to the balcony to watch.

When he was five or six years old and couldn't reach the window sill of the balcony, Lu's father picked him up and held him in his arms to let him look out the window.

Now he is standing here, the window sill only reaches his waist, and the scenery outside the window is unobstructed.Outside, two or three children were playing around by the flower bed, and there was an old lady standing beside them.

"It's your Aunt Lu." Mother Lu said behind him.

Lu Shining turned his head slightly in surprise, and Mother Lu smiled.The light from the sky fell and evenly shone on every household, but Lu Shining could only see the peaceful color in her eyes.

"The most bluffing child over there is her child. Haven't you seen it for a long time? You don't even know each other."

Lu Shining glanced over again, and gave a soft "hmm".

Lu's mother said with emotion: "Time flies so fast, these children will grow up in a blink of an eye."

Lu Shining nodded.

Lu's mother glanced at him, "Go back, the balcony is a bit cold, why is it so cold in May?"

It's May, and the weather will warm up, and it will get hotter a little bit. Isn't that what the four seasons are like, going back and forth.

"Mom." Lu Shining suddenly called out.

Mother Lu didn't turn around immediately, she sat on the sofa and pointed to the chair opposite and said, "Sit down and talk about anything."

Lu Shining didn't sit down, the two old men looked at him, they used to lower their heads, but now they want to look up.

If only I could never grow up, I would not experience growing pains, I would not experience separation, my troubles would always be the size of a sesame seed, and they would always be resolved...

Lu Shining squatted down, with one knee weakly touching the ground, and raised his head to look at his parents, "I went to Jingshi for a while last year."

Without waiting for the two people to react, he continued: "I resigned and went to Jingshi to stay for two months before I came back. I changed my job. It's not the previous one. I don't earn as much as before. But I don't have to work overtime all the time. My colleagues are very nice. of."

Lu's mother digested it for a while before asking: "Why didn't you say it before?"

"I'm afraid you are worried and afraid that you won't let me stay in the city."

The room was quiet, eerily quiet.

At this time, Father Lu stood up to smooth things over: "Actually, I..."

Mother Lu said, "What are you?"

Father Lu didn't dare to speak again, he shrank his neck and patted Lu Shining's shoulder, obviously helpless.

But Lu's mother said, "Is the job settled? Is it going well?"

Lu Shining looked at Mother Lu with some surprise, but Mother Lu still looked like an old lady with bowed eyebrows and a good talker.

"Well, it's pretty good."

Mother Lu sighed, "Is the money enough?"

"……enough."

"You really don't want to come back here?"

Lu Shining got stuck, but Mother Lu just looked at him, as if he would calmly accept whatever he said.

Lu Shining didn't say anything, so she nodded and said, "I can't persuade you, but you still ran so far away, what did you do? You kept it from us... Wait a minute, do you know the name Lu?" Has your son changed jobs?"

This time the spearhead was directed at Lu's father, and Lu's father had no choice but to explain bitterly.

Lu Shining didn't expect this matter to be exposed so quickly, and immediately said: "There is one more thing..."

The couple stopped bickering and looked at him again.

"I have someone I'm dating."

Lu Shining's heart was beating like thunder, and there were lightning bolts in the sunny day.

"That's a good thing..."

"Not a girl, Mom, he's not a girl."

Lu Shining said it twice in succession, looking at Lu's mother's expression and Lu's father's expression.

Both of them froze, and looked at each other after a while.

"Man, man." Mother Lu also repeated it twice.

Lu Shining's legs were numb but he didn't dare to move.

"Like your brother Lu?" Mother Lu suddenly asked.

Lu Shining choked his throat and nodded, but the moment he lowered his head, he received a gentle touch.

Lu's mother said, "Ningning, is it hard to like men?"

Lu Shining was prepared for everything, maybe he would be beaten, scolded, or even worse, he might not be able to eat tonight and be kicked out of the house in embarrassment, but he didn't expect that the first sentence his parents would say would be to ask him if he likes men hard.

Tears flowed down uncontrollably, all over the face and then dripped down the tip of the nose.

Lu's mother was still saying: "I heard people say that liking a man is hard work, do you think it's hard work?"

Lu Shining shook his head and wiped his tears, not daring to raise his head, but the hand kept falling on top of his head.

"That's good, we don't want you to suffer." Mother Lu said slowly, "Your father and I have thought about this before. If you like boys in the future, what will you do? Will your life be harder than others? How many people will look at you, but compared to these, we are more afraid of losing you."

Lu Shining choked, and his legs numb from squatting finally knelt down, and he knelt on the ground and kept coughing.

Lu's mother hurriedly turned her head to Lu's father: "Do you have eyesight, and you still haven't got some paper for your son."

Father Lu responded twice, and got up to find the paper.

Lu Shining handed a tissue in front of him, took it and wiped it carelessly, and called pitifully, "Mom."

"Hey." Mother Lu patted his head, "Hurry up, wash your face before talking."

Lu Shining stood up with trembling legs, went to the bathroom and faced the mirror in front of the sink. After crying, he came out with water dripping from the tip of his chin, and his whole body was pitifully wet.

Lu's father had already given up his seat, Lu's mother patted his side, and he walked over to sit down.

"Are you so scared?" Mother Lu asked.

Lu Shining shook his head and nodded, looking a little bewildered and bewildered.

Mother Lu laughed twice, and stretched out her hand to hug him. No matter how you say it, Lu Shining is still a young man, she couldn't hug him, so she could only pat him on the back twice, "It's not a big deal."

Lu Shining pursed his lower lip, but his head was still numb.

"We both thought you were going to keep silent for the rest of your life, and you were thinking about how to pretend to be stupid."

Lu Shining raised his head tearfully.

Lu's mother wiped his tears with "Ouch" twice, her hands full of lines fell on his face, and gently wiped away the tears, "Silly boy, do you see that your father and I urged you to find someone? No, right? Is that not looking forward to? Of course not."

Lu Shining said with a slightly nasal voice, "Yes."

"Why didn't Yuan Sen come with you today?" Mother Lu asked.

Lu Shining: "..."

Father Lu reminded from behind: "Don't lie, we both heard the call at noon."

Is this house so soundproof? !

Lu Shining showed embarrassment, as if all the secrets were forced to be revealed, he chatted with Yuan Sen for a long time at noon...

"I didn't let him come."

"I guess so." Lu's mother wiped his tears and patted his face. Seeing his face shaking, she smiled with satisfaction, "My son has grown up."

Lu Shining shook his head this time.

"Why not? You didn't want to tell us anything in the past. I know you are afraid of us worrying, and report good news but not bad news." Lu's mother's eyes still had that peaceful color, "I always feel that we can feel at ease when you are by our side. Who can take care of you outside... Now that someone is taking care of you, that's okay, it should be Yuan Sen, you have been clinging to him since you were a child."

Lu Shining was embarrassed by what he said, and looked down at Mother Lu, "How did you know?"

"Guess, I haven't seen you have a girlfriend yet. Guess you don't like girls." Lu's mother said, "Earlier, earlier, your eldest son is gone... Your father and I have made an agreement. You can accept whoever you bring home, boys and girls are fine, as long as you like it."

Lu Shining opened his mouth and said nothing.

"Yuan Sen is fine." Mother Lu patted his head again, from the top of the head to the chin, "Come over with the two of you some other day, and I'll cook for him."

Lu's father muttered to the side: "It's not that I haven't eaten it, how many years have I eaten it..."

"Can it be the same?" Mother Lu rolled her eyes at him, then looked at Lu Shining again, "Will you go to other cities in the future?"

Lu Shining shook his head, "It's here, Chuanyang is very good, I can't leave here."

Mother Lu asked him, "Is this the end of crying?"

Lu Shining nodded obediently.

Mother Lu smiled and said, "Then eat the half apple in the fruit bowl. Who told you to throw it there? If you don't eat it, let your dad eat it. Don't waste food."

Lu Shining: "..."

Lu Shining turned to look at Father Lu, Father Lu quickly waved his hands and said that he was about to lose his teeth, and this apple was no good for him.

Lu's mother entered the kitchen, Lu's father took the remote control back and sat back on the sofa, "Sit, why are you staring blankly?"

Lu Shining shook his head lightly, motioning his father to keep quiet, and quietly walked to the kitchen door.

As expected, Mother Lu was wiping her tears inside. Lu Shining walked over and bent over to hug her from behind, and put his chin on her shoulder.

Mother Lu quickly wiped away her tears, "What are you doing in the kitchen, I don't need your help, I'm clumsy..."

Lu Shining said softly: "I have a lot to say to you, can you listen to me after dinner?"

He has a lot of things to say, the most want to say is: "Mom, thank you."

Mother Lu covered her mouth and shed tears after hearing this.Lu Shining's arms were firmly around her, but in her eyes, Lu Shining would always be that well-behaved and sensible child. After a while, he patted his hand and said, "Don't get tired of me, go and play with your dad."

Lu Shining returned to the living room, and said solemnly to Father Lu, "Thank you, Dad."

Father Lu was alert: "What is this for? You have to eat the apple yourself, I can't chew it."

Lu Shining: "...Oh."