Growth pain

In the blink of an eye, it was the end of the semester, after the final exam of the last subject, the previous deskmate suddenly called to stop Lu Shining.

At the end of January, when the snow has not yet melted, the girl asked generously, "Do you know that I am interested in you?"

Lu Shining cast his eyes elsewhere and nodded slightly.

"Let me tell you, why did you always avoid me afterwards? There's no need for pressure." The girl stepped forward and patted him on the shoulder. "I liked you because I thought you were a nice person before. You are really a nice person."

Lu Shining turned his head in a daze, looking directly at the girl's face.

The girl was also looking at him, "Do you remember the preliminary exam in the freshman year of high school? I didn't do well in the exam, so the teacher arranged for you to be my deskmate, and I cried on the table."

Lu Shining was somewhat impressed.

"After I finish crying, you can use yourself as an example to explain that an exam can't explain anything. I thought at the time, how can there be such a long-winded boy, who is not like his peers, like my parents' generation."

Lu Shining's cheeks became hot, and he wanted to refute but didn't know what to say.After all, even he himself doesn't like his dull and nagging personality.

The girl laughed.

"I'm lying to you, how is it possible, I was thinking how could there be such a consoling boy, it must be good to be a boyfriend, he won't quarrel with me, and I should be able to listen to the truth. I'm quite a loser , you always help me pick up the carbon pens and exercise books that fell on the floor without saying a word...

"For a while, I even wondered if you liked me too... It turns out that I was thinking too much. Although I have moved on now, there is something I must tell you!"

Lu Shining was taken aback by the girl's suddenly amplified voice, and quickly nodded and said, "Okay, tell me."

"Lu Shining, you are such a very, very good person. I am so envious of the person you like in the future!" The girl waved to him after finishing speaking, "No, that's all! Bye! See you later!"

It wasn't until the girl ran away that Lu Shining came back to his senses, and said softly in the empty corridor, "Thank you for liking."

Doesn't everyone have that trait that when someone likes you, everything you do sparkles.

It's not without merit, it's not dull, it's not like a 16-year-old.Lu Shining is just more sensitive than ordinary people, and always puts others before his own emotions.

There's no reason such people aren't loved.

It was only later that Lu Shining found out that the girl had transferred to another school, and she only stayed here for half a semester, saying that it was all a lie to have a relationship, but she just mustered up the courage to confess to him, and then went to the south without regret.

At the end of winter, he received a very good answer sheet about emotion, but he still felt at a loss about the emotion buried in his heart.

Because the end of the semester was very busy, and the two were in different grades, he and Yuan Sen hadn't communicated much for a whole week, which would never have happened before.

Maybe the emotion of distance will fade away.

Lu Shining thought so, and caught Yuan Sen and Li Jianhua who were drunk at the door of their house on the weekend afternoon.

Lu Shining went upstairs and saw two people standing in front of the door unlocking it.

Li Jianhua greeted him quickly when he saw him, "Brother Yuan's younger brother."

Lu Shining said, "I'm not."

Li Jianhua didn't expect him to refute, and got stuck for a while, "Hey, we had some wine."

Lu Shining looked at Yuan Sen behind Li Jianhua, Yuan Sen was too tall, even if he didn't stand upright, he couldn't be blocked.

"Little deer." Probably sensing Lu Shining's gaze, he called out.

Li Jianhua sighed "Your brother really can drink" while walking down the stairs, passing Lu Shining patted on the shoulder, "Then brother Yuan will be handed over to you." After saying that, he left the stall and left.

After Li Jianhua left, Lu Shining asked, "Have you gone drinking?"

"No." Yuan Sen replied quickly.

"Why don't you admit it, if you drink it, you drink it." Lu Shining opened the door for Yuan Sen, "Do you need me to help you?"

The two sat in Yuan Sen's room, and Lu Shining watched Yuan Sen scribble on the exercise book.

On a whim, he lied and said, "My mother asked you to come over for dinner at night."

Yuan Sen shook his head and refused.

He then asked what he really wanted to ask: "Didn't you go out with Aunt Fang? Why did you and Li Jianhua come back?"

Yuan Sen's writing hand stopped, the paper was poked through, Lu Shining saw it.

"Well, went to meet someone and let me come back by myself."

Lu Shining clearly remembered seeing Yang Qiongfang when he went out in the morning. Yang Qiongfang dressed up and stood downstairs and shouted: "Yuan Sen, get up quickly!"

Lu Shining felt that Yuan Sen didn't want to mention this part of the content.

They are not inseparable, and they both hide something from each other.

In this way, it seems to be a kind of fairness.

The shady room revealed a kind of coldness, and the shadow of the dry branches of the poplar fell into his eyes.Looking at Yuan Sen from his perspective, the cold winter has also become lush, and he has the illusion that he is still in midsummer.

The poplar outside the window gradually sprouted and grew leaves, casting a dense shadow on Yuan Sen's face.Lu Shining didn't look back out the window, but just looked at Yuan Sen.

He knows everything is his imagination.This winter is very long, and summer is not coming as soon as it is said, and time cannot go backwards.

He thought, forget it, if Yuan Sen doesn't want to talk to him, everything will be futile.

But he was still talking, and the voice rang in his ears, as if he didn't make it himself.

"And then you went to drink."

Yuan Sen put the pen on the table and grabbed his wrist, "I didn't drink, and Xiaolu is not allowed to drink."

Lu Shining looked at him, feeling puzzled and bewildered.

To Yuan Sen and to himself.

why lie.

He wanted to ask Yuan Sen, but he also asked himself.

If it was normal, he would not be so persistent in asking for an answer.

The withered branches were regarded as a lush summer, he was grabbed by Yuan Sen's wrist but he didn't move.

Consciousness returned to the rainy day a few years ago, Yuan Sen leaned on the umbrella and waited for him to run out of the school gate.

After that day, everything changed, Yuan Sen didn't come to wake him up, didn't go home, there was a secret between the two of them.

Lu Shining always wanted to ask what happened that night, but never had the chance.Because I didn't ask at the beginning, there was no reason to ask again later, it was not the right time, and I couldn't get an answer.He knew he would be prevaricated.

Today Lu Shining felt this way again, if he didn't ask, then their relationship would not change, they would still be young, and they could still get along as usual... But is this really good?

Lu Shining couldn't help asking himself, is it really going to be forgotten? If he doesn't ask and let everything go, will it be a good thing for Yuan Sen and him?

After a long time, Yuan Sen first said, "She took me to meet my dad."

Lu Shining was stunned for a moment, his wrist was clenched even tighter, his bones ached, but he didn't cry out.

He knew that Yuan Sen was drunk.

What he heard next was something that he couldn't judge right or wrong when he thought about it for many years later.

Is it better not to ask, so that he can stay away from Yuansen with peace of mind.

But at that time, all he was thinking was——Yuan Sen looked like he was about to cry, if he didn't do something, if he was still as silent as before, he must have done something wrong.He doesn't want to regret it himself, and doesn't want to protect his brother from childhood to adulthood.

As for the fact that he likes Uehara Mori.

He pushed it back temporarily.

Facing him, Yuan Sen said, "My dad is gay."

I have something to say, and I will leave it in the comments of the next chapter.I've been under a lot of pressure recently, I hope it will get better in the future