Growth pain

Lu Shining still remembered that day.

It was still a rainy day, and the rain washed over the entire city, spreading the smell of damp soil.

In the middle of the night, I suddenly heard the buzzing of an ambulance, getting closer.

Lu Shining kept falling in his sleep, and when he fell to the bottom, he was shocked and woke up.

The living room lights were on, bright as a new day.

Lu Shining couldn't tell the time for a while, so he raised his head to carefully identify the clock directly above the wall.

42:[-] p.m.

He called his parents twice, but no one responded.There was a commotion outside, and voices came from outside the screen window.

Lu Shining ran over to open the window, the rain fell heavily, and the red and blue lights of the ambulance instantly fell into his eyes. He half-closed his eyes to try to see clearly, but the rain splashed all over his face.

It was so messy, there were all kinds of noises, and finally I saw nurses in white coats carrying someone into the ambulance.

Lu Shining probed for a while and didn't understand what was going on. He shivered and was about to close the window when he heard the crisp sound of broken glass from the next door, followed by a woman's yelling.

"What? You want to go see it too?!"

It was Yang Qiongfang's voice.

Lu Shining held his hand by the window, the rain poured in and even stained his body a little.

Yang Qiongfang continued: "Yuan Zhen, if you don't make me feel better, I won't make it easier for you either. Let's see which of us can beat the other! Let's see who kills the other first!"

The smell of wet earth is also very similar to the smell of something just beginning to rot.

Lu's father and Lu's mother came back soon, with worried expressions on their faces. Seeing that Lu Shining was awake, they immediately suppressed their expressions, "Xiao Lu, what are you doing with the windows open so late, go to bed quickly."

Lu Shining closed the window, and crawled into bed shivering with cold.He didn't ask what was going on outside, it didn't matter anymore.

There were many times when he wanted to knock on the door next door and drag Yuan Sen out of that house.He can dedicate all the good things to Yuan Sen, just ask him not to show that gloomy and fragile expression at certain moments.

His brother is the best brother in the whole world.

Why can't Yang Qiongfang and Yuan Zhen love him well.

The child entered the dream with such a sad mood, and Yuan Sen's parents were always arguing in the dream.He dreamed that in the evening when he was five years old, Yang Qiongfang pushed Yuan Sen out of the house, crying and losing his temper at him.

"If you face your father, you are just like your father!"

Yuan Sen cried so badly that day, Lu Shining handed him a tissue, and distributed the candy his father bought to this little brother.

While sobbing, Yuan Sen pushed away his hand that was handing the food, and said with a choked voice, "The little deer eats by itself."

Lu Shining suddenly felt sad and started to cry.Mother Lu saw the two children crying together, so she asked Lu Shining, "My brother is crying because he was scolded by his mother. Why are you crying?"

Holding the candy in his hands, Lu Shining wept bitterly: "Brother won't eat the candy I give you."

His favorite candy, he can only eat one a day, it is so delicious, why doesn't Yuan Sen eat it.What is more important than eating candy, if candy can't make Yuan Sen happy, it would be a sad thing.

He couldn't get off Yuan Sen, holding Yuan Sen and crying.Yuan Sen stopped crying and he was still crying. In the end, Yuan Sen coaxed him, so he barely raised his head, "Then do you eat candy?"

Yuan Sen had no choice but to take it, "Eat."

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Lu Shining was dug out of bed by Yuan Sen the next day. He suffered from severe sleep deprivation and his eyes were still swollen.

Yuan Sen doubted: "Did you cry last night?"

Lu Shining yawned and shook his head, almost forgetting what happened last night.

After he was dressed, Yuan Sen put on his shoes again.

Lu's mother passed by the living room with breakfast, "Yuansen, don't spoil him, let him wear it by himself, how old are you and let your brother wear shoes?"

Lu Shining didn't move, only with both shoes on his feet did he answer solemnly: "I'm 12 years old."

Mother Lu said, "I'm going to junior high school soon, shame on me."

Yuan Sen poked Lu Shining's waist, with a smile in his eyes: "Little deer, shame on you."

Seeing the blue color in Yuan Sen's eyes, Lu Shining remained silent for a while.

Yuan Sen poked him again, "I'm not allowed to say anymore?"

Lu Shining shook his head, sat down at the dining table in silence, and gave Yuan Sen half of the egg on his plate.

"Don't want to eat again?" Yuan Sen looked at him, "Didn't you like eggs before?"

Lu Shining said solemnly, "Here you are."

Yuan Sen didn't understand the meaning, "Then you still don't want to eat?"

"No." Lu Shining couldn't explain clearly, "You eat."

He just wanted to give Yuan Sen everything he liked.

Yuan Sen has been going to school with him for the past few days, Lu Shining knew that Yuan Sen was skipping class, but he didn't ask anything.

Walking on the road today, but said: "What happened last night?"

Hara Mori paused, "Did you hear that?"

Lu Shining nodded, "An ambulance is here."

Yuan Sen hesitated for a moment before speaking. Anyway, there are many people in the neighborhood, and Lu Shining will know sooner or later.

"Someone overdosed and went to the hospital."

Lu Shining's eyes widened: "Who?"

Yuan Sen lowered his eyes, "I don't know."

After school at noon, Lu Shining went home alone, surrounded by many people under the poplar trees in the community, this time not only grandparents, but also people of the same age as Yuan Sen's parents.They gathered in a pile of discussions, and those voices reached his ears, gradually pieced together into sentences he couldn't understand.

They said: "It's really a crime. His parents dragged him so big so that he can go to college, and he's out there with men."

They said: "A few years ago, I had a big fight with my mother over this matter, and the result? I was abandoned by someone, and now I have come back to make this matter again..."

Lu Shining couldn't quite understand what he heard, but his heart was beating fast. He hurriedly walked around the crowd and walked faster and faster, gradually turning into a run, and ran back to his home.

He didn't sleep well during his lunch break, and his parents were also talking about this matter at home, Lu Shining pricked up his ears to listen secretly through the gap in the door.

Lu's mother said: "Oh, why can't I think about it so much, I don't know if I'm okay now..."

Lu's father sighed, pinched his cigarette for a long time before uttering a sentence: "He is also a poor child."

Lu Shining curled up on the bed, covering his beating heart.

In the evening, Yuan Sen came to his house to do his homework, and he immediately said, "I seem to know who went into the hospital."

Yuan Sen frowned, and gave a casual "hmm", as if he didn't care much.

Lu Shining didn't notice it, and continued, "It's the elder brother of Aunt Lu's family upstairs, right?"

Yuan Sen stared at the homework, and replied casually, "Yes."

Lu Shining pursed his lips, "Do you know?"

"Ah."

Lu Shining asked again after a while: "Will he die?"

"I don't know." Yuan Sen raised his eyes, his expression a little indifferent, "Xiao Lu, are you still doing your homework?"

"……Write."

Aunt Lu's son died.

Hearing that she was already dying when she arrived at the hospital, Aunt Lu passed out and was brought back by her husband the next evening.

She seemed to have aged a lot in an instant, and the silence of the past four years had become a scar in her heart.

Later, Lu Shining often saw her sitting beside the flower bed and muttering to herself.

At the end of June, Lu Shining officially graduated from elementary school, but Yuan Sen was suspended from school for probation because of too many absenteeism, and he might face repeated grades.

Yuan Sen had no idea about this, he was kicked by Yang Qiongfang a few times, patted the dirt on his pants and continued to do what he should do.

He started going to Internet cafes and game halls with his classmates, but he didn't stay at home.

But he promised to keep in touch with Lu Shining, and he would tell the child every time he went out, and then told him: "Help brother keep it a secret."

Lu Shining kept his mouth shut every time.

When the summer vacation was coming to an end, Lu Shining went to Yuan Sen's home to ask him to do homework left over from the cram school, but Yuan Sen was not at home.

It was Yuan Zhen who opened the door.

Yuan Zhen has a very rough appearance, but he is honest and silent, and his appearance is a bit gentle when there is a slight smile on the corner of his mouth.Either way you can be a good father.

But he is not.

"Looking for Yuan Sen? He hasn't come back yet, let's go in and sit down."

Just as Lu Shining was about to refuse, the man had already moved out of the way.

Lu Shining had no choice but to go into the living room and sit on the sofa. Yuan Zhen set out snacks and drinks for him and then went back to the side room to look through the cabinets.

"Uncle Yuan, what are you looking for?" Lu Shining asked after waiting for a while.

"I'm looking for a screwdriver." Yuan Zhen turned around, "Aren't you bored, you can turn on the TV... Ah, I'm sorry, my TV is broken and hasn't been repaired yet, it's time to change it."

Lu Shining said, "The screwdriver should be in the drawer on the left."

Yuan Zhen was taken aback, and when he found it in the first drawer on the left, he smiled at Lu Shining, "I found it."

It's because I don't care so much about this family that I can't even find things.

Lu Shining couldn't sit still anymore, he lowered his head and sent a text message to Yuan Sen: [When are you coming back? 】

Yuan Sen quickly replied: [In the Internet cafe, what's wrong? 】

Lu Shining said: 【The homework is left in the cram school, and there are some questions I don't know. 】

Yuan Sen: [I'll show you when I get home]

Lu Shining: [I'm at your house right now. 】

Yuan Sen called directly, "Is there someone in my family?"

Lu Shining replied: "Yes, Uncle Yuan is here."

Yuan Sen was silent for two seconds: "Go back to your home first, and I'll be right back." After speaking, he hung up the phone.

Lu Shining held the phone in a daze.

Fifteen minutes later, Yuan Sen ran back out of breath. Seeing Lu Shining sitting in the living room playing with snakes and Yuan Zhen repairing the doorknob in the side room, he breathed a sigh of relief.

"Little deer," he called.

Lu Shining raised his head, and the long snake on the phone hit the wall and died.

Yuan Sen said, "Let's go,"

"where to?"

Yuan Sen glanced at the man in the side room, "Take you out to play, anyway, don't stay here."

The man in the side room froze, and quickly continued to remove the screws in his hand.

Lu Shining went out with Yuan Sen.

After going out, Yuan Sen said to him: "Don't knock on my door in the future, I will come to you naturally."

Lu Shining didn't understand, but he still nodded when he saw Yuan Sen's expression.

More tomorrow.