Growth pain

The result of the escape can be imagined.

Lu Shining had nowhere to escape.

The next morning, Yuan Sen came over directly, Lu Shining pretended he was not at home, the doorbell rang for the sixth time and finally stopped, and the knock on the door only lasted for a while.

Half an hour later, he went downstairs to take out the garbage. Yuan Sen was sitting on the stairs facing his house, and the two of them looked at each other in embarrassment.

The embarrassment was mainly caused by Lu Shining, while Yuan Sen was very calm, he just patted his pants and stood up.

Lu Shining silently looked away, leaned against the door, and the door lock was locked with a "click".

Yuan Sen's eyes flashed, and he made way for Lu Shining, "Will you come back after throwing away?"

Lu Shining: "..."

Standing in front of his house again, Lu Shining opened the door and consciously opened the shoe cabinet to put out slippers.It's not being courteous, it's just not wanting to mop the floor again.

"Why didn't you answer the phone?" Yuan Sen asked casually.

Lu Shining made a serious appearance about changing his shoes.

"Didn't you say that you will stop working after the end of July? Today is exactly the first day, why are you not at home?" Yuan Sen said these two sentences in a surprisingly calm tone, which happened to mean that he was angry.

Lu Shining couldn't escape anymore, he straightened up and replied, "Yes."

Yuan Sen suddenly laughed, but there was no smile in his eyes, he stabbed him coldly, "Little Lu, why do you dare to 'hmm' with me?"

"Otherwise, what are you talking about?" Lu Shining raised his head, Yuan Sen lowered his eyes and looked at him for a while, "Why didn't you answer the phone and didn't open the door, why did you avoid me again? How did I offend you?"

He seemed aggrieved.

It should be aggrieved indeed.

Lu Shining thought, all the faults are mine, and none of the good things happened to me.

"Because of that meal? Because of other people coming? I really didn't know they were coming."

"It's not because of this." Lu Shining lied skillfully, and deliberately moved a chair inside the room for Yuan Sen to sit on.

Yuan Sen looked at him, "Can't I sit on the sofa?"

Lu Shining continued, "Then I'll sit on a chair."

Yuan Sen stared at him, his eyes burning as if he wanted to stare him out of a hole.

Lu Shining skillfully avoided that gaze, and decided to explain the matter clearly, about the fact that they couldn't go back to their childhood, that they couldn't keep intimacy anymore.Otherwise, what else can I say, I can't say that he likes him, I don't want to see him hugging and kissing others in the future, and being a sweet couple with others, while he can only be a useless friend.

They don't have to torture each other.

"I don't know when you got a girlfriend." Lu Shining said after thinking about it, "I heard a lot from them at the dinner a few days ago, and I didn't know a single thing..."

Before he finished speaking, Yuan Sen said: "You want to know? Then you just say it, and I will tell you."

"No, that's not the point, it's that I didn't even know you had a girlfriend." Lu Shining didn't really want to say these three words - "girlfriend", especially if it was Yuan Sen's.But he still continued to say, "Don't talk first, listen to me first."

Yuan Sen looked like he wanted to refute, but he still obediently kept his mouth shut, his expression hard to hide his anxiety.

Even this made Lu Shining sad.

This particularity, which had previously meant a great deal to him, will be meaningless as well.

"Do you know when I learned to smoke? I can also drink." Lu Shining called out willingly this time, "Brother, Brother Yuan, six years is too long, there is no need to ask everything to be the same or different, There's no other way."

Yuan Sen said, "Who did you learn from? Call me Brother Yuan?"

Lu Shining didn't expect that this was what he was going to ask, so he paused before saying, "It's easier to say that..." It's easier to say than "brother", it can be called by anyone.

"I met Su Yunle and the others when we were in college. Zhao Shengnan is not counted. I am not familiar with him. I only met him after graduation." Yuan Sen was surprisingly indifferent when he said these things, talking about his past coldly , as if it had nothing to do with him.Perhaps realizing that this is not good, he softened his tone before continuing, "The relationship with Su Yunle was three years ago, and it also started after graduation."

Lu Shining was sure that he didn't want to hear this, but Yuan Sen told him paranoidly, as if he said it, the distance between them would be shortened.

"... Smoking and drinking only started in college, and I was taught by a senior in a club at that time." Lu Shining answered his own part according to Yuan Sen's statement.

"Why don't you know how to learn something better?"

"It's going to happen anyway."

Yuan Sen didn't quite agree, but he himself had no reason to educate Lu Shining.

"Smoking less." Finally, I couldn't help but say something.

Lu Shining snorted lightly, his eyes curled up a little, like when he was young.At that time, he still liked to laugh and was willing to make some unreasonable demands with Yuan Sen.Yuan Sen asked him why he didn't learn something better, and Lu Shining was also thinking about why.

Why did the people who left him ask him to be fine.

"Why do you control me?"

"I'm not your brother."

Lu Shining nodded, "Well, Brother Yuan."

Yuan Sen frowned slightly, Lu Shining said, "That's not what I want to say, you know it too."

"What else do you want to hear?"

Lu Shining shook his head, "I don't want to hear anything, I just don't want to pretend anymore, Yuan Sen, it's good to be a normal friend, if you ask me to go out to eat, I'll go out, but there's no need to force me into your social circle ..."

"Lu Shining shut up."

"We are not so familiar with each other anymore, you have your friends, and I have mine..."

"I said stop."

"I still really wanted to hear what you said before, but too much was left behind." Lu Shining continued, "Now let's start from the beginning, maybe you have forgotten some things."

Yuan Sen stood up with a dark face and walked in front of him in two steps.A shadow covered it, and so did those watery eyes like dogs.

Lu Shining was always serious in his speech, and every word was heard clearly in his ears, but he couldn't tell which part was sincere and which part was fake.Maybe it's all true, maybe it's all fake, Yuan Sen gradually can't see through that layer of appearance.

"Lu Shining, do you really want to be beaten today?"

Lu Shining nodded, "If you hit me, you won't even be friends."

Yuan Sen let out a breath and managed to calm down, "Then have you contacted me? Called me and told me what are you doing?"

"I have, I have called, I said." Lu Shining replied, he was quite tired with his head raised, so he stood up, but he was still shorter than Yuan Sen.

Yuan Sen laughed, "Lu Shining, are you too daring to say something?"

"It's just that you don't remember." Lu Shining lowered his eyes and raised them again, "I don't want to help you remember it again, but if you ask me, it's okay."

Yuan Sen was almost annoyed to death, by the current situation in front of him, by what Lu Shining said, and by himself.

"Okay, please, tell me." He said in a cold voice.

Lu Shining then said: "I went to see you off on the day you left, and I picked you up at the airport the first few times I came back. After that, I have been in touch with you every week, calling on Fridays and sending messages on Sundays."

until.

He said silently in his heart, after that, you will leave me alone, Yuan Sen.

It was you who left me first.

I remember.

I remember them all.

It's just that you forgot.

He remembered everything, clearly.