[Spell Return] Beast of Despair

77.

—August 2018, 8, Tokyo, High School of Magic—

AM9: 27

Standing in front of the mirror in the medicine cabinet, Shizhi slowly brushed up her shoulder-length hair, tied her fluffy hair up high with the hair rope that Nitzi lent her, and tied it casually into a knot.

She just had a basic physical.

"So how is my physical condition?" She asked Niatz, who was sitting behind her, "I should be able to handle today's extermination mission, right?"

"Even if it's not possible, the group of old guys above will definitely force you to find out the curse spirit of the Yae family."

Nitro scribbled messy handwriting on the document.

"But don't worry, your body is recovering well. I'm glad to see you like this."

"Don't say such nasty words suddenly." Shizhi trembled exaggeratedly, "I'm not used to it."

These words sounded rather ruthless, but they made Nitro laugh.She closed the document, turned around slowly on the office chair, her eyes almost narrowed, but she still stared at Shizhi's thin back.

"Are you going to hunt down that curse spirit?" she asked.

"I'm not in such a hurry, I have to wait a little longer. About... we will start in the afternoon." Shizhi pushed a strand of hair behind his ear, "Before that, I want to practice naginata with Xixi first."

Nitzi curled her lips and raised her voice on purpose: "Xixi? Which stinky woman is this who was seduced by you?"

"Maki, a second-year Zenyuan kid."

"Oh—" Nitro nodded knowingly, "You always like to give people weird and cute nicknames, but I don't."

"Jealous?"

"That's not so."

"Admit it directly." Shi Zhi stretched his arm muscles, "If it's so unfair, then I'll give you a cute and cute nickname. Want me to call you 'Ni Ni' or 'Zi Zi'?" You can also choose from "Jiajia" or "Into"."

"It doesn't sound good, forget it."

After saying this, Nitro sighed, and fell down on the backrest.

"I'm here tonight." She said suddenly, "So after you succeed, remember to come here quickly. My surgical skills are quite good."

"Okay, I get it. When I get my hands and feet back, I'll be the first one to come to you."

Yes, he waved his hand.

"Then I'll take my leave."

After leaving the infirmary, Shizhi walked towards the gymnasium. When she saw Maki waiting at the door, she almost thought she was late, but in fact it was just that Maki came a little early.

It was actually his own idea to ask Zenin Maki, a student, to teach her how to use the naginata.However, it was Gojo Satoru who recommended Maki on his own initiative.

Studying under his students, no matter how he thinks about it, he feels that Gojo Satoru has taken advantage of him.She was too lazy to complain about anything.

Besides, today should be the last day of studying with Maki.In other words, the days when Wujo Wujo could taste the sweetness of seniority suppression, after today, there will be no more.Every time I think of it, I feel at ease.

But I have to say that Maki is indeed a good teacher and a genius in using spell tools.However, Yezhi doesn't need to be as proficient in magic tools as she is, after all, she has never completely relied on magic tools.

She just needs to learn how to use it.

"Yes miss, do you want to eat?"

Maki held the unwrapped pocky cookie in front of her.Yezhi whispered a thank you, and took out one from inside.It's black, probably chocolate flavored.

Yes, he took a small bite, and the rich bitterness and the aroma of chocolate rippled together.It turned out to be dark chocolate flavored.

"It would be nice if it could be sweeter." She whispered.

This inadvertent little complaint fell into Maki's ears.She laughed.

"You are the same as Wujo-sensei, you are a sugar monster. It's scary."

"That's why he's a bit scarier." Shi Zhi corrected, "Compared with him, I can't be regarded as a monster."

"That's true..." Maki wiped her glasses, "He is invincible in this respect."

I don't know why, but when I heard Maki say that, I couldn't help laughing.She rested her chin on one hand, looked at Maki curiously, and suddenly asked, "Does Xixi like Teacher Wujo?"

"……what!?"

Maki looked disgusted.

"Who would like that kind of teacher! To be honest, when I heard Fu Hei say that you were his fiancee, I was almost surprised to death. I really think it is incredible that someone would like that blindfolded idiot. "

"Really?" Yeshi tilted his head, "I think he deserves to be liked. First of all, he has a handsome face, isn't that very attractive?"

Maki began to analyze seriously: "The face and strength are indeed top-notch, but the rotten personality is also top-notch. And every time I am late for class! I always start talking about other things. Hmm... It feels like he’s the kind of guy who can get high when he’s left alone in a small room that’s one meter square.”

"Is that right?"

Although I have never seen Gojo Satoru when he was a teacher, but listening to Maki's description and his increasingly excited tone, he can already outline the image of "Gojo Sensei".

It seems to be quite interesting.he thinks.

"Speaking of which, why does Ms. Gojo like someone like Gojo-sensei?" Maki looked at her, "Well... I'm just a little curious. I always thought that Gojo-sensei is the kind of person who will be single until he dies."

"Why like……"

That's a good question.She seemed to have thought about this question before.As for whether she came up with the answer at that time, she couldn't remember.

But now she has thought of the answer.

"Because he is the person I can rely on, the person who can accommodate all my tempers. By his side, I am more like myself, not a descendant of a certain family, or... one of the relatives of someone class identity."

He is also the first person who still sees her from the eyes of ordinary people after knowing the past of Yae's family.In fact, this is just an ordinary thing, but it is also the most unusual move.

Only he will look at himself - the most authentic self.

"That's why I love him."

78.

—August 2015, 8, Tokyo, apartment—

PM5: 50

Today's first message is like a short essay, too long to fit on the screen.Shizhi looked at these words with cold eyes, but still didn't feel any emotional fluctuations.She wished she could feel a little sad, but at the moment she only felt sore eyes, and she couldn't feel anything else.

The words flashed past her eyes quickly.She felt that she didn't read it seriously, but the afterimages left by these words were still completely printed in her mind.

She continued to read, and turned to the other side's reply without any surprise.

"Today PM5:04

To Octet Ringtones:

Are you all right, where are you?Why did you say that suddenly?In fact, we are not angry, you don't need to say sorry.Rather, we should say sorry, we have lived together for so long, but we haven't felt that your mental state has become like this at all.

You said that you don't like Yezhi's sister, you said that you don't want to be honest with her because of her dishonesty, we all understand this.

To be honest, if you really don't want to be a conjurer anymore, just make it clear with her.We'll go with you, don't be afraid, just make it clear that she's not unreasonable.

In fact, I have never said it, and we occasionally feel that my sister is not very frank.We don't know what she's thinking, but we've always guessed what she's thinking before.Xun Heya and the others felt the same way.

We hate the sense of distance from our sister.But today I still have to keep working.Suzune, take exorcising that curse as the last task, and do it well. "

In this reply, it's always "we," not me.Yes know what that means.

This means that this is the consensus between the brothers on the other side and here.

"Today PM5:13

From Octet Ringtones:

I'm in a coffee shop.Don't worry, I have no other thoughts.

But do you guys feel the same way?I always thought it was just me.To be honest, I actually disliked her helping me.She will always hold us tightly and pull us all by her side, but she doesn't tell us everything, and always hides her own thoughts.I hate this.

She is always telling me that I am also talented, but this is not consolation, let alone a compliment.I know she's just lying to me.

She is the one who is truly powerful, and she is also the one who is truly gifted.She was also the least honest.

Is going farther and farther a sign of growing up?But I still miss being close.Although I said I hate it just now, she is still my most beloved sister.I was just thinking, if only we could still be the same as before. "

Yezhi looked at the [unread] mark behind this message and jumped to [read].She thought that the other party probably went out for a walk with the dog before reading this message, so it was in an unread state.

That being the case, maybe they will come back soon.Yezhi almost dropped the phone, she finally felt the mood swings.

She panicked—frightened, one might even say.

She almost immediately thought that if she continued to stay here, Bifang and the others would come back, maybe she would see Lingyin again later, but she didn't know how to face them at all.

She didn't even know how to face herself.

I really want to escape.Maybe she really should run away.

At the same time that this thought came to her, she had already stood up, and walked quickly towards the door, the hurried footsteps and lies sounded together.

"I'm sorry, I'm leaving first. Yidizhi suddenly told me that I have something to deal with at work, and I have to go there quickly." She smiled as always, representing everything well, trying not to let her voice tremble, but the lie It became a bit rambling, "Yidizhi, why didn't you tell me earlier? Telling me so hastily made me...uh, it's nothing. I really should go."

"Eh!?"

Yaehiro ran out of the kitchen, still holding the can of cocoa powder.She pressed the lid of the can tightly, with a frustrated and lost expression.

"So don't you drink chocolate?"

"Yeah. Don't drink. I don't have time." Yezhi has already opened the door, stepped outside, and put himself in the hot summer air, "Let's keep Cheetos at your house for another day, I Pick him up tomorrow. Don't worry, I'll pick him up before your new dog gets home. See you tomorrow then...."

In a daze, Yezhi seemed to hear her sister say goodbye to her, or other words, but she didn't hear clearly at all.She had already closed the door, which separated most of the voices, whether it was concern or complaints, they were all sealed on the other side of the door.

She fled home.

The house was empty, and there was no one there except her.Gojo Satoru was still exorcising the curse in the remote mountains where even the signal was in jeopardy, saying that he would not be able to return until tomorrow afternoon at the earliest.The beloved dog is also elsewhere, and she has voluntarily given up the right to take it home tonight.Thinking about it this way, the silence at home at this moment is all her fault.She's willing to admit it.

She threw her bag on the ground casually and turned on the air conditioner, but the cool wind from the air conditioner failed to cool down the stuffy home for a long time.Shizhi was lying on her back on the bed exhaustedly, and could feel the hot wind hitting her face one after another, but she didn't feel how hot it was.She was still thinking about the chat records she saw 10 minutes ago, and the long words were dissatisfaction with her.

When the unwavering heart put down the other party's mobile phone and fled their home in a hurry, it just cracked a small undetectable gap, and it was enough to stop the emotional overflow by covering it hard.But now, this gap is gradually expanding, and the emotions hidden in it are constantly expanding, crushing the fragile shell like chocolate crisps, and anger, sadness, and sadness pour out.She felt as if she had been severely denied, and everything she had done in the past had become so pathetic and ridiculous.

She saw their ugliness.

She saw her own ugliness.

She recalled every word and action she had ever said to them.There are many things that are just her unintentional actions.Compliments are for their own good, helping is for their own good, and it is for their good to hide their concerns.

So why - why is it all about "for their own good" and why do they hate themselves?

Ye Zhi curled up, and his thinking seemed to be about to stagnate.Her entire brain was filled with questions of "why", and she kept muttering these three words.She felt that she should cry from sadness, which was more like a normal person's reaction, but she couldn't cry at all.

She just felt dizzy, as if she was dreaming, and everything she saw and heard became hazy and vain.But the needle-like pain in her chest came along with her breathing, reminding her all the time that she was in reality at this moment.

She also has to face this reality.

She covered her face with her hands.Now the house has finally become cooler, but she feels cold, her fingertips are frozen cold, and she can't stop shaking.She was still buried in the unanswerable "why" and didn't know what to do.

But if she continues to bear all this alone, she will definitely collapse.

It's okay to say it, even if it doesn't get comforted, she just wants to say these things.

She dialed Gojo Satoru, as she always did in the past.

The call rang for a long time.Listening to the long "beep--", Yezhi told himself repeatedly that he should calmly retell what happened today to Gojo Satoru.

Yes, be calm, don't get emotional, and don't cry while talking, that would make you look a little too fragile.She doesn't want to be vulnerable.

After repeating these instructions about five times in my heart, the phone was dialed, and a familiar voice rang in my ear, saying "Hello".

Yes it cried.

"What's wrong? Has something happened?" His tone sounded tense.

She cried even harder.

"Why on earth did we become conjurers? Does it really make sense? I never questioned my reasons for being conjurers, but I never knew they didn't want to be conjurers... Wu, do you think Am I a good sister?"

"Yes, of course you are." He answered without hesitation, and he blurted out without even thinking, "You are the best sister and the best person in the world."

"I'm not...they hate me..."

"Who hates you?"

Ye Zhi cried louder.She really didn't want to be so weak, but the tears just flowed out of her own words.Sobbing, she told Gojo Satoru what happened not long ago.

Crying made her speech staccato.She tried hard to recount the whole thing completely, but the emotional fluctuations were so strong that her words were a little confused.But Gojo Satoru still listened carefully, and occasionally let Shizhi know that he was still on the phone with an "um".

"The way I love them is wrong, right?"

It felt like he was going to be out of breath.

"If you think about it, I stifled their growth and didn't give them too many choices. I never asked them about their plans for the future, because I didn't have any plans for myself. I just know that I want to be a curse It's not for righteousness, and I don't want anything. I just feel that I can see curses, so I need to remove them, that's all. Ability comes with responsibility, my father taught me so, I am Always told them so. Always..."

The voice became softer little by little.Ye Zhi covered his eyes with his palms, obviously he didn't want to see anything, but he still seemed to have caught a glimpse of the past.

"The elders were poisoned by the ideals of their ancestors. I used to make up my mind and told myself never to become like them, because I spurned their stupid ideas. But now I have become them-what I have done is I'm poisoning them. I'm being stupid too... Am I really giving them 'love'? Or am I actually cursing them?"

"I understand, but you can't put yourself down like that," he said slowly. "You know, you love them, more than anyone, don't you?"

Yezhi didn't make a sound, just wiped away his tears vigorously, and listened to him quietly.

"Maybe it's just that you take too many things for granted. Eldest sister should take care of everything, elder sister should not be vulnerable, elder sister should help them. You have always been You think so, right?" He seemed to smile, "Let's put down the burden, it's not something you have to do."

"But……"

"They'll understand if you just say what you feel. Just like you said it to me today."

Yes, he stopped talking.It's not that she disagrees with Gojo Satoru's attention, she just thinks it's a bit difficult for her to make such a decision.

She still doesn't know how to face her estranged siblings.Thinking of going through this pain with them, she wanted to escape.

"It's okay to escape, just take a break today. Let's save this matter for later." Gojo Satoru told her, "Take your time, we still have a lot of time. Let time work things out slowly. "

"……Um."

"Okay—then tell me now, where are you?"

His tone returned to its usual briskness, but it was still a little low.She blinked, only to feel that the tears were sour and uncomfortable.

"I'm at home."

"Where is the home?"

"Bed."

"Where are you lying down?"

"Ah."

"Okay. Now stand up, step out of the door, and go straight." Gojo Satoru suddenly ordered, "Go to the kitchen, open the refrigerator, and see what's on the second floor."

These instructions are so complicated, just listening to them makes Shizhi feel tired.

"...I don't want to move."

"No, no, move quickly. If you don't move, I'll run home immediately and drag you little slob out of bed. I always do what I say."

"All right--"

Shizhi struggled to stand up, but felt a little top-heavy.She moved almost slowly to the kitchen.

Following his instructions, open the refrigerator door.On the second floor is a dark brown box.She took a sneak peek, and it turned out that it was a box of raw chocolates, which seemed a bit expensive.

It is a furtive guess at the price.At this time, a new order from Mr. Gojo Satoru came again.

"Open the box and eat a bar of chocolate."

"I don't want to eat..." Shizhi closed the refrigerator door, "I have no appetite."

"No, you must eat it. If you don't eat it, I will be angry."

Gojo Satoru took a tough attitude and even threatened his anger. Although there was no deterrent effect, it was still enough to make Shizhi admit defeat.She took out the chocolate again, and was so lazy that she twisted a small piece with her hands and threw it into her mouth.

The soft taste is so sweet that she has a toothache. It really deserves to be the chocolate bought by Gojo Wujo.

"Is it tasty?"

"It's so sweet." As he said that, he ate another piece, "It must be high in calories, and I feel very guilty now."

Gojo Satoru on the other end of the phone laughed lightly.

"Does chocolate make you happier?"

"Hmm...maybe?"

She couldn't explain it either, but she did stop crying.Judging from this result, she should have become a little happier.

"That's fine...don't be sad. We can work this out together, can't we? I'll be back tomorrow, just wait a little while longer for me. No matter how painful the conversation with them might get, I And will always be by your side.”

He said.

"You love them, and I love you. Yes, you just have to remember that."