[Spell Return] Beast of Despair

65.

—February 2015, Tokyo, Gojo House—

Walking under the cherry tree, Shizhi couldn't stop shivering, even though the spring wind wasn't cold at all, she still kept shaking, her teeth were on the verge of chattering, so she had to silently hug Gojo Satoru's body tightly. arm.

Not far away, the gate with the "Wu Tiao" nameplate was getting closer and closer, and she was shaking more and more, so she could only straighten her back with perseverance.If she didn't have this bit of perseverance, she would definitely stoop timidly.

That would definitely be ugly.

To be honest, before she really came to this step, she didn't know that she would be so nervous.

Seeing how badly she was shaking, Gojo Satoru stopped and stroked her face gently.

"Are you okay? If you're so scared, we don't have to go. Anyway, they already know that I'm going to marry you."

"I'm fine! Of course I'm not afraid!" Ye Zhi said, trembling even more, "I'm just... just a little bit nervous. Well, yes, just a little bit. Don't worry, wait until it's over In front of your family, I will definitely act very comfortable!"

It won't be trembling like it is now.

"Really?" Gojo Satoru smiled, a little disbelieving, but still said, "Then let's continue walking."

The house number engraved with "Five Articles" is getting closer and closer, so it is getting closer and closer to his family.

Before today, she always felt that visiting Wutiao's house must be far away from her.I think so, it must be because during this long relationship, they are always more used to looking at each other, and rarely talk about the elders, so the concept of family members seems a little weak.

But now, you must watch the elders.Marriage and love are not the same after all.

According to Gojo Satoru, his relationship with his family is mediocre.Yezhi also claims to have a normal relationship with her family, but she is not sure whether her definition of "normal" is the same as Gojo Satoru.

Finally stood in front of the Gojo's house.

The old servant in a kimono with a low eyebrow opened the door for them, and politely called him "Master Wu".I don't know why, but all I can think of is a period drama I just watched yesterday.

Walking along the long and narrow wooden corridors with the old servant, the huge mansion of the Gojo family is like a complicated maze. Everywhere you go, you can see completely different scenery and servants.It was the tension that he was trying to hide, as if he was about to poke his head out, and he couldn't hide it no matter what.

"So you have so many servants in your family?" She secretly whispered to Gojo Satoru.

"Yes."

"Ummmmmm... I'm sore, I'm sore, I'm sore!"

Gojo Satoru looked proud: "This is the benefit of marrying me."

"Don't make it sound like I married you for something so superficial!"

She pretended to be annoyed and thumped Gojo Wu lightly, and wanted to say something more, but she had already been brought in front of the elders.She hurriedly put away all her small movements and stood up obediently.

She wasn't sure who these people belonged to Wujo Wu, she could only look for similarities with Wujo Wu in them.The white-haired middle-aged man who sat closest to her felt like Gojo Satoru the most, and his face was also similar, but more majestic.She thought, maybe this is Gojo Satoru's father.

As she watched them unobtrusively, they watched her too, only in a more veiled way.Sharp eyes swept over every part of her body, and she became a commodity waiting for their evaluation.

From their expressions and eyes, Ye Zhi could hardly see too much emotion, as if they would not feel any fluctuations in their hearts when they looked at themselves.It's not clear what that means, nor how exactly they see themselves.She was at a loss.

But when Gojo Satoru gently pushed herself back, she seemed to know that she was not liked by them.

"what is her name?"

Someone asked.

"Yae." Gojo Satoru answered for her, "As I said, my marriage partner is a conjurer from Yae's family."

Snorted.It was Gojo Satoru's father who made the sound.

"Even the name is similar to that woman."

It is even more at a loss.

Before saying "even" and "also", what did they see from themselves?If they hadn't found someone else's shadow in her, they wouldn't have said "even the names are similar".

I really want to ask, but I can't.All she could do was smile stiffly.

Then it was lunch with them.

She sat at the end of the long wooden table.The elders would say something here and there, but all they said were words they couldn't understand.Their words are like encrypted codes, with hidden meanings that only the Wujo family can understand.

From the beginning to the end, no one glanced at her, as if she did not exist, and even the servants would not call her.

"Today's radish is so unpalatable. It's very bitter." Gojo Satoru whispered, "Do you feel that?"

"is it?"

She didn't seem to have tasted anything.Today she is a little dull.

But no matter how dull she was, she still felt that she was out of place.

She is disgusted.

The moment he realized this, Yezhi actually felt a morbid sense of peace of mind.She has long been familiar with the feeling of being rejected by others.It's great to have the most familiar feeling in this strangest place.

Great.

From the very beginning until now, her nervousness towards the Gotiao family is full of expectations and uncertainties.She looks forward to seeing Gojo Satoru's family, but isn't sure if she will like her.She's not sure if she'll do well, and she looks forward to making a good impression on the family she's meeting for the first time.

There are so many things she worries about.

There is no need to worry now.Gojo Satoru's family, like other old-school conjurers, loathes her as a member of the Yae family.The reason for the disgust is also very simple. Her ancestors and the curse spirit gave birth to an heir, and the Yae family was expelled for this, so she should be a person with greedy and dirty blood.

Seems like an undeniable logic.She wasn't ready to deny it either.

She didn't know how she got through this stiff lunch hour.All she knew was that when she was about to leave, Gojo Satoru's father stopped her.

"Miss Yae."

He called it so, still with a majestic appearance and overly alienated words.

"Could I beg you to cancel the engagement with Inuko? I don't think the members of the Yae family have such qualifications."

What he said was so clear, yet unclear. What kind of qualification is "such a qualification"?Is he trying to guess riddles for himself?Please, it's not a lantern riddle meeting now.

Yes it is speechless.She didn't know what kind of expression she had.

She thought she might be a little surprised.Well, it must be only "a little bit".

She regretted getting up early today.Struggling to get out of the bed and dressing up as an appearance that the elders will definitely like, this is just a waste of time for the current situation.

So she really shouldn't...

"When I first got home, I wanted to say, I hate how you old guys treat my fiancee."

Gojo Satoru's tone was lazy, as if he insisted on saying good morning to her every morning without waking up.The words that can be spoken are sharp and sharp.

"I didn't want to be so blunt at first. If I directly pointed out your bad attitude, it would only embarrass her. She really wanted to come to see you, and I couldn't let her down. But what you have shown The reaction that comes out is really too naive, right?"

He laughed wantonly, as if in contempt.This laughter made the elder's face turn pale.They obviously didn't make a sound, but their expressions seemed to be whispering.

And Gojo Satoru continued talking.His words were not finished yet.

"Since you are so dissatisfied with her blood, why didn't you obstruct us when I first fell in love with her? After all, I still think she is easy to bully, so even if you want to cancel the engagement, you can only dare to say goodbye to her." I watched her talk, but didn't mention half of it to me. So naive, so naive.

"No matter how bad things happened in the past, it has nothing to do with her. It has nothing to do with you. Don't you think it's ridiculous to let future generations bear the mistakes of previous generations? Well... All in all, I will definitely marry her .”

He held Yeshi's hand with a somewhat complacent pride on his expression.

I don't know if it's an illusion, but it seems that for a moment, their rings touched together, making an imperceptible "ding" sound.

"Today is just a routine to bring my bride to meet you, lest you tell me I don't know how to be polite. That's all."

66.

—June 2018, Tokyo, Nishitama-gun—

Gojo Satoru let out a long "Hey—" and curled the corner of his mouth, which was exaggerated to the extreme, as if he was very depressed, but in fact he was not that depressed.

He was still thinking just now, if she agreed to this over-the-top marriage proposal, then he would take her to the district office to fill out the marriage registration form without hesitation, even if the staff of the district office were off work, he would definitely find a way to submit it. on the marriage application.

But she said no.Gojo Satoru was neither surprised nor sad.There may be a little bit of frustration, but compared to such a gloomy mood, he is even more grateful that he gave the answer of refusal.

Because that's what "Yae no Yuki" will do.

Gojo Satoru wouldn't ask her why, he just wanted to hug his lover.Yezhi always lay quietly on his shoulders, and the warm light from the roof lights enveloped them.Compared with the sweltering heat of early summer, the temperature that envelops them at this moment is more like the old warmth they are most familiar with.

"Don't you feel pain?" She suddenly asked, "I think you are in pain."

"Ok?"

Gojo Satoru didn't understand what she meant by that for a moment.

Afterwards, he retreated a few minutes, leaving Gojo Satoru's arms, but his hands were still tightly held by him, as if fearing that she would suddenly disappear without a trace.

The old warmth disappeared without a trace, and she actually felt a little cold, but it wasn't the kind of cold that made people want to shiver.She stared at Gojo Satoru.

"Don't you feel that when you hold me, you will be tendered by my left arm? It must be."

This is also what "Yae Yeshi" would say.But no matter how reasonable it was, Gojo Satoru was still sad.

He shook his head: "No, of course it doesn't hurt. But I must say, your hand is indeed a bit hard."

He wasn't deliberately joking, but he laughed, and the corners of his mouth were pulled into an unnatural arc.

She moved her lips and said something, but her voice was so weak that it seemed that only her lips were moving.The words that were spoken were strangled in the air before they could reach Gojo Satoru.But Gojo Satoru heard it anyway.

Hear her say:

"It hurts. Right now, the left hand, it hurts."

Gojo Satoru knew what the symptoms were.Long, long ago—on the day of the accident, he spent the whole night searching for all the sequelae related to the loss of limbs.

So he knew that a mental illness called phantom limb pain was afflicting her right now.

He folded his hands together, wrapped Ye Zhi's hard left hand in his palm, and kissed her fingertips lightly.

Hot lips meet robotic hands, love meets self-loathing.

"The pain is flying away."

His tone sounded like he was coaxing a child.

Ye Zhi pursed his lips tightly, unable to hold back the tears anymore.She covered her face and wept silently.She has been like this since before, and she never likes to be seen crying.Gojo Satoru knows this best.

Even though he knew this well, he still held Yeshi's wrist, gently let her lower his hand, hugged her, and stroked her soft hair as he did in the past.

"It's okay to cry in my arms." He whispered something that only she could hear, "I'll pretend I didn't see anything."

"Even if you can't see it, you'll hear it..."

"Yeah, I actually forgot that. Well, I'll just cover my ears."

He felt him shaking his head.

"No...it's okay to watch me cry."

"Well. You used to cry in front of me all the time."

"I do not have."

"There are some."

"no!"

Ye Zhi stubbornly insisted on such rhetoric.That being the case, Gojo Satoru no longer deliberately denied it, and nodded slightly, as if affirming her statement.

She also always just cried quietly - she never cried.

The car lights passing by the side of the road left bright afterimages.Before she knew it, Yezhi's idea of ​​"going home early" had completely come to naught, but she didn't realize it, she just curled up in the shadow cast by Gojo Satoru.

"I am not me now. I bear their lives. So I cannot marry you."

Her words were calmer than expected.She was thankful that there was no cry in her voice.

"I'm going to put an end to everything, then I can think about my own business - and then I can be like me. Believe me, it will be over soon. I can see the end and I can see it That curse spirit."

She couldn't stop shaking.

"I'll take it back. Not just my limbs and the ring, I'll bring home the remains of my brothers and sisters that were eaten. I'll kill that spell too...

"...I will exorcise 'her'."

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