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When Sheng Fengshi came back from class, Yuan Mu reported to him immediately.

"Yao Ruoyu has been here, I feel she is abnormal." Yuan Mu said sitting opposite Sheng Fengshi.

"Oh?"

"She's been gone for a while, but I'm still very unwell."

"Why are you uncomfortable?"

Yuan Mu said, "I feel uncomfortable."

With a smile in his eyes, Sheng Feng asked unhurriedly, "Are you acting like a baby to me?"

Yuan Mu blushed, and said softly, "Yes."

Sheng Fengshi: "Hand."

Yuan Mu honestly handed his right hand palm up to Sheng Fengshi, Sheng Fengshi's left hand held the back of Yuan Mu's hand from below, and his right hand relaxed and covered Yuan Mu's hand, from wrist to palm to fingers, gently gently Caress, like comforting a frightened child.

Yuan Mu blushed even more at this action.

After a few times, Sheng Fengshi patted Yuan Mu's palm and asked, "Is it better?"

Yuan Mu nodded and said, "It's much better."

"Now tell me, why is she out of order?"

Yuan Mu withdrew his hand and recalled Yao Ruoyu's words and deeds: "As soon as she came, she asked me if I was a teaching assistant. I said no. She said that I cheated on her, and then got emotional and questioned me repeatedly. I was worried that she would lose control, so I told her I was carpenter."

Sheng Fengshi frowned: "Repeated questioning? No skills?"

Yuan Mu shook his head: "No. She is in a very contradictory state, as if she is in urgent need of venting, and she is restraining something, so her speech is very confusing."

"Restraint..." Sheng Fengshi repeated in her mouth, thinking about it, the last time she found that Yao Ruoyu was emotionally unstable, she also felt this way.That time Yao Ruoyu didn't vent, only restrained.Sheng Fengshi connects Yao Ruoyu's recent events in series, the first is being blind dated, the second is on the road of pretending to be in love again, the third is visiting Yue Rong, what else?Others are related to Yuan Mu.Seeing Yuan Mu appearing in the office, Yao Ruoyu tried to help her and Yuan Mu get together, asked Yuan Mu to have dinner and chat several times, and got angry because of Yuan Mu's "just acquaintance", after that?It was she who had lunch with Yao Ruoyu and found that Yao Ruoyu was emotionally unstable.

There are two lines here, and Sheng Fengshi is temporarily unable to determine which one caused the impact, or whether these two lines prompted Yao Ruoyu's disorder.

Yesterday afternoon, Yuan Mu had dinner with Yao Ruoyu. Yuan Mu returned to the dormitory and called her.At that time, she didn't ask Yao Ruoyu what she had said on the phone. Yao Ruoyu was free to tell whom Yao Ruoyu wanted to confide in. Sheng Fengshi thought that even as a friend, she shouldn't ask in detail, but the situation was developing too fast, and Sheng Fengshi couldn't care about it now .

"When you and Yao Ruoyu were having dinner, what did Yao Ruoyu say about herself?" Sheng Fengshi asked.

"Yao Ruoyu said... that she wanted to know what is in our world. The real communication is between you and me. Ask me if I will take you to meet your parents."

Sheng Fengshi analyzed: "She wants to know how we get along and how we develop."

"Oh, and also, she said that she is not worthy to be like us. She also said that she found that she wanted something." Yuan Mu thought for a while and said, "That should be the most important thing."

Sheng Fengshi asked: "Is she envious?"

Yuan Mu said, "I asked her that too. She said yes."

Sheng Fengshi found it incredible, and even smiled: "She never said that she envied me. She has always thought that she is better adapted to society than me, so she is at a higher level."

Yuan Mu disagreed: "If she thinks she is better than you in everything, she won't insist on having a relationship with you."

Sheng Fengshi nodded: "That's right."

Yuan Mu asked: "You and I, is there any quality in us that she doesn't have? Then this quality is what she desires."

Sheng Fengshi said: "Severed from relatives, alienated from friends, this is me. Alienated from relatives, severed from friends, this is you. Harmonious with relatives, close to friends, this is Yao Ruoyu."

Yuan Mu took her thinking a step further: "Be honest with your lover, this is us. Has Yao Ruoyu ever had a lover?"

"Yes." There are many more.

But Sheng Fengshi went on to say: "There is one person she can never forget, that person is the girlfriend she has talked with for the longest time, from college to work, and then they had a disagreement because of the issue of coming out, dragged on for a year, and finally separated gone."

Yuan Mu hypothesized: "Could she be envious of you coming out?"

Sheng Fengshi murmured: "It's possible. She once confided to me the pain of not coming out, and I advised her at that time that it is a blessing to be able to maintain a close relationship with her family, and she is blessed."

"Why do you persuade me so?"

Sheng Fengshi said: "At that time, she had lost her love for half a year, but she still didn't get out of the pain. Not only did she lose her lover, but also her relationship with her family deteriorated. She was determined not to come out, even though she struggled, she never changed her mind, so I advised her to at least hold on to one side. .In fact, you can have a good relationship without going out. There will always be someone who thinks the same as her. The two of you will cover each other, and you can live without telling the family. But Yao Ruoyu seems to believe that if you don’t go out, you can’t last long."

Yuan Mu agrees with Sheng Fengshi's point of view: "I also advise her in the same way, don't think about another way after walking one way."

"It's too difficult to do." Sheng Fengshi said, "You and I are people who only look at one road and have no other choice in their eyes. But in the eyes of many people, they can go any road, so they can go Will look left and right, hesitate to move forward."

"Yao Ruoyu said that she tried not to communicate with the outside world like us, and she felt lonely..." Yuan Mu thought about what the word said, "She felt lonely."

"So she can't walk our way."

Yuan Mu nodded.

The discussion came to an end, and the two remained silent, sorting out what they had just said in their minds.

Then Yuan Mu put forward his own judgment: "She suddenly wanted to go our way, but intellectually she had to restrain herself."

"Why do you suddenly want to leave?" Sheng Fengshi enlightened Yuan Mu.

"Because... because she only knew you as an extreme person before," Yuan Mu recalled what Yao Ruoyu said, "but now that you have me, it shows that your path is feasible."

"Yes. I think the same as you."

Yuan Mu continued to think deeply: "She came up with the idea of ​​being friends with you because you admitted your orientation in high school, and she admired your courage. She was attracted by your own way of doing things, so she began to approach you in college. You, have been friends with you until now."

Sheng Fengshi agreed: "This analysis is reasonable. However, I have other ideas. Yao Ruoyu was married once, which made her family believe that she can get married and have children, just like ordinary people, and she is now in love. Maybe her family put pressure on her."

Yuan Mu couldn't help nodding, and made a conclusion: "So she is very contradictory, and her emotions are out of control."

After the two completed a whole set of analysis, they suddenly fell silent for a while.

Yuan Mu asked a question: "How can we help her?"

The original intention of conducting this series of analyzes around Yao Ruoyu was to help Yao Ruoyu, but the two of them analyzed well, but they still didn't know what to do.Sheng Fengshi and Yuan Mu were in a daze when they faced each other. They didn't have any friends, and it was unprecedented to analyze Yao Ruoyu's behavior beyond the boundary of getting along with friends in their hearts. How could they have any experience in helping friends?

Sheng Fengshi said, "I don't know."

Yuan Mu: "I don't know either."

Another moment of silence.

Yuan Mu said, "She will come tomorrow."

Sheng Fengshi thought for a moment: "Then she should have come over during my meeting in the afternoon."

Yuan Mu asked: "Do you think it will help her if I tell her about me?"

Sheng Fengshi said: "Her anger is not only because of your concealment, these things are also an outlet for her to vent."

Yuan Mu: "I'll let her vent her emotions first, and then tell her about me."

Sheng Fengshi had no better way, and said: "At present, this is the only way. We want to help her, and we also need her to be willing to accept our help. Moreover, we don't have the ability to channel emotions. Once we rashly reveal her cover-up, we may There will be more serious consequences. In fact, I think what she needs now is not us, but a psychiatrist. But she will definitely not accept this suggestion."

Yuan Mu was very distressed and worried about Yao Ruoyu's mental state.Although she said that she and Yao Ruoyu are not friends, it is undeniable that Yao Ruoyu's initiative these days has left a deep mark in her heart. If Yao Ruoyu can get along with her without purpose, she is still willing to be with Yao Ruoyu Try to be friends.

Since I can't think of a solution to this problem for the time being, it's better to let go first, so as not to get into a dead end.

The two sat opposite each other in silence for 5 minutes and began to discuss what to have for dinner.

After get off work today, they are going to go grocery shopping.Thinking of this, the dullness in Sheng Fengshi's heart was gradually cleared away. From today onwards, they will eat at home, and her house will finally be filled with fireworks.When there was no Yuan Mu in the past, Sheng Fengshi didn't feel lonely, and didn't feel that there was anything wrong with a family of one person. In just a few decades, it's not easy to live, just choose a lifestyle that you like.But now with Yuan Mu, Sheng Fengshi felt, um, that's it.

In fact, life itself has not changed much. I still have to work, eat three meals a day, and sleep for seven or eight hours, but my heart is still different.It seems that with this person, the days to come will be more steadfast.

Sheng Fengshi spent a lot of time today.Fortunately, her work efficiency has not decreased, and she has done all the things that should be done, otherwise she really doesn't have the capital to spend.

After work, after shopping for groceries and returning home, Yuan Mu changed into slippers and house clothes, washed vegetables and cooked meals, and did housework at Shengfengshi. His ears could not help but listen to the sound of the kitchen, the sound of water, the noise of the range hood, and the vegetables in the pot. The "sizzling" sound from raw to cooked is satisfying, and the ears are full before the mouth has eaten.

When the food was served, it was steaming, Sheng Fengshi and Yuan Mu sat at the table and started their dinner.

Many people in modern times feel that a house without a TV is not a home, so even if the TV is on and no one is turning it on, one must be placed in the living room.So what about when ordinary people couldn't afford a TV?And earlier, before television was invented?Isn't home a home?

Sheng Fengshi likes the fireworks at home now, but she doesn't think that without this smoke, home is not home.Someone has a home.With her and Yuan Mu, this is home.