42 ten

As the car drove out of the school, Yao Ruoyu's worries were gradually left behind as the distance increased.

Yao Ruoyu glanced at Yuan Mu who was sitting upright.When he was with her, Yuan Mu rarely took the initiative to speak. As long as she, Yao Ruoyu, was quiet, it would be quiet in the car, quiet in the dormitory, quiet in the office, and quiet in the restaurant.It was as quiet as if she was the only one there.

Yao Ruoyu asked: "I haven't seen you for a few days, do you miss me?"

Yuan Mu said, "Thought about it."

"Thank you." Yao Ruoyu smiled.

Yuan Mu asked: "Are you in a bad mood?"

"What's wrong? Well, thank you for your concern. But you and Fengshi, what happened to you these few days?"

Yuan Mu: "Hmm..." He lowered his head and pursed his lips into a smile.

Seeing her appearance as a little girl, Yao Ruoyu couldn't help laughing, and asked, "Did you confess?"

Yuan Mu blushed, they were confessing to each other.

Yao Ruoyu was surprised: "Really confessed? It was so fast. So now... are you a couple?"

Yuan Mu hadn't thought about the word "love couple". Ever since she understood her own intentions, all she wanted was to live with Sheng Fengshi, and she hadn't thought about how to define the relationship between the two of them.Now hearing Yao Ruoyu say this word, Yuan Mu silently recited it a few times in his heart, thinking that this word is good and very intimate.

Yuan Mu blushed and nodded: "Yes."

Yao Ruoyu looked at her distractedly, Yuan Mu was young, with plump cheeks, adding a layer of beige color is really good-looking, healthy and healthy.Yao Ruoyu said, "You like her very much."

Yuan Mu said, "I like it very much."

"That's great." Yao Ruoyu sighed in an unclear manner.

Yuan Mu heard the blessing and said thank you, but Yao Ruoyu just smiled and didn't answer.

After parking the car, the two took the elevator upstairs.Yao Ruoyu said: "To celebrate your harmony, I will treat you today."

Yuan Mu remembered Sheng Fengshi's instructions and agreed.

Yao Ruoyu smiled and said, "People change when they fall in love, and you are willing to let me treat you. Then to celebrate my successful treat for the second time, I will treat you next time, how about it?"

Yuan Mu looked at Yao Ruoyu like an alien, what kind of logic is this?

"Okay, okay, I won't tease you anymore, let's talk about it next time."

When the floor arrived, the two walked to the dining room.Because it was Yao Ruoyu's treat, Yuan Mu asked Yao Ruoyu to order, but he only ordered a cup of tea.

After the waiter walked away, Yao Ruoyu tapped the table repeatedly with her fingertips. Now Yuan Mu also felt that something was wrong with her. Yao Ruoyu didn't want to talk?

Yao Ruoyu glanced at her eyes and said with a chuckle, "What eyes do you have? Aren't I just learning from you, listening to the voice of nature."

Yuan Mu said, "This place is not natural."

"Then listen to the voice of life. Don't be too serious about it. Yao Ruoyu's tone is lower than usual, and she looks a lot more stable. "I have only seen Sheng Fengshi before, such an extreme person.I thought she was an exception, but I didn't expect there to be another you.I was thinking, what is there in your world that attracts you so much that it can cut off communication with the outside world?I have been trying these past few days, not communicating with the outside world like you, and closing myself off, but I didn't feel anything, except the coldness. "

Yuan Mu corrected: "We haven't closed ourselves off, I have friends, and I have friends at any time."

"Yes, you have friends. But you and her, between the two of you, is the real communication, right? So you break through the gap and walk together, and you don't care what others think of you, which is already very... …It’s weird. You live in this society, it’s full of people, but you live as if there’s no one else.”

Yuan Mu frowned and said, "I don't know what emotion you are expressing. Are you envious or questioning?"

Yao Ruoyu was hoarse.

Yuan Mu said: "You can be whoever you are. You can't want this and want that. You ask what is in our world, but there is nothing, it is blank, you can imagine that you live in a Is it in the void? 20 years, 40 years? You can’t bear it, so you don’t understand. What attracts us is this void, clean and clean, so we live as if there is no one else but ourselves. I’m lucky to meet , There is her in my world, and me in her world, this is what we want. If we have these and want to blend in with the crowd, that is greed.”

"you're right."

Yuan Mu reflected: She seems to have blocked Yao Ruoyu's confession?As a listener, she is really unqualified.

Fortunately, Yao Ruoyu was only silent for a moment, and was still willing to continue: "You are with Fengshi, so you won't go back to your hometown in the future?"

"I have to go back several times a year, I like the mountains."

"Have you ever thought about taking Fengshi back with you?"

"Think, I will in the future."

"Take her to meet her parents?"

Yuan Mu gave her a strange look and said, "Take her to see the mountains. But if you live in my house, you will also meet my father."

"What if your dad can't accept you being with a woman?"

"Then I'd be sorry."

Yao Ruoyu asked in a daze: "It's just a pity? What if your father's attitude is strong and he won't let you in?"

"He wouldn't do that, at most he didn't see it."

Yao Ruoyu was puzzled: "You have a bad relationship with your father?"

"Very good. Oh, according to your standards, it might not be good. Fengshi and I are very close..." Yuan Mu thought about what to say, "We don't even have that close relationship with our family."

"why?"

"Are you asking me and my dad?" Yuan Mu thought for a long time before hesitating and said, "I may not be able to make you understand. My dad can't express feelings, but I know he loves me. I love him too, But... I am me, he is him, so you understand?"

"That is to say, you have lived with your father for 20 years, and you still have a distance from him?"

"Yes, our personality limits us, and I can't feel the intimacy of family members."

Yao Ruoyu asked: "Aren't you sad?"

Yuan Mu said: "It's a pity. But there are always things we can't do."

"I'm very close to my family, so I can't come out." Yao Ruoyu smiled, her eyes were vaguely vicissitudes.

"It's because you want to live easily in all areas of life other than love, so you can't choose."

Yao Ruoyu was stunned, and said with a wry smile: "I am 39 years old, and I am not as clear as your 20-year-old kid. But do you know what it means to come out?"

Yuan Mu curled his lips a little proudly: "The Internet is very developed."

"Okay, you're amazing." Yao Ruoyu smiled, then let out a long sigh, and then smiled again, "Let's eat, we'll talk after we're done."

Yuan Mu nodded: "Okay."

Yao Ruoyu was unusually quiet during dinner today.Yuan Mu finished eating first, and just as he put down his chopsticks, Yao Ruoyu also stopped talking.Yao Ruoyu ordered a bit too many dishes, and some of them were left unfinished. Yuan Mu felt sorry for the food, but she paid attention to controlling her eyes so that Yao Ruoyu didn't see it.Yuan Mu took a short errand and thought: After living with Sheng Fengshi for a few more years, she will definitely make great progress in daily communication, and her conversations with people will not be so stuck and jerky.

Yao Ruoyu asked: "You met Teacher Yue, and you know she is the mother of Time?"

"know."

"How many times did I tell you?"

Yuan Mu answered briefly: "Teacher Yue was her political teacher and homeroom teacher in high school, but she changed classes later."

Yao Ruoyu nodded to express understanding, organized the language, and said: "I am in the same class as Fengshi High School. My mother is also a political teacher, and she teaches in the same class as Teacher Yue, but Teacher Yue is the best at teaching students, so my mother puts me in the same class. In Teacher Yue’s class. It is said that we are all the teacher’s children, so we should get acquainted soon, but I am familiar with the whole class, and I am not familiar with the time. I deliberately asked her questions, and she explained the questions Finished, don't say a word, just leave me on the sidelines and ignore it."

Thinking of the embarrassing experience of having a hot face with a cold buttocks, Yao Ruoyu couldn't help but sigh.

"If I didn't know that Fengshi was Teacher Yue's child, I would definitely not be able to tell. Teacher Yue treats all students in the class equally, unlike some teachers who pay special attention to students with good grades and don't care about those with poor grades. Ask, so each of us respects her very much. She really cares about the students. At that time, we all felt that she treated the students as her own children, including me. I dare not compare my mother with Teacher Yue. I am afraid I don't like my mother that much after all.

"I told you before that I am the class flower, and I am the first in the class at any time. My mother is the kind of very traditional person who thinks that students just want to study well. I don’t do my job properly. I often hear the words from my mother’s mouth, “You learn from others, put all your energy into your studies, and improve your grades.” These words make my ears tingle. She missed me, and I thought in my heart, 'Then why don't you learn from Teacher Yue and improve your teaching level', haha, isn't it very filial?"

Yao Ruoyu laughed.Yuan Mu also found it interesting to hear these things, and was infected by Yao Ruoyu's smile, so he smiled.However, Yao Ruoyu's laughter gradually died down, and finally he sighed, and the topic changed.

"After that incident happened, my mother never said to me 'you learn from Sheng Fengshi', not once. Did Fengshi tell you why she changed classes? I told you, but certainly not in detail. Say, right? Speaking of which, it’s really not a timely mistake.” Yao Ruoyu said, “At that time, there was a girl in our class who was a goddess of literature and art in today’s terms. She usually wrote some small poems and put them in newspapers. Announced, many boys in our school have a crush on her, and as a result, she didn't know which muscle was wrong, and she actually liked to meet the time. I was at the same table with her, and we had a very good relationship, so she didn't avoid me. That girl liked it so much To what extent? She writes a love letter to Fengshi every day. Fengshi admires her very much, and helps her read poems and correct them a few times, but none of the love letters are returned. I am curious that I have followed her after school. Once, I saw her tear up the love letter and throw it away.

"Our school has a discipline team. Once I found the love letter in the drawer of Fengshi. Before opening it, I asked Mr. Yue if he wanted private education. Teacher Yue asked him to treat it fairly, and the discipline team opened the love letter. Later Well, just find out about that girl."

Yao Ruoyu was lost in memory, her face was heavy, and she clenched her hands involuntarily.

"The girl's family wanted to send her to a mental hospital for treatment. The girl was afraid, so she lied and said that Sheng Fengshi first seduced her, and Sheng Fengshi admitted it. Then the girl transferred to another school, and Sheng Fengshi took a month off from school. , The school suppressed this matter."

Yuan Mu asked, "What did Teacher Yue do?"

"I didn't do anything." Yao Ruoyu said, "But then I heard from my mother that before the incident happened, other schools came to recruit Teacher Yue, and Teacher Yue was considering it. After this incident, Teacher Yue refused. At that time, when something like this happened, both of them had to drop out of school. The girl’s family has a background, and she went abroad after transferring to another school. What’s wrong with Sheng Fengshi? I guess the school suppressed this matter to keep Teacher Yue.”

Whether Yao Ruoyu's conjecture is correct or not, only the person involved knows.

Yuan Mu was silent, Yao Ruoyu's narration sounded plain, but it made people dare not think deeply.

Yao Ruoyu noticed that the atmosphere was too dignified, so she smirked and said, "But when I go back to school, she is still the first, isn't she really amazing? I thought she was a god-man at the time."

Yuan Mu could only feel distressed.She asked: "From the perspective of a bystander, what do you think of Teacher Yue's right time?"

Yao Ruoyu thought for a while and said, "After a few years, I became friends with Fengshi. Once I wanted to persuade her to go home and see Teacher Yue. I said, 'Is there any parent in the world who doesn't love their children?" She didn't speak, but she called me when she came home next time. I never dared to use this sentence to persuade her again. There are really parents who don't love their children."

After finishing speaking, Yao Ruoyu suddenly smiled in relief, and said: "You are right, I envy you, dare to be yourself openly. I also have doubts about you, why can you love each other freely? Regardless of the world, regardless of the future There may be so much hard work. But I have enjoyed the care of my family and the praise of others for so many years. I dare not give up these, so I am not worthy of being like you."

Yuan Mu said: "If I can have a close family relationship, I also hope to have it. If I can get along with the people around me, I am willing to do it. It's not whether you deserve it, why don't you deserve it? I I think you are fine. It’s just that you have chosen one path, so you don’t have to think about ‘what would have happened if you took another path at the beginning’, so you will have a lot less trouble.”

"I know what you said, maybe I'm greedy by nature. I used to deceive myself and say that I don't want what I can't get. When I found out that I actually want those things, I couldn't stop longing. "

Yuan Mu had no way to comfort her. After all, Yao Ruoyu was older than her, and her meager life experience was not enough for her to give advice to others with confidence.

"Let's not talk about that, I'll take you back." Yao Ruoyu cheered up and said with a smile.

"it is good."

Yuan Mu really wants to see Sheng Fengshi and shake Sheng Fengshi's hand, but Sheng Fengshi said that she has long ignored these past events.Yuan Mu didn't want to add his subjective emotions to Sheng Fengshi, because Sheng Fengshi didn't need them.Yuan Mu only wanted to have a smiling face when he saw Sheng Fengshi tomorrow.