don't die

Tu Gaogao is a very strange girl, very strange.

Some people say she is withdrawn, some say she is too self-righteous, some say she is a child who can't get sugar, and simply throws the sugar bowl to pieces, but in the eyes of everyone, there is one thing in common, they all think she is stupid .

In school, Tu Gaogao is a person who is too out of place.Whether it's her lack of heart, or her disapproval of the people around her rejecting her, she doesn't hide it at all, which on the contrary arouses the hostility of the people around her.

If you want to say why you hate Tu Gaogao, no one can remember the original reason.It's just that as the rumors spread more and more widely, there were a lot of gossip about her, and gradually Tu Gaogao became the most unpopular type of person in school.

Students are a somewhat naive group. They don't need many reasons to hate someone, just a rumor, a word, or a behavior that makes you uncomfortable.

And Tu Gaogao became the target of such public criticism, or a victim of campus life - every school must have a man of influence, and similarly, there must always be a stepping stone that is stepped on by everyone.She is the stepping stone.

The ignorance of her classmates, the indifference of teachers, and the indifference of strangers, Tu Gaogao is already used to it, and even in her heart, she treats all these people's actions as ridiculous jokes, and sometimes entertains herself some.

However, there is such a person that Tu Gaogao can't ignore, and can't help but notice.

It was a physical education class, and she was "accidentally" hit in the face by a girl in the same group. Hearing the other party's apologetic sound, Tu Gao Gao gritted his teeth at the other party, and stretched out his hand to wipe the dust off his face. Ignoring the ugly looks of the people around him, he walked away, leaving the hypocritical apology behind.

Just as she was standing by the sink in the corner washing the scratches on her face, she felt someone walking behind her.

"You shouldn't be ignoring them like that."

Tu Gaogao raised his head and saw a boy standing nearby. She couldn't remember his name at the moment, but she vaguely remembered that he looked familiar. He should be a student in the same class.Tu Gaogao ignored him, but the boy continued talking on his own.

"They treat you like that, in fact, you only need to show weakness a little bit, those people will not get worse after their goals are achieved..."

"Why?"

Tu Gaogao turned off the faucet tightly, and with a creak, the last drop of water flowed out from it.

"Why should I pretend to please them? What does it matter to me whether they are satisfied?"

The boy was taken aback.

"But you are like this, isn't it hard?"

"It's hard work." Tu Gaogao replied as a matter of course: "I am not autistic, and of course I am not born to like someone, but if you ask me to please them, I can't do it."

The boy frowned, "What is flattery, it's the friendship between classmates."

"Get along well?" Tu Gaogao looked at him, and she remembered who this boy was.An outstanding student in the school, the proud son of heaven in the eyes of the teacher, the most rare thing is that he has a good reputation among the students, he is really all-round.

"As you do, no matter who you talk to, you always greet them with a smile. Whether you like it or not, you always care about other people's face first, and you don't even care about your own. Aren't you tired? Don't dare to show dislike to those who hate you, What's the point of not daring to show liking to the person you like?" Tu Gaogao wiped his face clean, feeling the irritation and pain of the scratches on his face being soaked by water, and felt quite happy.

"Living this kind of life, I'm afraid in the end you don't even know if you will be in pain."

That brief conversation broke up like this, and after that, Tu Gaogao didn't have much chance to continue communicating with that boy, because they were people living in two worlds.But Tu Gaogao would occasionally notice that person.In this way, she gradually discovered things that she didn't usually notice.

The boy never joined in when the class pushed her out, and showed no interest in gossip about her when others discussed it.Occasionally, the two people's eyes will collide, and Tu Gaogao opens his mouth to each other, showing a slightly provocative smile.As for him, he could only turn his head away helplessly, Tu Gaogao always watched with great joy.

She noticed that this boy was different from others.This person will not regard her as a disaster, will not listen to other people's words and misunderstand her, and sometimes Tu Gaogao even thinks that maybe they can be friends.

However, such an idea had just arisen before it was ruthlessly smashed to pieces.Tu Gaogao was blocked by the girls in the class. This is a normal thing, but the atmosphere that day was a little different.

"Tu Gaogao?" The leading girl looked at her as if she was looking down at a worm. "Are you too self-righteous recently and don't know your weight?"

"Is there?" Tu Gaogao smiled nonchalantly, "I don't think so."

"I know you are cheap." The other party smiled coldly, and several girls surrounded her in the middle of the classroom, leaving no gaps.

"We don't care how you hook up with men outside, but this is a school, please restrain your coquettish energy, and don't come out to seduce people casually!"

"Oh, I'm so sorry, I didn't know it was Sao Jin, why don't you demonstrate it?" Tu Gaogao smiled at the other party, and said, "You must be very similar."

"you--!"

Before Tu Gaogao could react, a slap hit his face.The girls wrestled together crazily, and Tu Gaogao fought back not to be outdone, kicked, punched, several of them wrestled together, pulled their hair and pulled their clothes, and their bodies were bruised and purple.

But at this moment, the door of the classroom was pushed open, and a person came in suddenly, all the girls stopped, and the person who broke in was obviously a little bit surprised.

"What... are you doing?" At the end, his tone became serious.

Tu Gaogao's eyes lit up when he saw this boy, and she thought that maybe he was willing to help her.

Seeing Tu Gaogao surrounded by girls, the boy obviously hesitated, as if he was thinking about how to act.

"Don't meddle in your own business." The leading girl called his name and stopped her, "Why do you always protect her? Do you really like her?"

Both of them paused, obviously stunned by a certain word.

"Do you know who she is? Her father is a cripple, and her mother is a lowly prostitute. How dare you like her!"

"There are so many people, it's not good who you like, why do you like Tu Gaogao, why her?!"

"What do you like about her? Could it be that you are the same as her, in fact, you look down on us from the bottom of your heart..."

The more the girl talked, the more excited she became, and she seemed a little hysterical in the end.But Tu Gaogao calmed down. Looking at the girl, she suddenly understood why she came to find fault with her. She is actually a poor guy, isn't she?

But she doesn't care about it now, she looks at the boy, wondering how he will answer.

She thought, even if he said he didn't like it, she didn't think it was a problem, she just wanted to hear an answer.However, after a long time, the boy's hand gradually dropped to his side.He looked at them and just said a word.

"Stop doing these boring things." After finishing speaking, the man left the classroom without looking at Tu Gaogao again, as if he was avoiding something.

At that second, Tu Gaogao heard the sound of something breaking in his heart.

That day, perhaps influenced by the boring sentence left by the boy when he left, the girls didn't make things difficult for her anymore. Since then, for some reason, fewer people came to trouble her.But Tu Gaogao didn't feel relieved, she even felt a little panicked.Because the boy stopped looking at her and stopped communicating with her, several times Tu Gao Gao hesitated to speak, but was avoided by the other party.

Only then did she understand that this person she thought could be her friend, although he never disliked her or bullied her with others, he never said a good word for her, never defended her, and even Never communicated with her in public.

He didn't hate her with the others, but he didn't accept her either.The person she thought she could be friends with was just a coward hiding in the crowd, clearly sober but pretending to be confused.

Since then, Tu Gaogao has become an invisible person in school, no one bullies her, and everyone treats her as if she does not exist.However, the optimist Tu Gaogao, who was originally strong enough to ignore the bullying of the people around her, gradually seemed to be a different person. She became more and more silent and spoke less and less.She doesn't seem to have any friends, and won't have any, except...

Clap, the stone fell to the ground.

"Hey, Heye!"

As time passed, Tu Gaogao came back to his senses from the memories of the past, and picked up the small pebbles that had fallen from his hands.Standing behind her was a friend whom she had known for more than a month.

"Actually, I lied to you when I said that there is a boy who likes me. I don't know if he likes me or not, but I know he must be a coward."

"coward?"

"Obviously, like me, I can see the hypocrisy of others, but I still act with them. Afraid of leaving the group, what is it but a coward?" Tu Gaogao threw the stone in his hand, looking at the blood-like lines. "Actually, when I came to him later, I didn't want to ask him anything, but just wanted to tell him something..."

The girl held the stone tightly in her palm, with a gloomy look in her eyes.

Although Dad was injured, he did not give up every day to do rehabilitation and wanted to stand up again.Mom wasn't a prostitute either, she worked in a nightclub but worked hard to support the family.

She just wanted to clear it up with him.

I am not an outlier, nor a heretic, and my family is not that miserable.She just wanted to clarify a fact, but was avoided by others, not even given a chance.

Why is this?Is it because everyone around her is saying that about her?Because she is a bad girl in other people's mouth?Will he be labeled as bad because of his relationship with her?

A glimmer of hope that sprouted in Tu Gaogao's heart was quietly shattered, and she suddenly saw the world clearly.It is still the same as before, looking at things with superficial eyes, using a simple appearance to distinguish good from bad, but it doesn't care about what is hidden under the reason and under the appearance.

A whore, maybe she's just trying to provide for her family, she also has someone she loves.

A beggar, perhaps he has also had success and fame.

A loser, no one saw his dream chasing heart, but only saw his downfall.

They laughed at her depravity, at his unbearable, at his poverty, so it should be taken for granted.

This world, simple, brutal, and cruel, killed many people who were struggling to escape from the darkness.

"Why is that so?" Tu Gaogao said to himself.

He Ye looked at Tu Gaogao who was lost in thought, and at this girl who was originally very lively and energetic, gradually walking towards an abyss.He witnessed the whole process of this girl being gradually ravaged by this stubborn society. At this moment, he showed a satisfied smile, like a farmer waiting for a good harvest.

"Because that's how it is." He Ye replied: "Seeing the truth behind the scenes will make people start to fear and start to doubt. But it is easier to simply evaluate the good or bad on the surface."

A failed person fails because he is ambitious and because he is useless.

A fallen man falls because he has no self-control and is too weak.

Just like people who commit suicide, people will condemn them for escaping, condemning them for giving up, and laughing at their non-persistence, but no one seriously thinks about it-why?Why is he going to kill himself? - What is it?What drove him to the point where he had to give up his life?

Who is the murderer who caused all this?

"Perhaps after careful consideration, they will find—" Heye smiled slightly, "In fact, everyone is a murderer."

Those who are ridiculed by the losers are murderers, those who step on them are murderers, those who ignore them are murderers, those who watch the excitement are murderers, those who live happily and do not understand their pain are murderers, pretending to be relaxed and thinking If it were me, I would definitely be a bad person and a murderer.

They are like spectators standing downstairs of the suicide, knocking sunflower seeds and chatting. Every move and every word is constantly inciting the people on the roof.

Jump off, jump off, jump off!

Bang-!

And finally, nothing, the ease of having nothing, is death.

The spectators packed up their seeds, picked up their chairs, chatted and left.And maybe - I knew he was going to kill himself, useless coward.Then he clapped his hands and left himself completely, thinking that he had nothing to do with it—but he didn't even know that they were the murderers.On the cliff, giving the last kick to the desperate.

Suicide in this world is actually not suicide, but murder.

After He Ye finished speaking, he smiled at the girl.

"Sorry, it got a bit out of the way, but that's what I wanted to say."

"What do you want to say?" Tu Gaogao's eyes lit up with a strange light.

"Because of you, aren't you surrounded by a lot of 'murderers'? And they don't have any consciousness at all, isn't it too hateful?" He Ye lowered his voice and looked at the girl.

"Those who misunderstood you, those who ignored you, those who laughed at you without permission, those who gave up on you, don't you want them to understand, don't you want to change something?"

"It's not you who are wrong, but these self-righteous guys."

"And that brat who avoided you, don't you want to punish him?" Heye blinked mischievously, "A punishment that he will never forget."

"Then what do I have to pay?"

"It's very simple." Heye smiled, "It's something you were born with."

--life.

The stone reflected light in the girl's hand, like the color in her eyes at this moment, shining with a strange look.

"What can I get?" she asked.

"Not much." Heye said, "A chance to see the truth."

--die.

The boundary between life and death, the answer that death brings.It's just that Heye didn't tell her that this opportunity is only once, and only the living can see the final answer.

I'll tell her, he thought.

If her death can really bring about some changes.If her death can really affect the people around her.

After that, he will burn a stick of incense to this fearless experiment.

What can death bring?

The stone reflects the light, from the past to the present, from the people before, to the hands of the people now.

In the palm of the new owner, the bloody light continued to radiate.

Lin Shen held the stone and turned it over.

"There's a secret here, a secret I don't know."

As soon as he finished speaking, he looked at He Tun, but suddenly noticed that something was wrong with his face.

He Tun's face was paler than he had ever seen before, and his pupils were constricted, as if he had seen something extremely frightening.

"Hey!"

"Hey, what's wrong with you?!"

He Tun couldn't hear Lin Shen's words at all, and after carefully seeing the shape and appearance of the stone that Lin Shen took out, he couldn't move his eyes away.

The blood-like fine lines, the translucent texture, everything is so familiar, as if it was just yesterday!

It was yesterday—

"Hey!"

Surprised, Lin Shen supported the man who staggered suddenly, and hugged him tightly.In his arms, He Tun showed a painful expression, his eyes were confused.

[Go and punish the person who escaped you. 】

[A punishment that he will never forget. 】

What will death bring?

Perhaps, it is a mistake that can never be made up for.