Director of Rebirth

According to the ward number mentioned by Li Yaping, Shi Lei came to the third floor, ward 307. The closer he got to ward 307, the slower Shi Lei walked. Shi Lei was about to see his mother who had been missing for more than ten years again, Shi Lei couldn't tell what it was like in his heart, apart from missing, there was also an unspeakable pain.

Taking a deep breath, Shi Lei plucked up his courage and pushed open the door of the ward. Standing by the door, Shi Lei saw his mother sitting on the bed near the window. At this moment, Shi Lei found that he was not as strong as he imagined, nor as indifferent as he imagined. The scenes of mother and son getting along from childhood to adulthood emerged from the bottom of his heart. Those memories that he thought he had forgotten made Shi Lei deeply aware. Those precious memories are not forgotten, but locked deep in my heart.

"Xiao Lei." When a slightly hoarse but gentle familiar shout sounded, Shi Lei's eyes became more and more moist. Shi Lei, who didn't dare to blink for fear that tears would fall, walked quickly to his mother's side, and the luggage bag in his hand fell to the ground.

Hugging his thin mother Li Yajing, Shi Lei put his head on his mother's bony shoulders, and quietly wiped away the tears that fell instantly, Shi Lei said with a choked voice, "Mom, I'm back."

Although Li Yajing who was hugged by her son did not see Shi Lei's tears, Shi Lei's choked words still made Li Yajing's heart ache, and she patted Shi Lei's back lightly like when her son was wronged when she was a child, "Xiao Lei Be obedient and let mom see."

Shi Lei agreed, and took the opportunity to raise his head to wipe the wet corners of his eyes again. Shi Lei raised his head and looked at Li Yajing with a smile, "Mom, my son is back."

Li Yajing looked at Shi Lei who hadn't seen him for more than half a year, with tenderness, pride and nostalgia in her eyes, she stretched out her hand to hold Shi Lei's hand, "Xiao Lei, sit down, sit beside Mom."

Shi Lei agreed to sit next to Li Yajing, and let Li Yajing look at him unceasingly, occasionally reaching out to touch his cheek, when Li Yajing's familiar warm fingertips brushed across his cheek, Shi Lei's heart trembled violently, and his throat was congested. Shi Lei couldn't say a word.

The two mothers just looked at each other silently, with attachment and warmth that outsiders could not penetrate at all. This scene made Li Yaping, who was standing by the side, sneak out of the ward. Just after leaving the ward, Li Yaping covered her mouth and cried, crying for the poor Li Yajing also cried for poor Shi Lei.

Li Yaping was afraid of what the doctor said. The expert I found looked at Li Yajing’s examination carefully. It seemed that a bunch of grape tumors were all over Li Yajing’s uterus. Although I didn’t know if it was benign or malignant because no section was done, my acquaintance asked specifically. Malignant The possibility is 80.00%. Li Yaping, who heard the news at the time, couldn't stand it and fell to the ground directly.

After staying with his mother for a long time, and putting his frail mother to sleep, Shi Lei stuffed his luggage under his mother's bed, and asked his aunt in the same ward to look after him. Shi Lei strode out of the ward. Seeing Li Yaping with red and swollen eyes sitting on the stool in the corridor, Shi Lei paused slightly, and walked quickly to Li Yaping, "Second Aunt, take me to my mother's attending physician?"

Shi Lei supported Li Yaping who nodded and agreed, and the two went directly to the doctor's office. Li Yaping took Shi Lei to find Li Yajing's chief doctor and friend's brother-in-law Liu Liguo.

Pointing at Shi Lei, Li Yaping forced a smile, "Brother-in-law, this is my nephew, my eldest sister's son." Then she looked at Shi Lei, "Xiao Lei, this is Uncle Liu, your mother's attending doctor."

Standing in front of Director Liu, Shi Lei regained his composure, "Hello, Uncle Liu, can you tell me what's going on with my mother?"

Liu Liguo looked at the tall and straight Shi Lei standing in front of him, and nodded secretly, that's right, it's not like other family members of patients. It's small, but at least he can keep calm. For Liu Liguo, as a doctor, what he fears most is the non-cooperation of the patient's family members.

Liu Liguo took out Li Yajing's film, held it up, and pointed to a large piece of black, "Xiao Lei, the tumor in your mother's uterus is a bunch, you know grapes, it's a bunch of grapes, although they haven't been sliced ​​yet, but the tumors in your mother's uterus are clusters. The possibility is relatively high, I will arrange for your mother to come to the stage tomorrow, take out the sick body and check it out."

Although Shi Lei couldn't read the film, he could clearly see the big black spot. Taking a deep breath, Shi Lei looked at Liu Liguo who had put away the film, "Uncle Liu, if my mother's tumor is malignant, what should I do?" Is it possible to recover from surgery?"

Shi Lei's words surprised Li Yaping and Liu Liguo. Liu Liguo could understand Shi Lei's mood, but Li Yajing's situation was not good. Liu Liguo shook his head, "Xiao Lei, you were introduced by an acquaintance. Let me tell you the truth. Regardless of the cost of the operation, your mother Li Yajing's physical condition does not allow surgery. As family members, you should know that Li Yajing has coronary heart disease and diabetes. Her coronary heart disease is very serious, and her heart is higher than normal. The NPC has nearly doubled in size, and the characteristic of diabetes is non-hemolysis. Once this happens during the operation, Li Yajing may not be able to get off the operating table. I suggest you accept conservative treatment.”

Liu Liguo's words made Shi Lei feel his head buzzing and his eyes were filled with white light, and Liu Liguo's words made Li Yaping sway for a while, tears welled up from his eyes, he grabbed Shi Lei's arm, Shi Lei held Li Yaping to comfort him He patted the back of Li Yaping's hand holding his arm, and forced himself to calm down. Liu Liguo, who had a little expectation, said, "Uncle Liu, can you tell me how long my mother can last with conservative treatment?"

Liu Liguo pondered for a moment, "Let's see what the slices look like tomorrow. If it's late, you should be ready."

Shi Lei closed his eyes, suppressing the tears that were about to come up, and opened his eyes again, Shi Lei looked at Liu Liguo with a decision in his eyes, "Uncle Liu, I want to take my mother's case to the provincial capital, you see May I?"

Liu Liguo nodded, Shi Lei's mood was completely within his understanding range, anyone else would not easily give up the lives of his loved ones, and his desire to go to a big city is also within the normal range, "I will sort it out for you today. Check out the case, and the results of the biopsy will come out tomorrow, so you can take the case and the film to the provincial capital to have a look, and I will give you a name, that is my senior brother, who is also an expert in this field, let him have a look."

Shi Lei's eyes lit up, he carefully let go of Li Yaping, and bowed vigorously, "Uncle Liu, thank you."

On Tuesday, December 1997, 12, at nine o'clock in the morning, Li Yajing was pushed into the operating room, waiting anxiously. An hour and a half later, Li Yajing was pushed out, took the cart from the nurse, and looked at the woman on the cart with her eyes closed Li Yajing, Shi Lei's nose was sore, he pushed Li Yajing back to the ward, Shi Lei carefully picked up his thin mother, the weight of his hands made Shi Lei's movements slightly pause, he gently put his mother on the hospital bed, covered the quilt, Shi Lei Sitting aside, holding the mother's no longer warm palm.

The palms full of calluses and the cold fingertips made Shi Lei's heart slowly turn cold. After a while, Shi Lei took the warm towel handed over by Li Yaping, and gently wiped his mother's bloodless cheeks and skin. With cold hands, Li Ya, who hadn't passed the anesthesia, was lying quietly on the hospital bed. Looking at such a mother, Shi Lei felt as if his whole heart was being tightly grasped, and the pain was severe.

At one o'clock in the afternoon, Li Yajing slowly opened her eyes, saw Shi Lei sitting by the bed, and smiled subconsciously. Li Yajing, who was not yet fully awake, was not very conscious, but this did not prevent Li Yajing from seeing her son at the moment smile.

This gentle and loving smile made Shi Lei smile, he bent his back and lay on top of Li Yajing's head, "Mom, does it hurt?"

Li Yajing blinked her misty eyes, smiled and shook her head again, then shook her head again after a long while, the three different attitudes made Shi Lei's heart sore, stretched out her big hand and gently brushed her mother's messy hair, "Mom, it's okay, just say something when it hurts, don't bear it."

Li Yajing smiled and nodded slowly. Shi Lei stayed with her mother all day long. At ten o'clock in the evening, Shi Lei returned hot water, washed her mother's feet, and wiped her face with a warm towel. Li Yajing, who tidied up quickly, slowly fell asleep after the painkiller injection took effect. Looking at the sleeping mother who looked like a child, Shi Lei prayed silently for the first time, praying to the gods in the sky, so that the mother's fast forward pace would slow down again. slow down.

At nine o'clock the next morning, Shi Lei handed his mother to Li Yaping and came to Liu Liguo's office alone. At this time, Liu Liguo was reading the biopsy report of Shi Lei's mother Li Yajing. As he expected, Li Yajing's tumor was malignant. And it's late.

Seeing Shi Lei walking in, even Liu Liguo, who is used to seeing life and death, sighed secretly. He already knew from his brother-in-law that the mother and the mother had been dependent on each other since childhood, so he put away the sympathy in his heart, and Liu Liguo called Shi Lei to sit down. Next, "Xiao Lei, the results of your mother's biopsy have come out, and it has been confirmed that it is an advanced stage of uterine cancer."

Liu Liguo's words made Shi Lei's heart ache as if he had been hit hard by a sledgehammer. Although he knew the result a long time ago, Shi Lei still felt very distressed when he faced it intuitively again. He took a deep breath and stabilized himself. Feeling emotional, Shi Lei looked at Liu Liguo with reddened eyes, "Uncle Liu, I want to take my mother's case to the provincial capital, and I won't be reconciled if I don't try other hospitals."

Liu Liguo nodded at Shi Lei's request, and put the prepared cases, films, and section results into bags and handed them to Shi Lei, "You go to the General Hospital of Medical University, my brother works there, director of the oncology department, you go directly, I will give Make a phone call, show him all the cases, and see if there is anything the provincial capital can do."

Shi Lei took the file bag, "Uncle Liu, thank you." After saying thank you softly, Shi Lei took the file bag containing his mother's medical records and left the office, returned to the ward, and after lightly explaining to Li Yaping, Shi Lei hurriedly took the money He left the General Hospital of the Oilfield and embarked on a journey to seek medical treatment.

Shi Lei, who arrived in the provincial capital at [-] o'clock in the afternoon, stepped out of the platform and took a taxi directly to the General Hospital of Medical University. On the sixth floor, he found Liu Liguo's senior brother, Zhang Mengtian, the director of the Oncology Department of the General Hospital of Medical University. The case, combined with what Liu Liguo said, and after reading the complete case, film, and biopsy, gave the same answer as Liu Liguo, not suitable for surgery, conservative treatment.

Forcibly suppressing the disappointment, Shi Lei forced a smile to thank Zhang Mengtian and left the hospital with heavy steps, standing at the gate of the General Hospital of the Medical University, looking at the bustling crowd, Shi Lei couldn't hold back for a while, did he just give up like this? ?No, Shi Lei shook his head vigorously, the light of not giving up appeared in his eyes, looking at the portfolio in his hand, Shi Lei hurried to the train station, stood at the ticket gate, and asked if there was a train bound for the capital at night, but there was no seat number , Shi Lei bought a train ticket to the capital at eight o'clock in the evening.

Walking out of the station, Shi Lei ate a bowl of noodles at the entrance of the station, and then returned to the waiting room. Shi Lei found a corner with fewer people, and stood quietly by the side waiting for the 06:30 p.m. train. It is [-]:[-] in the evening.

Standing in the bustling waiting room, Shi Lei in military uniform seemed to be separated from everyone, standing in the crowd but showing a sense of loneliness and a touch of indifference, this kind of Shi Lei made people stare at him but dare not approach .

Shi Lei is a typical Northeast person, with a height of 1.7 meters [-]. Because of his military relationship, he has a tall and straight figure, and his whole body exudes a spirit of energy. The first impression of everyone who sees Shi Lei is that this young man is really energetic, but carefully Looking at it, you will find that Shi Lei lacks the enthusiasm that is unique to Northeast people. Although he is wearing a green military uniform, his face is a bit cold, and this coldness is not deliberately pretended, but it can be seen that Shi Lei is not a passionate person by nature.

At [-]:[-] in the evening, Shi Lei boarded the train bound for the capital. Shi Lei, who only had a station ticket in his hand, stood at the door of the aisle of two carriages. In the middle, Shi Lei just stood by the door and looked out of the window through the small window.

Shi Lei hoped that this trip to the capital would give him hope. Shi Lei didn't want his mother to recover, as long as he could let her live a few more years. After all, his mother was only 44 years old, too young. Shi Lei couldn't bear his mother's death so early.

One stop after another, the next day, at noon on December 12th, Shi Lei, who had been standing all night and half morning, finally arrived at the capital. The pickets stopped him.

Shi Lei held back his agitated mood, and looked expressionlessly at the sergeant squad leader standing in front of him, saluting and asking for his ID. Shi Lei took out his soldier ID from his pocket and handed it to the serious sergeant squad leader wearing a helmet. When he saw Shi Lei's certificate showing the [-]th Company of the [-]rd Battalion of the Tank Brigade of the H Army Division, the inspecting squad leader raised his head and looked at Shi Lei, "Visiting relatives?"

Shi Lei stretched out his hand and took back the certificate held by the monitor, "Seek a doctor." After finishing speaking, Shi Lei put the certificate in his pocket and walked over the monitor to leave quickly. The brief conversation between the two, the back view of Shi Lei leaving indifferently, let the standing The captain of the picket company, Boriged, let out a burst of laughter. The picket squad leader squinted at Boriged, whose tongue was exposed, "You take over, and I'll go back." After speaking, he untied the picket on his arm. The armband was stuffed into Boriged's hand, and he turned around and left the station slowly, leaving Bozhiged staring at his back with a face full of astonishment.