red dust under the lamp

Xie Yichen's expression relaxed, he hesitated for a moment, put down the book, and approached the entrance with his wheelchair.

Ning Jue came in and closed the door... It was very windy outside, she looked down at Xie Yichen's soft hair, and felt that the wind was troublesome, so she took off a colorful hair rope from her wrist, gathered Xie Yichen's long hair, and tied it up at the back of her head .

Then he pushed open the door, the wind blew his hair, and the slight coolness trickled down his buttocks into his limbs.

The leaves of the maple trees were blown red a lot, and all of them had red anger in their hearts. The wreckage of their jumps was scattered on the concrete floor, and they looked ugly after being pushed over.

Behind the maple tree at the door, there are bald poplar trees and ginkgo trees. The wind blows the leaves and rustles. It is still noon, and the sun is still warm. Ning Jue narrowed his eyes, pushed Xie Yichen down, and walked along a gravel path Entering a grove, and then stopped, she bowed her head to pick up leaves.

Xie Yichen closed his eyes, put his hands in front of his lower abdomen, and the hair tied up by Ning Jue was slightly blown and shook.

Ning Jue was just bored, after she pushed Xie Yichen out, she quickly forgot about him.

She lowered her head to pick up the leaves, trying to draw the conclusion that "there are actually two identical leaves in the world", but she knew it was futile, so she just picked the beautiful one and held it in her hand.The beautiful leaves constitute another invisible path, like a bait, guiding her away from Xie Yichen. She walked farther and farther, picked up the leaves, and held a lot, as if holding autumn. When she came to her senses, the leaves on the ground Only the dead leaves of the willows were left, and when he raised his head, an artificial lake appeared in front of him.

She dropped all the leaves in her hand and estimated how much time she had killed.

Bit by bit, like the gurgling water, there are actually two mandarin ducks raised in the lake, floating in pairs, passing by, people passing by all look at them, they accompany each other, and they don't mind, leaving undulating pig patterns behind them, gradually dissipated.

Ning Jue arrived early today because she stayed up all night.

In the evening, Wang Da said that the woman was fine and could take her home.

The man was not there, so she and the woman walked all the way back to the Harvest Building.

The woman asked her how much she spent, and she answered truthfully, but the woman did not intend to pay back the money. She turned on the gas stove in the corridor on the first floor and heated the dishes she brought back. floors.

But Ning Jue was still reading at night, and the sky hadn't completely darkened yet, so she couldn't completely see Ning Jue as short-sighted, when she suddenly heard the creaking sound of a tricycle.

She looked out of the glassless window and saw the blood of dusk.

Blood is the blood of the evening, and it is also the evening of man.

She saw the man with a dull complexion, bowed his waist, kicked the car back with difficulty, stopped at the door, and lay on the ground like a green onion.

Ning Jue's mood was not too turbulent. From the marks on the man's body, she concluded that the man went out to gamble again. The 600 yuan must be gone. Maybe he owed money again. He was beaten half to death and thrown out. He came back with the tricycle that he relied on for survival, and when he came back, he just fell to the ground and lay there like a dead dog, sure that Ning Jue would not ignore him.

Angry and resentful, she dragged him back and washed the wound with hot water. The man woke up faintly and saw Ning Jue holding the washbasin to vent his anger, throwing and beating, and hurriedly explained: "I was just passing by, they insisted on me playing, What I don't play, is not what I want to play."

"Heh." Ning Jue didn't bother to answer, men are used to lying about gambling, whoever believes who is a dog.

Besides, everyone is not someone, but an acquaintance?Is it a relative?If she dies, she dies, Ning Jue doesn't care, and no police will come to catch her... She just said that she fell asleep when it was dark, and pretended that he died by drinking on the side of the road, and pretended that he was the one who rushed to her own death by the side of the road. If you are going to be hit by a car, just think that you have met someone who robs you when you go out. You can do it for any reason. Isn't it so easy to die these days?Human life is as thin as paper, who cares about him?

This man is worthless, his mind is full of fantasies, what fantasies?Can you still be the big boss?He was anxious to get all the money back into his hands overnight and return to his hometown in good clothes.But I don’t want to think about the fact that I owed debts, cheated my wife and children in disgrace, ran away with my tail between my legs, didn’t know how the debt collectors would treat my wife and children, and still gambled in a different place, and now I almost died.

Ning Jue scrubbed his wound and left him to fend for himself. It was getting late and she wanted to leave.

Seeing that she ignored her, the man kept tugging at her, telling him that he didn't gamble on purpose, he just wanted to try his luck with one or two hundred yuan.In a hurry, he knelt down and slapped himself.

It was fine if he didn't kneel down, but when he knelt down, Ning Jue's face turned livid: "Why do you kneel to me? Who am I? I'm your wife? Are you promising? Go kneel down to your wife, go home and see you guys." My relatives and friends, what do they think of you? What do you kneel down for me? I have money to plug your hole? Why don’t you speak? Are you dumb? You’re in your 40s, you’re not afraid of death, I’m ashamed? Your knees are weak , don't break my life!"

The man's face was livid: "You don't believe me..."

"What's the use of me trusting you? The world is easy to change, and the nature is hard to change. I believe you once or twice, and I believe you hundreds of times? Who am I? If you keep messing around with me, I will wipe you with a knife!"

She hated the man who suddenly knelt down and swore to her... Who is he?She hates this kind of virtue in men.Even after such a long time, she is only sixteen, and the one in front of her is already 45!

Just like the male teacher when she was a child, he coaxed her to enter with chocolates, locked the door, and took off her pants impatiently, as if peeling an orange, impatient to taste the fruit.He thought that she was ignorant of the world and spoke obscenities, but she had seen the world. She knew about the relationship between men and women since she was a child, and she suddenly said: "Teacher, are you going to rape me?"

That man suddenly panicked, his face was livid, and he hurriedly stuffed chocolates into her pocket.Frightened by the weight of these words, she loses her face, loses her knowledge, removes her human face, leaving only a weak animal heart: "Are you talking nonsense again?"

She explained to him about the relationship between men and women, and she held the chocolate innocently and cruelly: "Oh, I know, you still have to take off your pants, and I also know that I am too young to be pregnant. I also know that you want to go out Said, you are my elder, I know, you still have to ask me, if you tell me, it will bring me a bad reputation."

At that time she didn't know what fame was, but she had heard it too much.

So the male teacher turned pale, lost his mind, bent his legs and knelt down for her: "Don't tell me, I like you..."

At that moment, those kneeling and being kneeled were no longer adults and children, not elders and juniors, but men and women, inexplicably pulled into an intimate dimension, and Ning Jue felt nauseous thinking about it.

At this moment, the man who gambled knelt down, and her nausea went straight up to her throat, and all the food and drinks at Xie's house turned into pus, turning her internal organs.She slams the door and walks away.

One night, she vomited and washed, fell asleep and woke up from a nightmare, simply lit a candle and read a book, and arrived at Xie's house early.

But she knew that she would still forgive men in the future. In this rotten building, in this harvest building, what is harvested is cruelty, and what is harvested is injury. Still a bunch.

She sat by the artificial lake for a long time until it was getting late.

She suddenly remembered Xie Yichen who had been thrown by her all day, maybe he hadn't even eaten.

Turning around and going back, Xie Yichen was not where he was, and when he returned home, Aunt Shu was making dinner.

Ning Jue suddenly felt sorry, which was a rare emotion. She looked all over her body, remembering that all the leaves she had picked up were thrown away.

Xie Yichen was still reading the book, but he had changed to another one.

Ning Jue said, "When did you come in? I was looking at the lake, and there are two ducks on it."

"That's a mandarin duck," Xie Yichen corrected softly, and put down the book, "It's getting cold, take a coat from my locker when you go back, and it may rain in the evening depending on the weather, so don't come early tomorrow."

Aunt Shu said something from the kitchen, Xie Yichen pricked up his ears and listened. He didn't translate from the side, but just looked at Ning Jue, and said softly, "Next time, don't leave me alone there."

Ning Jue is not a careless person, she has a meticulous mind and is sewn with all kinds of people.But today she really forgot about Xie Yichen, she couldn't justify it, and she couldn't say a word of apology, her soul was a villain, a vicious person, and even her shadow was covered with glass shards.